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"No, don't you dare say that. Don't you get it? I wouldn't be alive without you. Not because of your Dad or anything, but because I would've killed myself, Blaine. I can't be without you. I need you, cuz you make me feel like I am needed. Like I am loved. And cared for. Please don't ever say that. Please don't leave me." Kurt was crying. He had started crying and just didn't stop.

"Shh, shh. Hey, baby, I am not going to leave you. Even if your Mom is right. I'm really selfish. I promise you I won't leave you. Never. Not until I die, and even if I die, I'm gonna find you again in another lifetime or universe or whatever comes after death." Blaine said. He was sure Kurt's mom was right in some points. But he would never choose his Dad over Kurt also he never thought his dad would stop chasing Kurt if Blaine and Kurt broke up, he always liked being sure. Which in that case included getting rid of Kurt completely. So Blaine was going to protect him as best as he could. "I love you." Kurt whispered.

"I love you too, baby.Noone's going to change that." Blaine whispered and kissed Kurt. He felt how Kurt's cheeks were wet and it broke his heart. Blaine had made him cry. It was Blaine's fault. He carressed Kurt's face in his hands and kissed him deeper. "I love you so much, Kurt." He whispered as they fell asleep.

Kurt and Blaine booked flights as soon as Kurt was able to walk on crutches and ended up flying back to England, not knowing where they'd go from there.

"Hey, Blaine, do you remember that old lighthouse at the beach we once visited? Noone lives there. We could stay there for the night and then go from there."

Blaine nodded. He was a little afraid of Kurt getting hurt somehow, but the lighthouse was gonna be okay for one night. He took Kurt's hand and they went by bus to the beach. It was cold and raining when they arrived there. They had disscussed staying at a hotel first but they were convinced that they were going to need the money they brought for food, since they didnt know where they were going to stay.

They reached the lighthouse and it looked like there was going to be a huge storm that night. Blaine and Kurt pushed the door of the lighthouse open and stepped inside. It had been empty for

a decade now, but it was still really nice and stable. The last keeper had died and it had been able since, because a new one was build and from the lighthouse it took an hour to reach the next grocery store. Kurt and Blaine climbed up the staircase and found the small bedroom they had seen the last time they had been here. It was a round room and had a small lamp and a huge mattress in it. There were 4 windows and the small lamp lit up the room so it was comfortable. There were a few thick blankets in a cupboard beneath one of the windows. Kurt made them a comfy bed out of the mattress that was big enough to have 4 people sleeping on it and the blankets while Blaine made some tea they brought.

Downstairs they were able to heat up some water on top of a small furnance that was probably used as a heater before. Blaine made some tea for both of them. He brought it upstairs and snuggled up beneath the pillows with his boyfriend. "It's not too bad here." Blaine stated. "True" Kurt answered.

"Its warm and comfy and safe and I have you with me." the blue-eyed boy added.

"hmm." Blaine hummed and kissed Kurt.

Kurt kissed back. It soon became more passionate. Blaine only stopped to put their mugs on the floor nest to the matress. He cupped Kurt's face with his hands and looked him in the eyes. "Kurt, I love you. So, so much." he whispered, before he could respond Kurt's lips where distracted by kissing Blaine again. Blaine softly pressed Kurt into the matress, straddling his hips. "Is that okay?" Blaine asked into the kiss they were sharing. "Yeah." Kurt whispered. "Just tell me to stop, okay? Promise me."

"Promise" Kurt whispered and kissed Blaine. This time it was more passionate than ever before.

Blaine started unbuttoning Kurt's shirt. Kurt thought he would have to stop Blaine or anything but he didn't even feel like he needed to. He just felt incredible love for Blaine, that had grown so strong in the past couple of weeks. Blaine took of Kurts shirt and then removed his own. Blaine saw several big scars on Kurts lower stomach and his wrists and arms. Blaine felt tears gathering in his eyes. "I love you." Blaine whispered over and over again, tears he couldnt control streaming down his face. " Am I that ugly?" Kurt whispered softly, a little hurt swinging in his voice. "No, You are beautiful." Blaine said against Kurt's lips. He took Kurt's hand, softly tracing the line of the scars with his fingers. He kissed every single scar, wanting all of them to just heal. He knew he still had to ask Kurt about it, to just tell him to be there for him. He did the same to the scars on the other arm and on Kurts lower belly, which had the other boy giggling lightly. Blaine moved up his boyfriends body again kissing him, pushing his tongue into the other boy's mouth, which had Kurt moaning. "I want you." Blaine whispered. "I told you so the day we got together and right now I want you more than ever before." Kurt moaned again when Blaine kissed down his neck. Kurt let his hands wander down and he grabbed Blaine's ass. Kurt felt Blaine's cock against his thigh and he smirked. "Hmm, Anderson, I think you got something to be taken care of."

Blaine groaned as the words left Kurt's mouth, simply because they sounded so incredibly sexy, coming out of Kurt's mouth. Kurt grinned and pulled Blaine up his body so he could kiss him.

Blaine's hands wandered down to the waistband of Kurt's pants. "May I?" He asked, his voice soare.

Kurt nodded, not trusting his voice. Blaine removed his boyfriend's pants, cupping his erection through his boxers. Kurt moaned at the contact. Soon Blaine's pants and underwear were gone and Kurt squeezed Blaine's ass, moaning. Blaine gasped when Kurt had first touched his ass but now it was just pure pleasure he got out of it. Blaine kissed down Kurt's body, up and down his thighs carressing his lower belly with his hands. "Blaine, please, just touch me already." Kurt whimpered, and Blaine moved up a little and started kissing the head of Kurt's cock, sucking it into his mouth. Kurt groaned and arched his back, as Blaine continued to suck him off. "Oh my god" Kurt whimpered, thrusting his hips up slowly. Blaine moved up his body again and started kissing Kurt again, the taste of pre-cum still on his lips. Kurt would've never thought he would find that hot but strangly he did. Blaine's hand went down to Kurt's cock again, this time moving passed it, giving Kurt's balls a light squeeze but then moving down to stroke over Kurt's hole. "Ready?" He whispered. "Yeah." Kurt moaned. "Please, Blaine. I need you." Blaine prepared Kurt carefully, not wanting to hurt his boyfriend. Kurt moaned at every new finger being inserted into his ass. "B-blaine, I n-n-need you. Now." Blaine kissed Kurt's lips softly, lovingly. "I love you so much, baby. You are so gorgeous." Blaine said. "Love you too." was all Kurt could say because he felt Blaine's cock brushing against his hole. Blaine pressed the tip of his cock inside Kurt and moaned. "Oh my god, baby, you're so tight." he moaned.Kurt shivered because of the pleasure that went through his body when Blaine pushed his cock in deeper, always making sure Kurt wasn't hurting.

It was the best thing Blaine could've done for Kurt, because even though Blaine got so much pleasure out of what they were doing (Kurt did as well) he was willing to stop the second it hurt Kurt in any way. Kurt thought that this behaviour was worth his 1st time. Blaine was worth it. It was beautiful.

Blaine started pushing in his cock harder now, that Kurt really was completely stretched. He changed the angle until he found the spot that made Kurt moan the loudest and kept hitting it. Kurt was about to grab his cock so he could jerk himself off but Blaine was faster. With a loud moan Kurt came. Seeing Kurt like that did it for Blaine as well and he came inside Kurt while stroking the other boy through his orgasm.

"That was amazing, Kurt. Thank you." Blaine whispered, into the comfortable silence that had settled between them. Kurt giggled "my pleasure." he said.