The double date with Finn and Rachel had gone so well, yeah it was a bit awkward at some parts but when you're on a double date with your step brother and his girlfriend who is also your best friend, it's bound to be. The thing that made it amazing was that Blaine was here, he was here with me in New York. He came all this way to see me, like we planned and now I was happy again. I had Blaine. I hated being alone in New York without the love of my life there to help me and give me the courage I needed. But he was here now, yes it wasn't for too long but he was still here. But he seemed different, he wasn't too close to me and kept pulling away whenever I tried to kiss him. I didn't understand why.
The double date was over and Blaine and I decided to go for a walk in the park. We love the park. I reached for his hand but he put it in his pocket which made me worried about the reason he was in New York.
"What's wrong?" I asked him quietly, looking at him but he didn't look back at me. I knew something was wrong and I stopped. "Blaine?"
"It's too much." He mumbled.
"What is?" I folded my arms and made it clear that I wasn't moving until he told me what was wrong.
"This. Us. I know you're so desperate to make it work, I know we're going to be apart for a year but this long distance thing isn't working. Not for me anyway. I can't do this any more. I can't be with you any more."
I thought I was hearing things, this was Blaine, the same Blaine who called me the love of his life. The one who protected me from a tampered slushie. The one who comforted me when I was rejected from dream after dream. No, this wasn't happening. My eyes were welling with tears and they poured down my face. I needed to know that I was hearing things and that this was wrong. My hand was over my mouth and I was shaking.

I was losing the one thing I was sure that I would not ever lose. I had lost everything. I lose everything, why would Blaine be any different? It was only a matter of time before he didn't want me any more. I should've seen it coming. He was getting distant but I ignored it because I thought he was just trying to adjust to everything.
"Stop! Just stop it!" I shouted, my voice breaking from the tears. I wanted him to stop talking, I wanted everything to stop so I could breathe and think. "You're just going to throw everything we had away? You said I'm the love of your life! You love me and I love you!"
"Don't make this any harder, Kurt. Please." Blaine still wasn't looking at me, he was serious and he was really ending it. An almost two year relationship was over.
"No!" I screamed, my eyes stung from the tears that fell and I couldn't stop my feet from moving as I walked away from the boy that I loved so much.
"Kurt!" I heard Blaine call but I didn't stop and didn't turn round because I knew that it'd be too painful. Now was the right time to get away and try and salvage whatever I had left of my heart.

I got home and slammed the door, leaning against it as I cried and shouted and sobbed, sliding down it and lying against it. I curled myself up into a ball and just cried because it was the only thing I could do right now. I couldn't think and I could barely breathe. My chest was in so much pain that I didn't think it was even possible for it to hurt that much without an illness. Oh right. I had an illness. I love Blaine Anderson and he broke my heart! What the hell am I going to do now?