Chapter 27

It wasn't that Kurt really hated the decoration of the place, it was more a matter of principles: he wanted to hate it. And even if Allyson had managed to make the orange work, it was orange, it wasn’t that hard to hate. Actually, what he hated was the fact that they were there and not at his nor Blaine’s home. But he understood the reasons and had agreed that it was better to be somewhere that was neutral and where they weren’t going to be found.

He was distracted with the pancakes he was making, so he didn’t hear Blaine until the boy materialized behind him. Blaine pressed himself against Kurt, putting a hand on his hip and kissing his neck. “Morning, beautiful.” Blaine said in a low voice, husky from sleep.

Kurt reached a hand back to Blaine’s hair. “Good morning, love.”

Blaine’s grip on his hip tightened. “You’re wearing my jeans.” He said in a throaty voice. Kurt just hummed; he knew he looked ridiculous, but he had just grabbed the first clothes he saw.“It’s hot” Blaine added and turned Kurt in his embrace.

Kurt was glad to find that Blaine had gotten up in just his boxer briefs. He put a hand around Blaine’s neck and ran the other over his shoulder and to his chest.

“Hi” Blaine said around a smile as Kurt leaned forward to kiss him.

Kurt pulled away quickly, before the kiss could deepen. “We’ll burn the pancakes,” he said as an explanation when Blaine went to kiss him again. Blaine’s eyes lit up, turning that golden color that drove Kurt crazy as he looked behind Kurt, as if confirming there actually were pancakes in the making.

“I’ll brew the coffee.” Blaine said moving away excitedly with a final kiss to Kurt’s lips.

“You’re such a kid.” Kurt teased as he turned back to the pancakes.

“But you love it.” Blaine challenged with a grin from where he was trying to find the cups.

“But I love it.” Kurt confessed.

By the time Kurt finished, Blaine had, sadly, found his pair of sweatpants, already had two cups of coffee and had attacked Allyson’s fridge, finding everything that anyone would remotely consider putting over a pancake. That’s when Blaine saw the sealed paper envelope on the table.

“Is this...” Blaine trailed off and Kurt knew, from the tone of his voice, what he was refering to before turning. He locked eyes with Blaine and nodded.

“You haven’t opened it.” Blaine said, whilst subconsciously runing a finger over the envelope.

“Of course not.”

“We... we should read it now and get it out of the way.” Blaine proposed.

“Okay, the food is ready... After breakfast?” Kurt asked, trying to lighten the mood.

“After breakfast.” Blaine smiled, unsure.

Kurt hadn’t asked if it had been Allyson’s request or the magazine had offered, but he knew already that Blaine was going to have a copy of People delivered the morning the new issue was out. So, earlier that morning, he had received it on Blaine’s behalf at Allyson’s apartment, where they had stayed the night for better chances of avoiding the press for the day. Allyson was staying at Blaine’s for damage control.

They took the magazine (envelope still sealed) and their breakfast and moved to the couch.

After Blaine ate way more than would be expected given his small frame, he took the envelope and put it on Kurt’s lap, moving closer and hugging him from the side. “Let’s get this done”, he said.

“Do I...?” Kurt hesitated.

Blaine nodded into his shoulder, kissed it and mumbled and “I love you”. Kurt carefully uncovered the magazine.

They knew he was the issue’s cover, so they weren’t surprised to find a close-up of Blaine in a cozy winter-y sweater looking back at them. Kurt was expecting the cover to already come with a big “I’m bi” next to Blaine’s face, however the headline, even though still suggestive, wasn’t that obvious. “I’m done living in a lie”, it said under Blaine’s picture. He looked at Blaine again for confirmation and flipped through the magazine until he found the article.

I’M DONE LIVING IN A LIE

By Carolyn Peters

Three years ago, Blaine Anderson was that guy playing the nerd kid on the shiny and new teens show “Amy & Chase”. It hasn’t been that long since then, but a lot has been happening for him in that time. Even though “A & C” (as the fans called it) didn’t make it to a third season, Blaine doesn’t seem to be leaving America’s hearts and screens any time soon. He’s back on our TVs in “On Our Own” as Zooey Deschanel’s little brother (and one half of the biggest eyed, cutest pair of twins to ever be, along with Pretty Little Liars’ Lucy Hale). Meanwhile, Michael Rosado's movie he stars in comes out at the end of the month.

