Kurt decided to do some grocery shopping. Rachel had left for work a few minutes ago and Kurt felt lonely in their apartment. He was still getting the silent treatment from Blaine and sitting in his room, waiting for his phone to finally signalize a text or an incoming call from him was even more pathetic now than it had been in the beginning.

Kurt ran into their neighbor in the hallway. He liked the guy, but sometimes his cheerfulness was too much.

“Hi, Kurt! I’m glad to see you.”

“Hi, Adam.” Kurt greeted him politely, hoping Adam was on his way to his apartment. No such luck.

“I need some coffee. Do you want to join me?”

“I’m sorry. I have to do some shopping…” Kurt answered. The elevator finally came and they got in.

“I’m sure it can wait for a while. I’ve been asking you out for a cup of coffee for more than a month now. Come on, stop rejecting me.” Adam said with playful grin.

“Maybe another time…”

“You know, if I got a dollar every time I heard that from you, I would have a great amount of money right now.” Kurt smiled and shook his head.

“It’s your own fault. I told you I don’t go on dates.”

“Well, I’m not someone who gives up easily.” They reached the entrance hall of their apartment building and Kurt was glad that the supermarket was in the opposite direction to the coffee shop. They would split up soon.

“Why didn’t you come to my Halloween party last week?” Adam asked him once they were outside.

“I wasn’t in a mood. Sorry.”

“Rachel told me you were heartbroken…”

“Rachel talks too much sometimes.”

“Was she right?”

“It doesn’t matter.” Kurt shifted on his place. The conversation really started to be uncomfortable for him.

“It does to me. If someone broke your heart, it means you’re not in a relationship and I could have a chance…excuse me, why are you staring at me?” Adam’s eyes went from Kurt to someone behind him. Kurt turned around and his heart stopped beating for a few seconds.

“Blaine?”

“I…I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to interrupt…”

“Well, you are. So please, leave and let me finish my conversation with Kurt.” Adam cut Blaine off rudely, his behavior surprising Kurt.

“Adam, weren’t you on your way to the coffee shop?”

“Yes, and I hope you’ll accompany me. Let’s go.”

“See you around, Adam. You should go.”

“But…”

“Go!” Kurt said impatiently in a harsh voice. Adam’s sight travelled from Kurt to Blaine, subsequently he stepped in the direction of the coffee shop, leaving them behind.

“What are you doing here?” Kurt was alarmed.

“I need to talk to you…and a phone call doesn’t seem right to me. So I took a plane and came here. I mean…it’s better to do it face to face.” The horrible images of possible scenarios went through Kurt’s mind. Blaine hadn’t responded to any of his attempts of contact. He might have come to New York to tell Kurt to stop stalking him. Maybe Blaine had come to give him a restraining order. Don’t be ridiculous, Kurt. This is Blaine. Stop overreacting and breath. Unfortunately, Kurt’s inner voice didn’t have any power over the physiological manifestations of his body. He went pale, his hands started to sweat, his heart sped up its beating and his muscles tensed.

“Kurt? Are you okay?”

“Just tell me what you are here for…” Kurt whispered, ready to accept the necessary

“I…” Blaine took a deep breath. “I love you.”

“God, Blaine! You’re such an idiot!” And with those words Kurt crashed their lips together. Blaine pulled him closer straightway, his arms hugging Kurt tight as if he was afraid Kurt would disappear if he eased the embrace. They were kissing frantically, relearning the familiar taste and scent of the other. It had been too long since their last kiss at the bar. They even risked going on the oxygen debt before they detached their mouth but in an instant they connected their foreheads, because they needed to touch as much of the other’s body as possible. Soon, Blaine rested his head on Kurt’s shoulder and Kurt felt Blaine’s body trembling. He held his arms secure against Blaine’s torso.

“Shhh…Honey, it’s okay. Everything is okay.” He soothed him, making Blaine cling to him tighter.

“I’m so sorry, Kurt. I’m sorry…” Blaine muttered into Kurt’s shirt.

“There is nothing you should be sorry for, Blaine. I’m not mad at you.”

“You should be…”

“You need to give me a reason first.”

“I broke up with you and then ignored you for almost five weeks…If you asked me it’s a pretty good reason.”

“You broke up with me because according to you, it was the right thing to do. I get it. And I know there is a reason for ignoring me, too.” Blaine sniffled and raised his head. Kurt cupped his cheeks with his hands and wiped the tears with his thumbs. He let them slipped down and took one of Blaine’s hands.

