Warnings for this chapter: This chapter contains flashbacks of Blaine's past of violence and unwanted sexual acts. So if it is a trigger please read with caution. No Klainebows in this Chapter. ;(

First Kiss and I'm Not Satisfied

*Flashback Chapter*

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Blaine rushed up the spiraling staircase that led to his dorm room, room number 145 Blaine mumbled to himself, he had a tendency to forget the number when he was excited. He had been here at Dalton Academy for five weeks now and he was just finally starting to feel like he was fitting in. He hadn't really made any friends when he first came here he was too nervous and why to shy, wasn't really sure if the zero tolerance no bullying policy actually worked here or not. It was the reason he had come here at the beginning of this freshman year.

He had been severely bullied during his eighth grade year, everything from teasing about how curly his hair was, to the bowties he wore every day, to the hot pink sunglasses that he liked to wear and it slowly progressed into being dragged into the bathroom stall and having his head shoved in the toilet and being shoved very hard into the lockers. It was all horrible but Blaine was managing to deal with it. Almost all of the popular boys had some way they teased him. Sure he had girls that thought he was cute, but that was the problem...Blaine didn't like girls.

Every day after school Blaine would go home and sit in his bed and write in his journal about the abuse he received at school that day. That none of the teachers seemed to notice anything. He would write about boys that he used to think were cute but now couldn't even stand looking at them because what they had done to him. And why couldn't he just be like all the other kids and have a crush on someone and have them actually return the feelings. By the time his father had come home from one of his long business trips Blaine had gotten up enough courage to tell his dad that he thought he was gay. It hadn't gone over well but Blaine came out of it in one piece or almost in one piece, he had broken his arm.

Over the next week the word had spread about Blaine being gay, he wasn't completely sure how but it did and he wasn't going to dwell on it. By the time the school's Sadie Hawkins dance came around Blaine hadn't had anybody ask him to go or found anyone he wanted to go to the dance with so he decided that he would just go stag, he didn't see anything wrong with that. He had dressed in a nice simple white suit with a white dress shirt and pink bowtie; he had also brought his favorite hot pink sunglasses and had then hung on the front pocket of the dress jacket. He thought he had looked good and was ready for what the night held.

The dance had gone over well no one really said much to him, he even danced with a few of the girls when they asked him too, they were nice to him. He only had one incident where one of the popular boys spilled his red punch on Blaine's suit on purpose; he had been upset but was sure his Aunt could get out the stain. It wasn't until the dance was over that he really regretted coming to it. He was waiting for his father to come pick him up, he was running late as usual, expect tonight he was running over an hour late from the time he said he would pick Blaine up. Blaine started to pace up and down the sidewalk, when he heard a car coming and the headlights blinded him. He thought at first that it was his dad but the car passed him and stopped.

Blaine watched as three of the popular boys came out of the school gymnasium and headed for the car, two older boys climbed out and started talking to the three younger boys. It wasn't until Blaine classmates looked up in his direct and stared at him did he start to become nervous. The boys exchanged a few more words and then came towards Blaine. They were saying really mean things; Blaine didn't like the words they were saying. He watched as a fist flew towards his face and he was knocked down to the cold ground, a sharp pain in his hand that caused him to scream out.

That was the last thing Blaine remembered until he woke up in the bright, white room, his eyes hurting at the intensity of it. There were beeping machines and tubes running from his arms. When he finally focused on something though it was difficult, his eyes felt swollen and really sore, he noticed his older brother Cooper and his Aunt Lillian sitting in chairs beside his bed. He was in the hospital but he didn't remember how he got there. Cooper looked worried as he told him about all of the injuries he had received, his arm that was already broken had been broken again this time his fingers were broken too, his left shoulder and right knee had both been dislocated, his nose had been broken and almost every inch of his body had been covered in bruises. Cooper told him that the doctors said he had been beaten for a long period of time and they were worried about internal bleeding.

His Aunt Lil had told him that his suit had been completely ruined from the dirt and blood and that she would buy him a new one. Blaine thought it was weird but he was worried about what happened to his pink sunglasses. Cooper told him they weren't important, but they were, they came from his mom.  

Blaine had missed over three weeks of school while he recovered and went through physical therapy for his knee and shoulder. He never told who did it to him, because frankly he didn't know who did, just some of the people who had been there but he didn't say anything about it, even though they asked a million times. He went back to school and finished the year with little to no other incidents. He really dreaded going to school but he knew he had too, but it caused him to shrink in on himself even more than he already had been.

That was why when the new school year came his Aunt Lil had informed him that he was going to be going to Dalton Academy so he would be safe, so he had been here ever since, slowly coming out of his shell.

Blaine rushed down the hallway and skidded to a stop outside his door, the shiny gold plate on the door told him it was the right one and dug his key out of his pocket. He opened the door and hurried in. "Jeremiah, Jeremiah, guess what, guess what?" Blaine was bouncing on his heels he was really excited.

