Blaine finished his breakfast within a few bites. Yes, he had been hungry when he woke up. For a second he had panicked to find Kurt's spot in the bed empty, but then he heard a noise in the bathroom and when he walked up to check, the door was locked, meaning Kurt was inside. With a relieved sigh he asked the boy if he was almost done. Kurt looked a bit upset, but Blaine needed a toilet, so he had no time for conversation.

When Kurt told him to eat and that he was going to shower, Blaine decided to give his boyfriend some space. There was no use in mistrusting everything Kurt said he was going to do. If he would ask for answers, he wouldn't get them.

But when after his breakfast, Kurt still hadn't appeared upstairs, Blaine started to worry. So he returned to Kurt's bathroom, the sound of the running shower audible from within the room. Blaine knows Kurt will probably not like it if he just walks into the room, while he's showering and vulnerable. But the truth is, Blaine is sure he won't get an opportunity like this again soon. He just wants to see Kurt. Is it bad to want to see and touch your boyfriend?

So he silently opens the door and slips into the bathroom. Kurt apparently doesn't notice him, because there is no one yelling or scowling at him. Because of the steam, Blaine is unable to see into the shower cabin, but he can see a figure inside that can't be anything or anyone else but Kurt.

He slips out of his clothes, lays a towel ready to use for when he gets out of the shower and quietly opens the door, slipping inside.

His eyes widen at the sight of Kurt's body. He doesn't know which part shocks him the most - the bones sticking out, the sickly pale skin or the pink and red lines covering his boyfriend's arms, chest, hips and upper legs. He looks nothing like the Kurt he's used to seeing. Well, the Kurt he used to see months ago. It was like his body was slowly disappearing.

"Oh my God, Kurt.."

"Oh, Jesus! What the fuck! Blaine!"

Kurt, who apparently had his eyes closed, is shrieking and cursing, sliding down to the floor, attempting to hide his body. He's looking up at Blaine, his eyes wide, scared and red, telling Blaine he's crying, even though that's hard to see with the water. His frail body is shaking uncontrollably. Blaine feels tears stinging in his eyes.

"Kurt.."

"Get the fuck out, Blaine."

"W-What?"

"Get out!"

Kurt is glaring at him, even though he's obviously still half in shock, embarrassed and in pain, he also looks furious. Blaine swallows almost audibly. Kurt was quite scary when he was angry. Luckily it was almost never directed to him. But he's not going to let Kurt intimidate him again. It's now or never.

He kneels down next to Kurt, so he's at the same level and can look him right in the eye.

"Kurt, what have you done?"

Kurt presses his lips together, sobs shaking through his body.

"Baby, talk to me. What is going on? Why are you so.. so.."

"Fat?"

"What? Are you kidding me? How-"

Suddenly realisation dawns on him. The barely eating, meal skipping, the lying, the hiding, the refusing to be touched. He can feel his heart breaking in his chest.

"Oh.. No.. God, no.. Kurt.. Why.. Why would you.. Oh, fuck.. I'm so stupid. I'm so stupid!"

He wraps his arms around the trembling body, ignoring the pushing and scratching. It's like he's holding a scared kitten that is fighting to get free.

"Sht.. Kurt, baby, it's me. It's me. It's Blaine. It's okay. Everything's okay."

They're plain lies, because nothing is okay. Kurt is obviously a complete mess. He doesn't even know why he has scars and cuts all over his body, but Blaine is determined to fix his beautiful Kurt. The boy didn't deserve all this and Blaine feels like a complete, brainless retard for not figuring it out much sooner. The big clothes, Kurt locking himself away and refusing to eat, freezing in his embraces.. It was all so clear and he just didn't see it.

His words seem to help a bit, though. Kurt surrenders and stops clawing and pushing. Now he's practically clinging to Blaine, sobbing, unable to speak. Blaine can only hold his broken boyfriend close, trying to ignore the pain in his heart, at the obvious feeling of Kurt's ribs underneath his hands.

"Oh, Kurt.. My baby.. My beautiful Kurt.."

