March 28, 2013, 7:44 a.m.
Let Me Show You: Chapter 4
E - Words: 4,074 - Last Updated: Mar 28, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 5/? - Created: Nov 24, 2012 - Updated: Mar 28, 2013 248 0 2 0 0
Even though that previous days were filled with conversation and demonstrations, Kurt and Blaine didn't talk about those things that day. It just felt right. It was like all the doubts and tension had started the day they had 'the talk' and now everything was back to normal.
It was Wednesday and the Warblers' practice had just finished when Nick and Jeff basically dragged the two boys to their dorm by their legs, saying they had enjoyed themselves enough and now was their time.
"What do you mean you don't find Madame Watson hot?" Nick asked with the biggest incredulous face Kurt had ever seen. "I get that you're gay and all, but still."
It was about 7pm and the four of them were still hanging out in Jeff and Nick's dorm. Nick was sat by the desk next to Jeff, who was editing some videos he had made with that "annoying thing", as Wes had kindly named, and Kurt and Blaine were sat on the bed side by side; the gelled haired boy with his eyes on the screen of his phone as he played Tetris.
Kurt is giggled at Nick's question.
"I'm not saying she isn't pretty or anything like that. I just don't see what you see."
"Shit!" Blaine's sudden voice made the boys jump - except for Jeff, who apparently could have the world ending around him without shivering.
Blaine looked at the questioning looks directed to him.
"I died," he explained.
"Anyway," Nick said, pointing to Kurt. "I still want to hear that story."
"Had someone noticed how Sebastian undresses Blaine with his eyes?" Jeff spoke for the first time in a very long time and the others looked at him confusedly.
"That's not exactly the best way to show us the computer hasn't absorbed you yet," Nick joked. "But yes, of course we've noticed."
"Wait, what?" Blaine asked.
"I'm editing some videos I made," Jeff started. "And unfortunately the camera caught Sebastian practically eye-fucking you. Come and see by yourself."
Blaine looked confusedly at Kurt, who had a neutral expression and faced his hands. He didn't like where that conversation was going. Blaine got up the bed and walked to the desk, stopping in front of the computer and scanning the screen. He watched carefully the video Jeff had made of them in the lunch room and quickly spotted Sebastian. He was talking to a boy considerably far from where the others were, but his eyes were obviously glued on Blaine, even though he was at the other side of the room.
Blaine frowned at the view.
"This is-"
"Creepy," Jeff completed.
"Absolutely," Nick added.
"Guys, he's probably not even looking at me," he waved his hand.
"You mean he's obviously looking at you," Jeff insisted. Blaine rolled his eyes. "I don't understand why you're so stubborn about this. You should give him a chance."
Blaine had to laugh. That wasn't funny at all, but laugh was the only thing he could do.
"Give him a chance, Jeff? Really?"
"Yes, really," Jeff said. "You both are gay and you both are hot. You can't only be friends with him."
"Wait, I thought you had said the other day that he's an ass and you didn't want anybody to think that you're his friend," Blaine looked at him suspiciously. "So, you're suddenly his fan or what?"
"I'm far from being his fan, I can't stand the guy," Jeff said. "What I'm trying to show is that if you are not going to do what you really want to, at least you could try and hook up with him."
"What I rea-" Blaine stopped talking when finally understood what Jeff meant. He grinned. Blaine felt the heat in his cheeks. "Whatever. You know I don't care about him, Jeff."
"Yet," he winked at Blaine.
Blaine managed to finish their conversation and talk about something else. He and Kurt only stayed there about ten minutes after Blaine and Jeff's almost fight.
Only when they were gone, Nick confronted Jeff.
"So, why this sudden obsession about Blaine and Sebastian?"
Jeff, who was still focusing on the screen of his laptop, turned his head to look at his friend.
"Why not?"
"Seriously, Jeff," Nick said. "Why did you say all of that? You don't even like him."
Jeff took a deep breath. It couldn't be that hard for Nick to understand, and he was sure he knew something.
