Please, Just Hold My Hand

Blaine had listened to Kurt talk about his best friends Mercedes Jones and Rachel Berry on the drive to The Lima Bean, he didn't mind listening. Anything Kurt talked about fascinated him. He couldn't quiet explain it but he just enjoyed his voice it had a calming effect on him. He had told Kurt more about Nick, Jeff, Wes and David, those being the boys he was closest too. He was happy that they had avoided talking about Sebastian the whole time. By the time they pulled into the parking lot Kurt was halfway through telling him all about the New Directions. Blaine silently hoped that not all of them would be here.

"Well I will tell you more about them later..." Kurt turned the car off and unbuckled. "Don't want to keep Rachel waiting too long she has a mean streak..." Blaine laughed about this causing Kurt to smile again.

"Is she really as big of a diva like you say?" Blaine didn't really have any best friends that were girls and hadn't been around teenage girls in awhile, he wasn't sure if he was ready for this.

"Oh yes she is. She and I have been best friends since we were in the fifth grade...she can be much sometimes but I love her..." Kurt opened the door for Blaine and watched him as he walked inside. He was so cute. He knew that Rachel would pick up on his feelings for Blaine and hoped with all hope that she would not say anything in front of him. "There she is..."

Blaine followed Kurt's gaze. There sitting at the table was a small, brown haired girl with a prominent nose, she was pretty though. She was dressed in a bright yellow dress that had a weird pattern in it. She liked color. This made him smile he too liked colorful clothes and was surprised that he hadn't worn more color today. "Here..." Blaine had pulled out some money and tried to hand it to Kurt. Kurt looked at him one eyebrow rose. "It's to help pay for the coffee and bagels." Blaine held the money out again. He didn't think Kurt would have wanted to pay for all of it on his own; after all it wasn't a date. Blaine pulled his bottom lip between his teeth again at the feeling in his stomach when he thought about going on a date with Kurt. He had never been on a date before...not really.

Kurt took the money from Blaine, although he had hoped Blaine wouldn't have offered any. "Rach..." Kurt said to the girl sitting at the table with a wave.

She smile brightly and jumped up out of her seat and made her way toward them. "Kurt, I've miss you so much!" Rachel Berry pulled him into a tight hug.

Kurt laughed. "That's sweet, Rach, I've missed you too, but it's only been two days."

Rachel released him from the hug and turned her gaze on Blaine, her mouth falling open at the sight of him.

Blaine looked down at himself, suddenly wondering if he looked okay and then looked up at Kurt a worried look on his face.

"Rach, it's not nice to stare and are you trying to catch flies?" Kurt smiled apologetically at Blaine.

Rachel snapped her mouth shut and then looked back at Kurt. "Is this him?" She asked in a hushed tone even though Blaine could clearly hear her.

"Rachel Berry, my crazy, driven, best friend meet Blaine Anderson, my shy roommate, friend, and lead singer of the Warbler's." Kurt thought that was a pretty good introduction.

"Even though you are technically my enemy..." Rachel squeaked when she felt something hit her foot, hard. She glanced at Kurt he was giving her his ‘bitch don't you dare' look. He had kicked her foot. She pouted at him and then turned back to Blaine. "As I was saying, even though you are technically my competition..." Rachel glared at Kurt as she rephrased what she was saying. "It is very nice to meet you Blaine."

Blaine liked watching Kurt and Rachel interact with each other it was funny. "It's nice meeting you too." He gave her a smile.

"I'm going to order, what coffee do you want Blaine?" Kurt was just about to learn the coffee order of the boy he was crushing on which meant he could bring Blaine coffee whenever he felt like it.

"I'll have a medium drip..." Blaine smiled at him. "And..."

"I know a blueberry bagel." Kurt smiled and winked at him.

Blaine smiled at him and then walked over to the side counter and grabbed one of the cinnamon shakers. "Did you want to go sit?" Blaine asked Rachel. She nodded at him and then walked over to one of the tables near the large windows and sat down.