“Come on. We can have a better reunion in my apartment.” Kurt smiled and tried to walk to the entrance door, but Blaine tugged him closer and kissed him slowly one more time.

“I love you, Kurt.”

“I love you, too.”  

Once they were in Kurt’s living room, Kurt sat on the sofa and pulled Blaine down next to him. Their eyes met and Kurt leaned to kiss him with a smile on his face.

“We should probably talk.” Blaine said just before Kurt could have connected their lips.

“Okay.” Kurt agreed with a sigh. He hadn’t been able to kiss Blaine for a long time, talking didn’t seem so important to him right now.

“Do you want something to drink? Or eat? I was on my way to the supermarket. We don’t have much but I could make you something.”

“No. Thanks. I’m fine.” Blaine entwined their fingers and put his head on Kurt’s shoulder. He had a lot of to say and he wasn’t going to leave New York without making everything right.

“I still think you should have taken the offer.” He started. “It was a once in a life time opportunity and no one deserves that more than you.”

“I don’t want it. I didn’t ask for it.”

“I know someone else got the job. Luke told me on Monday. I was pissed off. It was like all my hard work in ignoring you was just a waste of time.”

“Wait…did you think ignoring me would have made me to take it?”

“Yes. I thought you’d realize we are really over and…I don’t know, Kurt. I knew you were stubborn. Beating you at it was a tall order but I needed to try it. I wouldn’t have forgiven myself if I hadn’t tried.”

“There was nothing you could do. I was convinced not to take the offer the moment I heard about it.”

“I don’t want you to regret it…”

“I won’t. It’s not what I wanna do.”

“I missed you so much. I was trying to figure out what I’m gonna do without you. I spent an awful lot of the time on the phone with my brother. He can be very unpleasant if he wants to be. He told me I was playing it too safe. He told me I was never going to find what I’ve been looking for if I would be just waiting for it to occur to me. He was right. I know what I don’t want by this point and it’s time to finally take some steps towards the better life…Nick yelled at me yesterday. He is like a teddy bear all the time but when he is angry he can be scary. He asked me what I would do if I were you. He didn’t even want to hear the answer. He knew it anyway. I didn’t sleep last night at all. I haven’t been sleeping well for a while now, but last night I was staring at the ceiling and thinking and most certainly over thinking a bit too. I found out that maybe I don’t have a clear image of what I want to do with my life, but I have something to start with so I should take it. I wanted to call you. But I didn’t get my morning text today. Neither did I get my goodnight text yesterday. I was scared I went too far. I was afraid that you wouldn’t pick up my call. So I went to the airport and flew here. I wasn’t staring at that guy…I mean, yeah, I was. Who am I kidding? I thought I succeeded when I saw you. The way he was talking to you…For the first time in weeks I had the feeling you gave up and believed we were over. No texts, no calls, the guy asking you out…”

“I didn’t text you nor call you because Luke asked me to give you a break. To give you some time to think about it without my constant trying to persuade you that you were wrong. Have you read my messages?”

“All of them several times. I memorized them.” Blaine chuckled. “Although I’ve never sent them, I have an answer for every one of them.”

“What did you come up with at night? What do you know about what you want?”

“I don’t want to be in a long distance relationship. Not because it’s hard - every relationship is hard when people don’t do their best to make it work - but because it is not enough. It’s permanently missing and waiting. The life is just flowing through your fingers because you can’t really enjoy it on the days the other is gone.” Kurt didn’t understand. His head started hurting. Blaine came all the way here to tell him he loved him only to end things definitely? That didn’t make sense. Nothing made sense anymore.

“Blaine, please. Don’t to this to me again. I have to be here for over a month but then I’m free and I’ll do whatever you want. I’ll go wherever you’ll be. Please, hold on for a while. Don’t leave me. I need you. I love you…” A single tear fell from Kurt’s eye and he quickly blinked the others away. He had to stay strong for this.

“I’m not leaving you unless you tell me to do that, Kurt. I’m quitting my job and coming to New York. There are two things I’m one hundred percent sure of. First – I hate my job. Second – I love you. I’ll have to find a job here. I was thinking about trying some auditions for an orchestra, but I don’t know if I’m good enough for that…”

“You are!” Kurt interrupted him causing him to laugh.

