Blaine looked at the musical’s auditioning list next day. Rachel had signed up, with a golden star next to her name, so had Mercedes. There was Mike’s name, but it was written with girl’s handwriting, probably Tina’s. Blaine had learned quickly that Mike and Tina were really close as a couple and he really wanted to compare himself and Kurt with them. It was difficult though and Blaine knew that he shouldn’t take this personally. Kurt had too any ghosts haunting him to completely open up for everything and it wasn’t safe for them in public anyway.

“Are you going to audition?” a girls voice almost gave Blaine a heart attack.

Rachel pried him with curiosity, not really trying to hide it.

“Uhm, I don’t know,” Blaine answered when he finally got over the shock. Why was she talking with him? “Maybe..” Blaine started walking towards to his next class, but he could feel Rachel following him.

“And what role do you have in mind?” Rachel asked as she stepped next to him. Blaine couldn’t help but be surprised about Rachel’s height. She was kind of a hobbit too, why hadn’t he noticed it before?

“Tony.”

Rachel hummed and bit her lip with a concerned look on her face. They walked like that for a little while, not saying a word, which was weird, because Rachel was always talking..

She was probably auditioning for the role of Mariah so Blaine understood Rachel’s concern: Tony and Mariah are the main characters, so it would be a little weird for them to work together so much. Another reason for Blaine not audition..

“But like I said,” Blaine said then. “I’m not sure, I have a lot in my mind right now and I don’t know if I will have time for this.” This was a completely true actually. Blaine just didn’t want to do a musical when Kurt wasn’t in it.

Rachel’s face changed immediately, Blaine could tell although he didn’t couldn’t see her expression completely.

“Oh, I’m sure,” she sighed sarcastically. Remembering what Kurt had told him about Rachel, Blaine knew, what was behind that sigh. But then Blaine remembered other things that Kurt had talked about, and it finally hit Blaine:

“Hey, Rachel, do you know what colleges you will apply for?”

Rachel stilled and stopped, looking at Blaine with questioning wide eyes.

“It’s just that I know that you and Kurt have the same kind of dreams, but it seems that Kurt has now future plans..” he tried to explain. Blaine hadn’t talked with Kurt about that anymore. The previous evening had been full of emotions for both of them, so Blaine didn’t want to go there.

“Oh,” Rachel mumbled and continued walking. “Well, I’ve been thinking about NYADA in New York, but it’s not easy to get in there, so I’m not sure..”

They were almost by the classroom, where Blaine headed. He knew that Kurt should be here any second too.

“Okay, Rachel,” Blaine stopped them this time few seconds later with a serious tone. “I know that it’s going to sound weird since you think that I’m using Kurt to spy on New Directions,” Rachel’s eyes narrowed with surprise. “And you and Kurt don’t really get along, but could you please but it all beside for a second and help Kurt.”

“Why the hell should I do that?”

“Because Kurt is terribly sorry and feeling guilty for the things he said to you in New York but he has too many bumps in the road to apologize right now.”

“What are you talking abo-“

“He doesn’t want to apologize because you don’t like me. But that’s not important right now,” Blaine’s voice was rushing. He wasn’t sure, how Kurt would react if he saw him talking with Rachel. “I want you to tell Kurt about NYADA and maybe even.. convince him to apply.”

Rachel looked surprised, exactly like Blaine expected, but not shocked. Just very surprised.

“You really do love him, don’t you?” she mumbled after an awkward silence, her eyes still on Blaine who barely heard her.

“What?”

“You really love him,” Rachel stated with surprised tone, like she wasn’t sure if she could believe herself. “You really love him and you’re not a spy.”

Blaine swallowed and nodded, not sure how to response to that. For a second he wondered if she was trying to test him or she really understood that now.

“Okay, I’ll do it,” Rachel agreed then. “But I can’t promise anything.”

“Good, I don’t expect you to..”

“I would be glad, if you were my Tony,” Rachel smiled lightly before turning around and walking away. Blaine watched her go, until Kurt’s quiet voice called him.

Blaine wasn’t how, but somehow the glee club started discussion about this year’s class president race in the lunch table. He could feel Kurt tensing up next to him and he felt little guilty.

“Kurt should totally run for class president,” Brittany stated out of nowhere. Kurt froze and swallowed. Slowly he turned his head to Blaine and then to Brittany. Blaine shot a secretive and winking look at Tina, who just shrugged.

“That’s a great idea,” Rachel answered when no one else didn’t know how to react. It was often like that: everybody stilled when somebody said something about Kurt, as if they would be afraid to say something wrong.

“I think so too,” Tina agreed, but Blaine already knew that.

Kurt pressed his lips together and blushed, trying to ignore everybody’s glances.

“Have you thought about it?” Blaine asked quietly and carefully.