"So has Kurt auditioned for the Warbler's yet?" Rachel was watching Blaine with curious eyes.

Blaine shook his head. "No, he hasn't been to any of the meetings yet...well we actually haven't had any since he got there."

"Well he is great you guys will be stupid if you don't take him."

Blaine could hear the bitterness in her voice, but he decided not to say anything about it.

"Although, if I was there the Warbler's would be begging me to join them...I'm that good you know?" Rachel had said this in a hushed voice.

"I'm sure they would be all over you, since you're a girl..." Blaine couldn't help but say it. It wasn't that he doubted her talent but he didn't really like the fact that she seemed to think she was better than everyone else. Blaine knew he was a really good singer and everyone loved his voice but he didn't go around telling everyone that he was better than them.

Rachel put a smile on her face. "It must be weird going to an all-boy's school, I mean with no girl voices to work with." Rachel stated and then rambling on about the boy voices in her glee club. "Of course I love Finn, although we aren't together right now, and his voice is really good, but so far not one of the guys can really keep up with me vocally." Rachel let out a sigh.

"What are you two talking about?" Kurt asked when he sat down placing the coffee in front of each of them. Setting a basket of bagels into the middle of the table

Blaine mouthed his thanks to Kurt and then removed the lid of the cup. He loved his cinnamon in his coffee. He placed the lid back on and then sipped it. It tasted so good. He smiled when he noticed Kurt watching him.

"We were talking about glee club..." Rachel told Kurt as she sipped her coffee.

"You were telling him how you are the best right?" Kurt rolled his eyes he didn't have to ask, he knew his best friend too well. "She is really good though!" Kurt admitted to Blaine.

Blaine sat there eating his bagel listening to the two friends talk happily with each other. He would say something only when they talked directly to him. He was watching out the window, it was a beautiful day and was glad that for once he wasn't stuck at Dalton. He hadn't really left the school since the beginning of the school year. He took in the brightly lit room around them, there were not that many people in here, there was a group of four teenagers, and Blaine thought it looked like a study group, because their heads were all bent over the table with books in front of them. There was an elderly couple sitting in a corner booth holding each other's hands smiling lovingly at one another. This made Blaine smile. He then noticed a few older guys; they seemed to be college students come in through the door. The two in the front Blaine didn't know who they were so he was just going to ignore them, but then they stepped out of the way to reveal the guy behind them and Blaine suddenly felt like he had be submerged in ice cold water. He wasn't even aware that Kurt was talking to him until he felt Kurt's warm fingers run over his hand causing goose bumps to form on his skin. Blaine grabbed Kurt's hand and stared wide-eyed at him. He knew he probably looked like a deer caught in the headlights but he need Kurt to make him feel grounded, to keep in the present.

"Blaine..." Kurt was surprised at the tight grip Blaine was currently giving his hand and the terrified look in his eyes. Kurt quickly looked around trying to figure out what Blaine was so scared of. He saw the group of college guys they were all fairly good looking. "What's wrong? Talk to me..." Kurt slid his chair closer to Blaine's, he noticed Rachel do the same on the other side of Blaine. Kurt tried to pull his hand away from Blaine's so he could hold his hand in a more comfortable way, but Blaine tightened his grip and then shook his head.

"Please, just hold my hand!" Blaine felt his whole body tremble slightly.

"Shh...it's okay I won't let go, but you're crushing my fingers this way..." Kurt was really surprised at how strong Blaine was. He managed to properly get a hold of Blaine's hand. "There, it will be fine..." Kurt was still watching the group of guys. Kurt was going to suggest that they leave, but when he saw the tallest of the guys look over at them and put a huge smile on his face, Kurt stayed quite.

Rachel had never seen someone look so terrified before, he looked like he was going to jump out of his skin at any moment. She watched the three guys with a frown on her face. "Blaine what's wrong?"

They all watched as the guy came towards them the smile still on his face. He had long dirty-blonde wavy hair, (Kurt could tell it was dyed) and blue eyes. He was frowning at him despite the smile on the other guys face.

