Chapter 7: the picture changed.

The next morning was the best I had at the arena so far, I woke up to see Kurt wasnt lying next to me as I expected but next to the fire, humming to himself a song I didn't recognized. I stretched, still lying on the ground, thinking a few more minutes of sleep wont be so bad…I yawned and Kurt noticed Im awake, he smiled.

"Good morning, sleeping beauty." he said and I smiled, not opening my eyes, looking for something to snuggle with. Kurt laughed." come on, get up." he said.

"Why? We have nothing important to do…"I said and rolled over.

"This is where you got it wrong, darling." he said and I raised my eyebrows, eyes still closed.

"Just give me a minute…"I said and then I noticed something is different." Whats that smell?"

"we got a parachute with breakfast," he said and I sat up, seeing the parachute next to kurt. it was tied to an open picnic basket, I could see it had plates and a bottle of what seemed like orange juice and more stuff I couldn't see." we have to cook it but still," he said and then I saw what he was doing, he held a pan with eggs in it.

"You cooked us breakfast?" I asked sparingly.

"Yeah, why are you so surprised?" he asked, flipping the eggs over.

"Didn't know you can cook thats all," I said, making my way to the water to wash my face. Kurt chuckled but didn't say a thing. by the time I got back, Kurt already fixed everything. We didn't have anything to sit an eat on but still Kurt put the plates in some order, there were forks next to them and even a small vase with 3 flowers in it. The fire was gone and everything was perfect.

"Kurt…"I said and he smiled at me from where he was sitting on the ground next to the imaginary table.

"Do you like it?" he asked, his smile becoming a worried one. Leave it for Kurt to find ways to being romantic in a Glee game.

"Of course, its beautiful…"I sat down in front of him. I took my glass and raised it up in the air. "Cheers?" I offered and Kurt chuckled before raising his own glass as well.

"Cheers." he agreed. we ate, talking about things that for once, had nothing to do with the games, Kurt told me how it's like to live in district 2, I reminded him that he always wanted us to move there one day, I told him how much home changed since he was gone (I wanted to tell him about his dad but I figured it wasn't the right time.)And everything reminded me a lot of a…date.

"So what is the thing we have to do today?" I asked, taking another bite from my delicious omelet.

"Killing Puck," he said simply but I almost choked.

"What?" I asked and Kurt hummed, again, like it was the simplest thing in the world.

"don't be hysterical, Puck always go to the camp at the end of the day and he wake up in about 9 so I would say we have at least 3 hours before he gets here,"

"And how is that helping?" I asked, feeling like a complete idiot for not realizing what was supposed to be right in front of me.

"because we can get ready for them." he said and I nodded." we also know he will bring Sebastian along." he said.

"And how the hell are we supposed to kill them? I have no chance against any of them and you cant take them both by yourself." I said and Kurt nodded, thinking for a moment before answering.

"You can hide and shot Sebastian when he gets to you, like hunting an animal. Leave Puckerman to me." he said the look in his eyes change to a hateful one for a second before it comes back to normal.

"I can hide on one of the trees; I will shoot him when he gets close enough. He wont be able to hurt me because he cant climb and you and I are the only ones who have bows so…"I then released I was saying out loud what I thought I was saying in my mind, Kurt seemed like he was in a complete shock." I should have shut up, right?" I said, rubbing the back of my neck when Kurt spoke.

"no, no. its actually a good point…I…I didn't think about it," he admitted, and then his face expression changed once more." I didn't know you could climb on the trees, it looks nearly impossible…"he said and I smiled shyly. "Then we are good," he said and then added." do you have another weapon perhaps? I don't think I cant fight with Puck with a bow and I don't want to fight barehanded." I immediately nodded, remembering I had more things in my bag besides the binocular.

"I have a knife if it helps," I said, Kurt smiled and nodded.

"Yes, that will do." He said, taking another sip from his juice." now, lets finish up. We have people to kill."

It didn't take us very long to get ready and figure out how we want to do the thing we had to do. We lighted up the fire again, just to tell them where to go, we didn't have much things to hide except my bag and the other bow, I put it in the small cave that was behind the waterfall where no one can see it, only taking my bow and binocular up to one of the trees with me. Puck will let Sebastian lead the way, as he always does, Kurt is going to wait not very far away and when Sebastian is far enough he will take down Puck. Until Sebastian realizes he is alone he will already be here where I kill him. Then, we meet back here for damage control later.

I looked over at Kurt from where I was standing next to tree I was about to climb on. He was all cocky-smiling and happy, obviously excided for what he was about to do. I didn't really knew why they hated each other so much, maybe I should ask him after all of this ends…

"Well, Im going to my station to wait for Puck, we will meet here in about an hour or so, sing so I know you are okay." he said coldly and turned to walk away. I hates when he does that, wasn't he scared at all?

"Wait," I said and he turned around. I quickly walked to him and made him give me a goodbye hug." be careful," I ordered and he chuckled as he hugged me back.

"Don't worry, I will be fine." he said.

"Don't be so sure of yourself, you cannot know what if going to happen,"

"Blaine…"he sighed.

"I know you are a great fighter but so does Puck, and you are going up against him with only a knife that is supposed to cut of animal skin not kill people, I cant stop myself from worrying."

"I know, but you will just have to trust me," he said and tried to pull away before I pulled him even closer to me and he laughed." honey, you have to let go," he said and I shook my head.

