Chapter 5

After their date they kept texting regularly. At first it would be Blaine who started the conversation but Kurt always followed enthusiastically. As the days passed and the new year started Kurt began to take a more active part in their exchanges, starting conversations too.

It wasn´t that Kurt didn´t want to talk to Blaine, he was just scared. He didn´t know Blaine that well yet, but he knew himself and he was afraid of falling to hard for Blaine just to find that his feelings weren´t reciprocated. Kurt wasn´t a blushing virgin anymore and he had learned the hard way not to fall that easily, but there was something about this guy. He knew it was going to be easy for him to fall for Blaine and he needed to protect his own heart from breaking. He needed to trust Blaine before trusting him with his heart.

But because Blaine was extremely easy to talk to, he was funny and always made Kurt smile, he let himself have those moments and he didn´t push Blaine away. He knew he wouldn`t be able to do so.

A couple of weeks after their date, on a Saturday morning, Blaine texted Kurt.

From: Blaine

Good morning! Are you busy tonight?

To: Blaine

Hi! Nothing that I know of. Unless you actually count watching Project Runway reruns as busy.

 From: Blaine

Heidi and Tim would have to excuse me but I`m going to take that as a no.

To: Blaine

I think you should appreciate the effort I`m making not to ask if you actually know any of them.

From: Blaine

I do appreciate it (and I´ve been briefly introduced to her once). So... would you like to accompany me somewhere?

To: Blaine

Probably, may I ask the destination? (Also, O.M.G.)

From: Blaine

Haha. Lady Gaga concert.

To: Blaine

OMG! Blaine, seriously?

From: Blaine

I `m going to take that as a yes...

To: Blaine

That was definitely a yes!

From: Blaine

Great! Text me your address and I`d be there at 6. I`d say dress fabulously, but given I`m taking to you I don`t think that`s necessary.

Kurt texted him his address with a smiley face. He never used smiley faces but he was too excited to care.

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The hours seemed to pass very slowly. Rachel was at rehearsals for a play at her school, so Kurt was alone at their apartment without much to do. After he did laundry, prepared himself a way too elaborated lunch considering he was alone and tried to sketch just to find that he wasn`t inspired at all, he just gave up and went to get ready even if he knew it was still early. It turned out to be actually a very good decision, because it took him ages to figure out an outfit for the occasion. He did, eventually.

He sat at the couch and flipped through a magazine until the bell rang, just a couple of minutes before six. He opened the door to reveal Blaine and he first thought he looked adorable with his bow-tie and his over gelled hair. But he seemed to look nervous, too.  Kurt didn`t have a clue why. He gathered all his courage and kissed Blaine`s cheek, saying "Hi".

"Hi yourself" Blaine answered grinning. He then extended his hand to Kurt and leaded their way out of the apartment holding his hand tightly. When they reached the stairs (Kurt`s apartment didn`t have an elevator but he only lived on the second floor) Blaine stopped walking and turned to look at Kurt.

"I`m sort of expected to be at the show and we`re going to VIP seats so there may be pictures taken and paparazzi may show up..." Blaine explained, biting his lip in a very distracting way and touching his neck in a way that, as Kurt had learned, meant he was nervous.

"You can´t be there as my date but just as a friend. Is...is that ok?" Asked Blaine while inadvertly tracing small patterns with his thumb at Kurt`s palm. It was almost ticklish, but really soothing.

It took a second for it to sink in for Kurt but he understood completely, it was way to early to even start that discussion. Even more, considering he still had things to figure out. But it meant he wouldn`t be able to hold Blaine`s hand or stare at him when he wasn`t looking and he had been looking forward to doing that. He told himself he should had seen it coming, it was a very public setting after all.

He nodded at Blaine with what tried to be a reassuring smile.

When they reached Kurt`s building`s front door Blaine let go of Kurt`s hand looking at him apologetically. Outside was a black car with dark windows waiting for them. Blaine opened the door to the back seat for Kurt and slipped in right after him, holding Kurt`s hand back in his as soon as he closed the door. Kurt really wanted to focus on Blaine`s warm hand perfectly fitting his, but the unsettling feeling that secrecy gave him was hard to shake off. He looked up from their hands to see Blaine`s soft, golden eyes on him. They locked eyes and even if it was just for a second he knew he had seen that same feeling in Blaine`s eyes. He took that as a good sign and tried not to overthink. He always complicated things by overthinking.

Blaine started to chat animatedly, asking Kurt about a couple of job interviews he knew he had gone to that week and telling him about his crazy filming schedule and about how cool the director was. Kurt managed to relax in their conversation and stopped worrying.

While Blaine was telling him a story of  his extravagant co-star, a woman spoke. Kurt looked up, having not realized before that there was someone in the car but them and the driver. He found himself facing Allyson. Allyson was the girl that Blaine had left with at the party and he had already learned that she was, actually, his manager. She said a quick hello to Kurt as she turned to repeat what she had said, as if she had just realized he was there, too. Kurt said hi, still confused, and she was talking to Blaine again.

"Blaine, I`m meeting Paul once we get there but I don`t want you to leave without me when it`s over, okay?"

"Ok" Blaine said rolling his eyes a little for only Kurt to see.

The car was already pulling to a side. Allyson turned to look at Blaine in the eye.

"And remember what we talked about, will you?"

Blaine just nodded and went to open the door, jumping out of the car and holding it open for Kurt.

