July 12, 2013, 12:42 a.m.
You, me and bump makes three: Chapter 17
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"What is wrong with you? I've fed you, I've changed you, I've burped you, what can possibly be wrong??" Kurt was slowly losing his patience, Sophia had pretty much been solidly crying for over 2 hours now, he honestly didn't know what was wrong with her, and to be honest, he felt like crying with her.
He rocked her gently back and forth, walking her round their apartment, he was home alone, Blaine having gone with the New Direction to perform at a Nursing Home, and Blaine's parents both out with friends. He had told Blaine numerous times to go to the performance, even when he had told Kurt he would stay, Sophia was only a few days old and the performance would be a bit much for her.
Another half an hour of the same thing and Kurt was getting ready to break, he put her back in her crib, and walked out of the room to get his phone, he couldn't take it anymore. Pressing the dial button while ferociously wiping the tears from his face, he waited for the call to be answered.
"Hello?"
"Bl-Blaine, I need you, I can't do it, she won't stop cry-crying, I'm such a failure!" Kurt couldn't stop then, he sobbed, more than he had sobbed in a long time, although Sophia was beautiful and the best thing that had ever happened to him, he realised he clearly wasn't up to being a father, he needed help, and that came in the form of Blaine.
"Kurt, shh, baby, it's going to be okay, I promise, I'm going to leave now and be home in a few minutes, where is Sophia?"
"In her crib"
"Good, well, why don't you go and sit in the living room and I'll sort her out when I get home, okay?"
"I can't just leave her to scream Blaine!"
"Well, what do you want me to do Kurt? I can't make her stop crying over the phone! I'm doing my best here!" Kurt sighed, he knew Blaine was trying his best, it was afterall, him that was the failure of a Dad, not Blaine.
"I know, Blaine, I know, I'm sorry, I'm just exhausted and drained from Sophia literally not giving up"
"That's okay, I'll see you in a few minutes?"
"I love you"
Kurt hung the phone up, he was ashamed he had to resort to calling Blaine, but he knew if he didn't he would have only ended up getting himself in a worse situation. Making his way to the couch, he threw himself on the cushions and sobbed into them. He could only hope this whole thing would get easier.
As promised, Blaine walked in a few minutes later, clearly having run from the car. The first thing he did was check on his daughter, seeing she wasn't in any immediate danger, except from maybe feeling a bit annoyed at the world, he turned on her mobile and that seemed to calm her enough so he could deal with his fiancee in the living room.
As he walked in, Kurt was lay face down on the couch, shoulders shaking with tears. He ran over to him and scooped him up in his arms, he could feel Kurt tense at first then wrap himself around Blaine and just cried into his shoulder. Blaine rubbed a soothing hand up and down Kurt's back and kissed his hair, just letting him get it all out.
"Shh, baby, it's going to be okay, we're bound to have some problems in the first few weeks, but this does not make you a terrible parent, quite the opposite in fact, you called for help instead of suffering alone, and that makes you an amazing parent, one that cares enough to get help in the first place."
Kurt let Blaine's words sink in, maybe he had overreacted a little bit, after all babies are supposed to cry, it's their only way of letting people know what they want, and also to get attention. Sitting up, he looked at Blaine, who had a concerned but loving expression on his face.
"You really think I'm a good Dad?"
"I don't think, Kurt, I know, now give yourself a break, why don't you go and take a bath, whilst I go and sort Sophia out, hmm?"
Kurt nodded as Blaine got up to go into Sophia's room, a bath sounded amazing right now. He walked into their bathroom and turned the taps on, waiting for the tub to fill. He stripped off slowly, not daring to look down at his body, he knew it probably wasn't going to be the nicest sight, bearing in mind his skin had been stretched beyond all recognition, but he didn't want to look at it just yet.
Sinking into the tub, he let the water wash away all of his concerns, it felt amazing, and calming. His thoughts went to Sophia and Blaine, he could faintly hear Blaine singing Sophia back to sleep, he couldn't hear his daughter anymore, so it was obviously working, making a mental note to try that next time, he slipped further under the water.
Blaine put his now sleeping daughter back into the crib and walked to check on his husband in the tub, entering the bathroom, he saw Kurt with his head under the water, he would've panicked if it weren't for the bubbles slowly making their way up and to the surface, indicating Kurt was definitely still breathing.
Blaine knew Kurt was an amazing father, he himself could see that, as could everyone else that knew him, it was just such a shame that Kurt couldn't see it himself. He watched as Kurt resurfaced, gasping for air. Walking over he sat on the edge of the tub.
"Do you wanna talk about it?"
"I'm sorry Blaine, I shouldn't have called you, I just lost it a bit back then, and I didn't know what else to do."
"You don't need to apologise for calling me, you know you can call me anytime, I'm more concerned as to why you get yourself so worked up, it's not healthy for you sweetheart."
"I know it's not, and I am trying Blaine, it's just difficult"
"Okay, well I'm going to stay with you for the next few days, this is our child to raise, and you shouldn't ever feel like you're alone, we need to get into a routine, and me going out has broken that routine, and probably confused Sophia, so we're going to get used to being a family, and as always, do it together"
Kurt wasn't completely convinced, but nodded at Blaine, with a small smile on his face, he would try this for Blaine, there was no real alternative anyway, having children was hard, it was going to be ten times harder being a teenager and male, but as Blaine said, they would figure it out together.