"Not yet, just in case that-"I started to say but he pulled away making me to shut up and our eyes met. He didn't need to speak to tell me what he was thinking." I know, I don't need to be negative but…"I lowered my head." What if I lose you? What would I do then?" I asked honestly, feeling tears standing in my eyes.

"hey…"he whispered, his hand on my cheek so I looked him in the eyes again, my hands clinging into him, not knowing what Im gonna do with myself.

"Im sorry," I said.

"Dont, its okay, I feel the same way, I…am scared. But we have to believe in ourselves, well be done with this in no time and then we can sit together and cuddle like we did last night and talk like we did this morning, and we have some stuff left from breakfast so maybe I can do something to make the squirrels taste good for a change." we both laughed.

"that will be awesome," I had to admit." now, you can go." I said and pulled away a little, Kurt raised an eyebrow. "What?" I asked, confused.

"Aren't you forgetting something?" he asked and I still was confused.

"s-should I?"I was starting to get scared that I just ruined something without even noticing and Kurt laughed.

"You are too uptight," Kurt said." I was talking about a good luck kiss," he said and I sighed in relief before pressing our lips together." Now, I can go." he said and I smiled, stealing one last kiss before he actually did. He will be fine I kept on saying to myself as I climbed up the tree, waiting for Sebastian to show himself. I was so worried that I think (at some point) I even prayed to god everything was okay, which only meant I wasnt.

About 15 minutes later, I saw Sebastian. He looked around; chuckling when he saw there was nothing (and no one) by the fire that brought him here.

"Hey look at this," he said. "I think they are trying to set us up." he probably was yet to realize he was alone. But when he did, you could see he fear coming from his eyes." Puck, watch out." he said, trying to look to every possible direction all at the same time." Puckerm-"he shouted but didn't manage to finish, he was on the ground. I shot him another time just to make sure he was really dead and waited for a few more minutes, spending them saying to myself that I had no other choice and that it had to be done, before climbing higher and higher so I could see as much as there is to see from the arena. I stopped when I saw Kurt. I saw him and Puck fighting from a far, none of them seemed like he was about to go down which actually made me happy, maybe Puck wasn't hurt but…neither was Kurt. But then I looked through the binocular. What I saw was so awful, all I remember was hearing myself gasp as I let go of whatever I was holding. luckily I was able to control my balance enough so I wont fall all the way down but my binocular didn't, it broke of course but I didn't care at the moment. I did almost died a couple of times on my way down since I tried to get to the ground in a unnatural speed, I started the run of my life to wherever I saw Kurt and Puck were, hoping I will get there before its too late.

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It wasnt long after I left the waterfall but I already didnt know if I was alive or not. Everything was hot, tasted like metal (that must have been because of the blood…) and was sweaty. the pain was bad but could have been worse, I felt like my head is about to melt away but somehow I was still moving for some reason, trying to injure but not get injured by the Couse of my situation. Puck was hurt too, not as bad as I did but it did make him slower. Not that it helped, I was barley moving at all.

We were going around like that for what seemed like ages and I knew I was about to fall on the ground in any second, and when I will…it will be the end of me. I knew my senses getting weaker when I saw Pucks lips were moving, like he was saying something I was thankful I didnt hear. Then he smiled and I saw the pitchfork approaching me but I couldn't move, I couldn't get away this time, my body was probably half dead and I had nowhere to hide. at least if Im dead Blaine have a better chance of winning, puck is hurt, he can kill him easily enough and then he only have Quinn, Sam, the boy from district 7 and then he and his friend Santana can win. He can come back to his life, finish school, leave his parents at last, get married and have kids…(I guess its good Im gonna die so I dont have to see it.)He can have everything he ever wanted with the money he is gonna get, and nobody will ever harm him. I guess now I can die in peace, knowing he will be alright. I was ready for the death but it didn't came. I heard a foggy sound of someone yelling and something being shot, the next moment, Puck was lying on the ground in front of me, dead. I fall after him on my own back; my legs arent capable of holding me anymore. Maybe I will die after all.

I felt his footsteps on the ground and his soft hand in my hair (that was full of blood.) his other hand was holding mine. When I looked into his eyes I saw tears which only made me feel tears in my own.

"Come here often?" I asked, choked a little on the end, causing another wave of pain.

"You shouldnt have done it, you knew it would end like this," he said and I nodded weakly.

"Im sorry…"

"No. dont be, everything is gonna be okay," he mumbled, seemed like he was trying to calm himself down more than he was trying to calm me.

"Shh…"I said, squeezing his hand." its okay, you only have to kill 3 more people and then you can go on." I said but he shook his head firmly." get out of here and live the perfect life you deserve,"

"No! Not without you,"

"Dont argue, its over." I said. I was even bossy when I was dying.

"No, don't leave me! I need you, I love you, Kurt!" I could burley feel him shaking me up, trying to keep me alive as my eyes felled shut." please…"I heard him whisper as a hot tear fell on my cheek, I dint know which one of us it was from. I wished I could answer him, tell him that it might be better for him…but I couldnt.

Everything went black.

 It went a little darker before it changed completely to a different picture. I saw a white room, a bed that looked like its been used a lot, and beyond the bed was a blue certain. I woman I didn't recognized was half lying half sitting on the bed, she had messy dark brown hair (curly one.) and big green eyes, she was smiling. The picture started to move and I saw the face of another woman, eyes like my own only greyer with brown hair picked as a ponytail. She looks just like my mom only younger.it seemed like the camera was sitting on her knees. Maybe…no, it cant be. The woman on the bed was in my sight again, this time I saw her more clearly, she was holding something.it was all warped up in a light-blue blanket which could only mean….a baby. Boy.