"Nick," he started, turning his chair to face Nick, who was sat on the bed. "Blaine has this huge crush on Kurt and-"
"You don't know that," Nick said. Blaine didn't want anybody to know about that, so he would do his best to help him keep it that way.
"Oh, please, I'm not stupid. Do you really think I don't know why Blaine kicked me out of our dorm when Kurt transferred?"
"You were already sleeping here practically every day!" Nick pointed out.
"Hey, I'm not complaining about this, you know I like it here," Jeff said. "I just want him to see that he's gonna end up losing Kurt if he doesn't do something."
"... Something?" Nick asked carefully.
"Yes, something, anything," Jeff said almost impatiently. "Kurt is an amazing guy and Blaine isn't the only gay guy of this school. He's really going to lose Kurt for someone else," Jeff repeated to emphasize what he meant. "He thinks I don't know about this, so just talk to him, okay? I don't want to see how it's going to end if he keeps everything that way."
Nick didn't respond that. Jeff was right.
Every Thursday night, Kurt and Blaine did something together. It didn't really matter what, but since Friday was the day they had to pack their bags to go home for the weekend, they had agreed to make Thursday nights their own thing - as if they didn't already spend every day together.
The boys were watching a movie on Blaine's laptop, sitting side by side on his bed. Kurt rested his head on the headboard of the bed while his eyes were fixed on the screen. He wasn't really paying attention. He couldn't, not when Blaine was that close to him, but at the same time, he did his best not to get too involved in how good Blaine's body felt close to his. It was already obvious he felt something for the boy and he couldn't risk falling in love with him. He remembered how it felt when he was in love with Finn and he really didn't want another dosage of that. Especially with Blaine and that amazing friendship they had.
Kurt wasn't completely lost in the movie. He didn't remember its name, but he did remember some character's names. On the scene they were watching, some random gay character had been kissed by a girl and Kurt couldn't help but chuckle at what that brought to his mind.
"What?" Blaine asked without looking at Kurt.
"Nothing. I've just seen that scene before," he responded.
Blaine arched one eyebrow. "But what's funny about it?"
Kurt chuckled again. "I've seen that scene, but I was the one starring it."
Blaine turned his head at that. There was no way he heard that right.
"What do you mean?"
Kurt looked at him as well, a shadow of a smile on his lips as he faced the surprised look on Blaine's face.
"I mean that my first kiss was with a girl," he said simply and almost laughed at Blaine's expression.
"But... why? I mean, I thought your first kiss was with-"
"Karofsky?" Kurt said and the smile was instantly gone. "No, it wasn't with him."
"I'm sorry, I know you don't like to talk about him, for obvious reasons," Blaine said sincerely.
"It's okay," Kurt offered him a smile and was returned with an apologetic one.
"But... why with a girl?" Blaine still had a confuse expression on his face.
Kurt giggled. "Well, I was trying to get close to my dad. I thought I was losing him to my stepbrother, who I was in love with back then, but that's not the point," he cleared his throat and Blaine chuckled. He already knew about that. "Anyway. Next thing I know, I was dressing up like my dad, eating burgers and making out with a cheerleader."
Blaine laughed at that. Like, really laughed at that, and Kurt could only watch him getting even more flushed and trying to catch a breath.
"Oh my God, Kurt," he hadn't stopped laughing yet. "You can't be serious!"
"I am," he said. "And it wasn't that bad, actually. I liked the taste of her lipstick." Blaine giggled. "But I still-" Kurt started, more to himself than for Blaine to hear, but he did anyway.
"You still what?" Blaine asked, catching a tear rolling down his cheek.
Kurt shrugged. "I asked her what boys' lips taste like, but her answer didn't really help. And then when I get the chance to know-"
"Stop," Blaine said, holding his hand in the air. "Let's not talk about him."
"I just-" Kurt said. "It's like I'm never going to find out. It frustrates me."
"Hey, you're seventeen! You have plenty of time to kiss someone," Blaine said, offering him a smile.
"But it's just like Sebastian said-"
"No," Blaine said almost annoyed. "I'm serious, Kurt. Forget about him, he's an asshole."
