Nov. 29, 2012, 4:23 p.m.
Back to the Start: Chapter 6 Little Things
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"I bet things have been weirder for me today than they've been for you." Kurt told Blaine.
"I'd take that bet." Blaine grinned at Kurt willing himself not to notice that the pants Kurt was wearing were even more obscene from the front.
"Do you want to sit down and talk? I could make us a snack." Kurt smiled back at Blaine waiting for an answer.
Blaine smiled at Kurt "I can't think of anything I want more than to be able to talk to you."
Kurt was clearly struggling to suppress the snide comment dancing at the tip of his tongue.
Blaine looked at his feet, blushing. "Shut up."
Kurt laughed "I didn't say a word."
Kurt brought over a light snack and a couple of glasses of water for them. "So, tell me everything I need to know about Blaine Anderson."
Blaine told Kurt as much as he could about himself. Blaine wanted Kurt to fall in love with him and not the persona he showed the world. He revealed details that he withheld the first time around about things like Cooper, the Sadie Hawkins Dance and how he liked to pretend to be knowledgeable about everything in life but really he was just as lost as every other 16 year old boy.
At that Kurt reached over and held Blaine's hand. "We all do that. I think it's why we hurt one another we forget that the other person isn't as divine as they want us to believe. That's what it's like to be human we're all a little lost. We know how small and scared we are when dealing with life but we forget everyone else feels that same way too. It's difficult to remember that when it comes time to forgive someone else for showing their weaknesses. Maybe that's it; maybe it's why forgiveness is so important it acknowledges the reality we don't like to see. Unfortunately knowing something and feeling it are two different things."
"You're the most forgiving person I know." Voicing that broke his heart even further knowing he had done something that even Kurt hadn't been able to forgive him for.
Kurt laughed mirthlessly "I should know how to be even more forgiving than I am. I know how easily you could lose that person and never be given the chance to set it right again." Kurt looked so young and lost in that instant. "I lost my mother when I was a kid, I almost lost my father" Kurt's eyes shined with unshed tears looking deeply into Blaine's eyes. Blaine wanted to be there for Kurt so he touched Kurt's cheek. "and I lost the boy I loved."
Blaine took his hand away from Kurt's face staring at the table hating Finn more in that moment then he ever had hated anyone before. Blaine hated Finn for hurting Kurt and even more for being someone that Kurt had actually loved; the first time around Kurt had acted like it was just a crush but seeing him like this there was no denying Kurt had lost someone he truly loved. Blaine tried to control the shake of his hands and voice as he asked Kurt to tell him more about himself.
Kurt told Blaine about his ever morphing life from the heart breaking losses to the serendipitous gains. Kurt shared his ambitious dreams of getting out of Lima and moving to New York to work in fashion and to be on Broadway. They were all things Blaine had heard Kurt say before but this time there was a slightly different slant to everything. Just little things like Kurt had bigger aspirations including fashion as part of his career or how he truly thought of Finn and Carol as family.
It was sweet to hear how this version of Kurt seen the world, like it was beautiful and filled with hope. It was going to take almost two years before Kurt would see the world like this again.
Blaine took Kurt's hand in his own rubbing his thumb over Kurt's knuckles. Their eyes met in one of those moments that melts away all of your doubts and you know that you both want the same thing. Blaine watch Kurt's mouth as they both leaned in for the kiss that Blaine had been craving for what seemed like an eternity. Blaine could feel his lips tingle with the anticipation at being able to show Kurt how beautiful a first kiss should be. Blaine thought at least one thing would be perfect this time around.
Artie cleared his throat saying "I just wanted to let you guys know I was leaving."
Kurt and Blaine both looked over to see all the guys standing there awkwardly watching them. Blaine was frustrated while Kurt on the other hand seemed to find everything incredibly amusing.
"Yeah, we're taking off too." Sam told them gesturing between him and Mike.
They all said their goodbyes. Finn even apologized for continuing to doubt Blaine's sincerity. Blaine waved goodbye to Puck who was the last one to leave.
Finn left Kurt and Blaine alone telling them he was going to shower before making up the couch for the night. But it was apparent he just simply didn't know how to deal with them after the embarrassing situation earlier.
It hadn't gone how Blaine had hoped but he knew it wasn't realistic to think Kurt would fall in love with him at first sight. Even the first time around Kurt was charmed by him but not in love. Blaine got Kurt's number but it seemed too blunt to try and kiss a boy he hadn't even asked out yet.
Blaine distracted with his disappointment headed out. Blaine spotted a large man standing next to his car it took him a moment to realize it was Kailen standing next to his car. He was anxious and dressed completely different then Blaine had seen him. He was wearing a white T shirt and grey Bermuda shorts. Blaine approached him asking "Is something wrong? I didn't even recognize you out of the fairy costume."
Kailen bristled at the casual comment "This is the same uniform." He was irritated but mainly wounded as he sat on the curb. "Those were emblems of honor and achievement; I had earned each and every one of those ribbons, bows and ruffles that I was wearing the first time you saw me." Kailen pointed to the clothes he was wearing. "I've been stripped down to this for helping you."
"I'm so sorry. I didn't know." Blaine sat next to Kailen.
"How can they think my one mistake should overshadow everything else I've ever done? I helped and cared for so many people, but one reckless action and I lost everything. The good I've done far outweighs the bad. Don't you think?" Kailen was tearfully looking to Blaine for some kind of answer.
Blaine put a comforting hand on Kailen's massive shoulder but didn't know what to say.
Kailen hugged himself rubbing his arms. When he had calmed a bit he told Blaine. "I overheard the higher fairies discussing that sending you back has had ‘unforeseen consequences'. They said it must have happened because we can't change how people feel. So, I came to make sure you are okay. Are you alright?"
"Yeah, but I did faint earlier when I was with the Warblers. I guess it happened when I was thinking about how I feel about them. Do you think that's what they were talking about?" Blaine asked him.
Kailen shrugged "It might be. You still have the wand right?"
"Yeah it's in my messenger bag. I left it in the car after school."
"Good, keep it close. Call me if you need me, okay?" Kailen said taking Blaine into a hug.
"Thank you, for everything you've done for me, Kailen."
Kailen vanished leaving Blaine standing alone in the cold trying to figure out how he was going to deal with fainting randomly from now on. He might have to transfer schools because he would go crazy if he had to suffer through another day of the Warblers monitoring his every move.
Blaine checked his pocket for his keys then Blaine realized he left them in his jacket which was inside. He needed to go back and get them but it had been ten minutes. How was he going to explain why it took him this long to notice he doesn't have his jacket or keys? Then a worse thought came to mind ‘Oh no... after how we met I hope to god Kurt doesn't think something horrible; like that I've been masturbating on his front lawn.'
Blaine knocked on the door hoping he hadn't been out there so long that Finn and Kurt had already gone to bed.