"Oh, he is adorable." My mom cooed and the woman smiled.

"He reminds me of cooper when he was that age but still they are nothing alike, is that make sense?" She said, not taking her eyes away from her newborn child. Wait Cooper? Why do I have the feeling Im missing something?

"I think its the hormones talking," my mother chuckled.

"His name is Blaine," the woman said and looked at my mom.

"Hey Kurt look," my mother said and the camera(that by now I understood was my eyes.) turned to look at her." he woke up," she pointed at the blue blanket which was now moving slightly.

"Come on and say hello," the woman said to me with a smile and my mom lift me up so we sat on the bed now, and I could see what was inside of the blanket more clearly. Curly hair which (not as it was in all of my other flashbacks.) didn't go all over the place, and half-open familiar pair of hazel eyes, just as beautiful as it always been. Then, a tiny hand came into my view and rested over the blanket, I think it was mine, and Blaine smiled before closing his eyes again and falling asleep.th picture changed.

Considering what I saw was seen through my eyes, and I saw things that happened to me before, I realized I was in that part of death that your life goes right in front of you, I didn't thought they meant it so latterly…and why wasnt I seeing all of my life? Like from the beginning? Well…I will go on with it.

I was in the back yard of a house, there were flowers and balloons everywhere, there was a big white table you could barely see because of all the people who were around it, cheering and singing…happy birthday. I was farther than all of them, drinking from a juice box, when I saw there was someone else who wasn't enjoying the party as well. I walked to him, but he didn't seemed to notice before I tappet on his shoulder.

"hello," I said nicely but he didn't seemed like he was in the mood for optimism." do you want some juice?" I said, offering him a box.

"Thank you," he said and took it. "Why arent you with everybody?" he asked.

"I dont like parties very much," I said and he nodded.

"me too," he said." would you like to play?" he asked and I smiled, maybe this party isnt gonna be so bad after all.

"Yeah!" I said." But where?" I asked.

"We can go to my room," he said.

"You live here?" I asked and he nodded.

"My name is Blaine," he said.

"Kurt," I interacted myself as well. He smiled and grabs my hand, leading me upstairs. Then the picture changed again.

It looks like its been a few years since the memory in the hospital, why does my life goes by me and missing some (a lot) parts? Is that a side effect for the deleted memory?

A white room with a refrigerator and a stove, a small wooden table with 3 folded chairs around it, another folding chair was leaning on the wall, waiting to be used. The kitchen…my mother was washing plates and glassed and coffee cups in a small tab, humming a slow melody to herself.

"What do you need honey? You are standing here for the last 15 minutes without moving or saying anything." She said and looked up at me.

"I didn't want to interrupt you," I heard my own voice, even higher pitch than usual; I really sounded like a girl.

"You wouldnt have," she said, taking the towel that used to be on her knees and dried her hands." whats up?"

"Nothing really, I wanted to ask you something actually." I said shyly and she signed me to go on." this Friday, there is a whole night marathon of my favorite show and Blaine said maybe we should watch it together and I said I will asked you if I can go and sleep at his house this Friday." I said really fast before stopping to breathe before adding." and I know Friday night dinners are important, I really dont want to miss it but …I really want to go." I said honestly and she looked at me. "Please?" I said with big puppy dog eyes.

"Its okay with me, but I have to talk to your dad and convince him. Go and have fun! There will be a lot more dinners for us." she said and smiled at me.

"Thank you!" I squealed and ran up to hug her quickly before running to my room to pack my bag. I heard my mother laugh and the picture changed once more.

I couldn't believe she actually said it. She said there will be a lot more dinners…I could only imagine how I felt when she died. I hoped that memory movie wont help me find out.

What seemed to be a courtyard of a kindergarten, swings and slides, a sand box and all that stuff...Blaine was in front of me, both of us sitting on the ground playing with what seemed like power rangers but Blaine didn't seemed to noticed any of that. His eyes were wondering around, watching at something that went in the corner. Then I looked at where he looked at to see what was more important than the wedding I arranged that was going on in that very moment.it was a boy and a girl, I knew then of course, Rachel and Tony. Tony had a crush on her since forever. He was holding a small paper which was pink and shaped as a heart.my guess it was…

"A love letter." I said and that seemed to bring Blaine back to our world.

"I think," He said, agreeing." this is a stupid thing to give somebody," he said kind of angrily.

"Its not." I said firmly." not when you love that somebody," I said and he looked back to where the couple used to stand.

"Its still stupid." he said, not looking at me. it looked like he was about 5…probably not long before we got together.

"Kind of seems like you are lying to me." I said and something in his eyes changed which made me knows I was right." You are!" I said, my mouth hanging open and Blaine didn't look at Me." and I know why, you are jealous!" I said and he shushed me.

"Do you want everybody to know?!"

"sorry," I said and smiled at him." so…you and Rachel…?"I was confused, Blaine was supposed to have a better taste." thats disgusting," I whispered but he heard me anyways, he laughed.

"Im not jealous of Tony, Im jealous of the fact that she got a love letter," he admitted and I raised an eyebrow. I knew Blaine was always a little gloomy when the other kids got girlfriends and boyfriends, he keeps on waiting for his turn but it never arrives.

