March 16, 2013

Blaine woke up feeling almost fully recovered from his cold. His head was resting on Kurt’s chest as the rest of his body was curled into Kurt’s side, their legs tangled together under the covers. Blaine smiled to himself and relished in the feeling of being so close to the love of his life after months of separation.

Kurt moved the hand that was tangled in Blaine’s hair slowly. “How are you feeling?”

Blaine lifted his head, rested his chin on Kurt’s chest, and looked up at Kurt. “Much better,” Blaine said quietly.

“I’m glad! That means we can go out today as planned!” Kurt squeaked out.

“You know, if this whole fashion thing doesn’t work out you should consider being a nurse. You have excellent bedside manner,” he teased.

Kurt laughed. “I don’t know about that. It helps when you’re patient is so pathetic that it’s hard not to take pity on them.”

Blaine gasped, faking outrage. “Are you calling me pathetic?”

“’Kurtie, these pills don’t like me,’” Kurt said, imitating Blaine’s tone and facial expressions from the night before.

Blaine smacked Kurt’s chest playfully, sat up and turned to face Kurt. “I was sick! You know I turn into a five year old when I get sick! You can’t hold that against me!” Blaine crossed his arms and pouted. “It’s not fair!”

“Life isn’t fair.” Kurt deadpanned as he stood up from the bed. “Now get up and get in the shower. We have,” he glanced at the alarm clock next to him, “two hours before we need to leave.”

“Why should I?” Blaine countered teasingly.

Kurt sighed. “Because you will have a fantastic time.”

“But what are we doing?”

“Please, Blaine. It’s a surprise. I can’t tell you!” Kurt said exacerbated.

“If you tell me I’ll do whatever you say; no questions.”

Kurt threw his hands in the air. “You’re so difficult! Can’t you let me do one nice thing for you? It’s like you don’t trust me anymore or something!” Kurt leveled a glare at Blaine. “Is that it? Do you not trust me?”

Blaine flew out of the bed and stood in front of Kurt. He placed his hands on Kurt’s upper arms. “No! No, Kurt! I trust you completely.”

Kurt flashed Blaine a pout. “Then why won’t you just let me keep this a surprise?”

Blaine sighed and dropped his hands from Kurt’s arms. “Fine, you can keep your surprise. I’ll get in the shower.”

Kurt looked at Blaine through his lashes. “No questions?”

Blaine nodded. “No questions. I promise.”

Kurt squealed and clapped his hands. “You are so easy!”

Blaine’s mouth hung open. “You—what?”

Kurt rolled his eyes. “Blaine, really? You think I don’t know you trust me? I just wanted you to stop fighting me on keeping today a surprise.”

“You tricked me? You used trust to trick me?” Blaine glared at Kurt. “That’s a low blow, Hummel.”

“What are you going to do about it, Anderson?” Kurt said through his giggles.

Blaine lunged for Kurt and threw them both down onto the bed. He straddled Kurt’s legs to pin him down and started to tickle Kurt’s sides; the part of Kurt that he knew was the most ticklish. Kurt laughed loudly. “No! Blaine! Stop! I’m sorry! I won’t do it again!” Kurt said breathlessly through shrieks of laughter.

“You’re sorry, are you?” Blaine said, tickling even harder.

“Yes!” Kurt yelled loudly. “I’m sorry! I shouldn’t—I shouldn’t have used that against you!”

Blaine’s hands stilled and dropped to the bed. Suddenly, he was aware of how close his and Kurt’s faces were. He looked down at Kurt. “No you shouldn’t have. That was dirty, Kurt.”

Kurt opened his eyes slowly as he panted to try to catch his breath. He looked up at Blaine in a way that Blaine had seen many times during their relationship. Love and desire shone through his eyes.  Blaine didn’t know what to do. He hadn’t wanted to kiss Kurt this much since before their first kiss; but he knew that if he did kiss him, things would get complicated with their break. Suddenly, Blaine couldn’t remember why he had wanted to take a break in the first place. Slowly, on an impulse, Blaine lowered his head and brushed their lips together. He felt Kurt gasp slightly and then their light kiss turned passionate and hungry. Their lips and tongues danced in a familiar rhythm that comforted Blaine. He had missed kissing Kurt a lot more than he had realized until this moment.