“I think you are a little biased here. But thanks. There are many restaurants with pianists or live music, maybe I could try for that. Maybe I should give private lessons on playing piano or guitar or drums…I need to call my dad to send me my drum set here…I’ll do whatever if it’s connected with music. And if it’s not what I want, I’ll find something else. I just have to start somewhere, right? I can’t wait until I have everything figured out. I’ll figure it out in the process.” Kurt wished he was sixteen again. Then he could jump and squeal in happiness without looking like a fool. But he was an adult now. So he just did it internally and let the big smile spread across his face.

“Are you sure? This is too good to be true. I woke up in the morning without having you and now you are telling me you are actually moving here. I don’t think I could handle the disappointment if you change your mind…”

“I’m sure. I want you to stay where you are now. In my humble opinion, your boss would like to have you working for his company. I think he is going to offer you a job here after your internship is over. He would be crazy if he didn’t. You gave up on Europe but I won’t let you give up completely.”

“Blaine, I don’t think it’s a job for me. I don’t want to be under the big company. Maybe I would like to have a small shop with my own designs or something…I designed a few things and those outfits made it to the collections. It was designed for young people. Do you know how much will they cost? The only young people that could afford it are the rich ones. I’d like to make fashion for everybody, you know. When I was at high school I had a more expensive wardrobe than most of the girls had. Okay, maybe Sugar – a girl from the glee club, that couldn’t really sing - had the most expensive wardrobe. But her father was a millionaire. I had to rely on bargains and sales and sometimes it was frustrating. I want to do something for kids who are like I was at their age. Those clothes are just shaped fabrics. And I know some fabrics are expensive and someone has to design the outfits and someone has to sew them but I swear if they lowered the price to the one third, they would still profit an awful lot of money.”

“Well, I like the idea. I think it’s great. But you should stay with the company for a while. You can save some money so you could open the shop without having to take a big loan. Also, if people know your name, they’ll come to you easier. Trust me I’ve been working in the commercial world, I know how it works with reputation.” Kurt’s expression indicated he was thinking about it. His effort in the last few weeks was to get out of the company, but maybe Blaine had a point.

“You’re right. I can stick with them for a little longer. Of course, if my boss gives me a chance after I rejected him once.”

“Don’t worry. He will.” Blaine gave him a peck and as he was pulling away, Kurt fisted his shirt and kept him on the spot, kissing him with all the passion and love he felt for him until both of them were breathless.

“So…when are you moving in? I have to make you a space in my closet. It will take a few days…I need to come up with a new system but I’ll make it work.”

“Kurt, I’m not going to move in with you.”

“What?! Why not?” Kurt whined.

“Because I want us to have a normal relationship for a change. What we’ve had so far is so unusual…I want a common relationship with dates and staying the night at each other when we feel like it but also spending some nights separated. You know, like not spending every free minute of the day with each other. I want us to rent an apartment together when we cross that milestone after some time. I feel like we were rushing things and I don’t want to do something for a bad reason. Do you understand what I’m trying to say?”

“You’d better find a place in a neighborhood, honey. I’m not travelling across the city to see you. It’s a waste of our precious time.”

“Deal.” Blaine said and tried to suppress a yawn.   

“Come on.” Kurt stood up and dragged Blaine with him, pushing him to his room.

“What are you doing?”

“Putting you to bed. I can see you barely keeping your eyes open.” Blaine let himself be led to Kurt’s bedroom.

“Pants off!” Kurt ordered.

“I thought you wanted me to sleep…” Blaine said with a smirk.

“I’m not trying to seduce you, Anderson.” Kurt told him and threw sweatpants on him. “You can sleep in your jeans. But I bet it would be uncomfortable.” Kurt changed his clothes as well. If his boyfriend was taking a nap, he would be more than happy to cuddle him. They snuggled together under the covers and shared a sweet kiss.

“I love you. Thanks for giving me another chance. I know I screwed up a big once again…” Kurt stroked the curls from Blaine’s forehead.

“I told you I’m not mad at you. I’m glad you changed your mind about us. I love you, too.” Blaine closed his eyes, satisfied that Kurt had no hard feelings for him because of his behavior. Thanks to the soothing movements of Kurt’s hands on his back, he fell asleep in a minute. Kurt drifted to sleep shortly after him.

Three hours later Kurt was woken up by the buzzing of his phone. He took it from his bedside table and left the room quietly so Blaine could continue in his slumber.

“Hello?” Kurt didn’t check the caller ID. Hearing Nick on the other side of the line was startling. Nick never called in the evening for a casual chat.

“Hi. It’s me. Nick.”

“Hi, Nick. What’s up?”