"You know girls usually don't give love letters," I said and he nodded, not saying a word. There was definitely something deeper behind that from what it seemed. Then I realized why this memory was so important…

"I know…I, I know boys write those…I just…I-I want that…"he mumbled and I already knew where this was going and I barely stopped myself from smiling.

"you wish a boy will write to you," I said and his head shoot right up, his eyes widening like they are asking how did you know?

"Am I that obvious?" he asked quietly.

"No, no. you were hiding it pretty well if we ignore the fact that you are friends with me. And I know because I know you and I have an awesome gaydar since I like boys too…"I said and Blaine smiled at me.

"At least you are not grossed out..." he said and I chuckled.

"even if you told me you are secretly a girl and that you are an alien from mars I wouldn't have grossed out," I said, his eyes meeting mine." you are my friend, I accept you no matter what," I said and he smiled. We have been called inside, and the memory changed.

So that was probably the moment I started thinking about Blaine that way, it was quite late if you think  we got together only a few months or weeks after that happened. I think that if I could I would have smiled right now.

I was in what seemed like a bedroom, creamed-grey colored walls and simple white furnitures, nothing fancy, just like all the other rooms I remembered from my old house.it had a small TV, very old but useful ,which played a certain movie that I only recognize after staring at it for a minute or so…The Little Mermaid. I was just watching as kissed the girl was playing at Eric and Ariels date.

"Ah…" I heard a sigh that kind of scared present-me because I thought I was all alone. I turned to my left to find Blaine, leaning forward with goofy smile on his face." isnt Eric the best?" he asked in a dreamer voice." I wish I could be the one marrying him…"he said and somehow, little me didn't find the words to explain his feelings. He never had that strange feeling before and since I could feel what he felt I knew it was the feeling (who is the idiot who invented it?) called jealousy.

"But you cant marry him, he loves Ariel," I said and my tone just clarified what I was suspecting.

"I know, thats too bad," Blaine said." so I can marry another prince, maybe one from our district…"Blaine thought out loud.

"And where exactly are you going to find one?" I asked, already pissed off from that subject.

" I don't have to," he said simply." my mother says fate will always bring true lovers together…"he said and smiled at me before coming back to the movie. I looked back at the screen with a small smile on my face. I looked back at Blaine one last time before the picture changed.

It wasnt a place I recognized, I was on the outside of a gate, there were a lot of kids around, my eyes were running around all over the place, one second they were on a bench and the other on a sign that said district 10s elementary school. OH, so I was at my school. Then my eyes settled on something, some one.it was a tall blond girl, absolutely beautiful and she was talking to a familiar adorable hazel eyes boy. They were talking for a long time, form where I stood it seemed like Blaine was asking her something or asking for her advice…whatever it was I wanted it to stop so Blaine can talk to me, not…her. I truly had no idea why my conscience (or whatever is responsible for this) was showing me those memories (which weren't even supposed to be there in the first place.)But it didn't take me too long to understand. Blaine left the girl after saying thank you, and walked towards me. I looked away so I would look like I wasnt staring. Then, I felt a warm pair of soft lips pressed against my cheek and my face heated up.

"Hey," I heard Blaine says before I finally looked at his smiling face.

"What was that?" I asked in a tone that might have sounded like what Blaine did right now was wrong, and by the look on Blaines face…he noticed. Way to go little me! You have just ruined a beautiful moment! The boy you like (and about to fell madly in love with.)Just kissed you and you ask WHY?!

"What was what?" He asked quietly, his eyes looking down as his cheeks turned a little pink. How adorable.

"You…you just…you kissed me," I said unreliably. I just managed to destroy things a little more. "Why?" I asked and it seemed like Blaine was regretting kissing me in the first place." Blaine…?"

"Thats what you do when you like someone, you kiss then and hold their hand and joke around and hug and you are together because…well," Blaine ran out of things to say and his cheeks became red. "Im sorry…I shouldnt have-Im gonna go now." he said quickly and turned to walk aways.as much as I wanted it to happen, little me didn't stop him. What was happening? Little me thought. I only now realized I could hear what little me was thinking…Blaine kissed me. Blaine kissed me! And Im so stupid! Ive ruined everything! Im such an idiot! w-the thoughts have been cut off because the picture changed again.

A wooden door. I was just staring at it for what seemed like forever before I knocked on it.

"Go away whoever you are!" Blaine yelled from inside of the room. Oh...so that was when everything is fixed right? I knocked again.

"I said, go away!" Blaine yelled again and I knocked harder, knowing Blaine will open up eventually heard an angry groan and footsteps before the door lock turned and Blaine opened the door fiercely." What do you-"he froze when he saw me and I gave him a little wave.

"HI," I said.

"Hey," he answered before stepping away from the door, allowing me to come in. I came in slowly, Blaine closing the door behind us. I decided to get straight to the point.

"Im sorry about yesterday," I started to say.

"It was stupid anyways, can we just forget about it?" he almost begged and I shook my head, he looked away and sighed.

"No we cant forget about it, I didn't say what I wanted to say because you ran away so quickly and I was in a bit of a shock." I said, Blaine didn't look at me. We were acting so much like we act today I almost forgot this was a memory that happened almost 12 years ago. I took a deep breath before I spoke." I…I like you too." I said and he looked up at me with big wide eyes and a surprised face.

