Wednesday Lunchtime

“Hey you,” Kurt called coming up behind Blaine at his locker. “Wanna go off campus for lunch with Mercedes?”

“I can’t, the underclassmen are meeting during lunch today to practice.” Blaine tilted his head back and frowned.

Kurt rewarded him with one of his world famous pouts.

“Hey, don’t look at me like that!” Blaine protested. “You were the one who had to be at school early this morning with the seniors so we couldn’t ride together.”

“Oh yeah, cause starting my day with Finn is way better than with my boyfriend.” Kurt said rolling his eyes. Blaine shut his locker and the two started walking down the hall.

“You rode to school with Finn?”

“Yeah, I was cold, his car was warm, mine wasn’t.” Kurt shrugged as they reached the choir room “Plus I feel like an ass to the planet when all three of us drive separately. I feel like somebody should carpool with somebody.”

Blaine laughed softly as he reached up to straiten Kurt’s already perfect bowtie.

“I tell you what,” he said as Kurt lowered his head back down and Blaine ran his hands gently down Kurt’s arms. “After Glee today, I’ll take you home and we can figure out something fun and interesting to do in my car.” Blaine grinned as Kurt leaned into him and said,

“Empty house babe…we can think of fun and interesting things to do in my bedroom.” Kurt pushed Blaine gently into the doorway and out of sight from the juniors that had begun filtering into the Choir room.

Blaine moaned as he dropped his head on Kurt’s shoulder and whispered,

“What are you doing to me?” Kurt laughed softly laying his hands gently on the other boy’s hips as Blaine continued, “Do you know how much I want to kiss you right now?”

“I think I may have an idea.” Kurt murmured as Sam and Sugar came up behind them.

“AWW KLAINE!” Sugar yelled causing both boys to jump. Kurt whipped around with one of his patented bitch glares. Sugar, oblivious, fluttered into the Choir room without a second glance.

“No way Kurt, out!” Sam called and motioned for Blaine to shut the door.

“I’m going, jeez Sam, keep your pants on.” Kurt rolled his eyes as he turned back to his grinning boyfriend.

“Hey, I could say the same to you two!” Sam called flashing them two thumbs up and a wink.

Kurt closed his eyes and sighed trying to retract his claws. Blaine was cracking up when he opened his eyes again and, hearing that laugh put Kurt in a better mood than anything else could have.

“I’ll see you in Glee.” Kurt said smiling and squeezed Blaine’s hand.

“Have fun with Mercedes.” Blaine called.

As he started to close the door, Blaine mouthed “love you”.

Kurt smiled, waved and mouthed “love you” as the door clicked shut.

xxxx

“Do not break.” Blaine said to himself as the seniors danced in a circle around him and his classmates. Kurt had done is best to make him laugh by taking his hands and twirling himself into Blaine’s lap…then miming a fishing reel while the two of them danced like idiots.

But now, Tina and Brittney were already bawling their eyes out next to him and as the seniors took their seats and Kurt sat where Blaine had been sitting, it was a little much. Along with everything else he was going to miss, Kurt in the choir room was one more thing he would have to do without.

“Stop it,” Blaine scolded himself. “Kurt said we were going to be okay…he said he would never say goodbye to me.”

He was losing this battle; the tears were coming and threatening to spill over. Blaine hastily swiped the back of his hand over his eye, but not quickly enough…Kurt saw and stood up as the underclassmen went to take their seats.

“Hey.” Kurt said softly as he put one arm around his boyfriend and began rubbing soft circles into his upper back.

“I’m okay,” Blaine choked out and gestured to the room, “just all this ya know? Kind of emotional.” Kurt nodded as Blaine gave him a watery smile.

Kurt searched Blaine’s eyes for a moment as the two sat down. Finally, Kurt seemed to accept Blaine’s excuse and laid his lips on Blaine’s shoulder.

Mr. Shue seemed to be talking about something, but all either boy was concerned with, was getting out of that room. They stared in Mr. Shuester’s general direction, Kurt still rubbing soft circles into Blaine’s back and Blaine holding onto Kurt’s other hand over their laps.

It seemed to take an eternity.

xxxxx 

“We really need to get up.” Blaine murmured against Kurt’s belly where he was laying.

Both boys were completely spent from the make-out session that had quickly turned into much more in the empty house.

“The last time we were lying naked in your bed, your dad almost walked in on us.” Blaine finished rolling his head to grin mischievously up at Kurt.

