I ran fast and far. My heart pounding as I slowed down to a bridge and just looked at the horizon. It must have been 6 in the morning, a car would past every 10 or so minutes. I found a bitter sweet irony in watching people start their day when I was ready to end mine.
I walked to the grassy edge about 15 feet from the lake. I had my doubts, Kurt swears he could fix me. But I feel I'm too far gone. I was born to die, I've always known this. From the moment my father first hit to the day he threw me out. I knew I wouldn't live to be older then 20.
I was already dead, at least this way I could actually be dead.
I slipped my ring off then put it back on. I knew meeting the sun was the way to go. I couldn't rip out my own heart, or cut my head off. I considered running into a tree and staking myself but it seemed like too much work. And I could miss if I didn't plan it out properly. Meeting the sun would make me feel human again. I watched as the sky went from midnight blue to purple some soft reds and oranges joining in the beautiful sunrise.
"Blaine?" My head jerked as I saw Kurt looking at me. "What are you doing all the way out here?" He asked approaching me slowly.
"Thinking," I said in a passive voice. He saw right threw me. He knew my hearts desires, but didn't try to stop me.
"Rachel said you left to go hunting almost an hour ago. I knew it didn't take you that long." He said. "But everything is ready to go."
"I don't know Kurt." I said slipping off my ring undetected. "I don't think I would be good in new york. I don't think I'd be good anywhere."
"Blaine don't talk like this please." He said, his voice cracking, "look at me please." I slowly turned my head and so his brilliant blue eyes even brighter since they were red tear filled.
"Ill catch up with you. I just need a moment to gather my thoughts and clear my mind." I said harshly.
"Can I leave you with a thought?" I nodded my head yes and he spoke. "I love you, and I believe in you. You'll be started your second year in a few weeks. I really need you to give yourself a second chance for me." He pressed a kiss to the side of my head.
"I love you too." I turned and pressed what I thought was my last kiss to his lips. This was my goodbye. "I'll be home soon."
Kurt started walking away and I felt the sun final come over the trees.
It was too late for second chances. I flicked my ring into the lake and felt the burning sensation cover me.
"What the hell are you doing Blaine?" Michael showed his face beside me. "move! I get it, you're in control don't do this to us!" He shouted.
"When there's nothing left to burn, you must set yourself on fire." I muttered closing my eyes feeling the flames consume me.

End of book four.