Jan. 7, 2013, 12:04 p.m.
Only Time: Chapter 4
T - Words: 2,781 - Last Updated: Jan 07, 2013 Story: Closed - Chapters: 18/? - Created: Apr 30, 2012 - Updated: Jan 07, 2013 1,946 0 4 0 0
Blaine sat in his math class smiling broadly. Today he would see his and Kurt's child for the first time. Their baby; which they were having, together. That made Blaine smile to no end. And tomorrow was their one year anniversary.
All in all, in Blaine's eyes, this week was going to be a good week.
He had talked to the Warblers, well Wes, the night before and had been given a tiny window in which to sing to Kurt. Wes had made sure to tell him to not expect favours often and that he was only allowing it because it was he two favourite love sick puppies. Blaine knew he fallen lucky when Wes had quickly become his best friend after his transfer to Dalton.
Blaine and Kurt had decided not to reschedule the OBGYN appointment Kurt had been given, instead they would leave Dalton at lunchtime to make it to East Lima for 2pm. the drive wasn’t too bad at just an hour and a half but they had to make a getaway at lunch before classes started where they would have to make excuses for them both to leave class.
The class dragged until Blaine thought the clock on the wall above the teacher’s desk was actually going backwards. What Blaine wouldn’t give just to have time speed up.
Blaine's eyes flickered to Kurt in the seat beside him. The taller boy looked a lot smaller these days; his sullen skin and hunched frame which were very, very un-Kurt-like. Blaine put a soothing hand on his boyfriend’s thigh, causing Kurt to jump with a silent “yelp”. Kurt looked up into Blaine's eyes and smiled weakly before returning his gaze out of the window.
Blaine worried about Kurt. He knew the sickness was a normal part of pregnancy but Blaine could almost see the stress weighing down on Kurt's shoulders. It didn’t help that is was mid-March so finals were only a month and half away. Blaine dreaded to think what it would be like this time next month when their exams were about to start.
Kurt stressed out enough at exam time, Blaine had learned, as it was, but the added stress and worry of the thought of a baby was leaving his boyfriend on a constant edge. Blaine moved his hand from Kurt's thigh to the small of his back and rubbed small smoothing circles into the tensed muscles there. Blaine was, not for the first time, glad they sat at the back of the classroom.
The bell rang out to signal the end of the lesson and Blaine instantly moved to pack away his books and turned to find Kurt still in his seat, still staring out of the window across the football field.
“Come on honey.”
Blaine leaned down to whisper in Kurt's ear and began to pack away Kurt's things for him. The chestnut haired boy didn’t move until Blaine took his hand.
“Kurt, honey, we have to go.”
Blaine said genially. He could see the worry in Kurt's face. The worry had begun to ebb from his boyfriend features after they had talked on Friday but it seemed to have made a drastic reappearance that morning.
Blaine tugged Kurt out of the class room and down the corridors out of the front doors of Dalton. Kurt trailed behind him looking utterly miserable and Blaine just wanted to hold his boyfriend.
They finally made it to his car and Blaine opened the passenger side door for Kurt to get in. but Blaine stopped Kurt so that he was sitting on the edge of his seat facing Blaine. Blaine got down onto his knees and took Kurt’s hands in his.
“Kurt, please tell me what’s wrong. You have been distant all day, and you look scared?”
Blaine begged his boyfriend with his eyes, praying he would open up. Kurt still didn’t speak but the terror was clear in his eyes.
“Baby, whatever it is I promise to try and fix it, I can’t stand not knowing what’s wrong, I can’t see you like this, I just cant.”
Blaine sighed sadly, looking far too interested in the tarmac below them.
Seeing Kurt in pain, scared, was the worst thing in Blaine's universe. He remembered the look behind Kurt’s eyes when they had first met. It last a long time but it had slowly dissipated once Kurt had joined him at Dalton.
But Blaine would never forget the look in Kurt’s eyes when he told Blaine about David Karofsky and here it was back again.
Kurt's right hand dropped from Blaine's hold to his own stomach.
“Blaine.”
Kurt croaked out.
“What if- what if there is something wrong with- with the baby.”
Kurt's eyes were wide and boring into Blaine’s.
“Honey, I promise you everything will be fine. Those papers, they are just worst case scenario, you saw the statistics on them, the likelihood of anything bad happening is so slim its barely worth fretting over. They all say that realistically there is no more chance than with a female pregnancy. You are completely safe…”
Blaine dropped his hand to rest over Kurt's and caught his boyfriend’s eyes.