"But he's kind of right."
"He's never right. Especially about you."
The boys remained in silence. It was like there was nothing left to be said.
They stayed like that for almost a minute, until Kurt spoke again.
"Blaine?" He called shyly.
"Yes?"
"What do boys' lips taste like?"
Blaine raised his head. He was looking at the screen of the laptop until he heard Kurt's question. He looked at the boy, who had his eyes fixed on his hands. Blaine pause the movie and rested his head on the headboard of the bed, not taking his eyes off of Kurt.
"They don't have just one taste," he said in a low tone. It was like if he spoke louder, some kind of enchantment would break. Kurt raised his head at Blaine's answer and looked at him quizzically. Blaine was having trouble to keep his eyes away from Kurt's pink lips. "And it depends on who you're kissing."
Kurt frowned amusedly. "Why?"
Blaine finally managed to look at Kurt's eyes, and not only to his lips. He sat straight on the bed.
"If you had to choose, which kiss you'd say was better? Karofsky's or Brittany's?"
"Brittany's," Kurt replied without hesitation.
"And why is that?"
Kurt shrugged. "I don't know. She's my friend, I like her. And she didn't force me to do anything."
Blaine smiled. "I think you've got you answer."
Kurt still had a confuse look on his face.
"I got your point, but I don't really think it answers my question," he said. "But, you know what, forget it. I'm probably not explaining well what I mean."
"Or I could show you what I mean," he blurted out, receiving immediately a surprised look from Kurt. Blaine swallowed hard when he realized what had just said. "I-I mean- Don't get me wrong. I'm just saying I could show you, you know, my point."
Kurt still had a surprised look on his face. Not upset, or annoyed at the suggestion, just truly surprised. He never thought someone would suggest something like that, especially Blaine. And all he had to do was to say one simple word.
"Okay."
"I know it was stupid to-" Blaine stopped talking. "What?"
Kurt smiled shyly. "It's not gonna be a big deal, right? I mean, nothing's gonna change between us?"
"No, no, of course not," Blaine hurried to answer.
"Then, okay."
Blaine was looking at Kurt like he had three heads. Did Kurt just agree to kiss him?
He had to lick his lips because his mouth was suddenly dry.
"Okay?" he asked, just to confirm, and Kurt nodded, not really trusting his voice that moment.
Blaine was stuck for a moment. Yes, he knew he had to lean in and press his lips against that gorgeous ones in front of him, but it was like all of sudden he didn't know how to move. He was, however, mesmerized by the situation. He was going to kiss Kurt.
After a few seconds just staring at Kurt's pink lips, he gathered all the courage he had and leaned in, leaning his forehead against Kurt's. Kurt had already closed his eyes in anticipation, and Blaine observed the nervousness and almost excitement in his expression.
"You're sure about this, right?" Blaine almost whispered and watched how Kurt nodded, their stomachs doing funny things because of the closeness of their faces.
Their noses touched first, making Kurt smile shyly. Blaine closed his eyes and leaned his face forward until their lips finally touched. Kurt took a deep breath at the sensation and Blaine had to take his hand to the boy's face to see if that was true.
It was. They were kissing. Blaine was kissing Kurt.
Blaine stroked Kurt's cheek with his thump and slowly moved his lips, catching Kurt's lower lip between his own and sucking it. Kurt's lips were so soft against Blaine's that he almost forgot they were just friends and they probably had to stop that.
Blaine was about to pull away when he felt a hand cupping his face and grabbing it closer. Blaine hummed against Kurt's mouth and let himself get lost in the kiss. The weird things that kiss was doing to their bodies was something they had never experienced before, but it wasn't something bad. They felt like their hearts could jump out of their chests at any time.
Their lips were moving faster now. Blaine was sucking harder on Kurt's lip and his breath was starting to get uncontrollable. The urge to get even closer to the boy was all that moved him that moment, so he stopped sucking on the boys' lip and licked them, feeling that softness against the tip of his tongue. Kurt wasn't sure of what to do. He was sure he wanted to feel that touch against his own tongue, but neither of his kisses had been like that before. What if he did something wrong? Shyly, Kurt opened his lips and gave room to Blaine's tongue. Blaine explored Kurt's mouth timidly, tasting carefully the cinnamon and sweet. He had to enjoy every second because that was the only time he'd ever get this chance.