“My dad, Finn and half the guys from Glee…” Kurt said rolling his eyes and continuing to run his hands through Blaine’s hair, pulling all the gel free. “I will never understand their need to tell me things the moment it enters their heads.”

Kurt paused and pulled gently on Blaine’s shoulders bringing the boy’s lips to his in several sweet and comfortable kisses, one right after the other until both Kurt and Blaine were giggling softly at each other.

“Don’t worry,” Kurt began as Blaine laid his head back on Kurt’s shoulder, “we have some time. Dad and Finn are at the shop and Carole switched shifts at the hospital so she could be off for the graduation ceremony…we are good for a little longer.” Kurt said sighing as Blaine ran his fingertips up and down Kurt’s torso.

Neither spoke for a few minutes, enjoying the comfortable quiet between them. This was one of Kurt’s favorite things about his relationship with Blaine. They didn’t need to constantly fill silences with conversation or actions…the two of them were completely content to lay with one another quietly, simply enjoying the sound of the other one breathing.

“Why do you think men have nipples?” Blaine asked suddenly and Kurt waited a beat before bursting into laughter.

“I have no idea.” Kurt gave his boyfriend an extra squeeze before continuing, “You ask the weirdest questions post-coitus…I think maybe your brain goes a little soft.”

“It’s called a mind-blowing orgasm for a reason, Kurt.” Blaine answered simply and Kurt blushed slightly.

“Well thank you.” Kurt shrugged his shoulders trying to act nonchalant.

Blaine sat up and threw his leg over Kurt’s lap to straddle him.

“No baby, thank you.” He said sinking his lips into Kurt’s neck, gently kissing and sucking on the tender flesh there.

“Oh no, no no no no… we don’t have time for round…two? Is it round two or round three?” Kurt paused leaning his head back to give Blaine a better angle, “Either way, we do not have time.” Kurt was rambling and he knew it. 

“Mmmm” Blaine mumbled “Round two for me, but I’m pretty sure it would be considered round three for you mister ‘I can come twice, one right after the other’.” Blaine trailed his mouth down Kurt’s collarbone and across his chest to pay attention to the other side of Kurt’s neck.

“It’s not right after…” Kurt began desperately trying to gain some composure, but Blaine knew exactly where Kurt’s weak spot was…and he was right there. They most definitely did not have time for whatever round they were on.

“Whenever it is, it’s amazing and supersexyhot.” Blaine mumbled into Kurt’s neck nipping him gently and smiling as he felt Kurt melting underneath him. “I am still in complete awe that you can do that.”

“I can’t help I am the supersexyhot talented one in the relationship.” Kurt joked as Blaine moved so his lips were directly in front of Kurt’s and whispered against them,

“Was there ever any doubt about that?” before covering Kurt’s mouth with his own.

Kurt slipped his arms under Blaine’s to fan his fingers across his back, effectively holding Blaine in place as their tongues explored each other’s mouths.

“I thought you said we didn’t have time?” Blaine whispered as the two broke apart and Kurt began kissing every inch of Blaine’s face.

“We don’t,” Kurt said laughing as he pushed Blaine off of him. “Come on, let’s go do something. I promise, make-out time in my backseat later will be included.

“Mr. Hummel, you do know how to charm a guy.” Blaine laughed and stretched as Kurt sat at the edge of his bed pulling on his boxer briefs. He gave his boyfriend a devilish smile and threw the other pair of boxers over to Blaine who still hadn’t gotten out from underneath the blanket.

“Come on, up!” Kurt picked up random clothes from the floor, putting his on and laying Blaine’s on the bed. “I’m starving to death over here!”

Blaine chuckled slightly at his boyfriend’s flair for the drama as he reluctantly stood up and began getting dressed. After opening the door and checking that the coast was still clear, he headed across the hall for bathroom necessities.

“Kurt! Why did you have to pull all the gel out of my hair?!” Blaine called indignantly from the bathroom.

Kurt smiled but didn’t answer as he heard the water running and Blaine murmuring to himself as he tried to do something with the product Kurt had.

When Blaine came out of the bathroom, Kurt was fully dressed and had begun making the bed.

“Hey, help me with this would ya.” Kurt asked good-naturedly and Blaine smiled as he helped tuck the sheets and straighten the comforter. As they were both placing the pillows back at the head of the bed Kurt asked,

“So, what do you wanna do?”

“Anything where I get to stare at you all night.” Blaine shrugged and Kurt laughed.

 “Yeah cause that won’t get old, for both of us.” Kurt joked as he folded his brown fuzzy blanket and laid it at the end of the bed.

