Aug. 3, 2012, 7:37 p.m.
The Scarf: Constant craving
E - Words: 815 - Last Updated: Aug 03, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 26/26 - Created: Jul 25, 2012 - Updated: Aug 03, 2012 350 0 0 0 0
Blaine stayed with Kurt all week to make sure he didn’t puke up his food. So far, Kurt was doing amazing! He had only tried doing it once. Kurt had even gained three pounds. He obviously loved Blaine’s cooking.
“Blaine” Kurt said as he shoved a brownie in his mouth” Thank you for helping me. I feel like nothing is impossible."
"Kurt, I will always be here for you. Im never giving up on you." Blaine said as he pulled his boyfriend into a tight hug. He loved to just hug Kurt and take in all his love "Lets go upstairs. No one is home"
"Blaine, as much as i would love to, we have homework to do..I need to bring up my grades if im gonna get into NYADA and you need to work on your english grade if your gonna get into culinary school"
Blaine started to kiss Kurt's pale neck and moved up to his ear and whispered "Fine, but tonight at my house, be ready. " He gave Kurt a wink and pulled him up stairs so they could finish their homework and head to Blaine's.
They finished up my homework and drove to Blaine's listening to the new Katy Perry cd. Teenage dream: The complete confection. They were singing on the top of their lungs and giggling like teenage girls. They were just having a blast. They pulled up to his house and got out of the car. They unlocked the door and walked up to Blaine's room. They were silent for a while until Kurt broke the silence.
"Instead of sex, can we just talk? I have alot on my mind. I just need to talk to someone. I really want sex but im too distracted" Kurt was hoping that Blaine wouldn't be mad because he didn't want to have sex right now. He just couldn't. He needed to let out everything he needed to say.
"Ya, Kurtie, thats fine. Im listening." Blaine exclaimed and gave Kurt a kiss on the forehead.
"I am just scared that I won't get into NYADA and you get into that culinary school and you will go to New York and I will be left here, alone." This had been on his mind for weeks. He didn't think he was good enough to get in. He knew Rachel, Mercedes, and Santana would get in for sure, but he just kept having doubts about himself.
"Kurt, are you freakin serious? You are the best singer in glee club. You got a solo for sectionals and we won. And you have a solo at regionals. Everyone believes in you. You will make it in. I promise, baby!" Blaine placed another kiss on his forehead.
"Can I go on? I have so much on my mind!"
Blaine just shook his head.
"I wanna be healthy Blaine. I want to make you proud and my dad proud. I don't wanna be anorexic anymore. Im getting better but I still have this constant need to puke everytime i eat. It just keeps getting worse. But i remember why im doing this and I don't feel the need to do it anymore." Blaine was silent for a few seconds and then all of a sudden Kurt pulled up his sleeve and Blaine almost fainted.
"KURT!Oh MY GOD! Why did you cut yourself?" Blaine became speechless. He just stared at the fresh cuts on Kurt's wrist.
Kurt pulled his bag onto the bag and handed Blaine a razor blade.
"This is why I didn't want to have sex. I didn't want you to see my cuts. Im giving you my razor blade though. I never wanna do it again. It was a stupid mistake. I thought it would help distract me from wanting to puke but it made me feel worse about myself. It made me feel like i had failed you. I felt worthless. But im giving you the blade and I want a fresh start. I need one. I need to start taking careof myself and start showing my body a little more respect.
"Kurt, im proud of you for giving me it. Im gonna throw this away and you can have a new start. Starting today, you are a new Kurt Hummel. The guy who doesn't give up. Your strong Kurt. I believe in you. I believe in us. And we will get through this together. And I will stay by your side every step pf the way"
Kurt leaned over and pulled his boyfriend in for a hug. He whispered thankyou into his ear and went on talking about New York and how they are gonna get an apartment together and maybe a cat. Everything was going good. Kurt Hummel was no longer hding from himself or from the world. He was a new man. And he had Blaine to thank for helping him through all his problems and showing him how to love life.