"Really…?"He asked in at the same high pitch tone he asked me when I told him I love him, only a few days ago.

"Yeah…I have for quite a while but I was afraid of telling you…"I said and he raised an eyebrow.

"Why?"

"I didn't know if you felt the same way," I admitted shyly and Blaine smiled at me before jumping on me with a loving hug, just as he did before. Blaine was so cute when he was excited. Actually he was cute all of the time. That memory was cut off and another one started.

I was at the kitchen of my house, again. I was sitting around the table and looked at the clock, it was dinner time. First I noticed the food that said it was a Friday night dinner. Second, I noticed my parents were sitting around the table as well, talking about something.

"Honey, your dad and I need to go out this Tuesday, so you will be staying at Aunt Mildreds house." my mother said.

"Can I go to Blaines house instead?" I asked, wanting the opportunity to spend time with my now-official boyfriend.

"Thats okay with me," my mother said and took another bite from her chicken.

"You spend an awful lot of time with that boy lately, should I be worried?" my dad asked as he cut his food, my mother wanted him to learn how to eat properly since what happened at the Martins house two weeks ago.

" it depends of what worries you…"I said, taking a long sip from my drink as he stared at me, making me lower myself in the chair in a desperate try to hide myself.

"and what is that supposed to mean?" my dad asked me. my parents always known Im gay so I wasnt afraid but telling my dad I had a boyfriend wasnt on the list of things I was looking forward to do.

"Leave him alone Burt, hell tell us when he is ready," my mom said softly and held my dads hand. He sighed.

"fine." my dad said." but Im not happy about it,"

"I for one, thinks he is very cute." my mother said and winked at me and I smiled.

"He wont be after Im done with him." my dad said and my mom laughed as I yelled.

"Dad!" the picture changed again.

It was a sunny day, I looked up at the bright sky before looking down at my hands, and they were holding a red rose. I looked at what I was standing infront.it was a tombstone.

Elizabeth Hummel

"I really miss you mommy," I whispered and laid down my rose." I wish you were here with me, it would have fixed everything." I said. I sounded as if she was here it would change everything. "I just wanted to ask you to take good care of dad while Im gone, if there is any way you can tell him to eat healthy it would be great…and watch Blaine for me, it would truly mean a lot." I said and waited for some sort of respond that never came. I gave the sky another look before walking out of the graveyard. I knew what was happening, this was the 100th Glee games reaping day. I just left Blaines house after we almost shared our first kiss, I promised him we will meet so we can pick up where was stopped but I knew that will be time I will say my one, only and last goodbye to him before the Gleetol take me away. They informed us about this about a month ago; sing my dad isn't capable of taking a good care of me and that it would be the best for me to go away. Ive been saying my goodbye to my father ever since. We spent more time together then we ever had and we kept on saying how much we are gonna miss each other, he told me to remember him and to behave myself and I said I will. I had no idea how to say goodbye to Blaine though, and I was about to lose my mind.

Little me walked for a few minutes, showing me district 10 from his own eyes. Everything felt so familiar, the bakery, the school, the market and the only cloths shop in the district…I wish I got the chance to go back there. After a few minutes of walking, I reached to the town center where everybody was waiting for the reaping to begin. I stood pretty close to the stage, knowing all of the 3rd grade students will go on the stage in less than a few seconds. Everyone was clapping their hands as they did and I joined them as I saw Blaine going out as well, he was nervous and it was showing, his face was pale-green already. He looked at me with desperate eyes and I smiled at him and mouthed.

"You can do this,"

As all of the 50 kids were in their places, the orchestra started playing the Gleetol anthem and they joined singing in a lovely harmony. Blaine moved his lips almost perfectly, he only missed once and it seemed like no one but me nodiced.as the song came to a close, I saw Sue Sylvester coming up the stage, waving at her adoring fans. Her speech was full of sarcastic comments and thing that made fun of us, and then she picked the poor boy and girl who were obviously frightened. But I didn't even manage to see them shaking hands, because somebody had pulled, me away from the crowd.it was a tracksuit guy.

"Where are you taking me?" I asked, shaking him off me.

"Presidents orders, you are supposed to accompany her to the Gleetol and we leave in 20 minutes." he said automatically and another one of them appeared behind me, they took me to the hovercraft. Or at least they tried to. I made them stop half way because I heard something terrifying.

"-I heard it, he wasn't singing at all."

"What did you say his name was again?"

"Blaine. Blaine Anderson." I wasnt even trying to hide the fact I was eavesdropping on them. When I looked to see who they were, there was a tracksuit guy talking to a little, very loud girl I knew very well. Rachel Berry.

"Don't you worry little girl, that boy will be punished for dishonoring our beloved president and you will be rewarded." he said and Rachel smiled before she skipped away saying.

"I love being right."

Then I heard him add." Poor kid wouldnt wanna be him." he said and my eyes widen." I need you to get me a boy named Blaine Anderson; he needs to be take care of." he said into a small device and laughed, I guess thats how he talked to the others.

"No!" I yelled and stood in front of him." Tell them to leave him alone!" I ordered and he laughed at me.

"What are you talking about kid? Go home," he said and a few heads turned to us.

"The boy you said you gonna punish, let him go," I said and his laughter became even louder.

"Im afraid thats impossible, his tongue is probably on the floor by now," he said and I tried to hold back the gasp that went up my throat.

"Whats going on in here?" I heard the familiar voice of Sue and I turned my head to look at her." porcelain?"