Kurt wrinkled and shook his head. He clearly felt uncomfortable about this situation and Blaine wondered if his question had made it worse.

“Why Kurt, Birttany?” Santana asked then.

“Kurt is special, he is an unicorn. It would be totally awesome if an unicorn could run the school.”

Even though Brittany’s words were kind of nuts, it made sense to Blaine. He found it even beautiful and he couldn’t agree with her more. Kurt blushed even more next to him, so Blaine put his hand on top of his, squeezing it a little and smiled when Kurt found his eyes at looked right into them. Maybe it wasn’t the best idea to hold hands in the lunch room, where jocks were constantly glancing at them, but Blaine really didn’t care.

Everybody dropped the Kurt topic after that when Santana said that Brittany should run for the president and Kurt relaxed.

“Have you thought about it?” Blaine asked again after lunch when he walked with Kurt down the hall to their next class.

“A little,” Kurt answered. “But it’s a big decision.”

They walked by the bulletin board and Kurt’s eyes narrowed instantly to the musical’s audition list as he stopped.

“Why haven’t you signed up?” he inquired and looked at Blaine with confusion, his right hand pointing at the paper.

Blaine stilled. He wasn’t sure if the truth was something that Kurt actually wanted to hear.

“Uhm..” Blaine mumbled and bit his lip. “I’m not sure if I really want it..”

“I thought you wanted the role of Tony’s..”

“I’m still thinking about it..”

“What’s there to think? You would be perfect for the role!”

Blaine sighed and didn’t response, just looked at his boyfriend, trying to make him to just drop it.

“Blaine, please,” Kurt begged with kind of whining voice. “I know that you’re not telling me something. Just tell me why don’t want to sign up right now?”

Blaine thought about Kurt’s question for a moment as he almost walked over and wrote his name to the audition list so he wouldn’t have to answer to that question.

“I don’t want to be part of musical if you’re not,” he answered anyways, regretting it instantly, because Kurt’s face softened with wide eyes. Kurt didn’t react right away, just let his hand fall down.

“Wha- that’s insane, Blaine! You can’t let go of this opportunity just because of me..”

“I’m not,” Blaine assured. “I’m doing this for myself. I just want to be with you as much as I can and the musical would take the time away.”

“Then I’ll audition too..”

“No, Kurt, you can’t!” Blaine almost exhaled. Kurt turned to look at him with a frown. “I mean, you’ve got a lot going on and I can’t ask you that.”

Kurt stood there for a second and seemed to think about Blaine’s words. Then sighed, dropped it and started walking again.

It wasn’t until later this week, when Rachel talked with Kurt. Blaine didn’t blame Rachel, he had heard that her life wasn’t exactly easy at the moment too as her birthmother who had abandoned her when she was just born was now one of the teacher at this school because of some rich girl, who couldn’t cope with rejection. Blaine watched how Rachel walked over Kurt after another glee club practice and said something. He couldn’t hear them.

They talked for a while and Blaine waited. He really tried not to watch them too much because Kurt could easily figure out that Blaine was behind this but he still saw Kurt’s surprise and Rachel’s nervous face as she talked and how she relaxed later. But Blaine could tell that Kurt figured out it anyway him when Kurt’s kind of surprised, kind of mad looking face turned to Blaine after a while. Kurt shot a final light smile at Rachel, before nodding and turning his back to the girl to walk towards Blaine.

“Kurt..” Blaine tried to apologize carefully, because Kurt seemed upset. Boy ignored his voice and rushed by him. Blaine followed him quickly through the halls. Kurt’s direction was weird: the classes were over but he walked quite opposite of the school’s exit. “Kurt, wait!”

Kurt didn’t stop until the bulletin board, where he quickly pulled out a pen and wrote a name to the musicals audition list.

“What are you doing?” Blaine asked. “We talked about this, I don’t want you to audition..”

He stepped closer and saw that instead of just Kurt’s name: there was also Blaine’s name too.

“Well I want to,” Kurt said and put the pent away.

“Kurt..” Blaine got really used with repeating that name.

Kurt didn’t let him speak though: “Look Blaine, you’ve been looking after me from the start and I can’t find enough words to explain how much you’ve helped me although you don’t even know everything about me yet. I mean, you’re not only here for me, but you also worry about my future just because I can’t. So this is me trying to show you how much you’ve helped me over these few months and looking after you.”

Blaine stilled, thinking about Kurt’s words unable to say anything back. He was speechless.

“Now if it’s okay with you, I want you to audition for the musical with me, because I’m quite sure that this is something that you could write to your own college application,” Kurt continued and that was enough for Blaine to convince him and make him kiss his boyfriend lovingly, trying to express all his emotions with a this.

The kiss was unexpected for both of them, but especially for Kurt who squealed. Yes, they tried not to show too much affection in public, but school was almost empty anyways and Blaine was beyond caring for that that moment.