What If?

            Chapter 5 – The Decision is Made

Blaine desperately needs to talk to Kurt so he is looking at his laptop hoping Kurt will come on line. He never does so he calls Kurt. In a dark office under a pile of papers and fabric samples a phone can be heard playing the ring tone that sounds like Teenage Dream. The call is from Blaine. No one is answering because no one hears it since Kurt had left work over an hour ago and forgot his phone at work. Blaine hears Kurt's voice say. “Hi, I can't answer my phone right now so after the beep leave a message and I will get back to you as soon as I can.”  BEEEEEP Blaine leaves the following message. “Kurt this is Blaine. I need to talk to you about our relationship and a decision I need to make. I would like to hear your opinion before I decide. I know we haven't communicated a lot lately but we need to start talking again. I'm sorry if you are upset with me. If I don't hear from you I will take that as you telling me to leave you alone and you want to end our relationship. I hope you call. I love you.” Blaine ends the call and sets his phone down on his night stand as the wait for Kurt's return call begins.

The next morning Kurt enters his office in a hurry because he needs to finish a project that Tony wants completed immediately. He needs some space on his desk so he picks up a pile of papers and fabric samples and places them on the top of the filing cabinet and gets to work.

At McKinley Blaine is walking around with worry settling into his stomach big time. He's worried that Kurt has decided he doesn't want to be in a relationship with him any more since he hasn't called. He is upset, on edge and trying very hard to keep his thoughts and emotions under control. It's been a long day and it wouldn't take much for Blaine to explode like a bomb. He takes a deep breath and walks into the choir room. “Everyone is here that's good.” Finn says. “Before we get started I want to tell you that I have decided that Blaine and Artie will be singing the duet part in the first song for sectionals. I think their voices will sound great together.” Finn says. “Wait a minute!” Unique shouts shaking his finger as practice comes to a sudden halt. “Why does Blaine get the duet too? He already has the solo for sectionals.” He adds. “He gets all the solos and we don't even get a shot at them.” Kitty chimes in. “He is not the only person in this choir room who can sing.” People start to look at Blaine. “Alright guys settle down. Everyone is talented in this room but it was my decision to make. Blaine has loads of experience performing at competitions and besides they are both seniors who won't choke under pressure. I have made my decision and it is final.” Finn says as Blaine looks at his hands wishing his day was done. “That's not the real reason. He gets all the solos because he is Kurt's boyfriend and you have to keep your stepbrother happy.” Jake says as some others shout in agreement. “Jake, that's not true. I gave you the reasons while I chose Blaine and Artie.” Finn tells the group. “Stop complaining you guys!” Tina yells as she stands up. “You don't hear me or Sam complaining and we have lost more solos to Blaine than you guys.” She says thinking that she is showing support for Blaine instead of proving Unique's point to the group as she sits down proudly. Blaine can feel his anger building inside him. The fuse has been lit. Kitty stands up and asks. “Who votes for Blaine to be removed from the duet with Artie and replace him with Unique?” Over half of the New Directions raise their hands.  Blaine looks at the group that just made his decision for him. Blaine stands and looks at his so called friends and says calmly. “I want to thank you guys for making my decision so easy to make now. When I went to Dalton the other day they begged me to come back. They told I was part of their family and they wanted me to be a Warbler. I told them I didn't want to disappoint you guys. So you see I had a big decision to make and I was torn between the two options. But you guys showed me today which option is best for me. You showed me where I really belong. I'll be singing at sectionals, but not with you jerks. Good luck, I am out of here.” Blaine picks up his backpack and runs out of the choir room while everyone else is in shock at what Blaine just said.

Sam runs after Blaine and finally finds him packing his things up at his locker. “Blaine. You can't leave. Your right they were being jerks but you can't leave us we need you. We are like a family and sometimes we argue with each other. Besides you're the Senior Class President.” Sam says hoping that he can convince Blaine to change his mind. “Not any more Mr. President I resign.” Blaine informs Sam. “Blaine, there is more to this than you are saying. Talk to me what's really going on, let me help you. Man, we are bro's.” Sam says wanting to make things better. Blaine finally explodes. “Sam, leave me alone and get the hell out of my face. We are not a family and we are not bro's. I heard everyone loud and clear tell me what they truly think about me and I'm not staying in a place where I am not wanted or with someone.” Blaine hopes Sam doesn't notice the slip. “I'm tired of people being upset and rude to me because I happen to be able to sing. I'm going to a place where I am wanted. Oh, and by the way you guys don't know anything about me and Kurt.” Blaine slams his locker closed and leaves McKinley never to return.