Kurt followed Blaine's tongue with his own and had to restrain a moan when they touched. Blaine tasted like Heaven. Their tongues were stroking each other slowly, enjoying the effect it reflected on their bodies. Blaine's hand slipped down Kurt's body until it was resting on his waist, squeezing it a little and kissing him a little harder. In a few seconds, hands were everywhere, Kurt was panting against Blaine's mouth and his hand was pulling his hair on the back of his neck. Blaine was already almost on top of Kurt when they had to pull away for air.
Both boys were breathless; it was obvious they had got carried away. Their foreheads were leaned against each other and they got their eyes closed as tried to catch their breaths. Blaine opened his eyes first, facing Kurt's pink lips redder than the normal and the blush creeping over his nose. He licked his lips unconsciously.
"Open your eyes," Blaine said in a low tone. Kurt opened his eyes slowly and faced Blaine's lips first. He smiled and looked at his eyes, what made the blush increase. "Hi."
"Hi," Kurt replied not really sure of what to say.
They remained in silence for a few seconds until Blaine cleared his throat and pulled away, looking at the boy in front of him.
"So..." Blaine started. "Was it... you know, good?"
Kurt giggled, licking his lips before answering. "Yeah. It was."
Blaine smiled as he looked at the boy.
"And what do my lips taste like?"
Kurt looked at Blaine's lips for a second. God, he wanted to kiss him again so badly.
"Really good," he said breathlessly.
Blaine smiled. Apparently, he wasn't able to stop smiling.
"What do mine taste like?" Kurt asked.
Blaine looked up at Kurt's eyes, only then noticing he was looking intensely at his lips.
"Cinnamon," he said. "And something sweet," he added as the blush spread in Kurt's cheeks. "I like that taste."
Kurt was pretty sure the speed his heart was beating wasn't healthy.
"Do you, um... wanna go back to the movie?" Kurt asked, not ignoring Blaine's comment on purpose. He just didn't know how to respond properly.
"No. It's boring," Blaine said and Kurt giggled. "Wanna sleep?"
Kurt thought for a while, but nodded. "Yeah."
They got everything ready to sleep. Blaine turned his computer off while Kurt went to his bed. When they were already laid on their own beds, Kurt called:
"Blaine?"
"Hm?" he answered.
"Did I wake you up?" he asked carefully.
"No," Blaine said, turning to look at him at the other side of the room. "What's going on?"
Kurt sighed. He knew it was fool of him to ask, but he couldn't help to be a little apprehensive about this.
"Is everything okay between us, right? The last thing I want is for things to get awkward," he said in one breath.
Blaine closed his eyes before answering - thankfully it was dark and Kurt wouldn't be able to see it.
Of course he wanted to have something more with Kurt, but he knew that wouldn't happen. They had their moment and that was it; he was just trying to be a good friend for Kurt, but he couldn't deny that one of the facts that motivated him to do it was that he would kiss him. He just couldn't lose that opportunity, even though now that he was re-thinking it, it was a terrible idea. He shouldn't have kissed the boy he had a crush on knowing that they wouldn't be something more.
"Of course," Blaine said, doing everything he could to make his voice sound normal. "Everything's fine."
Blaine managed to act normal the next day. He and Kurt didn't talk about the kiss, but there wasn't any tension either. They woke up, exchanged good mornings and went to class. Everything was fine.
When the bell for lunch break rang, Blaine went to grab a coffee for Kurt and himself. After a few minutes, he went straight to the lockers hall just to see Kurt by his own.
"Hey, you," he said, approaching Kurt.
The boy looked to his side and saw Blaine with his usual smile.
"Hey. I thought you would be with Nick," he said, accepting the coffee with a smile and trying to control his heartbeat.
