April 28, 2012, 4:08 a.m.
Perfect Porcelain: Chapter 1: Blaine
M - Words: 636 - Last Updated: Apr 28, 2012 Story: Closed - Chapters: 23/? - Created: Feb 29, 2012 - Updated: Apr 28, 2012 1,146 0 12 0 0
Blaine Anderson is happily singing along to Teenage Dream, unaware of two piercing blue eyes that are following his moves from behind a fashion magazine. "Blaine, that table is dripping" Kurt's clear voice sounds over the music. Blaine looks up from his water and soap. "I'm cleaning, babe. It's supposed to get wet." He receives a snort from his boyfriend. "Yes, you're cleaning. Not teaching it how to swim."
Kurt gets up and moves to Blaine with a faked sigh of annoyance. "You're such a kid, Anderson. Did you never learn how to clean something properly?" He takes the sponge from Blaine's hands and squeezes the water out, so it can absorb some of the water that's spread out over the table. "Look, that's how you clean. You were drowning our furniture."
Blaine is still grinning sheepishly and he shrugs. "I like watching you clean." He replies. "So I'm getting off my lazy ass for once?" Blaine laughs. "Of course not, silly. You can sit on your ass. You're already working too hard at your new study. You deserve some rest." Kurt freezes as Blaine rubs his ass, teasingly.
"What's wrong, babe?" Kurt shakes his head. "Nothing, just didn't expect that." He smiles and Blaine smiles back. Then he wraps his arms around his boyfriend, who instantly goes rigid in his embrace.
"Kurt?"
"It's just- I- You're wet."
"It's water and soap."
"It could give stains on my clothes."
Kurt pushes him away and walks off towards their bedroom, while snatching his fashion magazine from the couch. "Where are you going?" Blaine asks, confused. "Bed, I have a headache." Kurt replies. "I'll have dinner ready in a bit!" Blaine calls towards the shut door. He doesn't get a reply.
Half an hour later, Blaine is knocking on the door. Kurt doesn't reply. The door is locked and there's a sound of a pen writing on paper when he presses his ear against the door. Maybe Kurt isn't hungry again. Blaine blames the stress he gets from school. Kurt was always locked up in their bedroom, going through fashion magazines and writing essays. He never imagined a study involving fashion would be that hard. Then again, Kurt was a perfectionist. Everything had to be checked over and over.
"Kurt? Baby? Dinner's ready. Could you please say something?"
There's a soft sound of sheets moving on the other side of the door. "I'm not hungry, Blaine."
"Have you eaten anything at all today?"
"Blaine, I'm not a kid, I can take care of myself."
"Have you, then? You seem to barely eat anything. You're getting thinner."
There's a short silence. "I ate while you were at the supermarket, Blaine. Don't worry, alright?"
"Kurt, we're communicating through our bedroom dooragain."
"I'm working, alright. You have dinner. I bet you made something delicious again."
Blaine smiles, because Kurt is just too sweet. He feels bad for doubting his boyfriend. Of course he can take care of himself. Kurt has been living alone with his father for years. He practically grew up without a mother. He was used to looking after himself.
Blaine presses his hand against the hard door. He doesn't know why, it just feels a bit closer to Kurt. "I'm sorry, baby. Just don't push yourself too hard on this study, alright? You're always busy with those essays. It feels like the others are letting you do all the hard work. I thought you were working in groups this period?"
"We're supposed to, but I seem to be the most driven in succeeding with this assignment and actually getting a perfect grade. Some of them are terribly lazy."
"Don't make it too late, alright?"
"Yes, dad."
Blaine sighs and removes his hand from the door. " I love you." He says, before returning to the kitchen for his fifth dinner alone this week. He hopes the assignment is done soon. At least Christmas is close. Kurt can really use a vacation.
Comments
This story is so sad! And most authors that write eating disorders make it too dramatic, ex. Kurt weighing 80 pounds or him wanting to die ect, but you keep it realistic. I really love your writing and ideas! Especially Kurt's thoughts, how one meal would make you gain 100 pounds and gaining 2.2 pounds in two days makes you feel like a failure. I used to have anorexia and I'd be 114 one day and 116 the next idk what my point is. Great story :D
Thank you so much! It wouldn't be realistic if Kurt was terribly underweight, because 1) You don't get there without anyone noticing. 2) He'd probably already be in a hospital from the start. I'm writing this from experience, so I'm trying to keep it realistic and perfect. I mean, my behavior is 100% anorexic, but I still have a healthy BMI. I'm basically Kurt, but not underweight xD I think most people who write ED's don't know the point of the disease. It's not the drama, it's the unhealthy thoughts and behavior, but mainly the hiding. They don't want people to know, because that means they'll have to eat and gain, like Kurt experiences now. You probably know that too. The saddest part is that people who are underweight, can gain really quickly from eating something really small, because their body isn't used to getting food. No wonder Kurt is freaking out majorly from one bite. Anyway (sorry for the rant xD) I hope you'll keep on reading! x
i'm crying, this is so amazing. please update soon!
So interesting and powerful story ! The call ? Yes I have an idea, even almost a hope I'd admit... can't wait to read if I am right !
Er.. Well, my parents, my partner, some of my friends.. I'm still looking for help, but my parents don't really care about any of it, like.. when they see my cuts, they ignore it. Meh.
hey sweetheart its okay, i self harm and have a bit of an eating disorder. i know what your talking about write about you know haha all my stories are like that too!! who knows about your ed and self harming?
whats your weight? (sorry, i kinda wanna help since i cant help myself) my parents know and really care but i reject there caring and 2 of my best friends know and my whole family knows
Oh, I have a healthy weight xD I'm fine, really. My family doesn't know, because we don't talk about it or something and all the attention goes to my younger sister right now, because she has a drug problem (which is obviously more important than someone who has been suicidal for about 5 years), so she's the one who needs support and all.. Ohwell.
I'm really sorry that your parents don't pay attention to you, do you talk to your girlfriend ever about it? I talk to my therapist and my best friend "Nick" he's in one of my stories. Journals always help too
We do talk about it a lot, but she has an ed too, so it's hard to really talk about it. We're also pretty much in a long-distance relationship. Eating is a lot easier when we're together. She's my greatest support. Writing this story helps a lot, it's kind of like my journal. Sometimes I don't update for some time, because I feel a bit better and I don't want to get sucked into depression because of the story, while I feel a bit happier for once.
I actually saved it in my tracked stories yesterday, but I haven't had time to read it yet. I'll try to get on it tomorrow and I'll make sure to review!
I would die if you read and reviewed Fix a Heart. Seriously I fucking love your writing!!