"Cuts?" Blaine choked out and stared at his boyfriend with a look of concern and tears in his brown eyes.

"I have no idea what you are talking about!" Kurt lied. 

"Kurt, I know it hurts, but it will get better" Brittany sniffles. "When my cat died, I denied it too. I couldn't handle it. But I am here for you" Brittany started to cry again and Santana continued to rub her back, trying to make her feel better, but failing miserably. 

"Kurt, what the hell is she talking about?" Finn asked him.

Great, Kurt thought. I'm screwed. 

"I don't have any cuts. She doesn't know what she is talking about." Kurt tried. But nobody looked convinced. 

"Babe, can you come with me?" Blaine choked out while he pulled his boyfriend out of the choir room as fast as he could. 

"Let me see your arms, Kurt." Blaine demanded 

"No!" Kurt  snapped. "It's none on your god damn business what I do to handle stress." 
Blaine looked as if he were going to bawl his eyes out at any second. 

"Ok, fine. You box when you are stressed. Well, I cut myself. There are you happy? You Know my biggest secret. You must think I'm crazy now. " Kurt said and Blaine just stared at him. 

"You- you cut?" Blaine choked out. Kurt couldn't even stand to look at him because if he did, he was for sure going to cry and Kurt hated to cry. 

"Yeah- I do." Kurt whispered and he felt a lot of guilty. Why did he feel so guilty about this? It wasn't harming anyone else! 

"Why?" Blaine questioned. He couldn't even believe what he was hearing. He couldn't believe that Kurt was doing this to himself. He loved this boy more than anything or anyone and he couldn't even see that he was harming himself? What kind of boyfriend is like that? Now blaine felt really guilty. 

Kurt didn't know what to do. He felt like crying or maybe even just screaming. He felt like he was holding so much in. He wanted to let it out but he felt like even if he did, nobody would care. 

"I just want to be perfect and I can't be perfect. I just- I don't know honestly" Kurt breathed. He was actually speechless. He never wanted anyone to find out about this and now the whole damn glee club knew. He was trapped. Everyone was going to figure out about this. He was going to be bullied so much and he was not excited about it. 

"Talk to me Kurt. I love you so much and I want to help you." Blaine pleaded. He took his boyfriend's  hand with one hand and kissed his fingers. He placed the other one on Kurt's porcelain cheek. "I love you so much. Please" 

"Ok." Kurt began. "Do you promise not to think any different of me if I tell you?" 
Blaine removed his hand from his cheek and nodded. 

"Ok. So when we went to the NYADA mixer, I got a little freaked out by their talent and I was scared I wasn't going to get in. So I stopped eating." 

Blaine gasped and held Kurt's hands even tighter. 

"I stopped eating and I lost 10 pounds. I weighed myself yesterday hoping that I had lost more and I didn't. So I cut myself. It took away the pain. I felt like nothing, Blaine. I thought NYADA wasn't going to want me if I was fat, so I decided to change that. I'm sorry. I just felt like nothing! I felt like I was worthless and I needed an escape." 

Blaine sighed and pulled his boyfriend in for a tight hug. 

"I am so sorry , but I am going to Help you and you at going to get better" Blaine whispered into his ear and Kurt shivered. "Lets just go home and watch movies." 

They went back to Kurt's place and watched Hairspray. Blaine ordered a pizza and Kurt was hesitant but he actually ate a piece. He felt disgusting though. He felt like a pig and he needed to get that garbage out of his body. 

So when Blaine left, Kurt went to the bathroom and kneeled in front of the toilet. 
"Its now or never" He whispered to himself. 

He leaned over the toilet and put a finger down his throat. He gagged a little bit and pulled it out. He was scared. Actually, he was terrified of doing this but it was what he needed to do. He couldn't gain anymore weight or he wouldn't get into NYADA. So again, he put two fingers down his throat and made himself throw up. As soon as he had thrown up, he felt so much better. 

The next morning, Kurt couldn't find a long sleeve shirt to wear, so he stole some of Carole's cover up and put it in his cuts. He hoped that it would cover them up and nobody would realize what he was doing. 

He was now sitting in health class when a guy came over to ask for a piece of gum. Kurt gladly gave him a piece of the spearmint gum and went back to doing his assignment. But then he heard laughing and looked up.  A group of jocks were whispering and laughing at him. He didn't understand why and hd was sort of used to being laughed at because he was gay, so he returned to his work. 

All of a sudden the quarterback of the football team came over and took a seat next to him. 

"Hey Kurt" The guy said with a huge smile in his face. 

"Hey, Drew." Kurt replied and he smiled back. 

"Do you have any gum?" Drew asked and the group of guys started to laugh again. 

"Yeah, let me get you a piece." He replied and he started to dig through his black satchel. 

"What's that on your arm, Hummel? You been cutting?" Drew asked and the guys were over in the corner laughing again. 

"Wh-what?" Kurt choked up and quickly hid his wrist. 

"Actually, I don't need any gum. It was nice talking to you Kurt" Drew said and he got out of his seat and walked back over to his friends, who were dying laughing. 
Kurt was so embarrassed. He felt like his world was over.  That guy must have saw his cuts and Told Drew to go look. 

When the bell rang Kurt ran to Blaine's locker and waited for him. 

"Hey babe" Blaine said as he opened the lock on his locker. 

"Umm hi" Kurt choked out. 

"What's wrong?" Blaine asked,  Worried. 

Kurt closed Blaine's locker and pulled him into the nearest bathroom. He made sure nobody was in there and locked the door. 

"What's going on?" Blaine wondered.

"Everyone's knows" Kurt sobbed ad he buried his face in his small hands. 

"Everyone knows what?" Blaine questioned. 

"Everyone knows that I cut myself! My life is over!" Kurt choked out and he slid down the wall and sat on the cold, hard floor. He pulled his knees into his chest and continued to cry. 

Blaine felt so bad for him. He honesty had no idea how to handle all of this. He sat down next to his crying boyfriend and rubbed his back. 

"It ok, Kurt. Everything is gonna be ok" Blaine said and he was really hoping that he was right. Things were so bad last year for his boyfriend and they were just getting better. Now everything was falling apart right before their eyes and neither of them knew how to fix it. 

Kurt cried for a good 45 minutes and Blaine didn't even care that he was missing class. His boyfriend needed him and he was going to be there for him no matter what the consequences. 

Once he was done crying, he hugged Blaine and they got up off the germ infested bathroom floor. The things that Blaine did for this boy. 

"Everyone will forget about this: don't worry, babe!" Blaine said and he walked Kurt to his class. 

He sure hoped that Blaine was right about this whole thing. 

But just because people hoped for things, doesn't mean that It always happened the way they wanted it to. Sometimes life was just unfair.