March 24, 2013, 10:34 a.m.
Finding Yourself: Chapter 10
E - Words: 1,375 - Last Updated: Mar 24, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 20/? - Created: Jun 20, 2012 - Updated: Apr 13, 2022 959 0 4 0 0
Chapter 10
Kurt was the first to wake up. He groaned pushing his face into the pillow beneath him, tightening his hold on the warm body beside him. His eyes flew open as he quickly realized who was beside him. He slowly lifted his head careful not to wake the curly haired body that he was spooning and checked to see whether Blaine was still asleep. He wasn’t sure about the whereabouts of their relationship but he was pretty sure if last night had been any indication, that Blaine maybe wanted to be more than friends. If they even were friends at all.
He glanced down at the clock on the nightstand beside Blaine sighing as he realized that he now had 30 minutes before school begun. He lightly put his head back down onto the pillow and studied Blaine’s crazy curls that had pulled free from the huge amounts of gel that he managed to work into his hair every morning.
Kurt began lightly rubbing his fingers along the back of Blaine’s neck and watched as he slowly began to wake up. Finally awake Blaine turned in Kurt’s tight hold so he was on his side, facing Kurt.
“Hey.” Kurt said softly as Blaine opened his eyes.
“Hi.” Blaine replied back smiling. “So about last night…”
“It’s fine don’t worry about it. You can tell me when your ready.” Kurt replied and the worry in Blaine’s eyes quickly faded.
“No I want to tell you.” Blaine shifted closer to Kurt so that he could feel his breath on his mouth. Kurt happily nodded, encouraging him to continue.
Blaine took a deep breath before starting, praying that his voice wouldn’t fail him. “Last night Santana came over. We were going to have sex. And at one point we were making out and things got out of hand, and I accidentally sort of tried to make her finger me.” Blaine blushed deeply and Kurt barely managed to hide his adoring smile. “So um then she started screaming at me and saying how disgusting I was. And we broke up, well she broke up with me and she left.”
“I’m so sorry Blaine.” Kurt replied as he placed his hand onto Blaine’s cheek and gently rubbed his thumb catching the few tears that were beginning to fall out of Blaine’s eyes.
“No no its okay, really.” Blaine quickly shook his head willing the tears to go away smiling back at Kurt.
“I just, well, I have a lot to deal with right now. And my emotions are all over the place. I’ve never lost my cool like that before! I’ve never questioned anything about myself until you. And I hate that you made me do that. You made me feel so last and because of that I had to re-evaluate everything Kurt. All my life I was set on who I was and who I was to become. I had this perfect image in my head.” Blaine smiled to himself thinking as to how far he was from that image. “But it all changed. I don’t know whether to trust myself with anything anymore. My whole life is upside down Kurt. And I know I have had a lot of time to think and through all my confusion I was able to see that the only thing that I am certain of right now is that I want to be with you. I know that I want you for as long as I can have you. I need you in my life Kurt and I….I think I might love you.” Blaine took a deep breath and shut his eyes as he finished his monologue. He was never good at emotional speeches. He just prayed as he opened his eyes that Kurt felt the same.
Kurt was at lost for words as he stared mouth gaping at the beautiful boy beside him. He couldn’t believe what he had just heard. He watched as Blaine opened his eyes to look at him.
Blaine was overcome with emotions of regret as he saw the expression plastered on Kurt’s face. “Shit Kurt, I’m sorry, I knew I shouldn’t have said anything. Fuck!” Blaine began rolling off the bed thoroughly embarrassed, but Kurt quickly grabbed him pulling him back.
“No, no stay! I was just surprised!” Kurt paused watching Blaine slowly relax. “In all honesty it was the most beautiful thing I’ve ever heard.” Kurt said quietly, his eyes watering. Blaine was filled with relief and sighed staring back at the amazing boy beside him.
“And I know we haven’t known each other for a long time, but I feel like we just match you know? Like we fit together…and I think that I might love you as well.”
That was all Blaine needed to hear before he pulled Kurt’s lips to his. Blaine couldn’t help but moan as Kurt’s soft lips came into contact with his. He opened his mouth letting Kurt’s tongue run along the inside of his cheeks and along his lips. The kiss was messy and sloppy but neither cared. They were finally together and both were happy as their lips moved against each other’s.
