Oh god, Blaine was a horrible guy. He could stop beating himself up for what he had done to Kurt. He thought that Kurt had done something to him, but he had been just completely wrong and selfish. Blaine was so mad at himself that he just drove around for hours, thinking. He stopped the few times and picked up the phone, trying to send Kurt some kind of text, but his hands started shaking so badly and his mind was empty of words. Kurt had clearly had a horrible year and now, he, Blaine, had ruined his summer too.

He liked Kurt, he did, but he wasn’t sure if he could really give Kurt what he wanted. Kurt was worth more than just friendship and Blaine wasn’t sure, how he was feeling about that. He liked Kurt. But as it for now, it was just as a friend.

It was probably noon already, when his phone rang. So he stopped the car, tried to calm down a little, before answering.

“Hey, Blaine,” Burt’s friendly voice echoed, as it had nothing happened. “I just wanted to tell you that I left your paycheck to Finn’s, so if you want that, you should probably go a get that.”

“Uhm..” Blaine couldn’t really make any words.

“He has a day off, so you should probably find him at home.”

Damn it, Burt, Blaine thought. You really do have your ways to make people, what they don’t want to do, don’t you?

“Thanks Burt, I will.”

“Okay then. Bye.”

It was the goodbye, not just the end of Blaine’s summer job, but also the goodbye to Burt, who has been a great teacher and leader to him over these last two months.

“Bye.”

So he drove back to Lima, to Hummels-Hudsons house, praying that Kurt would still be out with Mercedes and wouldn’t answer the door.

Blaine was really relieved, when it was Finn at the door.

“Oh, hey, man, Burt told me you would come over. Come in. I will go and find that check for you..”

Finn was gone with a second and Blaine was left alone in the living room, when he heard it.

He heard a beautiful, light voice singing, like angel. The Beatles song, ‘Blackbird’. It came from the Kurt’s room, he was sure.

“Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise“

Blaine’s heart melted. Or swelled, he really couldn’t tell. But it made it gabble, changing something in him, making it harder to breath.

„Blaine,“ he heard a girls voice suddenly, as the singing continued. „What are you doing here?“ Mercedes asked.

„I.. uhm..“ Blaine honestly forgot the reason, why he was there at the first place stupidly looking towards to the Kurt’s room and then at Mercedes.

„Look, Blaine,“ Mercedes spoke then. „I don’t hate you or anything, but the thing is, that Kurt has been through a hell. He had a hard year. Not because of that bullying and what happened with his father. Mostly, because he was lonely and he didn’t let anybody else to help him. Did you know, that some kids made him a prom QUEEN?“

Blaine swallowed. Kurt hadn’t really talked about anything, when it came to his school or this year..

„It’s supposed to be joke, but it wasn’t funny at all. He didn’t even want to go this stupid prom, but the New Directions performed, so he didn’t have much choice. So he was selected for the prom queen and I don’t know how, but somehow he went up there and took the crown and.. he was just really brave. But the sad part is, that once he came down and music started, he didn’t have anyone to dance with. He just stood there, while everybody else started dancing until he finally left. He was all alone.”

Blaine was speechless, feeling more and more horrible. Because that’s what he was – he was a horrible guy.

“What I’m trying to say Blaine, that you’ve done enough and I believe, that you can be sorry and everything, but it’s just better, if you leave right now, before it gets worse. Kurt can’t stand rejection. So just leave it..”

Blaine didn’t say to Mercedes, that he was there because of that stupid pay check that he really didn’t care about anyway. He didn’t tell Mercedes, that he didn’t go there to reject Kurt. And he didn’t tell her, that now he was more confused about his feelings, than ever, so she just walked towards Kurt’s room and closed the door as she went in. Blaine thought that Kurt wouldn’t know that Blaine was there, hearing him sing for the very first time, and after that Blaine became more and more dubious about his feelings.

10. August:
2.56
To: Kurt
I need to talk with you.

Blaine was nervously sitting and waiting at Lima Bean. The text, he had sent at the night, was the only text he had sent. He wanted to tell something to Kurt, but not over the text or over the phone. It had to be said straight, so he could look into his eyes. Now he actually understood why Kurt didn’t want to explain the confusion through the text earlier. So there Blaine was, sitting and hoping, that Kurt will come for coffee.

He waited a bit over an hour, before Kurt came. The boy entered with a tired look on his face, Mercedes by his side, probably trying to back him up. As soon, as they noticed each other, Blaine was on his feet, a cup of nonfat mocha for Kurt in his hands.

„Kurt,“ he spoke, but couldn’t really say nothing more.

„Blaine,“ Kurt mumbled with a surprised tone in his voice.

And that was all none of them had said, because Blaine had thought about it all night, but he was still too nervous about his words, so he just grabbed gently Kurt’s face with his free hand and pulled him close enough to press his lips to Kurt’s.

It took a second, before Kurt realized what was happening and tugged Blaine closer, so they were melted into each other, not really caring if there were too many homophobic people in the shop.  They ignored Mercedes, who was really confused, unable to do something. They kissed like they needed it more than air.

Of course, at some point they needed to breath, so they broke the kiss, but didn’t let go of each other’s faces as their foreheads and noses were in touch, both of them smiling shyly, feeling so much better, because the kiss said everything, that needed to be said.

“I’m s-so sorry, Kurt,” Blaine startled, looking into Kurt’s beautiful blue eyes. “I was such a jerk, I was so confused about my feelings and I didn’t want to hurt you so quit the work, but now I was up all night and realized that I DO have feelings for you and I’ve been looking forever and oh my god I was such an jerk and I’m so sorry.”

“I don’t even care right now,” Kurt signed as he pulled Blaine closer and they kissed again.