“I’m Sorry Blaine but they need me to work up town tonight, there’s nothing I can do” snapped Kurt.

“I know but me and Bex haven’t seen you all week, you’re always in the office or working uptown or a fashion designer’s parties. We never see you anymore.” Blaine retorted.

It was true; Kurt workload had significantly grown since his promotion to assistant editor. He really wanted to spend more time with Blaine and Bex, he had no time his schedule kept him so busy there were some days where he really wanted to quit, but the money was good, it meant that they could stay in a nice New York apartment, afford nice things for Bex.

“I know, but this is my job. I need to do this, it’s not like your bringing in much money on your gigs is it?”

“Hey, don’t throw that in my face! I said- I said I’d get a better job, even if it was something that I hated, but you said no Blaine go follow you dreams, I can take care of us.” yelled Blaine.

“YES I DID! WHICH MEANS YOU SHOULDN’T YELL AT ME FOR DOING MY JOB AND PROVIDING FOR US!”

“Daddies? Why are you shouting?” said Rebecca quietly.

“Oh Rebecca sweetie, we’re sorry. go on get ready for school, Daddy and I are just going to have another talk and they he’ll come and make you breakfast okay” said Kurt quietly, as he watched Bex leave.

“Look Blaine I have to go now or I’m going to be late for my conference. We’ll discuss this when I get home okay!”

“And what time will that be? Midnight? 1am? 4am?”

“I’ll be home by 11 okay.” said Kurt before storming out of the apartment.

~~~

As Blaine walked Rebecca to school he noticed that the traffic was worse than usual.

“There must have been some accident on the highway” said Blaine passively; not knowing how much this accident would change his life.

“Daddy?”

“Yes sweetie”

“Will you and Daddy be friends again? I don’t like it when you shout… it makes me sad.”

“Don’t worry honey it was just a stupid fight… everything will be fine”

~~~

Blaine was sat practicing his set for Saturday’s performance when the phone rang.

“Hello, Anderson residence” said Blaine cheerfully.

“Hello is this Blaine Anderson?” said the man at the other end of the line.

“Yes it is”

“This is NY General Hospital, I’m afraid your Husband, Kurt, was in a car crash on the highway this morning, He has several fractured ribs, a broken wrist and a severed spinal cord. he’s stable and he’s in a medically induced coma. Would you be able to come down here we have some paperwork for you to sign.”

“Yes, yes I’ll be right down” said Blaine panicking.

Oh my god this could be it, he could lose Kurt, and they never made up after their stupid fight, and now he might not get a chance to. Kurt has done so much for them, and he sacrificed so much to get this job. Blaine felt awful, what if it was because Kurt was so angry with Blaine that he crashed.

The journey to the hospital was a blur; he couldn’t even remember how he got there.

“Erm hi, I’m Blaine Anderson, I’m here to see Kurt Anderson”

“Oh yes right this way Mr Anderson…” said a small brown haired nurse.

The nurse showed Blaine to a small sterile room, one the bed that was in the middle of the room lay the practically lifeless form of his husband, laying there bruised battered and broken. There were tubes going in and out of Kurt, the slow steady beep of the heart monitor.

“I’m so sorry Kurt, we should have made up… or just not argued if we hadn’t argued… you- you would have left earlier and – and you wouldn’t have been in that accident, and I’d still be waiting for you to come home…Please wake up Kurt. Please squeeze my hand, please.” Blaine pleaded grasping Kurt's hand.

Blaine lent in a pressed a soft kiss to Kurt's lifeless lips. Tears falling silently down his cheeks.

“Mr Anderson?” asked a kind looking woman from the door.

Blaine turned. “Yes?”

“Would you come with me?”

Blaine followed after giving the love of his life one last lingering look, before following the woman to a smallish office where he had to sign some insurance papers. When he’d done, he quickly phoned Rachel.

“Hey, Rachel…” he said, trying to hold back the tears. “Would you be able to pick Bex up from school and take her back to yours for the night?”

“Yeah sure, Blaine what’s happened?” said Rachel, concerned.

“Kurt was- Kurt was in a c-c-car accident on his way to work,” Blaine swallowed audibly “he’s in hospital. I’m going to spend the night here… I’ll ring you tonight so I can speak to Bex… I just feel awful, we had this fight this morning about him working late and, and”

“Shush Blaine, how- how is he?”

“He’s in a medically induced coma, He has several fractured ribs, a broken wrist and a severed spinal cord, and I think they are going to run more tests when he’s awake he just looks so small and broken. It’s my fault…”

“Blaine, don’t you dare go thinking that okay? This was an accident okay”

“But if we hadn’t have fought…”

“Blaine this isn’t your fault! Just- just don’t do anything stupid okay...”

“I won’t, I’m just going to wait for him to wake up… I need to apologise… I need to make everything right”

“Okay. We love you Blaine, Kurt will be okay”

Blaine hung up the phone and walked back to Kurt’s room. He sat there for a few hours, listening to the heart monitor, watching Kurt's chest move slowly up and down.

“We'll do it all, everything, on our own” Blaine said quietly

we don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

Kurt eyes started to flicker open, he was blinded for a seconds by the light, but then he heard Blaine's voice he turned his head slowly, as he found it hurt a lot to move, and he saw Blaine sat on a chair tears falling down his cheeks singing beautifully. He couldn’t remember where he was, how he got here or why Blaine was crying. Blaine glanced up and saw Kurt looking at him, he got up and walked to the bed and took Kurt's hand in his and squeezed it.

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we’re told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

“What- What’s happened Blaine? Where am I?” said Kurt curiously.

“We’re at NY general hospital, you- you were in a crash this morning on your way to work…”

Kurt was silent for a second as he took in the view, and noted some of his injuries. He was in a plaster cast; he had one on his wrist too.