Blaine’s hand moved up to grab Kurt’s hair lightly tugging, remembering to do it more often as Kurt moaned and pushed deeper into the kiss. The kiss quickly became heated and soon the hands of each boys were roaming shamelessly over each others bodies grabbing wherever they could as in a contest to see who could make the other moan louder.
Kurt could feel himself and Blaine getting hard by the second and pulled away smiling as Blaine whimpered at the loss of Kurt’s warm mouth. They stared at each other both of them panting.
“As much as I really want to keep doing this, we have to get to school.” Kurt said giggling as Blaine’s face turned into a pout.
“Come on.” Kurt stood up from the bed holding his hands out to Blaine.
Blaine reluctantly sat up and took the extended hands and let himself be pulled off the bed. Kurt tugged him into a chaste kiss before turning and grabbing boxers and a shirt for Blaine to wear.
“Here, these should fit. Now go take a shower you stink.” Kurt handed Blaine the clothes and pushed him into the en-suite washroom, slapping his ass before grabbing his own clothes and heading into one of the many washrooms in his house.
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Both boys had agreed on taking separate cars, deciding that it be best to not raise any suspicion especially since Blaine was sure that Santana would be stalking his every move. He still wasn’t convinced that she completely believed that he hadn’t cheated on her. They parked their cars beside each other and stole a quick kiss, shielded by their cars before heading into the school.
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Changing for Gym had been so much harder then Blaine would have ever thought. He seriously thought Kurt was doing on purpose to strip his shirt off extra slow and bend over so Blaine would get a full eyeshot of ass to slip his pants off. He watched now as Kurt stretched his arms over his head to grab something in the locker.
His eyes roamed hungrily over his naked pale chest, every one of his muscles perfectly defined and he couldn’t wait to explore every plane of that chest with his lips. Kurt could feel Blaine’s eyes on him and turned barley managing to hold back a giggle at the fact that Blaine was gaping, his eyes wide open and he was still fully clothed. Kurt turned back and finished getting dressed making sure that the locker room was empty before walking beside Blaine, brushing his hand into his ass.
“You better start getting ready or your going to miss Gym. We’re doing gymnastics and I am extremely flexible.” Kurt watched as Blaine’s eyes grew even wider before heading out. Blaine hurriedly got dressed and ran into the Gym, after Kurt. He was definitely not going to miss seeing that.
Comments
Hey! Sorry I'm not review every single chapter, I don't get the chance to go online very often! First of all, LOVED the artwork! I think it really suits the story! And it's really pretty too! I have to say - WOW. This story is a chain of surprises! The wrotong os really good and I like the way where the story goes though I have to say I would have waited a little longer before the i-love-you's. make them suffer some more. But i'm just a reader here. About the Santana scene I wanted to ask something i don't completely understand. You mantioned that she's [part-time-]gay. So realising that Blaine had some inclinations made her really angry. why? he didn't even confess to being gay. some straight guys like fingering too, cause, you know, prostate and all that. and she felt disguisted though she herself had sex with a person of the same sex which should make him feel the same way about her. God, I'm not explaining this right, right? I just think she acts a bit selfish and it got me wondering if one of the reasons she showed so much disgust is to make sure Blaine knew she's against all things gay and therefore make sure he didn't suspect her being gay. Which she is. Anywayyyy, thank you for your updates!!! They make my day!! Oh! and another thing i wanted to ask you, related to the first chapters. Kurt kept getting boners around Brittany. Yet you say that he always knew that he was gay. I'm not a teenage boy, I don't know how boners work (thank GOD) so I got a little confused. Was he turned on by Brittany being so close to his crotch all the time or was it for some other reason? Cause later on you mention how he DIDN'T enjoy Brittany being all over him. Then where do the boners come from?... I thought of this question only recently cause at the time i thought he was/considered himself straight. Thank you and sorry for the HUUGE as ever review!
i love love love getting ur reviews!! there so friggin helpful thank yoU! :) as for the boner situation, the time Brittany gave Kurt a boner she had been like touching his crotch with her hand, i should have explained it better sorry. as for Santana, u'll hopefully see this eventually (if i don't forget to write it in) but blaine and santana have been in a sexual relationship for a long time and he had never done anything like that so Santana automatically linked it to him cheating/being gay. i can't spill to much but she doesn't really see herself as gay....yet ;)
Ahhh this keeps getting better each chapter!
ahhh thank you so so so much!