Chapter 12

Dear Kurt,

The Sadie Hawkins dance approaches and everyone is madly looking around them at possible dates. The boys look as if they might be pounced on by ferocious girls and I'm all for empowerment but some do look very scary.

I'm glad we don't have to worry about that and I know you've been really nice about it all, understanding why I wouldn't want to go and you've never mentioned it but I wanted to let you know that I don't mind discussing it with you.

The actual night with Michael was pretty good. We danced and had a laugh, joking and drinking virgin punch. I had asked him to the dance and he knew it wasn't a serious invitation but we had our first kiss before we went and it felt so different to anything I thought I would feel. It was magical and although it was a bit wet and too timid, everything was conveyed in that one kiss. It was like we were doing each other a massive favour and would share that forever. I never really found Michael attractive but I was never sure how he felt about me. He would joke, saying that I was lucky that I didn't want to date him because he would pounce on me. He thought he was an oaf and the non-romantic type but he would have been a great first love for anyone, I know it.

Our friends accepted us being there, the few that were kind and supportive but I wish it had happened at Dalton instead. I know with its anti-bullying policy that things would have turned out differently but I know, learning the hard way that you can't wish for a different past, you have to live in the present. There are no alternative universes.

I remember seeing him in the hospital after we were attacked and he looked so tired, almost as if he had aged ten or twenty years in the meantime. I was always so optimistic, I think I irritated him. The actual dance was the last time we had fun though, the last time he smiled a genuine sweet smile and I'll always remember that.

I wanted to tell you all that so you'd know, know that I don't hate the thought of the Sadie Hawkins dance and that the thought of going with you actually makes me feel lighter. I can't help but look at you in amazement Kurt, I think you're amazing and your blue eyes, well I don't think I can describe them to my satisfaction. I think we must both have magnetic powers.

I wanted to ask you Kurt: will you go to the Sadie Hawkins dance with me?

Blaine x

Dear Blaine,

Yes, a thousand times yes, as long as you'll be ok and it won't worry you. I don't ever want to upset you or try to replace Michael's memory.

Kurt x

Blaine thought he might be able to fly to Glee club after receiving the letter at lunchtime and Kurt watched as he entered and did think he looked like he was on a floating device as he glided in. Blaine sat next to Tina who was sitting in the front row in the choir room but he smiled at Kurt who was sat behind Tina. His eyes glistened with happiness and Kurt could feel his stomach swoop at the thought he had caused that grin.

xXx

Blaine picked up Kurt on the evening of the dance with his pink boutonniere matching Kurt's. They were dressed in simple black tuxes with crisp white shirts and Burt wished them a nice evening and took photos on their first dance together. Blaine promised that he would return Kurt before midnight, grinning widely as Burt called Kurt Cinderfella.

Blaine drove them to the dance as they chatted excitedly about the songs they were singing and the different couples they would see tonight. Santana was going publicly with Brittany this time and no one had really commented, aware of their attraction and close friendship all along. Rachel had asked Finn before Quinn could and everyone seemed to have taken who they belonged with, making Blaine feel happy and romantic.

As they arrived Kurt took Blaine's hand confidently and Blaine stopped suddenly as he felt Kurt's warm palm in his. As he looked at Kurt's sparkling blue eyes and wide smile amongst the glitter and glam of the dance, he felt a swoop in his chest and he couldn't believe Kurt had said yes and they were here together.

The glee club had been asked to sing at the dance and Blaine sang a group number with the boys: No Scrubs being popular as Kurt watched on, admiring how Blaine's shirt emphasised his well-formed chest. He had never really thought of Blaine as cheeky or overtly sexy but as he sang Last Friday Night, he danced around stage, tipping his hat and winking at Kurt whenever he saw Kurt in the crowd. Mercedes sang Love on Top, reaching all the amazing high notes and killing it. The girls followed it with Run the World and Kurt thought they had never looked so fierce. As the evening slowed down, Rachel sang Without You and Blaine and Kurt looked nervously at each other as they came closer together. Kurt wound his arms around Blaine's shoulders and their faces were inches apart, so close that Blaine could smell Kurt's shampoo and the unmistakeable scent of Kurt. They swayed to the slow rhythm of the song and Kurt moved his face closer so their cheeks were almost touching. He was so close to Blaine's ear that any whisper between them tickled.

"You're amazing Blaine," Kurt whispered as they swayed, "I can't believe I'm here with you." Blaine had never felt so at peace, so mesmerised by the meaning of the music and his fingers becoming warmer as they wove small circles around Kurt's waist.

It was soon Blaine's turn to sing a slow song so they parted as Blaine approached the stage. He stood nervously as the piano started playing, couples on the dance floor not removing themselves from their current positions. He sought out Kurt's eyes as he stood on the sidelines watching Blaine as he started to sing.

It's a little bit funny, this feeling inside

I'm not one of those who can easily hide

I don't have much money, but boy if I did

I'd buy a big house where we both could live

So excuse me forgetting, but these things I do

See I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue

Anyway the thing is what I really mean

Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

Blaine's warm smile seemed to waft over Kurt as he sung, looking directly at Kurt's blue eyes, telling him so much more than he ever wanted to reveal face-to-face normally. This was much more powerful without the means of a letter and Kurt felt exposed and oh it was marvellous.

And you can tell everybody this is your song

It may be quite simple, but now that it's done

I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind that I put down in words

How wonderful life is now you're in the world

If I was a sculptor, but then again no

Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show

I know it's not much, but it's the best I can do

My gift is my song, and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song

It may be quite simple, but now that it's done

I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind that I put down in word

How wonderful life is now you're in the world

Everyone only had eyes for the person they were with as the slow songs continued and Blaine found Kurt eagerly as he came down from the stage. As another song started, this time Rachel sang and Blaine held Kurt by the waist as Kurt matched his pose. He could feel Blaine's surprisingly firm muscles under his jacket and as Rachel sang, they sunk closer together.

At last

My love has come along

My lonely days are over

And life is like a song

Oh yeah yeah, at last

The skies above are blue

My heart was wrapped up in clover

The night I looked at you

Blaine parted slightly from Kurt and he looked so open and inviting, his eyes warm and shiny, that Kurt found courage from somewhere and leaned in close, closing his eyes as Blaine closed the tiny gap and their lips touched. Kurt knew all the clichés about fireworks but a spark was definitely felt as they moved their lips together slowly. Blaine finally understood what all the songs referred to, understood what had been missing with Michael. They parted for a gasp of a breath but came together again, this time Blaine tentatively licked the corner of Kurt's mouth and he was invited in and he melted again and sighed. This was where he belonged.

Oh, and then the spell was cast

And here we are in Heaven

For you are mine at last

The song was over too soon but they parted and Kurt caught Mercedes' eye as she danced with Sam and she smiled with a wink.

xXx

Dear Kurt,

I was really nervous about the Sadie Hawkins dance, worried that it would bring back memories of Michael, would make me anxious about the consequence of going with a guy but I needn't have worried. It was perfect. You were perfect.

You looked so beautiful Kurt and as I sang I loved watching you and seeing you down in the crowd, there for me. You took my breath away.

I didn't know it would feel quite like this but I find myself thinking about you all the time. I see you at school, in lessons, glee or at lunch but when we're apart all I want to do is be with you again or write letters. I hope you don't mind.

The kiss… the kiss, well I couldn't possibly explain how that felt, there are no words but we need to repeat that soon.

I can't wait to see you tonight after school and this might sound really dorky but I wondered if you wanted to be my boyfriend?

Blaine x