They kissed until the need for air became too great. The second their lips disconnected, Blaine rolled off of Kurt to lie next to him on the bed. They both lay silently for a moment.

Kurt was the one to break the silence. “What was that?”

Blaine chuckled. “Well, Kurt, I believe that was what most people refer to as a kiss.”

Kurt slapped Blaine’s chest. “I know that. I meant, what did it mean?”

Blaine sighed. “I don’t know.”

“Well, I think we should figure that out. Don’t you?” Kurt said as he pulled himself into a sitting position.

Blaine sat up and faced Kurt. “Yea, we probably should.”

Kurt looked into Blaine’s eyes. “Do you regret kissing me?” He said quietly.

Blaine quickly took one of Kurt’s hands in his. “What? No! I don’t regret it at all.” Blaine sighed. “I’m just confused.”

“What do you want?” Kurt asked gently. “This is all up to you.”

Blaine looked away from Kurt. “I want you.”

“You know you still have me.”

“But I haven’t graduated yet. I’m still busy. I can’t give you all the attention that you need.”

Kurt squeezed Blaine’s hand. “I don’t need constant attention, Blaine. I’m not a puppy. I can do things for myself and by myself.”

Blaine laughed and looked back at Kurt. “I know that. But you shouldn’t have to. You should be with someone who can shower you with love and affection all the time. Not someone who doesn’t have time to listen to you talk about your day.”

“Blaine, I don’t need or want love and affection all the time. I’m not that narcissistic.”

“I didn’t mean it like that,” Blaine sighed.

“I know. But, Blaine, I don’t want anything more than you can give me. I don’t need anything but you.”

Blaine smiled.  “Same here.”

It was Kurt’s turn to smile. “Good.” He paused and took in a deep breath. “Where does that leave us?”

Blaine shook his head slowly. “I don’t know.” He sighed loudly. “I want you so much. But I feel like I should stick to my original plan.”

Kurt nodded. “Okay. Then do that.”

Blaine looked at Kurt wide-eyed. “Really? You won’t be upset with me?”

Kurt laughed darkly. “I won’t be upset with you. I told you, this is up to you. We’re going to go at your pace on this; just like we went at mine when we were thinking about sex. I want you to feel comfortable when we get back together so that I can feel comfortable. I don’t want to force you into this.”

Blaine let out the breath he didn’t know he was holding. “Thank you, Kurt.” Blaine looked down at the bed. “I’m sorry that I’m hurting you again. The last thing I want to do is hurt you.”

Blaine felt Kurt’s soft palm rest against his cheek. He leaned into the hand and looked back up and into Kurt’s eyes. “Honey, you aren’t hurting me. I may be a bit sad about the situation, but I’m not hurt. I know that in the end we’ll be back in each other’s arms—that’s all that matters. This middle stuff—it’s all just stuff that will make our story more interesting when I’m sitting in that nursing home.”

Blaine nodded and wiped a stray tear from his cheek. After a moment, he smiled broadly. “I should get ready for my surprise.”

Kurt jumped up and pulled Blaine up as well. “Yes you should!” Kurt pushed Blaine over to the adjoining bathroom. “You go get in the shower. I’ll pick out an outfit for you to wear and leave it in there for you. When you’re done in the shower I’ll use the guest bathroom to get ready.”

