March 18, 2012, 3:51 a.m.
Wrong: Epilogue
M - Words: 439 - Last Updated: Mar 18, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 23/23 - Created: Feb 22, 2012 - Updated: Mar 18, 2012 892 0 7 0 0
EPILOGUE
Blaine would love to be able to say that it gets easy after that, but it doesn’t work that way. It’s still a battle, every single moment a fight to get better. There are days when he feels so numb he wants to scratch at his skin to get to the real, feeling person underneath; there are hours upon hours of therapy – by himself, with his parents, with Kurt – many of which end in tears. There are nights when he can’t sleep and Kurt’s no longer there all the time to soothe and cuddle him; and moments when he feels so exhausted he just wants to give up. There’s still anxiety and occasional panic attacks, even though these are a rarity now. It’s not easy.
But there are more moments like that now – moments when he feels himself, and it’s enough to give him hope; strength to keep fighting. After the meds kick in for good, these moments become longer and more frequent, until he remembers what it’s like to be motivated, energetic; to be happy. And there are days that make it all so worth it; worth the fight, the pain, the exhaustion.
Christmas spent partly at Kurt’s house, and partly with his parents who at least try to be there for him, for real.
New Year’s with friends from school and some of the old New Directions crowd, and kissing Kurt at midnight under the clear starry sky.
Returning to school and Glee, and remembering why he loved performing.
Realizing that somehow, somewhere, the good days became more frequent than the bad ones.
The afternoons spent with Kurt in the garage or in his house, and their sleepovers once or twice a week.
The pride on everyone’s faces when the acceptance letter from NYU comes.
The afternoon, weeks later in the empty house, when they get carried away and end up naked, pressed against each other in a frantic rhythm of stuttering hips until they both come and it feels like the first time all over again.
And that moment when they stand, hand in hand, on the doorstep of their first apartment in New York, ready to make that one step into their bright future, together.
It may still be a fight, sometimes. There may be bad moments, bad days, more therapy, meds for months and months before he’ll be able to live without them – but it’s worth it. It will always be worth it, no matter what.
THE END
Comments
it is a happy ending and i am smiling but i'm also sad because this means i will be waiting and checking your profile everyday to finally see the new brilliant stuff that you've written but it will be worth it . . . You know why??? Because YOU are AMAZİNG!!! aaaand i can't wait for a new story but i think you won't keep us waiting so long right?? Right. :)
Oh my god this is one of the best stories ever and even though it's angst and drama and such, I'm really sad it's finished. You describe everything so well and it feels so real and I felt so so sorry for Kurt mostly, because I know how exhausting it is to deal with all that shit. Same for Blaine, though. It takes over your life and you push people away so you can just die without feeling guilty, because they're tired of you by now. Kurt is amazing and caring and perfect and I love him for his strength. This review makes no sense, really. But I want you to know I love you for this story and I hope you're okay. x
kudos for an amazing tale :)
SO GOOD.
Oh man. Thank you so much for this story. I'm serious. This was beautful
Wow, I'm exhausted. What a trip.I've never been more relieved that I've never had a depression and hopefully never will.I really wasn't sure about reading this one but I knew even if it would be depressing (no pun intended) there will be a Happy-Klaine-Ending (Because that's what you do, right?) and your writing will be worth it in the end. And I was right about it.Perfect as allways.Now there's only one of you stories left that I haven't read and I can't wait to dive into it. So I stop talking and start reading immediately. :-)
Amazing. Sad but amazing