"I dont understand," Kurt said, after staring at Rachels bump for what felt like a long time. The small bump and the words that came with it didnt sit right in his brain. Blaine and Rachel couldnt be having a baby. It didnt make sense.

And yet... her stomach was definitely swelling, and it definitely made sense that Blaine would be the father. He knew she wouldnt lie about this, but he didnt want to believe it.

"I found out a couple months ago. it was right around the time that I got the lead in Funny Girl," she placed her hand on her stomach, looking down at it with a frown.

"You mean, Blaine has known about this for a couple months?" Kurt said shortly. 

"Yeah, I told him shortly after I got the part, because I knew I couldnt keep it from him forever. We talked about having kids someday, but this was unexpected," Rachel gently rubber her belly. "Once I got over the shock of losing my dream Broadway role, before I found out Blaine cheated on me, I was very happy that we were starting a family. Even in the last week, I thought maybe we could move past him cheating and still be that family."

"But..." Kurt said weakly.

"But now youre telling me that hes gay and I have no chance of things ever working out," she said, tears now rolling down her cheeks. "I dont understand. We were so happy for three years. Three years."

"I know," Kurt mumbled. He felt numb. This wasnt happening. He couldnt take his eyes off her stomach. He saw it. He heard it. But understanding that Blaine had lied to him about something like this seemed impossible.

"And now youre telling me that he sleeps with you and decides that he was wrong about his feelings for me the last three years," Rachel said, her voice growing louder. "How does that happen?"

"Because hes been confused for a long time, Rachel. He was just too afraid to admit it," Kurt said. He tore his eyes from her stomach and looked at her face, taking a deep breath. She looked so tired, so helpless, standing there cradling her pregnant belly. He could understand why this was hard for her, and he began feeling guilty that he had put his friend in this predicament.

Well, really, Blaine put her in this predicament, but Kurt contributed. He knew he couldnt defend Blaine, because he was the source of all of this  He had lied to both of them. "Look, Im sorry about this, Rachel. I really am."

"You knew he was dating me," she said, brushing her hair behind her ear. "You knew you were sleeping with my boyfriend, and you went ahead and did it anyway. I dont want to hear an apology from you, Kurt Hummel, because that means nothing to me. I trusted you."

Kurt knew how that felt, because he had lost his trust in Blaine too. He couldnt blame her, but he didnt want her angry with him either. He honestly wasnt trying to hurt Rachel when he slept with Blaine.

"I told you, it just sort of happened," Kurt said quickly, moving closer to her. "Rachel, please,. Were in a similar situation here. I didnt know any of this was going on with Blaine,. I thought he was going to break up with you. For a while, he led me to believe that you had broken up. But when we went to Lima, and you introduced him as your boyfriend, I thought otherwise. But he had that fight with his dad, and he was so vulnerable, and it just went from there."

"Wait, wait, you slept with him while we were in i Lima?" she froze.

"Yes."

"The night of the dinner?"

"Yes."

"Kurt, he was upset because he had a fight with his father about the baby. Mybaby," she placed a hand on her hips. ‘He came to you, because he was upset about my baby."

"I didnt know! I thought maybe he came out to his dad," Kurt shot back.

"Thats the least of Blaines problems at this point," Rachel moved toward the door. "Kurt, I want you to leave."

""Were not done here," Kurt stood his ground. He  was still in shock over this whole thing, and he wasnt going to walk away this easily. There was too much to discuss.

"I dont want you here anymore, Kurt. You lied to me. You hurt me in the worst possible way. We promised we would always be there for each other. I never expected anything like this from you," she opened the door.

"But Blaine lied to both of us," Kurt reminded her. "Dont play the victim with me when youve been keeping secrets from me as well," he gestured toward her abdomen.

"I dont care," Rachel said flatly. "I was going to tell you about the baby. In fact, I was excited to tell you about it, because I didnt suspect that you were involved. But you... you lied to me, and I cant forgive you for that."