“I’m pretty excited about it. My character is a musician and I love making music and singing, it was a thrill to get to do that again.” Blaine says about ‘Unexpected’, which, apparently, is not just your average rom-com. “There’s a twist to it.” He promises.

As for his every day job, he has a little confession to make regarding his co-stars. “We hit it off in no time. I’m going to confess I did have a huge admiration and maybe a small celebrity crush on Zooey but I hadn’t actually met her before.” He quickly adds, “It’s okay, she knows that.” However, their current relationship seems to be one of a more fraternal kind, “The three of us, we’re kind of like siblings now.” He explains.

By the looks of things, Blaine will be sticking around for a while and, with that in mind, there are some things he feels it’s time to say.

Blaine Anderson is bisexual; he doesn’t want to hide that anymore. “I don’t believe in hiding who I am, I never have - there’s nothing wrong with who I am.” He says.

And what does that mean? He explains it better himself. “I have the potential to be sexually or romantically attracted to either women or men. That’s the definition I’d rather go by. There are a lot of misconceptions on the subject and even the definition could be diferent for others.” He, also, tears down a couple of myths, “The concept is, in my opinion, more sexualized that it should be. Just because I’m capable of being aroused by men and women does not mean I’d sleep with everything that moves. I’m a relationships kind of guy.” He talks eloquently, conscious of the impact of his words, as he instructs in how it doesn’t mean having to be attracted to both in equal parts, “identifying as bisexual doesn’t mean having to keep it even.”

He’s saying this for the world to hear now, but he has known for a while. He  says he was somehow questioning since middle school. “I realized back then that I was atracted to boys and even I, then, thought ‘Well, that would mean I’m gay, right?’. But I knew I wasn’t, I wasn’t supposed to be atracted to girls if that was the case and I was atracted to them. I was still struggling with all of that when I changed schools for my freshman year of high school. I went to an all-boys school with a no bullying policy, it was supposed to be like gay heaven. However, I was still as excited as all of the straight boys when our sister school was visiting.”

His high school felt like a safe place to find himself and, when he did, it was a secret to no one. “When I got my first job at “Amy & Chase” I thought someone was going to out me anyway. I was out to my whole high school so I thought one of them was going to tell, you know.” He says. That didn’t happen, he's thankful. He doesn’t think he was ready for it back then; he was scared about the implications so early in his career. “I knew I wasn’t ready at all to be like, the poster boy for bisexuality, so I kind of shoved myself back to the closet.” He declares without reservations.

In spite of that, up to today, Blaine is actually out to most people in his life, “I’m out to everyone who actually knows me. I don’t come out to people I work with for obvious reasons, but family, extended family, friends, exes, manager, publicity team, chauffer... everyone who is sort of a permanent fixture in my life knows.” How much he shares with his driver sounds interesting, “The guy has driven me to dates and he’s really cool. I thought he deserved an explanation.” He answers, laughing. 

When asked if he’s ready to be that poster boy for bisexuality now, his answer showcases his diferent approach on the subject as time has gone by. “I kind of hope we don’t need one but I’m done living a lie and I’m okay with standing up against whatever may come at me from now on. My priorities weren’t different before but I was scared to step up for them, I’ve reached a point where it’s enough for me.”

Still, he acknoledges that it’s hard to get people to undertand and does his share in trying to get the message out there for himself and for anyone else who may benefit from him exposing it. “People just think you’re confused or using it as way to hide that you’re gay by trying to blend in. They like to put you in boxes, you’re A and C and that means you’re neither B nor D, sexuality seems to be one of the things you can sort like that until sexual identities like bisexuality get in the mix. Or they just think it’s a phase. The thing is, if I find myself in a long lasting relationship with someone, their gender would not mean me picking, if I marry a man at some point of my life I won’t be coming out as gay by doing so, it won’t change the fact that I’m bi. It would just mean that there's someone I fell in love with.”