Jeremiah couldn't help the smile that came on his face as he looked at his extremely excited freshman roommate. "You repeat things when you are excited?" He teased.

Blaine crinkled his nose up at him and then rushed over to the bed and sat down beside him. "Very funny...but no..." Blaine smiled back at him. He thought Jeremiah was really good looking, his blue eyes were amazing, he was a senior and Blaine thought that was cool in itself that a senior would talk to him and he knew that Jeremiah knew he had a crush on him. "You know how I joined to Warbler's last week right?" Jeremiah nodded at him and then smiled. "Well they gave me the solo's...I'm going to be singing lead. Me a freshman..." Blaine gave Jeremiah one of his goofy grins.

"Wow congrats Blainey...That's really something. I don't think a freshman has had any lead vocals for a long time." Jeremiah pulled Blaine into a hug and ran his fingers through his gelled hair. He really was happy for Blaine but all he could think about was how sexy Blaine looked when he was excited, he leaned then pressed his lips gently against Blaine very full, soft lips.

Blaine was shocked he couldn't believe what was happening, sure he had thought about Jeremiah kissing him a lot but he never actually thought it would happen. Blaine wasn't sure what he should do. This was his first kiss and he was too shocked to really respond. Jeremiah must have sensed this and pulled away from him. Blaine felt the blush creep into his cheeks and he turned his head away from Jeremiah.

"Blainey come here..." Jeremiah pulled Blaine too him and kissed him again. This time Blaine's lips responded to his and this made him smile. He laid Blaine down on the bed and then lay on top of him. "You've never been kissed before have you?"

Blaine felt the blush again; it was extremely hot in the room all of a sudden. Blaine couldn't believe this was happening. He didn't want to seem like a complete dork in front of Jeremiah even though he was sure Jeremiah already knew he was. "No..." Blaine couldn't say anything else because Jeremiah attached their lips again, running his tongue against Blaine's lips trying to gain access to his mouth. Blaine parted his lips and Jeremiah wasted no time in slipping his tongue inside. He tried to copy what Jeremiah was doing hoping that he was doing it right. Jeremiah seemed happy so he must have been.

Later that night Blaine was hanging out with Sebastian, Nick and Jeff watching movies and Jeff always had a way of telling when something was going on with Blaine so he asked him what was up and Blaine shared with them what had taken place and they all seemed happy for him all except for Sebastian...

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Throughout the school year Blaine started hanging out with Jeremiah and his friends more. He really felt like he was finally belonging some where's. The Warbler's made him feel special and so did Jeremiah. He would hang out for movie night, go shopping, go to the mall, just ride around town, anything that Jeremiah and his friends would do he would invite Blaine. Blaine was the only freshman hanging out with them and had become quite popular with some of the boys at school. They would always ask him what it was like hanging with the upperclassman and how they could become part of the group. Blaine always thought it was funny when they would ask him things like this. He didn't know how they could become part of the group because he was still trying to figure out how he himself had become part of it.

There were about three weeks of school left and Blaine was sitting in his room studying for end of the year exams, which were a pain. He was currently studying for English Vocabulary final, when Jeremiah and one of his friends Tom came in to the room talking excitedly about something. Blaine looked up at them with a frown on his face and sat his flashcards down on the bed in front of him. "Look Jeremiah I'm glad you are happy about whatever you're happy about but I really need to study so I can ace this final..." Blaine let out a sigh.

Jeremiah turned to face Blaine with a smirk on his face. "Ah don't frown, Blainey you are way too cute for that...and besides you'll get wrinkles in that pretty little forehead of yours." He came over and kissed Blaine on the forehead and then ran his fingers through Blaine's curls. "Hey why don't you come to my house tonight...you deserve a little break from all the cramming you've been doing." Jeremiah really hoped that Blaine would say yes.  

Blaine looked down at the purple flash cards in front of him and then up at Jeremiah, he had a hopeful look on his face. Blaine sighed, "Okay I'll come with you..." Blaine got up off the bed and started picking up his things. "Who else is coming?" Blaine wasn't sure if Tom and the other guys were going to be there too.

Jeremiah pulled Blaine into his arms and kissed him. "We are going shopping first and then we are going back to my place, Tom, Theo and Alex will be there." Jeremiah frowned when he squirmed away from him; Blaine never liked kissing him in front of the other guys.

Blaine sighed and looked up at Jeremiah. "What are we going shopping for?" Blaine liked shopping but he knew he should be studying instead of shopping. Maybe he would just wait in the car while they shopped.

"Clothes, my wardrobe is looking a little bare..." Blaine couldn't help but laugh about this, Jeremiah didn't really need any more clothes. Jeremiah must have heard his little snicker because he smacked Blaine on the butt making him squeak in surprise, and Tom started grinning from ear to ear.

"Hey..." Blaine frowned at him. "That's mine..." Blaine walked away from him and sat down on the bed. He watched Tom and Jeremiah share a look between them that he didn't quite know what to make of it.