"Please stop them from hurting him," I said and she frowned.

"Who are you talking about?" she asked, giving a warning look to the tracksuit guy who laughed at me only two seconds ago.

"he said," I pointed at the ironically frightened guy that seemed like he was about to pee himself, I couldn't even enjoy it because I was so worried." that they will cut Blaines tongue off." I said and she nodded before turning to him.

"Release the boy before hes harmed." she said and he nodded quickly before walking away." run you lazy idiot!" she yelled and he disappeared. Now she looked at me.

"Thank you," I said." Im going to talk to him, "I informed her and turned to walk away but she stopped me by resting her hand on my shoulder.

"You cant, we are leaving now." she said coldly.

"It wont take too long, Ill be back in 10 minutes tops and we can go." I said but she stopped me again.

"This is not up for discussion porcelain." said and told the two guards that brought me here to take me inside. They grabbed me and she turned away.

"Wait!" I said and she turned to me." I promised him we will meet after the reaping! I need to talk to him!"

"Stop it porcelain you are being weak. You will soon learn that being weak its not an option for you anymore." she said but I completely ignored her.

"Please! I havent told him anything! I need to say goodbye!" I begged and she shut her eyes before saying.

"Im truly sorry to tell you its not up to me," she said and walked away. They got me up on the hovercraft eventually, after I tried to run away a few times, they locked me up in a room, it had a bed and a desk in it, a closet full of cloths I only dreamed of having and my suitcase.it had photos in it and my most beloved cloths, my mothers ring and the tape with the video of me and Blaine fighting and making up after we caught my mom and dad filming it. I looked out of the window as we flew above the district, starting our way to the Gleetol. I was stopping myself from crying but then I saw Blaine, making his way to my house. He is looking for me and he is never gonna find me, I thought. Ive been so stupid waiting for the last minute before I tell him! And now Im never gonna see him again! That was the moment when my heart broke.

"Im sorry…"I whispered to him, knowing he wouldn't hear me anyway. The tears started to fall from my eyes and didn't stop for a really, really long time. I was on the floor beneath the window, I didn't move at all for hours, and then I heard a knock on the door.

"We arrived to the Gleetol Mr. Hummel; you have 5 minutes to get ready." Said a voice and I snuggled even closer into myself when the picture changed for the very last time and everything was black again.

What was happening to me now? Was I dead completely? The last memory was so vivid, I almost forgot that I was actually dead and the memory was just…a memory. But the pain didn't go away, the fact Im never going to see Blaine again was still relevant. I couldn't believe I wouldnt see his face again, or his smile, to hear him laugh, Im never gonna say that I love him, I will never feel him lying next to me or kissing me…oh my Blaine…I just hope he will be happy at the end….Blaine…

Kurt. I heard somebody saying. Does god really exists and is talking to me right now?

Kurt, wake up. are does the angels? Are they gonna judge me now and tell me Im going to hell because Im gay?

Come on Kurt! What they wanted from me now? Arent Im gonna suffer enough in hell?

Wake up! Oh my god I cant believe you are okay... was anyone else is lost but me?

Its me Kurtsie! Wake up for me! great, now they want to remind me him...I always told him to stop calling me that but he knew I likes it and kept doing so, but I liked it because he was the one calling me that, and now they angels or gods or whatever was using it to hurt me even more....arent they supposed to be forgiving?

Its me! The voice said again

Blaine?

Kurt!

The black started to fade away really slowly and turned to white until I couldnt look anymore, the light was too bright.

"Kurt, open your eyes..."The voice ordered softly and I blinked. Wait, dead people can blink do they?

I saw orange tree tops high above me and a blue sky, the sun showed it was about 3 in the afternoon. I moved my head a little and laughed when I saw Blaine (17 year old, present Blaine) smiling like he just have won the lottery.

"Kurt!" He said happily." Youre okay!"

"Blaine...Am I alive?" I asked, getting in touch with my normal body again, my head felt like it was about to burst in flames every second now and the rest just felt very, very sore, besides from the fresh fight wounds Puck caused me.it was just burning.

"apparently," he said and smiled." OH my god! Youre alive!" He squealed in excitement and I laughed when he jumped on me without even noticing he is suffocating me with a hug.

"yeah, I cant believe it  either but you are sort of hurting me," I said and chuckled when he shoot straight away from me apologizing.

"sorry! I just....I was so worried Ive lost you and that you are never gonna wake up..."he said and I took his hand.

"Blaine, breath. This stuff happened all the time." I tried to pretend like it wasnt a big deal for me even though I could burley believe it myself.

"I know...Im just...-"he leaned frowned again and hugged me, I sat up slowly (causing myself some little pains.) and hugged him properly, burying my head in his neck." dont ever do that to me again," he whispered.

"I cant promise you that," I whispered back and he sighed.

"I know, you just...It was such a terrible feeling, finding you like that, all blood and almost not breathing..."he said and shivered a little bit from the thought.

"dont think about it...Im fine now." I said." how long Ive been out?" I asked.

"two days," he said after thinking about it. "we killed Puck and Sebastian, and the boy form district 7 died yesterday..."I could hear a small smile in his voice when he added." we are five left." that was great, we only have 3 more tributes to kill before we can leave this place and never look back...I was so proud of us.

"so what are we waiting for?" I said and try to stand up but a wave of sharp pain had attack me and Blaine made me lay back down completely." Im fine I swear," I promised but he shook his head.