When he turned around, Blaine was staring at the wall, his hands knotted together, with that same distracted look from yesterday morning.

“Hey,” Blaine started at Kurt’s call and looked over at him. “Where did you go?” Kurt asked laughing softly.

“Oh…nowhere I just…” he coughed slightly before pointing at the picture frame on the bookcase and smiled.

“I think you need a new picture of us Kurt.”

Kurt looked over to where Blaine was pointing and smiled.

“I like that one.”

“But that was at like, the very beginning. We have so many more since then, better ones, and ones where you can see both of us.” Blaine sat on the end of Kurt’s bed, crossed his legs and rested his chin in his hand.

Kurt shrugged them smiled again slightly as if he was thinking of something.

“Well first,” Kurt began as he walked over and pushed Blaine’s legs apart so he could stand between them, “It’s my picture, I don’t need to be able to see me.”

Blaine chuckled softly as he began running is hands up and down the back of Kurt’s thighs pulling him a little closer. Kurt ooo’ed and laid his hands on Blaine’s shoulders.

“And second,” Kurt turned his head to look at the picture. “That should have been the worst night of my life…and even though it was beyond humiliating,” Kurt turned to look back down at Blaine. “It was also the night that I knew, I was falling in love with you.”

“Kurt.”

Blaine’s voice cracked on the last syllable and leaned his head into Kurt’s stomach.

“After a lifetime of feeling alone, of feeling like was on the outside looking in, of always feeling different…there was finally somebody next to me, who understood, not just sympathized, but actually knew and understood exactly what I was dealing with.”

Blaine’s eyes were filling up again, and the knot that had formed in his throat was threatening to choke him.

“I wanted to tell you then that I loved you.” Blaine managed to eek out resting his chin in the dip of Kurt’s bellybutton. “But I didn’t want you to think it was because of the emotions of the night. I wanted it to be organic and real...”

“And it was.” Kurt finished for him looking down and smiling.

Blaine smiled up at him, than stood and walked away, covering his mouth with his hand and biting his lip to keep from breaking into tears.

“Blaine,” Kurt began starting to get really worried. “What’s wrong? You have been upset since yesterday.”

Kurt walked over to where Blaine was standing and tentatively started rubbing his back as he continued,

“We promised to talk about it remember? Not just let things go, but really talk when we were upset.”

“Kurt I…I.” Blaine held his hand to his mouth again and turned around to face his boyfriend. Kurt’s eyes were filling with tears and Blaine lost it, his knees shaking as he tried to take a deep breath, failed miserably, and started talking.  

“I know you said we would be okay…and my heart…” Blaine let a sob escape from his chest as his knees gave out and he sunk to the floor. “My heart wants to believe you…”

Kurt had dropped to floor next to him, carefully cupping his hand around Blaine’s neck.

 “But my brain is nagging and thinking and…” Blaine stopped and brought his head up to finally look Kurt in the eyes. “It’s a year Kurt, it’s a whole year of distance and…new…” Blaine was breaking into sobs again, but he forced himself to keep it together. He had to get this out.

All these feelings had been brewing inside Blaine for a while now. They had touched on it during the whole “Chandler” fiasco, but now…it needed to come out, all of it. Blaine had to let go of everything he had been dwelling on for almost three months now.

Blaine took a deep but staggering breath and leaned his head against the hand that Kurt still had on his neck.

“You are amazing Kurt.” He started, looking into those beautiful blue eyes he had fallen in love with. “You blow me away every time you open your mouth to sing, or move your amazingly talented legs to dance. When I see you perform, I am so proud of you and so proud to be with you.” Kurt opened his mouth like he wanted to say something, but Blaine kept going.

“And you are going to New York, a place where being different, being special is not only accepted, but rewarded and celebrated…and you will finally have the opportunity to shine, something that you so, so deserve. I couldn’t be happier for you.”

Kurt smiled, but stayed quiet. He knew there was more and he wanted to hear it. Blaine’s eyes welled up as he knotted his hands together and kept talking.

“You are going to meet so many new people. New and interesting people who aren’t narrow minded or ignorant. People like…people like us.” Blaine finally choked out and Kurt began to realize what he was trying to say.

“Hey,” Kurt began his voice already thick with tears as Blaine kept talking.