"Oh, he's with Jeff and his camera, so," he explained. Kurt frowned and pursed his lips, holding a laugh. "What?" Blaine asked amused.
"Nothing, it's-" Kurt chuckled. "It just sounded a little inappropriate."
Blaine looked at him with wide eyes. "You're impossible!"
Kurt giggled. "You started!" he said as he closed his locker and followed the boy to the lunch room.
"I started nothing!" Blaine replied.
When they entered the lunch room, they soon walked to their usual table, lost in the conversation. They only noticed they had company when reached their destination.
"Hey, Blaine," Sebastian said, receiving a bored look from Kurt and a fake smile from Blaine. "I was just telling them the Warblers' practice will be a little earlier today. Don't know why, just giving the message."
Blaine sighed clearly annoyed by the boy's presence. "Okay, you gave your message, so-"
Kurt touched his arm and Blaine turned to him. "It's okay," Kurt said gently and the boy immediately relaxed under his touch.
Jeff and Nick were watching the boys closely. They could swear they saw something different in Kurt's eyes.
"Well, I'm going to see what the boys are up to," Sebastian said and got up the chair. "See you around, Blaine," he said with an obvious flirty smile.
When Sebastian was far enough, Blaine sighed and sat on the chair the boy was sitting on before. Kurt sat next to him, leaning his bag on his lap.
"So what's the plan for the weekend?" Jeff asked.
"Home," the three boys said at the same time.
Jeff looked at the boys incredulously. "We should totally throw a party," the blonde said.
Nick rolled his eyes. "You and your brilliant ideas."
"Why? I just suggested a party!"
"How do you expect us to throw a party without even asking Principal Walker at least a week earlier?" Nick asked.
Blaine and Kurt were completely out of the conversation. They were just watching the two boys talk-almost-argue.
"I didn't say it would be this weekend," he said in an obvious tone.
"So," Blaine interrupted them. Apparently, that was the only way they were going to shut up. The boys turned to him. "If you're really going to talk to Principal Walker about the party, you should do this soon," Blaine suggested casually. Actually, what he really wanted was a little time alone with Kurt. Weekend was coming and he hated they were going to spend two days apart.
"He's right," Nick said.
"Yeah, I'm going, then," Jeff said and got up the chair.
"Wait, I'm going with you," Nick said, getting up as well.
"Why? It was my idea."
"But I supported you."
"No, you didn't!"
As they walked away, they argued even more. It was extremely fun to watch, Kurt thought.
"If they were gay, I'd say they were totally hooking up," Blaine said as Kurt giggled.
"What about Sebastian, by the way?" Kurt asked as took a sip of his coffee.
"What about him?"
Kurt shifted uncomfortably in the chair. "About what Jeff said the other day. You want-"
"I want nothing to do with him," Blaine responded, looking directly into Kurt's eyes. That moment, the chestnut boy was almost sure he saw something shining in his friend's eyes, but he didn't look for too long to be completely sure.
The weekend had officially begun. Kurt was driving to Lima to spend the two days with his family. It was Friday night and even though his dad didn't like him driving at that time, he wasn't going to wait. All his friends had already driven home; he wasn't going to wait alone until morning.
On his way home, he had time to think everything straight. Most of all, he thought about Blaine and the kiss they had shared. He didn't have any experience in that area, but he could surely say that was the best kiss of his life. The way Blaine held him so protectively was something he was sure he wouldn't be able to stop thinking about any time soon. However, he had asked (and almost prayed) his friend if there would be any awkward between them and he was happy the answer was no. Thankfully, things were truly okay between them, and he was really grateful nobody had noticed the way he felt; that thrilled sensation, like millions of fireworks were exploding inside of him.
At least he thought nobody had noticed.
Comments
This was really good. I loved how Blaine and Kurt were able to discuss things and that they both felt comfortable with kissing each other. It was fun to see them lose control a little bit and to act on how they felt for each other. I like Nick and Jeff in this chapter and can't wait to see how long it takes for them to finally have enough of oblivious Blaine and Kurt. Looking forward to reading chapter 5.
I am really loving this story thus far!!