Blaine was sitting in the car busy going over the flash cards again he knew he had most of them but there were a few that were still getting the best of him. He jumped when the doors of the car opened and the guys were climbing in piling a lot of bags in the back seat with them. "What did you buy the whole store?" Blaine asked jokingly. He slipped his flashcards back into his bag and buckled up his safety belt.

"Some of it is for you; I saw these jeans and shirts that would look so hot on you..." Jeremiah smiled at him.

"You didn't have to buy me anything..." Blaine couldn't help the blush that crept onto his cheeks. He still hadn't gotten used to Jeremiah wanting to buy him things.

"I know I didn't have to but I wanted too..." Jeremiah put his hand on Blaine's thigh and squeezed. Blaine pushed his hand away and squirmed. Jeremiah sighed and started the car. He was really getting annoyed with the fact that Blaine didn't want him touching him in any way other than hugging and kissing.

When they got to Jeremiah's, he took Blaine upstairs to show him the clothes he had gotten him. Blaine seemed happy about what he had picked out. "Okay you try these on and I'll be back in a few to see them..." Jeremiah leaned down and kissed him on his lips, this time he didn't pull away from him, because they were alone.

Blaine nodded at him and stepped away from the kiss. "Thanks again, they are great..." Blaine smiled at him and watched him leave the bedroom. Blaine slid off his maroon cardigan sweater and laid it over the back of the chair. He really liked the clothes Jeremiah had picked out. He unbuttoned his jeans and then slid his shirt up over his head and laid it on the back of the chair too. He slid his jeans off and put them with his other clothes. Blaine examined the pair of jeans that Jeremiah had picked out and then walked across the room to the closet door where there was a full length mirror. He held them up and smiled, they would look good.

He was just getting ready to slide the jeans on when the bedroom door opened. He let out a small squeak in surprise and watched as Jeremiah, Tom, Theo and Alex came into the room. He frowned at Jeremiah. "What's going on?" He didn't know why they were all coming in here.

Jeremiah came over to Blaine and took the jeans away from him. "You won't need these..." He didn't have his smile on his face that he usually gave Blaine when he was teasing him.

Jeremiah took a hold of Blaine's arms and directed him to the bed. He was squeezing hard. "Ouch..." Blaine tried to get away from him. "Stop it Jeremiah that hurts!" Blaine didn't know what his problem was. He had never acted like this before. Blaine squeaked when Jeremiah pushed him down on the bed onto his stomach. He quickly rolled over and scrambled across the bed to try to get up. Jeremiah grabbed his ankles and yanked him back down on the bed. "Stop it..."

"Guys give me a hand here..." Jeremiah looked back at his friends. Tom and Theo came over to the bed with smiles on their face. Blaine had thought that Theo was straight but the way he was smirking at him gave him the creeps and he wondered if he was right or not. Theo grabbed a hold of Blaine's arms and Tom took a hold of Blaine's ankles replacing Jeremiah's hands for his. "You won't need these either..." Jeremiah pulled Blaine black boxer briefs off him.

Blaine let out another squeak and tried to pull away from them but their grips were too tight and he knew he wouldn't be able to get free. "Please just let go of me...please..." Blaine looked up at Theo, he was now looking at Blaine's face, the smirk was still there but his eyes looked nervous. "Please Theo..." Blaine had gotten pretty close to Theo, he had always been really nice to Blaine, even helped him with homework when he needed it. But now he was acting like he couldn't even hear him. Blaine looked down at Jeremiah and Tom. Jeremiah was in the process of undoing his own jeans and Tom was looking Blaine's body over.

"Little man's not so little is he?" Tom said to Jeremiah and then he slid his hand up Blaine's leg and wrapped his hand around Blaine's length.

Blaine let out a squeak that came out more as a whimper. He had never been touched before and now he was being touched by someone he didn't want their hands on him. "Please no why are you doing this?" Blaine looked up at Jeremiah, he didn't see the loving smile he usually received and it was freaking him out even more than he already was. "Jer..."

"Because Blaine...I am so sick of only being able to kiss you okay...I'm not satisfied...and its god damn frustrating..." Jeremiah's words came out low and not his usually friendly tone. "I've been nice to you, thinking you would eventually give in but every time I try you shoot me down and I'm sick of it..."

Blaine started trashing around again when Jeremiah spread his legs apart and lowered his body down towards him. "No...please don't do this...please..." Blaine was full out crying now but he didn't care. Blaine was going to say more, to beg more but he felt a hand come down over his mouth making it so he couldn't talk. He tried to shake his head away and he felt the hand grip his face tighter, he knew they were bruising him the way the fingers were digging into his skin.

The next thing Blaine felt was a pain he had never imagined existed, he didn't know much about what sex was like for gay guys but he didn't think it was supposed to be like this. Jeremiah had pushed completely into him and was moving really fast and hard. Blaine was screaming but it was muffled, no one was going to help him. The last thing Blaine remembered was someone's hands running up and down his body, the figure in the door said something that Blaine couldn't make out and rushed out of the room and then everything went black...