Dear Rachel,

     I love you, you know I do. I love you so much, that doing this is the hardest thing Ive ever had to do. My love for you is actually the reason Im doing this. Ironic, huh? Im protecting you, really I am. If this wasnt the best thing for you, then I wouldnt be doing it. I know it wont be easy, and youve already lost so much. Id hate to see your heart break again. I wont. I couldnt. So, I wrote this letter. Its all you can keep of me, aside from memory and pictures and I hate that. But, again, its all for the best. Once youve read this, you have to burn it or eat it or something. Destroy it so its never found by anyone ever again. Please. Im trusting you with this. After trusting you with so much, Im confident you can handle it. Youre strong, Rachel, youve proved that. Dont fail me now, and more importantly, dont fail yourself. Even if you think itll help me, dont do it. Its not worth it. Hurting yourself to help me is the last thing Id want. Stay strong, stay safe, and stay away from me. Because Im bad news and thats why Im leaving.

   Im leaving. Im leaving and Im never coming back. Im so sorry. But, god, Rachel we are so close, I can feel it. Im getting Sebastian back. Its risky. Thats all it is. Gone are the days of idea, plan and action; its all risk now. Im taking them and so is the team, but never could I ask you to do the same. You were never a part of it, this has nothing to do with you. You just got stuck with a bestfriend whos face might start popping up on the most wanted list in a number of days. If anyone comes to you looking for me, then you know nothing. If anyone asks you about Arite or Brittany or Santana, then you know nothing. Please protect us, because we are pulling teeth to protect you. You can tell them about glee club and high school and NYADA and every detail of our lives, but you cant tell them where we are. I trust you, but I cant trust the pen and paper that work for me, thats why Im not telling you where we will be. You dont have to lie for me. But, I still trust you. And I trust you to make it crystal clear to everyone that you are in no way affiliated with our shenanigans. You are innocent. Remeber that, because if you do, they will too.

     This page is drenched in tears now. The ink is running so much, I hope you can still read it. I hope you can still breathe, because I know it gets harder for me with each word. If there was another way, be it easier or harder, where we could stay together and be safe, I would do it. But, this is what I have to do and I hope you can respect that. This is my chance to bring back my happily ever after, because I know its out there. There are some things you just know. And I know youll be okay. Youll be more than that, too, youll be great. You will thrive, Rachel, because you are a survivor and fighter and the most amazing and inspiring person I know. Thank you for never letting me give up. Youve kept me fighting for so long, and now Im so close. Its a battle I have to win on my own.

    I wish I could bring back everything you lost. And everyone you lost. You deserve that. You deserve love. You deserve Finn. I miss him, too, as much as I already miss you. I wish I could bring him back. I hate it that I get a second chance, but you dont get yours. But, I know youre happy for me. Its one of those things I just know. I wish I could give myself back to you. We should be by each others sides always. Maybe someday we can go back to that. If I could hear you say goodbye again, I would. Saying goodbye in person is bittersweet. A letter is weak. I am weak. My arms will never feel full. Theyll always have an empty space for one more Rachel Berry hug. Or a lifetime more, you can never have too many of those. Ill never forget you and I hope you never forget me. I am, after all, the person who taught you how to spell "friend." Its not freind; its F-R-I-END, because theyre there until the end. The end is here, Rachel.

Love always,

Kurt