Blaine sat in his car outside the Hummel residence. The spring evening air hummed with insects that dashed across the hood of his car as if it were part of the scenery.  The light above the front door shone into the fading light, both calling Blaine in and warning him to stay away. He still wasn’t sure what he was about to do. He should have called ahead. But he knew if he did he’d feel more nervous. No, this was best. He just needed to see Kurt…

The doorbell rang from within the house. Blaine fidgeted as he listened for the footsteps to arrive at the door. Kurt opened the door and smiled. Blaine smiled back with his hands in his pockets.

“Hey, what are you doing here?” It was genuinely inquisitive, not accusatory, but Blaine still felt a jab at the centre of his chest.
“Saw you were home, just wanted to see you.”

Kurt opened the door wider to let Blaine in. They had talked before…They had visited… But Blaine still felt such a sense of guilt being in this house. Like he had betrayed everyone here somehow. If only he could turn his feelings for Kurt off. Maybe that would make it better..

“Drink?” asked Kurt, gesturing to his half-glass of apple juice.
“Yeah.. .please.” said Blaine. They sat at the kitchen table. Blaine ran his thumb up and down the cold glass that Kurt put in front of him, but he never drank. “How’s work?”
“It’s good. Nice to have a bit of a break I guess… see everyone…” He trailed off. Blaine just nodded.

Lyin' here with you so close to me
It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

Blaine looked up to find Kurt smiling slightly at him. Blaine smiled back. 
“I miss you.” He said.
“I know.” Said Kurt.
“I…” Blaine’s throat caught and he didn’t know how to finish.

I've never opened up to anyone
So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms
We don't need to rush this
Let's just take it slow

“I love you.” He finally said.
“I know.” Said Kurt. 
“Do you?” Asked Blaine, his eyes involuntarily glazed over as they filled with tears.
“Oh… Oh honey,” Kurt leaned over the table and took Blaine’s hand. Blaine’s insides surged with emotion. He looked at Kurt and tried to read what he was feeling. Did he still love Blaine back? Was he just being safe or were the feelings really gone? Blaine traced the outline of Kurt’s lips with his eyes and wished more than anything that Kurt would just kiss him.

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright

Blaine squeezed Kurt’s hand and Kurt smiled sadly back at him. Was it too soon? Blaine wondered if he should even be here. They had been on good enough terms thus far.

No I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

“I’m just so…so sorry, Kurt.”
“I know. Blaine, we’ve talked about this you don’t have to bring it up. We’re ok.”
“I was so angry. It was so stupid.”
“And I’m sorry for being busy, but Blaine you know how busy work is. It doesn’t mean I’ve forgotten about you. You need to finish school.”
“I hate being so far away. I hate not talking to you.”
“Then email me if I don’t answer my phone. Write to me and tell me things. Don’t just think that I’m ignoring you.” Blaine nodded a little. He just wished Kurt would hug him or something… something familiar…
“Can you forgive me, Kurt?”

I know that if we give this a little time
It'll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right

“I can forgive but I can’t forget can I?”
“Yeah.”
“Yeah.”
“Blaine, you know I love you. That’s why maybe I CAN forgive. But I’m still angry.”
“I know.” Maybe he should just leave. Maybe this wasn’t a good idea. What was the point of coming sobbing to Kurt when it was all stuff they’d been over before. Blaine let go of Kurt’s hands and stood up.

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far

“Blaine…”
“Yeah?” he rested his hand on the doorknob. Kurt moved to stand in front of him. Blaine was dizzy with the smell of Kurt. He either needed to get or be allowed to stay. He didn’t know which was better.

Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life
So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

Kurt put his arms around Blaine’s neck and held him close. Blaine buried his face in Kurt’s shoulder and breathed deeply. 

No I don't want to say goodnight
I know it's time to leave, but you'll be in my dreams
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight

Blaine backed away and traced his fingers down Kurt’s arms until their hands met. Their fingers entwined for a moment before falling away from each other. Blaine opened the door and stepped outside. He stood a moment before a surge of determination rushed through him. He spun back around and pulled Kurt’s face towards his.

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight
Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
No I don't want to mess this thing up
I don't want to push too far

Blaine pulled back and held Kurt’s hand firmly in his. 

“I love you.” He said, looking Kurt in the eye. Kurt didn’t have time to reply before Blaine was down on one knee.
“Blaine… What?”
“Kurt. You are truly everything to me. Will you marry me?”

Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life

“Blaine… I…”

So baby I'm alright, oh, let's do this right, with just a kiss goodnight

Blaine sat in his car outside the Hummel residence. The spring evening air hummed with insects as he wiped his sleeve across his face and switched to a less-depressing radio station. 

With a kiss goodnight

This was a stupid idea. He backed out of the driveway and crept away down the road. He didn’t see the movement of the living room curtain as Kurt hid his face.

Kiss goodnight