"Rachel - " Kurt started.

"Get out!" she shouted.

Kurt brushed past her, hot tears stinging his eyes. He heard the door slam behind him and leaned against the wall. Sinking to the floor, Kurt buried his face in his hands and cried. 

New Message From Blaine:

"You know, you havent been at the coffee shop the last couple days, and thats unusual for you. Are you okay?

New Message From Blaine:

Kurt? Please answer me. Im getting worried.

New Message From Blaine:

Kurt. come on, seriously. Whats going on?

Days went by with texts like this from Blaine, and Kurt ignored every single one. He felt so numb that he couldnt even face Blaine through text messages. He wanted to confront him. When he finally picked himself up off the hallway floor, Kurt considered storming over to Mercedes and Sams apartment and telling Blaine off, but he couldnt. Every time he thought about Blaine after that, it left his heart aching.

Dylan was starting to notice  something was wrong with him. Kurt told his boyfriend that he simply didnt feel good, but he knew that Dylan suspected there was something else going on.

"Do you want some tea?" Dylan asked that Thursday night.

"No," Kurt said, staring at the wall in front of him. He had been miserable for days, still avoiding Blaines texts and calls. However, avoiding Blaine was becoming too much. As time went on, he began feeling less numb and more angry. At times, he wanted to answer Blaines calls and tell him off.

but he couldnt will himself to do it.

"Do you want to watch a movie?"

"No."

"Do you want to go in the bedroom?" Dylan asked, hopefully, since Kurt had avoided being intimate with him since he found out about the baby. Blaines baby.

"No," he said quietly. "I think i want to go for a walk."

"Its kind of late, Kurt," Dylan said, glancing out the window. 

"No, I need to," Kurt said miserably. He stood up and moved toward the door to put his shoes on. Grabbing his coat, he turned to Dylan and said, "um Ill be back soon, okay? Dont wait up."

"Youre not... sneaking off to be with him, are you?" Dylan raised an eyebrow.

"Actually, I am„" Kurt admitted. "But dont worry, I think this is a conversation you would approve of."

"Okay, just so I know," Dylan came over to him and kissed his cheek. "I love you."

"I know," Kurt whispered.

He spent the cab ride over to Blaines trying to come up with the best way to confront Blaine about this. He didnt know if Rachel had already talked to Blaine about this. Maybe she had ignored Blaine like he did. He wasnt sure what to expect or how to handle this. Would he get angry enough to tell Blaine off? Was he too hurt to confront Blaine? 

"Hi, Kurt," Mercedes said, greeting him with a hug when she opened the door a few minutes later. "Come on in."

"Is Blaine here?" Kurt asked quietly.

"Yeah," she smiled. "Blaine! Kurts here to see you."

Blaine came rushing to the door. He stopped next to Mercedes and his face fell at the sight of Kurt. "Hey, are you okay? You look rather pale... Ive been trying to get a hold of you."

"We need to talk," Kurt said firmly.

"Do you guys need some space?" Mercedes said at Kurts tone.

"Please," he answered.

"Sam, come on, were going for a walk," Mercedes called. She waited until Sam came over with a coat on and left with an anxious glance at the two of them.

"Whats wrong?" Blaine frowned, when the door shut behind them.

"Will you sleep with me?" Kurt asked, stepping near Blaine.

"What?" Blaine chuckled. This clearly wasnt where he thought this conversation was going.

"If I told you that I wanted to sleep with you right now, would you do it?" Kurt insisted.

"If thats what you need," Blaine said awkwardly.

"Even though youre girlfriend is pregnant?" Kurt crossed his arms over his chest.

Blaines jaw dropped and he stared at Kurt with wide, fearful eyes, like  a deer caught in headlights. "Excuse me?" he choked out, when he had pulled himself together.

"You didnt know?" Kurt raised an eyebrow.

"Kurt - " he started.