Blaine knows he's started to ramble, but he doesn't know what to say. He had no idea it was this bad. Of course, he was worried and everything. But he can't help but to think that if he would have paid more attention, he would have figured it out sooner and he could have helped Kurt, before he actually looked like he does now. He's holding Kurt, but not too tightly, afraid he will snap the fragile body in two if he adds too much pressure on it.

"Blaine, Blaine, I'm sorry.. I'm sorry for lying.. Don't cry, I'm fine, I'm fine.."

"Babe, you're not fine. You're not.. Oh God, this is my fault."

"Wha-What?"

"I haven't told you enough how beautiful and perfect you are and now you're hurting yourself like this.."

"I will be perfect, Blaine. I will be-"

"Kurt, no. No. You are perfect. Please, please, believe me."

"I wish I could, Blaine. But I can see my body, too."

Blaine doesn't know what to say. It's obvious Kurt won't let anything change his mind. So he just strokes the boy's body, in an attempt to comfort him.

"I'll fix you, baby. I promise. I'll fix you."

"Blaine.."

"Sht.."

Blaine closes his eyes, pressing soft kisses in Kurt's neck, trying to keep his broken boyfriend together, while he tries his hardest to stop crying himself.

After a few minutes, Kurt's body has stopped trembling and his sobs have somewhat faded away. Blaine isn't crying anymore. His heart is still aching and he feels exhausted, but he's so happy to have Kurt in his arms after such a long time. Of course, the reason was fucked up, but he missed Kurt's body, even if he can barely recognize it right now.

"Kurt, baby?"

"Y-Yeah?"

"We should get out, before they get worried."

Kurt nods and Blaine helps him get up. The pale boy is still trying to hide his body, so Blaine pulls him into another embrace, making sure Kurt knows he can't see his body, only hold it. To prove it even more, he closes his eyes, just holding the slightly taller boy, breathing in his scent.

"Let's get you dried and into clothes, baby. We still need to talk about this, but I know you're really vulnerable right now, so it can wait, okay?"

Kurt nods again and Blaine can feel the boy hiding his face into his shoulder. He opens his eyes and quietly starts to wash Kurt's hair, his eyes widening at the amount of hairs that are falling out as soon as he brushes his fingers through it. He keeps his mouth shut, though. He doesn't want to stress Kurt more than he already is.

When he finishes with Kurt's hair, he washes his own. Then he washes his body, while still holding Kurt with one arm. The other boy just remains still and silent.

"Kurt.. Can I..?"

".. Okay.."

Blaine smiles weakly and gently spreads the soap over Kurt's body, making sure he doesn't make any unexpected moves or touch too intimate parts. It's mainly to show Kurt he isn't disgusted by his body and still wants to touch him. He wants Kurt to feel safe around him – accepted. When he's done, he opens the shower and gets out.

"Take your time, I'm right here."

Kurt nods and gives him a little smile of gratitude. Blaine closes the door and dries himself off with his towel. He puts on clean clothes and gets some wide, warm clothes for Kurt from his closet. When he returns with the clothes, Kurt has left the shower and wrapped himself up in a big, fluffy towel, making him look even smaller. He looks up and smiles a bit awkwardly at Blaine. Blaine smiles back, before his face turns serious again.

"We should take care of those cuts.."

He takes a clean bandage and wraps it around Kurt's arm, after inspecting the wounds to make sure they are clean. When he's finished, he softly touches Kurt's cheek and kisses his lips. He takes a step back and hands him the clothes. Then he turns his back to Kurt, giving him some privacy.

"Blaine?"

"Hm?"

"You- You can look.. I think.."

Blaine's heart skips a beat, but he doesn't say anything. He turns around slowly, keeping his eyes on Kurt's face, while his boyfriend puts on his clothes with a slight blush on his face, still obviously trying to hide his body as much as possible, but Blaine knows this is a big step for Kurt.

When the other boy is dressed too, Blaine takes his hand and leads him back to the bedroom and onto the bed. There he lays Kurt down, before pulling him into another embrace – protecting him with his arms.

"Are you okay like this?"

"I will be."

"Take your time."

Silence.

"Blaine?"

"Yes?"

"Please don't tell anyone.."

"I- Er.."

"What?"

"I kind of talked to your dad yesterday.."