"Blaine, wow...I didn't think I would see you here." He said when he stopped by their table. Rachel and Kurt were both glaring at him. "Are you Blaine's friends?"

"Yes, who are you?" Kurt asked still glaring.

"Oh sorry, I'm Jeremiah, Blaine's old roommate at Dalton..." He was holding out a hand to Kurt still smiling brightly at Blaine.

Kurt felt his jaw clench as he shook hands with Jeremiah, he remembered Sebastian saying on his first night there that there was one person that knew what happened to Blaine and he was standing right in front of Kurt right now. He seemed oblivious of how scared Blaine looked, this made Kurt angry. "If you don't mind we were having a private conversation..." Kurt couldn't help the growl that slipped into his voice.

"Okay...it was great seeing you Blaine..." He never took that smile off his face. He left their table and then headed back to his friends, laughing and smiling back at them. They got their coffees and then left, but before he walked out through the door he smiled and winked at Blaine.  

Blaine shuddered and squeezed Kurt's hand slightly. He then started picking at the little piece of bagel that was left in front of him with his hand that was free.

Kurt thought Blaine would have let go of his hand but he never did. He also knew that Blaine wasn't going to tell him anything about what had just happened while they were out in public. "It's okay now..." Kurt rubbed his thumb over Blaine's knuckles. He was still trembling slightly and he looked like he was going to either pass out or get sick. "Here drink your coffee..." Kurt slid Blaine's cup towards him.

Blaine picked up the cup with his free hand, which he noticed was shaking too, and he gulped down the last of this warm coffee. He knew Rachel and Kurt were watching him but he was glad that neither of them were pressing him on what had just happened, although they both looked confused, Rachel more so that Kurt.

Kurt noticed Rachel looking at Blaine completely concerned about him. But thought Rachel was doing very good and not badgering Blaine when it was very clear that he didn't want to talk about it. Kurt and Rachel talked for awhile longer until Rachel said she had to go meet her Dad's for lunch. Kurt managed to get his hand away from Blaine long enough to hug Rachel goodbye, and she whispered a ‘call me later' into his ear before turning to Blaine.

"It was really nice meeting you Blaine. I hope we see more of each other." Rachel wasn't expecting much of a response from him but he did give her a tiny half smile.

Kurt held his hand out to Blaine, unsure if he still wanted the comfort, "You want to go back to Dalton now?" Kurt asked when Blaine stood up and took his hand. Blaine just nodded to him.

The ride back was completely quite besides the music coming from the speakers. Blaine was still holding Kurt's hand though they weren't trembling as bad now. "You know I'm here if you want to talk about anything." Kurt said when he pulled into his parking spot and turned the car off.

"Thanks, I'm okay though..." Blaine squeezed Kurt's hand and then pulled away from the touch. He climbed out of the car and started walking towards the school. Kurt was following close behind him watching his every movement, Blaine didn't mind though. Blaine was just about to open the door when it swung out towards him making him back up to avoid being hit and stepped back right into Kurt.

Kurt put his hands on Blaine's elbows making sure he didn't fall down. "Watch where you are going...you could hurt someone..." Kurt growled at the boys in front of them. He didn't know how they couldn't have seen Blaine through the huge glass doors. Blaine looked up at Kurt with a sad look in his eyes but smiled at him. Kurt noticed it was the guys that had stopped him in the hallway his first night here, the guys that worked for the school newspaper. They looked really surprised to see Blaine. "What?" Kurt snapped. He didn't like the way they were looking at Blaine.

"Hey Hummel, thought anymore about letting us do that article on you?" Everett asked with a smile on his face.

When Kurt was blinded by the flash of the camera, snapping a picture of him and Blaine he felt his anger rise. "You had no right to take a picture of me, when I clearly told you I wasn't interested." Kurt growled and forced himself not to grab the camera and smash it. "Get out of the way..." Kurt nudged Blaine forward and pushed his way through the guys, not caring if he ran into them hard or not. Kurt let go of Blaine once they were inside and walking up the stairs. When they got to their door Kurt heard someone calling his name, making him turn around, it was Trent. Kurt let out a sigh and then put a smile on his face. "Hey Trent..."