There’s something in the way he says that last bit, in the shine of his big hazel eyes that suggests he’s thinking of someone in particular. He neither denies, nor confirms it when asked if he’s in love, “Maybe I am” he says. 

Given his ever present charm and his dapper manners, it’s surprising to hear him say he doesn’t think he’s good at romance, “but the right person can make me want to really try.” He adds.

It has to be asked, therefore, does he have a girlfriend or a boyfriend right now? “Yes, I do.” He answers playfully, leaving us all wondering which one.

Kurt only realized there were tears in his eyes when he was done reading. He turned and hugged Blaine tight. “That was beautiful, sweetie. I’m so proud of you.” He whispered against Blaine’s ear. Blaine said he loved him, his voice afected by his emotions. He hugged Kurt closer and they stayed like that for a while.

Turning to his side, Kurt sat with his legs crossed, facing Blaine. His expression was inviting Blaine to speak up his mind. Blaine moved forward, his hands going to Kurt’s knees, as if he needed the contact to keep himself grounded.  

“It was good, wasn’t it?” Blaine asked, a laugh escaping him and taking him by surprise as his head felt to Kurt’s chest. Kurt hugged him again, a hand on Blaine’s hair to make him look up. “It really was.” He answered with a smile and kissed Blaine chastely but full of love.

“It feels like there’s this huge weight leaving my chest, like I don’t even know what to do with so much lightness.” Blaine finally spoke.

“So you’re feeling okay about this?” Kurt looked at him in the eye.

“I really am.” Blaine said as he pulled Kurt into another kiss, one not so chaste. 

It took quite a few minutes of laying together until Blaine suggested, “I think it’s time to turn your cell on.”

They had agreed with Blaine’s team that it would be better to keep his phone off for at least that day, so their closer contacts were told to communicate through Kurt’s. Allyson and Wes included.

His phone had conveniently been left at the coffee table, so he didn’t have to get up. He had 16 unread messages and 23 missed calls. Blaine’s mom said she loved him and was proud of him (signing in his and Blaine’s father’s behalf and having called a couple of times). Burt, to Blaine’s surprise, was also proud and demanded to be kept posted on any novelty. Carole said the article was beautiful and that it had made her cry. Cooper was excited about the paparazzi at his door and the interviews he was going to do talking about having a bisexual little brother. Finn advised them not to watch certain very conservative news channels ("Really, Finn? Because that’s just what I was about to do”, Kurt was tempted to answer). Puck, who had known for a while due to being Finn’s roommate, wondered if he could tell people he was friends with ‘the tiny dude’s boy toy’ because he could ‘totally make that work with the chicks’. Kurt had to stop going through the texts and send him a piece of his mind before continuing.

Rachel was proud and happy for them and informed that the door to their place was completely clear of wandering reporters, something they had been worried about.  Jenny thought the article was great and sent her love. Mercedes was happy for Kurt and wanted to know when she was finally meeting ‘that cutie of yours’. The first sentence of Eli’s message made Kurt cringe, ‘It was about time’, it started. However, what followed was ‘I’m kidding! That was beautifully put and I may have teared up a little ;)’

The rest were from Allyson and Wes. They were also responsable for most of the missed calls. Allyson was touched and sorry it had taken her a while to support Blaine with this. She said she had left Blaine’s place already and that word was out that Blaine wasn’t there, but she and Wes still thought her place was the safest for Blaine to be for a while. She reminded him to call either her or Wes when he was ready to work out their new course of action. Wes' first message was of pure friendly support. The second one was a small update, somehow intended to work as an encouragement for Blaine to call. ‘This is going pretty much as I expected. Aside from some ever present assholes, there’s a general agreement that you’re being very brave and there’s a lot of support. There’s a fuss over all the mistery around Kurt.’

Blaine hugged Kurt as he finished reading that last one. “I guess it’s time to call Wes and face the music.” He said.

Kurt kissed his cheeck in encouragement and handed him the phone.