Chapter 23

"Blaine, its not so bad," Kurt said soothingly, "And we need to do whats best for-" but he was cut off by an angry glare directed his way. Kurt stopped talking abruptly, and slowed down so that Blaine could storm away. This was not the easiest thing for Blaine to do considering he was heavily pregnant and walking up two flights of stairs, but Kurt thought the small victory might dissipate some of the anger that was rolling of Blaine in waves.

Kurt didnt blame him; for the last couple of weeks it had been swollen limbs, back pain, weight gain, and exhaustion, but this was apparently the last straw.

Blaine took a brief pause when he reached the landing to catch his breath, and then continued his march towards his apartment. He unlocked the door, walked inside, and made to slam it shut, but Kurt caught it as he entered the apartment himself, looking slightly apprehensive now.

"Blaine?" he inquired softly.

Blaine turned around, and his eyes were flashing. "No, Kurt! Thats not fair!" Blaine threw his arms towards the floor, his fists clenched, and Kurt had to restrain a grin. "I just started having sex again, and now we cant do it anymore? Not. Fair! I feel like a walrus and I cant feel my feet, and having sex makes me happy! Why does no one want me to be happy?" His voice grew softer as he reached the end of his tirade, and he lowered himself onto the couch slowly, and let his head drop back against the cushions.

Kurt approached cautiously.

He reached for Blaines shoes and slipped them off of his feet, as he said, "I know, Blaine. It sucks, but Doctor Harrison said its too risky. Its not that she doesnt want you to be happy. I swear, once the baby is born and youve recovered, we can have all the sex you want, whenever you want it." Kurt tried not to sound even remotely amused, but the glare that Blaine sent his way clearly said that he had not succeeded.

Blaine closed his eyes and groaned. Kurt moved onto the couch next to him and ran his finger through his hair. "Do you want to talk about whats really bothering you?"

Blaine let out another groan, but he opened one of his eyes and pouted his lips. "I am upset about the sex thing," he said defiantly.

"Oh me, too," Kurt said, raising his eyebrows. "And?"

Blaine allowed his head to fall sideways onto Kurts shoulder. "I feel horrible," he said after a while. "Im sore and bloated and just huge. I cant do anything, and Im just tired of being pregnant now."

"Blaine, youve loved being pregnant. You said a few weeks ago it was the most incredible thing youve ever experienced."

"Yes, I know!" Blaine said petulantly, "And after Ive had Oliver Ill probably go back to feeling like this whole experience was sunshine and rainbows. But its hard to remember that right now when I feel so crappy."

"Aw, honey," Kurt said, and he wrapped his arms around Blaines shoulders. "It wont be long now, and hell be here."

Blaine mumbled something into Kurts shoulder, and Kurt strained his ears to catch it. "What was that?"

"I said, thats another thing." Blaine let out a breath and said, "Im really scared about giving birth."

Kurt pulled back to get a better look at Blaines face. "You are?" he asked, surprised. "I mean, its absolutely a legitimate fear and lots of people have it, but Blaine, youve never mentioned anything before now."

Blaine looked uncomfortable. "Well, Ive kind of been trying to ignore that part. Like, Ill be pregnant, and then the baby will be here. I just never dwelled on the getting here part. But now its so close, and theres no way to get around it." 

"So is that why youre so angry today?" It was all starting to make sense to Kurt now. "It was Doctor Harrison talking about the birth, wasnt it?"

Blaines appointment today had been focused mainly on the proceedings surrounding the birth, and Doctor Harrison had given them a final rundown of what to expect the day of delivery. But that was just the final straw. With Blaine getting closer and closer to his due date, it seemed that the birth was all anyone had been talking about.

Sam, Tina, Cooper, Blaines colleagues, random people who met Blaine wherever he went these days, all asking about how much longer he had until the birth, when is he due, how excited he must be. 

Even Kurt had started talking in terms of ‘after the babys born.

"Its just getting so real, you know?" Blaine said. He rubbed a hand hard over his face. "I guess it just built up in my head until it was looming."

"Blaine, when you feel like this, tell me," Kurt said, rubbing a hand up and down Blaines side, trying to give a small sense of comfort. "We can talk about whats freaking you out, and even if its still scary once were done, I bet youll feel much better about it."

Blaine sighed. "I know." Then he offered Kurt a small smile. "I do kind of feel better already just saying it out loud."

"You have every right to be scared, Blaine, but I hope that you see that you dont have anything to fear from this. And think of what youll have in the end! When Olivers here, you wont even remember this worry. And youre strong enough to handle this, Blaine. I know you are."

Blaine nodded his head resolutely. "No, youre right," he said, steeling his expression. "Itll be fine. Im still sort of worried," he clarified, "but thanks for the vote of confidence." Blaine raised his head to press his lips to Kurts.

Kurt allowed himself to enjoy the feeling of Blaines mouth on his, before it was lost a second later. Blaine pulled away with a groan. "I love you, but stop rubbing my back. Youre turning me on and we cant have sex!"

Kurt couldnt help the laugh at Blaines sincere expression. "Okay, how about that foot rub instead?"

Blaine sunk further down into the cushion and laid his hands over his stomach. "Oh my god, yes! Best boyfriend ever."