“And, it’s a year Kurt, a whole year.” His tears were really coming now and Blaine didn’t even bother trying to keep wiping them away. “A year of not seeing you, not kissing you…a year of missed phone calls and bad connection Skype dates…months we have to go without being able to really make up after a stupid argument, a year of not being able to hold each other when we are upset, or angry…or scared. An entire year…”

He couldn’t talk anymore, the sobs were wracking his entire body and Kurt pulled him to his chest. He held on to his sobbing boyfriend with every bit of strength he had, his own tears slipping off his face landing in Blaine’s hair as he rocked him back and forth not even shushing him, just letting him sob until he couldn’t anymore.

After a few minutes Blaine began to quiet, still holding on to Kurt as tears rolled down his face. Kurt sniffed and pulled Blaine up to look in his eyes.

“Okay” he began but had to stop when he looked into Blaine’s red eyes. Kurt swallowed the lump that was forming in his throat as he began again,

“Okay, so I will probably leave sometime in August right?” Kurt said cupping both sides of Blaine’s face as he used his thumbs to wipe tears from his cheeks. Blaine nodded and closed his eyes at Kurt’s touch.

“Right, do you really think my dad is going to let Finn and I get away with not coming home for Thanksgiving?” Kurt asked and Blaine let a watery chuckle escape before he shook his head and said “No.”

“Okay,” Kurt said smiling and moving his hands to gently run his fingers through Blaine’s gelled hair, before returning them to his cheeks and continuing. “We just have to get to November, we can do that…it’s just a few months right?”

Blaine nodded again as Kurt continued, “And then, barely a month later is Christmas, and Mr. Shue’s wedding…there is no way in hell I would miss that right?”

Blaine moved his hands to cover Kurt’s and nodded again.

“So a whole week just you and me. Christmas, New Years…some stupid New Directions party where we both drink too much and sing and dance like idiots.” Blaine chuckled again and moved his head to kiss Kurt’s palm before bringing their hands tangled together and resting next to his heart.

Kurt took a breath before he started again,

“The time until Spring Break will be the longest, so you’ll come visit me.” He said smiling. “We’ll tell your parents it’s for a college weekend, and maybe between screwing like rabbits…we can go look at a few schools.”

Kurt shrugged and Blaine actually laughed, his smile reaching his eyes as he kissed Kurt’s knuckles.

“Spring Break will be you and me again…here or in New York, it really doesn’t matter to me. Maybe we could go to DC together and spend some time watching my dad change the world, one state at a time.” Kurt said smiling as he leaned in to gently lay his lips on Blaine’s.

“And I don’t care if I have to save all freaking year long, I will fly out, wherever you are, to watch you take that National Trophy another year.”

Blaine started to tear up again, but this time he was smiling through those tears. He leaned in and rested his forehead against Kurt’s, closing his eyes as Kurt whispered,

“And before you know it, I will be home to watch you walk across that stage to get your diploma so you can come and join me…shining just as bright as I do, daring people to try and keep us from making all of our dreams come true.” 

Blaine let out a tiny whimper as he pulled Kurt into him, wrapping his arms around him. Kurt settled his face into Blaine’s neck and exhaled feeling his boyfriend’s fingers digging into his back, holding on for dear life.

The two sat there for a few moments, just holding each other before Kurt broke the quiet.

“I’m not trying to say it’s gonna be easy.” He said pulling out of the hug but keeping his arms around Blaine’s neck. “I’m not saying I won’t miss you every single day, and at some point one or both of us will probably think it would be easier to just give in and give up…”

Kurt’s voice broke as he struggled to keep talking. Blaine brought his hands up to stroke the strong arms that were still holding onto his neck.

“But I waited sixteen years to find you, and another three months for you to get your head out of your ass and realize that you loved me too.” Blaine laughed as he threw is head back and Kurt gently kissed his Adams apple.

“I’m never going to live that down, am I?” he asked bringing his head back down. Kurt smiled and shook his head, but kept going.

“I promised we would be okay, I promised I would never say goodbye to you, and I promised we would figure out this whole long distance thing…I would never promise any of those things if I didn’t know that I could keep my word.”

Blaine nodded and smiled never letting is eyes leave Kurt’s.

“I have no idea what the future holds for us…or where life is going to take you or me…or you and me together.” Kurt paused, choking back tears, “But I do know, that there is no one else in this world that I would rather figure it out with.”

Kurt paused as he let Blaine register everything he had just heard. 

“I love you, I love you so much.” Blaine breathed as he pulled Kurt back into a rib splitting hug.

Kurt settled into him, breathing in his scent and running his hands up and down Blaine’s back.

“I love you too Blaine,” Kurt whispered into his neck “I love you too.”