They were at the VIP entrance and Kurt was a little amazed at how easily they went in, as if Blaine`s face was their tickets. Allyson leaded the way and desapeared as soon as they got to their seats.

He and Blaine talked lightly until the show started. Kurt was completely amazed by it. He had intended to go to a Lady Gaga show since he was in high school and they had amazing seats.

When the show was over and the lights went on again, Kurt turned to look at Blaine with a big grin on his face. He was going to tell Blaine how grateful he was and how great the show had been, but when he took in Blaine`s gaze on him the words left him. Blaine was looking at him with such warm and sweetness, his beautiful golden eyes where shinning and Kurt felt the appreciation in them.

Blaine realized he had been caught but didn`t tore his eyes away.

"You`re beautiful" he whispered so softly that Kurt would had thought he had imagined it if he hadn`t seen Blaine`s lips moving.

Kurt tried to say something in return but there was no air left in his lungs. Blaine blinked and looked away, sighing as if it pained him to do so.

"Shall we?" he asked turning to the exit.

"Yes, we shall" Kurt said exhaling a big breath and aching to reach for Blaine`s hand but knowing he couldn`t.

While they walked Kurt started to tell Blaine everything he had loved about the show and Blaine gave him his full attention, a smile in his face.

Closer to the exit Allyson catched up with them, phone in hand and immediately telling Blaine that the press and some fans were outside. Kurt saw Blaine`s face transform from happy, to somehow uncomfortable, to a new smile that, Kurt didn`t know how, but he just knew was fake, though good enough to fool everyone else. As Blaine gave him a last look and started to walk again with decision, Kurt felt Allyson`s hand softly grabbing his elbow.

He turned to her and she said, in a whisper, "You`re walking behind with me, doll". She then let go of his arm and started to walk again, staying a few feet away from Blaine. Kurt stayed at her side, not really sure about how he felt about the girl, but knowing better than contradicting her.

Blaine answered questions to the people following him with mics and cameras on his face, signed a few autographs to fans in passing and even took pictures with a couple of them. Kurt and Allyson stayed out of the way but close enough to leave with him as soon as he was done.

Kurt felt it was really odd to see that side of Blaine. He was being nice and charming to everybody, but Kurt still remembered him putting up a smile that wasn`t real. He didin`t think Blaine just hated his fame, but it got him thinking about the consequences of it. The consequences it already had had for them that same day, right then and there. He, also, found himself thinking about Blaine`s sexuality in that context, about what it would mean for Blaine to come out. It all seemed so big and complicated, that it surprised him that he wasn`t pondering how to run away, but how to be suportive. That very idea felt a little like a revelation.

When Blaine seemed to be finally reaching the car, Allyson moved closer to him. Blaine opened the back door and she got in, Kurt followed her and so did Blaine after waving to the fans for a last time.

As Blaine was getting in, Kurt felt very conscious of Allyson`s presence at his side. Blaine sat really close to him, even considering there where three people in the back seat (the car was huge) and sighed. Kurt turned looking for his eyes, but Blaine wasn`t looking at him. Still without looking at him, Blaine made a tiny movement with his hand to go for Kurt`s and Kurt quickly took hold of it, interlacing their fingers tightly. Blaine finally looked at him and gave him a timid smile.

The ride back home was quiet. Everyone aparently too lost in their own thoughts. Kurt was thinking about what he had just seen of Blaine, of how exposed Blaine was and of how vulnerable he was, therefore. He realized that, for Blaine, every little thing about himself was like making an statement. Everything was big and could come to hunt you back. But, even knowing Blaine for a short time, he saw how real he was, he saw that Blaine was showing him his real self. Blaine was already trusting him entirely and he deserved that back.

When they parked at Kurt`s apartment he turned to Blaine and asked him, in a low and soft voice, "Would you walk me to the door?"

Blaine looked a bit surprised but nodded and said "Yeah, of course", in a small voice.

They separated thier hands but as soon as the front door of the building was closed Kurt went for Blaine`s hand again with determination. At his front door he stopped and turned, facing Blaine and taking his other hand, too. They were just looking at each other and Kurt allowed himself to get lost in Blaine`s pretty, sparkling golden eyes. He raised a hand and caressed Blaine`s cheek and his jaw line and Blaine moved his face towards the touch. Kurt leaned closer and let Blaine cross the final gap between them.

Blaine`s lips were soft but firm against his, one of his hands on his face, the other still intertwined with his. Kurt moved his hand to Blaine`s neck, stroking a few curls that had freed themselves from the gel and deepening the kiss.

They eventually broke apart, when breathing went back to being esencial. Blaine pressed his forehead to Kurt`s and held him there with his eyes closed. When Kurt was starting to feel a little overwhelmed by his emotions Blaine gave him a peck on the lips, "You`re amazing" he said softly in his sweetest voice, opening his eyes and pulling away.

"I... I should probably go back..." he added, reluctantly.

"It`s ok. I don`t want Allyson to dislike me even more." Answered Kurt smiling.

"She doesn`t. She is just... taking care of me."

"I guess I would`ve to prove her that I`m not dangerous, then."

"Oh, but I`m pretty sure you are quite dangerous."Blaine said, eyes never leaving Kurt`s, a seductive smile on his face.

"Only if you want me to be, honey." Said Kurt with an intense look, managing not to blush. He gave himself a mental path on the back at the improvement.

Blaine gave him a look between amuzed and challenging and they both burst out laughing.