Blaine laughed and stepped into the bathroom. He quickly showered and dressed in the black skinny jeans and black button down shirt Kurt had picked out for him. For a while he just stared at himself in the mirror, trying to figure out how to do his hair. Finally, he just decided to put in just enough product to keep away the frizz while also allowing his hair to curl wildly; the way Kurt has loved to see his hair since prom. He stepped out of the bathroom and went directly to his closet. He pulled out the bright red bowtie that Kurt had given him for his birthday last year and tied it around his neck. Just as he finished tying it, Kurt walked into the room looking wonderful in a pair of black skinny jeans and a white long sleeved shirt under a grey vest. He smiled when he saw the bowtie.

“How did I know you’d add a bowtie to the outfit?” He said, laughing lightly.

“Because you know I feel naked without one,” Blaine said, smiling broadly. “You look great.”

“Thanks, so do you. Love the hair.” Kurt said, smiling fondly.

“Shall we get this show on the road?”

“Yes!” Kurt said and turned to leave the room. Blaine followed behind him to Kurt’s car. They got in and Kurt started the engine. They drove in silence. Blaine was actively trying to figure out where Kurt was taking him, but every lead he had was dashed each time they passed an exit on the freeway. Finally, realization dawned on Blaine when they took the rarely used exit that led to McKinley High School.

“You’re taking me to school? On a Saturday?” Blaine asked incredulously.

“Patience, grasshopper. All will be revealed shortly.”

They pulled into the parking lot and Blaine saw that there were no other cars in that parking lot. Kurt and Blaine got out of the car. When their paths met, Kurt stopped and turned to Blaine. “I know a shortcut!” He said, taking Blaine’s hand and running. Blaine began to laugh as he followed Kurt to the courtyard. Kurt led him to a table and made him sit.

“I was going to surprise you in glee yesterday, but because you were sick, we had to change things around. So sit back and enjoy the song.” Kurt walked to the top of the stairs and faced Blaine. “Hit it!” He yelled.

Suddenly music filled the air. It took Blaine a few moments to figure out what the song was. Finally, when Kurt started to sing, Blaine realized that the song was Vanilla Twilight by Owl City.

The stars lean down to kiss you

And I lie awake and miss you

Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

Kurt started to slowly walk down the stairs towards Blaine. He was smiling and singing with the voice of an angel.

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly

But I'll miss your arms around me

I'd send a postcard to you, dear

'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue

But it's not the same without you

Because it takes two to whisper quietly

Kurt reached the last step and walked to the table Blaine was sitting on.

The silence isn't so bad

'Til I look at my hands and feel sad

'Cause the spaces between my fingers

Are right where yours fit perfectly

Kurt laced their fingers together and looked into Blaine’s eyes as he sang the rest of the song in that position.

I'll find repose in new ways

Though I haven't slept in two days

'Cause cold nostalgia

Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight

I'll sit on the front porch all night

Waist-deep in thought because

When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink

I'll think of you tonight

I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter

And heavy wings grow lighter

I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew

But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach

Back through the past

I'd whisper in your ear

Kurt leaned over and whispered the last line into Blaine’s ear.

Oh darling, I wish you were here

As the music faded, Blaine used his free hand to wipe away the tears that had pooled in his eyes. He dropped Kurt’s hand and threw his arms around him in a huge hug. He buried his face in Kurt’s neck and smiled. After a few seconds he pulled away. “Thank you, Kurt! That song was beautiful.”

“You’re welcome. I’m glad you liked it.”

Just then Tina walked down the stairs of the courtyard. Blaine laughed loudly. “You were in on this?”

Tina nodded and laughed. “Of course. The second you texted me yesterday I thought of this idea. So I told Kurt and he liked it and here we are.”

“How’d you get permission to you the PA system?” Blaine wondered.

“Oh, that wasn’t the PA system. That was Artie’s stereo equipment. He let us borrow it for today.” Tina explained.

Blaine looked at Kurt in awe. “You did all of this for me. You are amazing, Kurt.”

“It wasn’t that much, really. I wanted to do something nice for you.” Kurt said, shrugging off the compliment.

“Okay, you two. We should get to the mall before Sam and Artie get the New Directions kicked out.”