July 14, 2012, 11:35 a.m.
Cough Syrup: I always knew
M - Words: 1,230 - Last Updated: Jul 14, 2012 Story: Closed - Chapters: 11/? - Created: Mar 04, 2012 - Updated: Jul 14, 2012 859 0 3 0 0
Kurt held Blaine's hand and played with his fingers but let go as soon as they picked up Finn and Carole. Only because Finn was so Nosy and Kurt didn't want to risk what Blaine and he had; if they even had anything. He didn’t want to deal with questions, because it was crazy to have such a strong connection with someone you just met, and how would you explain it?
Dinner with the Hudson-Hummel clan was quite interesting Blaine figured. He really got to know the whole family, not very well but enough. He learned that Kurt's best friend Rachel was currently dating Finn and that Finn loved football which Blaine actually enjoyed as well. Blaine was told the story about how Kurt's dad met Finns mom, which was basically Kurt's fault for having a crush on Finn that everyone seemed to brush off. Carole was warm as Kurt had described her and Finn was ... Well he was Finn.
Blaine was having a great time and for the first time in a very long time he felt a part of something, he was laughing and smiling. He was happy.
***
When they got home Blaine when to his room and took out his guitar, he was inspired. Kurt inspired him. His amazing eyes that he wanted to get lost in . His smile that just seemed to never end . And the way he cared for Blaine, no one had ever cared enough for Blaine.
He pulled out his notebook and a pen and began to write down some lyrics
"Say, wasn't that a funny day?
Gee, you had a funny way
A way about you
A kind of glow of something new." he jotted down the lyrics finding a melody with his guitar that he thought would fit.
"Sure--I'll admit that I'm the same.
Another sucker for a game kids like to play,
And the rules they like to use.
Don't you want the way I feel?
Don't you want the way I feel?
Don't you want the way I feel for you...-"
"Hey, what are you playing” Blaine heard a voice behind him. Blaine put his guitar down and closed the note book quickly. When it came to writing Blaine was very weird about it.
"Are you alright?" Kurt chuckled
"Uh yeah, I'm fine”
"Play me what you were playing right now”
"It’s not finished yet"
"It doesn't matter”
Blaine hesitated but shook his head
“I’ll show you when I finish it “he avowed. Kurt nodded
“Okay " he agreed "promise?"
"yes" Blaine pledged
Kurt grinned and laid next to Blaine who was already with his head on the pillow. Kurt rested his head on Blaine’s chest and began to play with the fold of Blaine’s collar.
“Did you have fun tonight?” Kurt asked cuddling impossibly closer to Blaine.
Blaine nodded, responding to Kurt’s question. There was a long pause before Blaine spoke up.
“Kurt?” He began
“Yes Blaine?”
“How did you know you were gay?” Blaine asked timidly, playing with Kurt’s fingers.
Kurt sighed happily
“I always knew, When I was five all I wanted for my birthday were a pair sensible heels and watching Disney movies I always had major crush on the Princes. I guess I was just born knowing who I was…what about you?”
Blaine looked at Kurt with his big puppy like eyes and sighed.
“I don’t know, if I’m gay, or straight or anything. I’ve never really felt attraction for another guy or girl except for you “
“Well some people don’t label their sexuality”
“ I just always had the idea that people fall in love with the person and not a gender”
“Your right” Kurt whispered kissing Blaine softly. He reached up to cup Blaine’s cheek as Blaine eagerly returned the kiss, hungry for Kurt. They both broke away breathless.
“Okay. I think I’m definitely gay” Blaine gave Kurt a goofy smile which made Kurt giggle.
“You think? Hmm. Would you like for me to help you make sure?” Kurt flirted, batting his eyes.
Blaine smiled and kissed Kurt passionately. He slowly pulled away and looked at Kurt.
“I want to play something for you” He decided. He sat up and grabbed his guitar.
“I thought you weren’t finished with the song yet” Kurt said slightly confused.
“This one is a different song. I wrote it a while ago..”
Kurt smiled at the beautiful boy “Okay. Let’s hear it”
Blaine nodded as he began to play the lovely instrument and his melodic voice began to sing.
“I feel like a loser
I feel like I'm lost
I feel like I'm not so sure if I feel anything at all
But believe me, I'm not helpless I just
Need someone to love
So my situation's rough
But that just makes me a dumb human
Like you”
Kurt was fascinated by the younger boys voice and the powerful lyrics to his song. Blaine was simply amazing.
“I feel like a shortstop
Along third base
I may just help you but I still don't like your face
But believe me, I'm not hostile I just
Want to hear you laugh
When I'm sarcastic like that
But that just makes me a dumb human
Like you
Why
Do I have this incredible need to stand up
And say "Please, pay attention?"
It's the last thing that I need
To make myself seen
Well, that ain't my intention
No
I feel like an artist
Who's lost his touch
He likes himself in his art, but not his art too much
But believe me, I've got something
I just don't know how to say
That I'm just fine with the way
With the way that I'm moving
But that just makes me a dumb human
That just makes me
That makes me a human like
You”
Blaine finished the song laid his guitar down and gave
Kurt a small smile.
“Blaine. That song was absolutely amazing. I just wish you didn't feel that way. You are so special, especially to me. You aren’t a loser, far from it actually and you aren't lost. You just need help finding your way. But that’s why I’m here”
Kurt grabbed Blaine’s hands and looked into his eyes, Blaine nodded.
“Thank you Kurt”.
Blaine was very relieved to find that Kurt liked the song. No one really cared for his music but he knew Kurt did. He laid back down with Kurt. Blaine was now pretty sure that he was gay but he wasn’t sure what him and Kurt were, sure they made out and Kurt was nothing but amazing to Blaine but what did it make them? He just met Kurt this morning and he was already practically in bed with him by noon. Everything was happening so fast and it frightened Blaine a lot. What if Kurt was this affectionate with all the gay boys he knew? What if tomorrow he meets another guy and decided he didn’t want Blaine anymore? Blaine didn’t even know Kurt well enough. He was terrified.
“Kurt. I’m tired. I want to go to sleep” Blaine told the blue eyed boy in his arms.
“Then sleep silly” Kurt giggled
“Alone” Blaine whispered. Kurt furrowed his eyebrows, he was very confused. Was Blaine kicking him out? Kurt looked at Blaine who just turned away, letting go of Kurt.
Kurt felt hurt. He stood up, looked over at Blaine and sighed sadly, leaving the room.
Blaine swore that he wouldn’t let himself cry, he would not cry over some boy he just met. Kurt on the other hand couldn't help but let the tears fall as he laid in his cold lonely bed.
Comments
I'm so in love with this story! Can't wait for the next chapter! b29;
OhMyGosh! I love this! Can't wait for the next chapters! :D
Oh, tsss boys, you have to communicate! They go really fast, but who say they couldn't? It's interesting and different. I hope they clarify things soon!