“Oh, yeah, it’s coming back to me now…i-I was driving and then this truck came out of no-where and hit me…and then I blacked out”

“I’m sorry Kurt”

“Sorry for what?”

“For yelling this morning… maybe if I hadn’t you wouldn’t have had the crash”

“Blaine, don’t blame yourself, that fight was as much my fault as it was yours, this is just unfortunate” said Kurt trying to sit up “Blaine, I can’t move my legs. Why can’t I move my legs?”

“They said you severed you spinal cord, I guess, I guess that means, that, that you can’t…”

“Oh,” said Kurt sinking back into the pillow, tear started to roll down his cheeks. “I can’t walk anymore?”

“I guess? I’m going to get a doctor; they said they wanted to see you when you’d woken up”

“Okay… By the way, that song was beautiful”

Blaine smiled nodded and left. He soon returned with a small male doctor.

“Hello Mr Anderson, we need to run a few more tests.”

“O-Okay, what tests?” asked Kurt nervously.

“MRI scan and some bloods” said the doctor.

Kurt nodded slowly. “Blaine, don’t leave me?”

“Never, Kurt, Never. Is it okay?”

“Yes Mr Anderson that’s fine”

Blaine took Kurt’s hand and squeezed his hand.

~~~

After a few hours of tests and waiting the doctor returned with Kurt’s results.

“Mr Anderson, well, your bloods are normal, I’m afraid that I don’t have any more good news, you have a brain stem haemorrhage”

“Is there anything you can do?” asked Blaine anxiously

The doctor bowed his head. “I’m sorry; there is nothing we can do, anything we try to do will just make it worse. I’m really sorry.”

“How-how long do I have?” asked Kurt slowly, he never thought he’d be facing his mortality so young.

“I’m afraid there’s no telling, the bleeding is pretty aggressive. We’ll have to keep you in the ICU, to monitor you; we can make you as comfortable as possible. I’m sorry”

Tears streamed down Blaine’s face, he was going to lose the love of his life. The only man he’d ever truly loved. He was going to be gone, and Blaine couldn’t do anything about it.

~~~

“Hey Bex” said Blaine when Rachel had handed over the phone.

“Where are you and daddy? You aren’t fighting again are you?” asked Rebecca.

“No, No we’re not fighting, we’ve made up” said Blaine trying to hold back the tears. “Okay sweet heart, Daddy Kurt- Daddy Kurt had an accident today on his way to work…He’s in hospital now, I’m going to stay the night here, I’ll pick you up from school tomorrow and bring you to see him okay?”

“Is he going to be okay?”

“We don’t know sweetie” Blaine lied, he didn’t want her to worry too much, maybe the bleeding would stop and Kurt would be okay. The doctor hadn’t said it wouldn’t fix itself.

“Oh”

Blaine heard stifled little sobs.

“Bex, don’t cry? Daddy will be okay? Don’t worry about him, he’s in safe hands”

“But, but what if he’s not” Bex cried

“Shush, shush Bex.” Blaine cleared his throat “Soft kitty, warm kitty, little ball of fur. Happy kitty sleepy kitty, purr, purr, purr”

“Th-thank y-you dad-daddy” said Rebecca.

“Okay, everything will be okay, okay… good night Bex we love you”

“I love my daddies too goodnight, give Daddy Kurt a goodnight kiss from me, and here’s yours mwah” said Bex before Rachel took it back.

“How are you holding in Blaine?”

“I’m okay, I’ve cried like six times but I’m okay I guess, as okay as you can be when you find out your Husband is dying”

“I’m so sorry Blaine.”

“Thanks Rachel, I should go now, I need to eat I haven’t eaten since breakfast”

“Okay see you tomorrow Blaine”

“See you tomorrow Rachel.”

~~~

Blaine returned to Kurt's room after eating half a banana, he’d really lost his appetite since finding out about Kurt's accident.

“Blaine baby, come here” said Kurt gesturing for Blaine to come over to his bedside.

“Yes?”

“I love you, and I’m sorry about all the working late… and missing dinners and arguing, I really, really love you.” said Kurt taking Blaine’s hand in his good one and squeezing it.

“I love you more, Kurt I’m really sorry for yelling at you this morning… I understand, you have to work and you sacrificed so much, and you really enjoy what you do”

“Enjoyed… I enjoyed it, you know I won’t be going back to work, or coming back home…”

“You are going to get fixed, you will get better you have to, I can’t lose you, I’m not ready… you can’t leave me”

“I don’t want to leave you either, but it’s inevitable. There’s nothing neither of us can do okay.”

“Never say never Kurt, a miracle could happen…I don’t want to know what life is like without you. It hurts just thinking about it”

“Blaine, I will always be with you okay? I’ll be you in your heart, wherever you go okay.” said Kurt tears rolling down his cheeks uncontrollably.

“I know, but I’ll miss you and how are we going to tell Bex?”

“We’ll we can wait a little while, until it gets worse to tell her.”

“Okay…I’m bringing her over tomorrow; she was really upset when we were fighting”

“Let’s forget about that we have other, more important things to worry about okay, d-d-do Finn and Rachel know?”

“Yes”

“Do my parents?”

“Yes, Finn phoned them”

“Come here, lay here next to me.”

Blaine lay down on the side of Kurt's bed; Kurt wrapped his good arm around Blaine’s waist and pulled him closer. Blaine pressed kisses to Kurt's Jawline.

“I love you”

“I love you more”

“I love you most”

~~~

Letting go of Kurt was going to be the hardest thing Blaine would ever have to. He just hoped he would have the strength to. He didn’t want to lose the love of his life.