"Because according to her, youve known for two months," he felt his hands shaking, and he had to force himself to calm down, before he lost it completely. He had the upper hand here. He couldnt break down now.

"How do you know?" Blaine asked, clearly stunned.

"Because I went to talk to her, and it came up in conversation. I guess she had the guts to tell me what you didnt bother telling me for two months," Kurt said angrily.

"I was going to tell you," Blaine stepped forward. "I promise you, I was going to tell you. I just hadnt gotten around to doing it yet. I was afraid of what youd think."

"Oh really? You took my feelings into consideration?" Kurt raised his voice. "You knew you were having a baby, and you turned around and slept with me. You led me to believe that you cared about me, knowing you had a bigger commitment."

"Is that so different than when you knew I had a girlfriend?" Blaine shot back. "I mean, come on, Kurt. You were all over me before I even told you I was gay. You knew I had a girlfriend, and it didnt bother you."

"We had temptations, Blaine, but we stopped ourselves. We agreed to keep things platonic. Things changed when I thought you broke up with Rachel, You lied to me about that too," Kurt said. 

"Dont act like ‘m the only one with commitments," Blaine said harshly. He narrowed his eyebrows and said, "This is not all my fault, Kurt. I never forced you into anything."

"Oh?" Kurt said.

"You slept with me while you were with Dylan. Hell, youre still with Dylan, and I know hes a commitment to you. Its only been mentioned a hundred time," Blaine pointed at him. "How the hell do you think that makes me feel, Kurt? I care about you so damn much, and I want to be with you, but all I hear about is how much youre afraid of hurting Dylan."

"Because I didnt know where I stood with you! Weve been playing this game for so long, and its gotten us no where. You told me you were gay, but you hung around with Rachel,and I couldnt figure out why. i couldnt leave Dylan for someone who didnt honestly know what they wanted," Kurt felt his body tense/ Now that Blaine was turning this on him, he knew he had to stand his ground.

"Because I had the baby! How was I supposed to choose between you and my own son or daughter?" Blaine was now so close, Kurt took a step backward into the wall, feeling too close for comfort.

"You slept with me, Blaine. I tore down my walls and gave myself to you," Kurt said hotly. tears stinging his eyes. He cursed himself for breaking like this. "And you lied to me. You took advantage of me, because you were upset over problems I didnt even know existed, and that was a really shitty thing to do."

"Thats not what it was," Blaine said.

"Then what was it?" he snapped.

Blaine took a deep breath and continued, "I had just told my dad about the baby, and he told me that I was in over my head. He told me that I didnt know what I was doing. And I knew he was right, especially because I knew I had you to deal with. And when you came to find me, it all happened so fast, and I was so fed up with all the secrets that I just wanted to be with you and escape from everything,."

"Deal with me?" Kurt pointed out. "I am not something to deal with, Blaine. This may have been a choice of what is right and wrong for you, but youre dealing with my feelings, and I dont like that I put my heart in your hands, because youre not treating it with gentle hands," Kurts voice cracked and tears began rolling down his cheeks.

"its now what I meant. I didnt want to hurt you," Blaine said quietly. "I just had some things in my head that I needed to sort out, and I wasnt ready to face reality yet. Im so sorry, Kurt."

He stood there, tears falling, feeling completely drained. Now that he had started crying, he couldnt seem to stop. He didnt know what to do, and he hated that Blaine reduced him to this. It was too much to deal with, and Kurt knew what he had to do.

He glanced up at those hazel eyes and cleared his throat. trying to sound stronger than he felt, Kurt said, "You told me from the day you bought me that coffee that I could always trust you, and I hoped I could believe you. I hoped it so much that I gave myself to you. I cheated for you. And you broke the promise that I could trust you," Kurt turned to leave. He couldnt stand it anymore. 

"Kurt, please," Blaines voice was so quiet now. He grabbed Kurts arm, pulling him back. "You dont understand what its been like for me. If you would just hear me out."