"Hi, Kurt...hi, Blaine..." Trent was beaming at Blaine.

Blaine couldn't help but smile at Trent he was so happy. "Hello, Trent." Blaine searched for his key in his pocket and then unlocked the door.

"Did you need something?" Kurt asked Trent as he followed Blaine into the room.

"Oh..." Trent took a hesitant step into the room behind them. "I was just wondering if you wanted to go to the mall with me and a few of the other guys." Trent was really hoping that if Kurt was to come that Blaine might come too.

Kurt was watching Blaine for a few minutes before he spoke. "Can I get a rain-check?" Kurt didn't think Blaine would want to leave the room for anything other than lunch and dinner and he didn't really want to leave him alone, he was worried about him.

"Oh... sure not a problem..." Trent was really excited that Kurt had at least considered it. "Okay I have to go; I'll see you at dinner." Trent gave them both a wave and then left.

"See-yah Trent, hope you have fun." Kurt laughed slightly as he watched the other boy bounce out of the room, he was sure happy. "I wonder if he ever has a bad day." Kurt wondered out loud. He turned back around after closing the door and looked at Blaine. He was sitting on his bed, with his back against the wall, hugging his legs again. "Do you want to talk about what happened?" Kurt sat down on Blaine's bed.

"I'm sorry about acting like that; I was just really surprised to see him." Blaine was talking in a really low voice just barely over a whisper.

"Blaine that was more than just surprised..." Kurt slid up on the bed so he was sitting right next to him.

"I..." Blaine felt the urge to tell Kurt all about it but then he was scared of what Kurt would think of him after he did.

"Blaine..." Kurt reached out for his hand. He watched as Blaine closed his eyes but let Kurt take his hand in his. "You don't have to tell me anything until you are ready to..." Kurt smiled when Blaine let their fingers lace together.

"I don't know if I'll ever be able to tell you..." Blaine whispered keeping his eyes closed.

"That's okay, but I'm going to be here in case you decide to." Kurt grinned when Blaine squeezed his hand in a silent thank-you. "So what do you usually do on Sunday's?" Kurt looked around the room seeing if he could get any clues.

Blaine opened his eyes and turned his body slightly so he was facing Kurt more, not letting go of his hand. Blaine pointed up at his shelves like it was painfully obvious what he spent doing on his weekends. Kurt gave him a big smile. "I usually read or watch movies..." Blaine pointed to the other end of the smaller shelf.

"Oh...movie day..." Kurt wondered what type of movies Blaine had. Kurt let go of Blaine's hand and stood up on the bed. "What shall we watch?" He started thumbing through the movies. Blaine had all the Harry Potter movies that were out, which was all the way up to Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. He had all the X-men movies, and Kurt realized he had about all the Marvel movies that had been put out so far. He also had a lot of cartoon movies. "My collect mostly includes musicals..." Kurt let out a soft chuckle.

"I have some of those too..." Blaine blushed he wondered what Kurt thought of his movie collection.

Kurt turned his attention the other end of the shelf. Blaine had The Jazz Singer, Moulin Rouge, Devil-May-Care, West Side Story, and Gypsy, there were more than Kurt thought there would be. "I have all of these too..." Kurt smiled down at Blaine again. "Which movie would you like to watch?"

Blaine stood up and slid one off the shelf handing it to Kurt. "What about this?" He then jumped off the bed and opened his wardrobe closet. "I keep the TV in here because I don't have a place to keep it out all the time." He told Kurt. He pulled out the flat screen television. "It has a DVD player built in..."

Kurt couldn't help smiling, he was so cute. Kurt climbed off the bed helped Blaine plug in the television set. He then returned to the beds and pulled the pillows onto the floor. He watched Blaine as he lay down on the floor. Kurt grabbed the DVD case off the bed and looked at it. Across the Universe, Kurt liked this movie. He wondered if he would hear Blaine sing or not...