“…you are both going to be okay.”
Blaine leaned in to press their lips together softly before pulling back.
“Come on honey, let’s get to the doctor’s office and see if she can reassure you some more, okay?”
Blaine said with a forced smile before shutting the door and rounding to the driver’s side and setting off on the drive to East Lima.
Blaine himself was worried too. Neither of the boys knew much about male pregnancy, only what they had read in the leaflets and articles and letters that Doctor Lancaster had provided Kurt with.
All of the articles suggested there was almost no difference between male and female pregnancy and that the risks were the same. Except, in rare cases the male wouldn’t have a fully formed uterus so it would have to grow with the baby which caused risks at there was a chance it would not grow enough and as the baby got bigger the uterus would rip which was a risk to the babies life.
Even if they managed to get the baby out quickly when this happened it was likely the baby would not survive as they may well have not been receiving enough nutrients and oxygen throughout their time in the womb.
Blaine made a mental note to ask the doctor to settle both of their nerves. Blaine couldn’t imagine losing the baby, not now. It had been such a huge shock, such a big thing to get their heads around, but it was also a miracle and they wanted this, and to lose it now would hit them so hard. Blaine didn’t know how he would survive if they lost their baby.
By the time they pulled into the car park of the OBGYN’s office Kurt was asleep against Blaine's shoulder.
“Hey Kurt, we’re here, let’s go honey.”
Blaine gently awoke Kurt pressing kisses into his temple.
Kurt muttered incohearently before slowly rising up from his napping position.
“How are you feeling?”
Blaine asked with a faint smile.
“Better.”
Kurt smiled, looking less pale than before.
“I knew you haven’t been sleeping, you’ve been telling me you have but I could tell.”
Blaine replied in a tone that hinted anger but Blaine just couldn’t find it in himself.
“I know you don’t want me to worry, but please, I just want to help you and make you feel better. The more you bottle things up the worse it will get. Please let me help.”
Blaine changed his direction of thought from anger to worry. He had spent a lot of time worrying about Kurt of late; begging him to let Blaine help. The curly haired boy knew Kurt was too strong willed to let people help; it had taken Blaine a long time to get through to him, he just hoped Kurt wasn’t closing off again.
This doctor’s surgery was very different to Kurt’s usual practice where they had attended the previous appointment. This was a clinic specifically for OBGYN’s outside of the hospital. It was still clinical with the lino flooring and surgically white walls and the smell of disinfectant.
But this clinic had the sound of children running around the waiting areas and the agitated voices of expectant mothers trying to control their older children. There were toy scattered across the floor and huge posters detailing the stages of pregnancy through until the end of the child’s first year of life.
The place was buzzing.
However, what Blaine hadn’t expected to see were two other pregnant males. One was reading a book while a girl whispered in his ear in a very Rachel Berry-esque manner, and the other was one of an adorable couple whose partner had a toddler in his arms.
Kurt waved catching Blaine's attention and indicated for them to proceed down the corridor.
“Kurt did you see-“
Blaine gushed in a whisper before Kurt cut him off.
“I saw them Blaine, I know.”
Kurt replied, catching Blaine's eyes with a small smile of his own. They were both imagining themselves with a toddler like that.
Kurt stopped outside of room 16 and knocked.
“Come in.”
A voice sounded from behind the door.
The two boys shared a nervous glance before Blaine opened the door for Kurt with a reassuring smile. The worried creases on Kurt's forehead had retuned.
“Hello, you must be Kurt, I'm Doctor Harrison, lovely to meet you.”
The woman held out her hand to Kurt, whom Blaine had genially steered into the room.
Kurt nodded shakily taking her hand for a moment before dropping both his hand and his eyes.
“And are you Blaine?”
She turned to Blaine with a friendly smile offering her hand once more which Blaine took firmly.
“Yes, yes. We saw Doctor Lancaster’s note, I presume she must have told you about us?”
Blaine enquired on Kurt behalf as he was looking around the room nervously. Blaine hated seeing Kurt like this; he knew Kurt was thinking about both his Mom and Dad.
This was going to be a long nine months with Kurt's aversion to anything medical related.
“Why don’t you two take a seat and we can talk?”
Doctor Harrison suggested noticing Kurt's nervousness.
“Kurt if you could hop up onto the bed and Blaine how about you take the chair right beside Kurt?”
She gave them both a friendly smile as thy settled beside one another and she pulled up her desk chair just comfortably close.
