sugakane_01
May 30, 2012, 3:44 p.m.
The Last To Know
Blaine realizes what he's been searching for has been right in front of him all along but the realization may be too little, too late.
T - Words: 753 - Last Updated: May 30, 2012 902 0 0 0 Categories: Angst, Romance, Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, Wes,
Author's Notes: Contains vague spoilers for Original Song
Blaine knows he shouldn't be surprised. Kurt is, after all, amazing. He's talented and attractive, witty and charming, and there's something about him that makes him seem out of place, almost exotic, when compared to his Midwest surroundings. Kurt's kind and he's loyal and even though he's sarcastic and capable of being bitchy and petty, he's also constantly putting others ahead of himself and willing to go to the wall for a friend. Blaine, more than anyone, knows just how much Kurt has to offer.
So it shouldn't come as a shock to walk into the common room and see Kurt talking with Nick. It shouldn't be a surprise to see Nick lean in close and whisper into Kurt's ear so that he blushes and giggles, smacking Nick on his arm and shooting him a coy look from underneath his lashes. Blaine should be prepared for this, he's the one who put Kurt in the friend zone, told him he was bad at romance and didn't want to risk their friendship. It was Blaine's choice and he shouldn't be surprised that Kurt accepted it and moved it.
He shouldn't be, but as Nick reaches out to tangle his fingers in Kurt's tie and gently tug him forward into a soft kiss, a sweet, barely there brushing of their lips, Blaine can't help but be surprised.
And what shocks him isn't that Kurt's moved on, or even that he's moved on to Nick, but that Blaine doesn't want him to. What surprises Blaine is that he's not happy for them; in fact the sight of his two friends wrapped up in each other makes his stomach clench and blood run hot, and then cold. What surprises Blaine is the steady chant of "mine, mine, mine" that reverberates in his head at the sight of Nick holding Kurt's hand.
When he finally tears his eyes away from the couple, he notices Jeff giving him a sympathetic shrug and Wes and David looking at him and shaking their heads in collective disappointment. It shouldn't surprise Blaine that everyone knew but him, after all he's notorious for missing the obvious, but he can't help but wish that David, Wes, Jeff, anyone had come to him and pointed out that he was head over heels in love with Kurt before it was too late.
It shouldn't come as a surprise, because really, falling in love with your best friend is as clich� as it gets but Blaine is surprised. He's surprised and confused and a little angry that he was so blind for so long and now that he does know he can't do anything about it.
Blaine sighs and his shoulders slump forward and he slides down in his seat. Wes' eyes narrow and he quickly stands up and marches over from the council table to take the seat next to Blaine.
"You are an idiot," he states without preamble.
"I know," Blaine agrees quietly.
"You are an idiot for not realizing how perfect you two are for each other," he clarifies, just in case Blaine was unclear.
"I know," Blaine snaps.
"But I can forgive you for being an idiot. We're all idiots at some point when it comes to love," Wes fixes Blaine with a hard look, "But I won't forgive you for being a coward."
Blaine's head snaps up and he looks at Wes questioningly.
"You love him. Tell him," Wes said simply.
"He's with Nick-"
"You don't know that he's 'with' Nick and even if he is that doesn't mean he's over you. That just means he decided not to sit around and pine anymore, "Wes pointed out.
"I can't-"
"Coward," Wes cut in.
"How can you expect me to just-"
"Huge coward," Wes amended.
"I'm not a coward."
"Then tell him. Respect him enough to let him know he has a choice and then respect whatever choice he makes. But don't pretend you're sitting on this for his sake. Kurt had the courage to put it all out there and let you know how he felt and he took it like a man when you kicked him in the Warblers. Now it's your turn to put your proverbial cards on the table." Wes rose, patting Blaine on the shoulder and walking away.
Blaine takes a deep breath, pushes his shoulders back and gathers his courage. He stands up and begins walking towards the countertenor, unsure of what exactly he's going to say but knowing that he has to say something. He owes it to himself, and to Kurt to find out if they still have a chance or if he's too little, too late.
So it shouldn't come as a shock to walk into the common room and see Kurt talking with Nick. It shouldn't be a surprise to see Nick lean in close and whisper into Kurt's ear so that he blushes and giggles, smacking Nick on his arm and shooting him a coy look from underneath his lashes. Blaine should be prepared for this, he's the one who put Kurt in the friend zone, told him he was bad at romance and didn't want to risk their friendship. It was Blaine's choice and he shouldn't be surprised that Kurt accepted it and moved it.
He shouldn't be, but as Nick reaches out to tangle his fingers in Kurt's tie and gently tug him forward into a soft kiss, a sweet, barely there brushing of their lips, Blaine can't help but be surprised.
And what shocks him isn't that Kurt's moved on, or even that he's moved on to Nick, but that Blaine doesn't want him to. What surprises Blaine is that he's not happy for them; in fact the sight of his two friends wrapped up in each other makes his stomach clench and blood run hot, and then cold. What surprises Blaine is the steady chant of "mine, mine, mine" that reverberates in his head at the sight of Nick holding Kurt's hand.
When he finally tears his eyes away from the couple, he notices Jeff giving him a sympathetic shrug and Wes and David looking at him and shaking their heads in collective disappointment. It shouldn't surprise Blaine that everyone knew but him, after all he's notorious for missing the obvious, but he can't help but wish that David, Wes, Jeff, anyone had come to him and pointed out that he was head over heels in love with Kurt before it was too late.
It shouldn't come as a surprise, because really, falling in love with your best friend is as clich� as it gets but Blaine is surprised. He's surprised and confused and a little angry that he was so blind for so long and now that he does know he can't do anything about it.
Blaine sighs and his shoulders slump forward and he slides down in his seat. Wes' eyes narrow and he quickly stands up and marches over from the council table to take the seat next to Blaine.
"You are an idiot," he states without preamble.
"I know," Blaine agrees quietly.
"You are an idiot for not realizing how perfect you two are for each other," he clarifies, just in case Blaine was unclear.
"I know," Blaine snaps.
"But I can forgive you for being an idiot. We're all idiots at some point when it comes to love," Wes fixes Blaine with a hard look, "But I won't forgive you for being a coward."
Blaine's head snaps up and he looks at Wes questioningly.
"You love him. Tell him," Wes said simply.
"He's with Nick-"
"You don't know that he's 'with' Nick and even if he is that doesn't mean he's over you. That just means he decided not to sit around and pine anymore, "Wes pointed out.
"I can't-"
"Coward," Wes cut in.
"How can you expect me to just-"
"Huge coward," Wes amended.
"I'm not a coward."
"Then tell him. Respect him enough to let him know he has a choice and then respect whatever choice he makes. But don't pretend you're sitting on this for his sake. Kurt had the courage to put it all out there and let you know how he felt and he took it like a man when you kicked him in the Warblers. Now it's your turn to put your proverbial cards on the table." Wes rose, patting Blaine on the shoulder and walking away.
Blaine takes a deep breath, pushes his shoulders back and gathers his courage. He stands up and begins walking towards the countertenor, unsure of what exactly he's going to say but knowing that he has to say something. He owes it to himself, and to Kurt to find out if they still have a chance or if he's too little, too late.