Blaine arrives home and looks for his Father who is in the study working and he says. “Father, can I go back to Dalton Academy?” John smiles when he hears the request because he has always wanted Blaine to attend Dalton. He stands and goes to hug his son and says. “Yes, yes you can Blaine” Not caring to ask why. The rest of the evening Blaine refuses to answer any phone calls from members of the New Directions and focuses on getting his Dalton uniform ready.

Two days later in the McKinley choir room the glee club sits in silence still recovering from previous events while they are waiting for Finn to arrive. Finn walks carrying a large box. He places it down on the floor and begins to open the box in front of the students. Finn pulls out the New Direction's National Champions Trophy. He pulls off the attached note and reads it out loud. “I promised the New Directions I would get it back and I always keep my promises. Blaine” Finn places the note on the piano and returns the trophy to the proper place and turns around and begins to talk. “Unique you have Blaine's solo and Kitty you are singing the duet with Artie. You've got what you wanted. Does that make you happy now? I don't know what to say to you guys. This isn't a glee club that I am proud of. We are supposed to be a family in here and you just forced a member of our family out the door, for what? Explain it to me Kitty what did he do that was so terrible? I gave him the solo and I gave him the duet and he agreed to sing them. Why didn't you go after me? Unique, tell me what he did to you?” Finn says as he walks around the room. “You guys are awfully quiet. Jake, what do you have to say because you had plenty to say the other day? Jealousy is an awful emotion to have because it destroys what we are trying to build. So today you are going to sit here and think about what you loss because it was more than just a glee club member. Tomorrow we will start to practice for sectionals.” Finn says and then he walks out.

Blaine is in his bedroom needing to talk to Kurt so badly but Kurt doesn't want to talk to him since he hasn't called. Their relationship is over and Blaine doesn't think he will ever talk to Kurt again. He decides he needs to make this split as quick and as painless as possible so Blaine gets an empty box from the basement and starts packing all the stuff that reminds him of Kurt. Tears roll down his face as he remembers the story that goes along with each item he places into the box. He closes the box ending that chapter of his life. He puts it in his closet for now. Blaine is lying in his bed but can't fall asleep. His heart needs something. He goes into his closet and opens the box and takes out the Junior Prom picture. He closes the box and places the picture back on his night stand. He looks at the picture with a smile and soon he falls asleep.

The next morning Blaine looks at his phone one last time to check for any contact from Kurt but there isn't any. He goes downstairs to eat his breakfast when he sees his Father. “Good morning Blaine. Are you sure you still want to go back to Dalton? You have had a night to think about it and after all this is a special year for you because it's your senior year of high school.” His Father wonders. “Yes I am Father. Can I ask one more favor?” Blaine asks. John nods his head yes as he sips some coffee. “Can I get a new phone number?” John looks at his son and notices the change in Blaine and he doesn't know why. He needs to find out what is really going on. “I'll allow you to get a new phone number if you can explain to me why you need a new phone number as well as you need to be totally  honest with me and explain why your eyes aren't glowing as bright and your smile is gone.” John waits for Blaine's answer as he can see Blaine debating with himself. “Okay” Blaine says as the tears roll down his face. John goes to his son and Blaine stands and grabs his Father as tightly as he can. “It'll be okay Blaine. I'm here for you.” John says as he walks his son into the living room to hear his son tell him everything.

John listens to his son as he tells him about everything that has happened since Kurt moved to New York. “I'm sorry Blaine. I know this hurts because you love Kurt and I agree with you that he is caught up with living in New York City and he can't see what it's doing to you. I wish you had told me sooner so I could have helped you through this.” John tells Blaine. “I know you have trouble with me being gay and I didn't want to hurt you.” Blaine explains. “Blaine I am your Father and I will always be here for you. I don't want to see you hurting. That is what hurts me the most. Are you sure you want to cut all ties with Kurt? Some day he may wake up and see what he has lost.” John asks Blaine. “Father I think it will hurt less if I just cut ties now. I can't live my life hoping that it's Kurt calling every time the phone rings. I want to get beyond the point where I remember him every time I'm in a place where we spent time together. I want to be able to hear a song we used to sing together and not have tears in my eyes. I simply want to be happy again and I can't do that if we are in contact with each other. I don't know if my decision is the right one but I have to start somewhere.” Blaine tells his Father. “What if he calls or comes to the house?” John asks. “I don't think he will but if he does I can't see or talk to him. It would hurt too much and I have to start thinking about what's best for me now. I need to make it a clean and permanent cut. It just hurts so badly because I still love him so much. I know he is my soul mate and we are meant to be together but I need to move on and plan for my future. That's why I am not going to apply to any schools in New York. I am going to college in California and be around Coop for a while.” Blaine says with tears in his eyes. “Okay Blaine, I will abide by your wishes but if they ever change let me know.” John says still concerned about his son and not sure he is making the right decision.