“Doctor Lancaster gave me all your details. We see a lot of male pregnancies come through our doors and I will be honest with you in that we do see quite a few young men like yourself Kurt who have never heard of this gene before they find themselves pregnant. However you are one in a minority who are here with their partners and can see it must be good for you to have Blaine here.”
She said, adding the last part as she noticed Blaine's hand holding onto Kurt's tightly and rubbing soothing circles into the back of Kurt's hand.
“Okay Kurt I just need to go through a couple of routines then we can get started on your ultra sound.”
Harrison smiled warmly when she noticed Blaine's face light up at the word “ultra sound”.
“I need to check you are taking care of yourself so your body can adjust to the baby. I’d like to take a blood sample to check your health and see if we need to put you on any extra vitmine suppliaments on top of what Doctor Lancaster prescribed you on your previous visit.”
Kurt nodded offering her his arm and squeezing Blaine's hand harder.
“Shhh baby.”
Blaine whispered soothingly, capturing Kurt's eyes to allow the doctor to do her job.
“Perfect, thank you Kurt. If there are any problems with those I will contact you to give you a prescription, okay?”
Kurt nodded again. That was all he seemed to be able to do. Blaine established Kurt wasn’t going to be able to voice his worries to the doctor.
“I, we, just have a question, if that’s okay?”
Blaine looked apprehensive but Harrison gave him an encouraging smile.
“Go headed sweetie, that’s what I'm here for.”
Blaine gulped.
“We were, we were just worried about the, you know, risks? Like, a male pregnancy carries risks?”
Blaine asked nervously and Kurt finally looked up at the doctor.
“I want to be very honest with you boys because I know how worried you must both be with being just teenagers so I want to do the ultra sound before I tell you whether or not there is anything for you to be worrying about.”
She answered confidently, using what Blaine recognised to be the same as Carols reassuring tone.
Doctor Harrison wheeled over what looked like a computer on a trolley.
“Kurt, if you could lift up your shirt for me.”
She asked putting on gloves.
Kurt sat up and pulled off his Dalton blazer and tie and Blaine put them on the empty chair beside him as Kurt rolled up his shirt.
Blaine couldn’t help but smile at the sight of Kurt's exposed creamy white skin. There was as of yet no evidence of the little life growing inside of Kurt's body but the knowledge it was there gave Blaine a warm feeling of happiness.
“This will be cold.”
Harrison interrupted Blaine's train of thought as she squirted a blue gel-like substance onto Kurt's abdomen. She flicked a switch on the machine and picked up the probe and circled it across Kurt's stomach over the gel.
She circled the probe for a few moments and Blaine heard her press a few keys on the attached keyboard. Blaine kept his eyes locked with Kurt's throughout the silent, both of them hoping and praying that everything was okay.
Harrison looked back at the boys with a smile.
“Take a look boys, that’s your little baby. It looks like you're 8 weeks pregnant."
Blaine couldn’t compare the feeling of warmth and happiness that filled his chest when he turned to look at the screen.
Sitting there in perfect grayscale was their baby.
Well, at the moment he or she didn’t look too much like a baby. But there was a distinct head and body and limbs though details couldn’t be quite picked out and it was tiny.
“Look at her, Blaine.”
Kurt whispered. Blaine looked back to his boyfriend and pressed a kiss to the tear tracks forming on his pale cheeks.
“Her?”
Blaine chuckled.
“I don’t know, it just feels weird saying it when she’s not just an it anymore, now that we’ve seen her.”
Kurt shrugged with a small smile finally turning up the corners of his lips.
“Boys, I am happy to tell you there are no problems for you to worry about. The uterus is fully formed and developing at the same rate as a woman’s. The problem some males experience is that at the beginning of the pregnancy the man doesn’t have a real uterus and it must grow quickly to accommodate the baby but you don’t have this problem Kurt so you are safe. Now your pregnancy only contains the same risks as a female so don’t worry at all, pregnancy isn’t as risky as it sounds, and your body is made to carry a baby because of that special little gene.”
Doctor Harrison gave them both a reassuring smile and Blaine couldn’t help himself. He leapt up and pulled Kurt into a bone crushing hug, somehow managing to be careful of the doctor with the probe against Kurt's stomach.
“I’ll get you boys a couple of print outs.”
Comments
this really is a fantastic story. i love mpregs and the authors who write them :)
this really is a fantastic story. i love mpregs and the authors who write them :)
Thank you so much, this means a lot to me that people enjoy it!