"you were almost dead, Kurt. You are not going anywhere," he ordered and I sighed in defeat." now stay and rest, Im gonna make something to eat." he said and I nodded, I was really hungry. He stood up and took his bow before pressing a kiss to my forehead. "Ill be back in about an hour," he said and smiled, I nodded and he walked away.

I became bored really fast. I was losing my mind when a smart thought went into my mind...I thought about the fact that I almost died, then about the fight with Puck and I noticed I could have been less injured or even won if I had a proper weapon. Everything was still in the cornucopia, including beloved bayonet...maybe I could...no! You promised Blaine you wont move! But...from the look of the trees, the cornucopia wasnt so far away...I can go and come back and Blaine wont even notice! I sat up (was less painful then the last time,) and looked around, there was nothing besides the extra bow so what happened to our bag?

I started walking, hoping to get back quickly and that Blaine will take his time with the hunt.it was soon enough when I got used to the pain and learned to ignore it, I walked a little faster. Snick inside, take a few things and get back, simple as that.

I would like to think it didnt take me long. Nothing really changed since I left, everything was still inside the cornucopia, the fire was off, and all the sleeping bags were around it, including the one that used to be mine. I folded it and tacked it under my arm, I found two empty bags and filed them with some food that can be breakfast, some plates, matches and some medicines, a blanket (just in case.) and more food. Sadly for me, there werent any cloths(that was something I really needed because there was nothing besides my underpants that wasnt ripped off.) then I found my bayonet and was ready to leave, but then I saw Quinn, I almost forgot she was the only one left there.

"how dare you come back here?" She asked in a cold, heartless voice. Her eyes were like knifes peering through my already scared skin.it was one of those rare times I just didnt know how to react or what to say.

"I just came to take back what is mine," I said and she smiled evilly.

"what is yours?" She asked more herself but me. "How can you even stand there? Where we all sad and laughed before they turned their backs at you and you killed them!" she said and the preaching continued. "Mercedes, she was your best friend and you killed her without if waiting a second!"

"I had no other choice," I said calmly, nothing her words get to me. She shook her head and stepped closer to me, now I could see the sword she was holding loosely behind her back.

"you always have a choice," she said." You made yours, and Im making mine..."she said and started to fight, I tried dogging her first strike but she managed to cut my shoulder.

"Quinn, come on." I said, dogging her second try to stab me. "I dont want to hurt you!" I said and she laughed.

"youve already hurt me enough! And Im ending it now," she said and swiped once more.it was starting to get harder to fight my instinct to fight back...I had to let go eventually.

"Im sorry..."I whispered, knowing she wouldnt hear (not that it would matter if she did.)And attacked.

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Hunting animals in that part of the forest was hard. All I saw was one little bunny and I didnt even managed to catch it. I should go back, Kurt was burley moving and was all alone with nothing besides the extra bow but I had to find food first, he was so weak before and fresh food might help him feel better. I was about to give up and go look for some fruits when I heard the (wish it wasnt so familiar) sound of a cannon. I immediately looked around and sang quickly, the mockingjays repeating a little louder the usual (there were a lot more of them in that area or the arena.)I walked fast (fine, I ran.)To where I left Kurt and gasp loudly when I saw...nothing. He wasnt there. I should have known better.

"Kurt!" I yelled and waited for a respond that never came. "Kurt!" I called again but yet again, silence. Knowing Kurt good enough, I knew where his thoughts about how did I get here? led him to the cornucopia. Oh Kurt, why were you doing this to me? On my way of running over there I tried to think if it was possible that the cannon I heard were Kurts. The only one in the cornucopia was Quinn and she couldnt beat Kurt...but Kurt was unconscious for the last 2 days and he can burley move! How was he supposed to fight for his life?

"oh come on..."I sighed in frustration. "Kurt!" I yelled again. How could Ive been so stupid?!I should have known he wouldnt listen to me, I just told him he couldnt do something and Kurt (being Kurt) had to prove that he could. "Kurt!" I was beginning to go crazy as I ran but then something very familiar happened. I hit something. Someone.

I immediately looked up to see if I ran into someone who needs to be dead so I can kill him before he kills me, but I saw it was Kurt. He was on the ground next to me, he looked away when our eyes met, hugging his knees to his chest, his shoulder was bleeding but bandaged and he seemed...different.

"Kurt?" I couldnt stop myself from asking, there was always the chance the Gleetol took my Kurt and placed this one in the arena instead.

"hi," he said sickly.

"I was worried sick for you! "I scolded." first you almost died, then, I leave for 5 minutes and when I come back you are nowhere to be found even though you promised me youll stay, you are bleeding again and all you have to say for yourself is hi?!"I tried to hold myself from yelling, I was pissed off and I had the right to be. I expected Kurt to just yell at me back or try to justify himself but he didnt. Not even close.

"Im sorry," he whispered" it was really stupide running away and make you worried." He admitted and scooped closer to me before hugging me tightly." please forgive me," he pleaded and I wished I could have seen his face so I can try to understand what was going on.

"yes, yeah I...Ill get over it..."I said, hugging him back." are you okay?" I asked but he avoided answering.

"we need to settle before its dark," he said and pulled away." I brought some new stuff," he said and introduced me to our new supply.

"wow," I said as I dug inside one of the bags." This is amazing,"

"I should have brought more but it was starting to get heavy," he apologized and I sent him a small calming smile.