"For you/? I dont know what its been like for you?" Kurt cried, turning back to face him. " You dont know what its been like for me. Do you know that Ive been fighting with Dylan for a couple weeks now. Hes been so on edge since you stayed with us. And Ive gone out of my way to defend you. I wanted so badly for him to accept you, even though I knew all of this was wrong. I never should have let you so close. I knew I had feelings for you, and I was so stupid for not pushing them away."

"No," Blaine shook his head. "No please. I dont want regrets, because being with you has made me so happy. Youve given me so much, Kurt, and I dont want to regret that."

"Youre too late," Kurt snarled. "You should have done something about this a long time ago. But you led me on, and you lied to Rachel, thinking she was going to be with you. Youre a fraud, Blaine Anderson."

"Kurt, please. Ive been so conflicted," Blaine pulled at his curls, growing frustrated. "I knew I couldnt stay with Rachel. I knew it from the moment I admitted to you that I was gay, because I liked you, and I wanted you to know that. But when she told me about the baby, there was nothing I could do. I couldnt walk away from my child. Im not going to be the type of father that abandoned their child. How was I supposed to walk away from Rachel during the most difficult time in her life? Shes pregnant, Kurt. I didnt want to hurt her or my baby."

"So you kept it a secret from me," Kurt scoffed. "You couldnt hurt her, and you were too noble to be honest with me."

"i wasnt trying to be noble," Blaine said flatly.

"But you couldnt tell me."

"She didnt want anyone to know in case something went wrong!" Blaine said loudly. Tears now forming in his eyes  "And I knew you would freak out, and I was so scared of losing you. I know I havent known you for that long but I... I cant lose you. Youve been so good for me, and my heart longs for you when youre not here, and i.. I was terrified of telling you. I knew i should have told you sooner. I tried. there were so many times that I wanted to tel you, but every time I thought about it, i panicked, because you were so right for me, and i knew I couldnt lose you, because i... i love you, Kurt."

Kurt froze. His heart pounding quickly. Of all the things he expected Blaine to say, this wasnt it. He couldnt handle this. It was all wrong. He was so angry with Blaine. 

"I know it sounds crazy, and maybe its not even in the way I hoped it was. But youve been such a wonderful friend, and you make me happy when Im around you, and its why I was so afraid of losing you, because I dont ever want to feel the way I did before I met you," Blaine stepped closer. His tone was more gentle now.

Kurt stared at him, keeping his expression hard. He had so many thoughts running through his head, he didnt know what to do. He had grown to care for Blaine, but this was too much. The Blaine he knew wouldnt hurt him like this. Kurt always wanted to picture Blaine as the sweet boy from the coffee shop, not this lying mess before him. 

"Please say something, because I feel like Im going to die," Blaine admitted.

"I dont trust you," Kurt said quietly.

"I know," Blaine hung his head.

"I knew you were too good to be true," Kurt said, feeling some of his strength coming back. His voice sounded stronger now.. "You made me feel like shit, Blaine. I have spent days feeling devastated over you,"

"I never wanted to hurt you," Blaine sighed, clearly thinking he could turn this around.

"Youre not the person I thought you were, Blaine," he continued. "Youre never going to be the person I hoped you were, because you have your own life to live. You have a family, and this new plan you need to follow. And I dont belong in that plan."

"I cant lose you," Blaine whispered..

"I cant hurt over you anymore, Blaine," Kurt shook his head. "I never should have let myself close to you, and Im not going to anymore.  Youve been battling with this decision for long enough, and Im going to make the decision for you."

"Kurt - "

"be with Rachel. Be with your baby. Im not going to wait for you anymore," Kurt turned on his heel and headed back out the door. Letting out the sob he had choked back, Kurt made his way back to the street, afraid that Blaine would follow him. He had made his decision, and seeing Blaines face again would make the decision that much harder to face.

.Turning from Blaine had been hard enough, and he couldnt go back now.