“I don’t want to freak you out…”

“Well, you kind of do by saying it…”

“Okay. I will get to the point then. We were supposed to meet Blaine at the bar at seven. But he didn’t come so we went to his apartment but he wouldn’t open the door. I used the spare key I have and he wasn’t home. His phone is off. He didn’t go to the music shop, we’ve been there. Do you have any idea where he could be? He was weird all week long and we’re really worried…I know he doesn’t speak to you but you were close and…”

“Nick, Blaine is sleeping in my bed right now.”

“Thank God…wait, what?!”

“He came here this afternoon to talk to me. He probably forgot to turn his phone on after he got off the plane. He is safe and sound. Don’t worry.”

“He scared the shit out of us! What’s wrong with him?”

“He has come to his senses today, I swear.”

“So are you like an even now?”

“Yeah. We are. But it would be a really long phone call if you wanted details and I think Blaine should tell you guys. Just don’t be mad at him for tonight. He had a lot on his plate.”

“Okay. Tell him we say hello. Bye.”

“I say hello, too. Bye Nick.”

Kurt didn’t return to the bed. He wrote a note on a pink post it paper and put it on the bedside table next to Blaine. If he hurried up, he would make it to the supermarket before they closed.

He came back with some bags full of food. Blaine was still sleeping and Rachel was probably on her way from the theatre. Kurt knew Rachel didn’t eat before her performances and she always had some brutal healthy food after at home. He was hungry. Brutal healthy and light food which would fulfill his empty stomach was something unimaginable. He finally decided to make a salad. He chopped the vegetables and put a bowl of it away for Rachel, then he added pasta and tuna to the rest of it for Blaine and him. He ate his portion and satisfied with a good job he sat in the living room and turned on the TV.

“Hi.” Rachel showed up at the door a few minutes later and found relaxed Kurt on their sofa.

“Hi.” Kurt responded with a big smile.

“Are you high?” Jolly laugh echoed the room, making Rachel think she was right.

“No. I’m not. You are crazy, Rachel.”

“Me? Have you seen yourself? What happened to you? I’ve been trying to get you to smile for over a month…”

“Blaine is here…”

“What?!” Rachel squealed. Seriously, she should do something about it. The ears literally hurt after that sound.

“He came today and we are back together.”

“Kurt, if he breaks your heart again, I swear, I’ll kill him.”

“Don’t worry. He is actually moving to New York soon.”

“Wow. I missed a lot being at work. I’m hungry. I’m going to make myself something to eat and then I…”

“…want to know every detail.” They finished together. Kurt had heard the sentence so many times he was surprised it didn’t haunt him in his dreams.

“There is a salad in the fridge. You’re welcome.” Kurt winked at her and she ran to give him a hug.

“You’re the best roommate ever!”

Blaine woke up and he needed a while to find out where he was. The familiar scent of Kurt immediately indicated to him that the events of the previous hours hadn’t been a dream. He switched on a night-light and saw a pink post it paper. He recognized Kurt’s handwriting.    

Went for grocery shopping. Be right back.

The memory of the day he had written this to Kurt brought a smile on his lips. He got up off the bed and went to the living room, curious of when Kurt had left and if he was back by now. He saw him sitting on the sofa, watching TV and looking gorgeous. He sneaked behind him and kissed his neck.

“Hi, sleepy head.”

“Hello, my love.”

“God, you’re nauseating.” Rachel came from the kitchen and fell on the sofa next to Kurt.

“You’re just jealous.” Kurt told her and tilted his head to give Blaine a kiss. An open-mouthed, lingering kiss ending with an audible smack.

“Okay, I was just kidding the first time, but now you are too much for me. Let me eat my food in peace, please.” She said, trying to sound annoyed but a little smile betrayed her.

“Sit down, honey. I’ll bring you dinner. I know it’s late but I didn’t want to wake you up earlier. You were exhausted.”

Blaine did as he had been told. He felt a little anxious. Rachel might be a short, cheerful and sometimes irritating woman, but she definitely knew how to be scary too. He was prepared for threatening.

“Blaine, I really like you. But if you EVER do something to hurt him again, I won’t hesitate to hurt YOU, are we clear?” She hissed and Blaine nodded. No words would make it better. He had already learnt when it was safer to rather agree with her than starting a conversation about it.

“Great.” Rachel’s voice was back to normal. “So when are you moving to New York and what are you going to do? I could help you with some auditions if you don’t have a job here yet.”