"thats perfect," I assured him and we both stood up, each taking on of the bags on his shoulders and his weapon. We walked away.by the time we went to sleep; I knew something was wrong with him. He didnt eat anything; he only said 3 words to me since he got back from the cornucopia. I wanted him to tell me, I needed him to tell me, but I didnt want to push him to it....but I had to eventually.

Kurt was in the sleeping bag, sleeping after I insist on staying guard, I couldnt fall asleep even though I hardly slept in 3 days, I had to stay next to Kurt, so when he will wake up he will know Im here for him.so I sat by the fire, thinking. I looked over at Kurt, his eyes were closed and (by the light from the fire) I could see his cheeks were wet, he was crying. Knowing it was about the time the tributes start to go crazy, I tried as hard as possible to let it slid. I waited for a few more hours before waking him up against my will (knowing he would kill me if I wont) and crawled into the warm sleeping bag where he just laid and he seemed like he havent slept a bit.

I tried falling asleep, I truly did, but I couldnt. I opened my eyes for a split second and saw Kurt was tearing up again, biting his lower lip to hold back. That was what broke me, I had to ask.

"what happened when you went to the cornucopia today?" I asked quietly, he jumped in surprise and he wiped away his tears quickly, like it meant I wont noticed.

"you scared me, "he said, not seemed like he was about to answer my question.

"what happened to you today? "I asked again.

"go to sleep Blaine, you are very tired." He said looking away from me and poking the fire.

"dont do that, I just want to know if you are okay," I said, roping myself on one elbow, he smiled at me, a fake smile.

"I am." He said and I rolled my eyes, he looked away again and sighed." you arent gonna let it go arent you?"

"nope." I said and sat up.

"Blaine I ....I cant do this now..."he looked down and closed his eyes, I got out of the sleeping bag completely and sat next to him.

"Kurt....You are my boyfriend, I love you," I said softly, looking at him." I cant see you like that without knowing why or if there is a way I can make it a little better..."I said honestly and a small smile crossed his face.

"thats sweet," he said in a small voice before sighing." But it has nothing to do with you, its nobody elses fault...its mine..."

"what happened, Kurt?" I asked seriously. Kurt looked at me with questioning eyes and I nodded, he took a breath and waited for a moment before he began.

"the cannon you heard today was Quinns," he said, that was something I didnt knew because form some reason, there was no anthem or sliding how of the dead today.

"how do you know that?" I asked even though I already knew the answer.

"it was me...I killed her..."he said sadly, is eyes already shining with fresh tears as he looked up at the night sky.

"but its okay, we are in a Glee game..."I said and he chuckled." you...you dont say its actually getting to you...?"I asked unbelievably. Kurt was the strong one that says this is just a game and that you have to do what you have to do...what is so different now?

"how cant I?" He said, looking into nothing." I killed so many people...and I didnt feel bad about it until now..."he said, tears falling down his already wet cheeks." I killed Mercedes without even blinking, my best friend who was always there for me no matter what..."I think he was mostly talking to himself by this point but I was fine with that because I didnt really know what to say or do, something that didnt really happened often." and theres Beth...how am I supposed to look at her when I come back home knowing I was the won to kill both of her parents?!" he sobbed. Technically, I was the one killing Puck I wanted to say but I knew it wasnt the right time for sarcasm." I became even worse than what I was before all of this..."he whimpered and I closed my eyes to control my own tears, I couldnt see him like that, he had to let it all out.it was the time to break down." I walked along the river earlier and I couldnt even look at my own reflection...Im...a monster...."he said, completely breaking into tears.

"you are not a monster..."I said and he shook his head." Ive killed people too...."

"its not the same and you know it." He said firmly and looked at me. "They werent your friends, you werent sitting and laughing by the fire with them one day and them killed them the next day..."he said and I ran out of words." Im sorry Im taking this out on you...."he said and sighed.

"come here..."I said and open up my arms, Kurt crawled into my lap, letting me hold him as he cried. I hated that feeling of hopelessness, seeing the man you love suffers and you are unable to do something to stop it. I didnt notice the time passing but then something caught my attention.it was a small thing that fell from the sky right in front of us. A parachute. Kurt seemed to notice it too because he pulled away, allowing me to go and check it. I picked it up and looked inside, I immediately laughed when I saw what was inside.

"what is so funny?" Kurt asked from his place by the fire, I was too busy laughing and didnt answer." are you going crazy too?" he asked hopelessly and wiped away his tears, I shook my head firmly as I laughed.

"a condom." I said and he raised an eyebrow at me.

"excuse me?" He asked.

"they send us a condom," I said and he stood up to look too. He smiled.

"as in right now?" He asked and blushed a little. Could he get any cuter?

"in front of everybody?"

"they cant be serious,"

"they are not," I said and looked at him." Arent they?"

"I dont know..."

"well, at least it made you feel better," I said, seeing the tears had stopped." Now can we go to sleep?" I asked, putting the parachute away, he nodded and smiled before he took my hand.

"what would I do without you? "He asked and I smiled before he pulled me into a kiss.

"I thought we were going to sleep," I said as the kiss lasted longer than normal.

"and I thought we were using the condom," he said and I laughed before kissing him again shortly and hugging him tightly.

I reminded myself there was not much left, only few more days and we are done with all this, we can go home and forget about all of this, never talk about it and never look back...I couldnt wait for it to happen

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