mimiheart
Oct. 23, 2011, 11:45 a.m.
It Isn't Homophobia
Will isn't homophobic... he isn't. He just has some issues with Kurt.
K - Words: 1,029 - Last Updated: Oct 23, 2011 1,121 0 0 3 Categories: Angst, General, Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, Will Schuester,
Author's Notes: I've been going back and forth between writing and a political forum. I heard one too many, "I'm not homophobic, I have gay friends." comments... so, yeah. This is not comfortable. This is not beta'd.
It isn’t homophobia.
Will has friends that are gay. In high school, being a part of the Glee club, it was bound to happen.
Most of them didn’t stay in Lima. And the ones that had, he had drifted away from. But the fact remained, he wasn’t homophobic.
He just sometimes wished that Kurt could turn it down just a bit.
He doesn’t have a problem with Blaine. And his problems with Santana and Brittany, no matter how discreet or indiscreet they were being at any given point in time, have nothing to do with their being lesbian or bisexual or whatever it was they were.
Kurt just never seems to know when to stop, where to draw the line.
He always has to push.
Emma noticed it. Late at night, as they’re tucking themselves into bed, she brings up the auditions. How Kurt is amazing. (And Will knows that much.) But who was he kidding, trying out for a male lead?
“He can’t play a man, Emma.”
“What do you mean?”
“Kurt’s...” He takes a deep breath. “Kurt has an exceptional range for a kid his age. But I have yet to see him turn his, well, mannerisms, into something that could be considered masculine enough for the role of Tony. Challenge him, give him Officer Krupke. It’s not a huge role, but he’ll be forced to at least try and act masculine for a bit. He can always study his dad to pick up the mannerisms.”
Emma cocks her head. “That’s true, I guess. You’re right. It’ll still be a challenge for him. I feel bad though. Do you think his relationship with Blaine will be okay if we give Blaine the lead?”
Will’s seen kids break up over less. It’s high school, and Kurt’s picked fights over frivolous things in the past. He wants what’s best for the show, though. “They’ll be fine. Blaine transferred to McKinley for him, right?”
“Yeah. You’re right. I guess.”
Will isn’t homophobic. Kurt’s campaign is ridiculous. This is Lima, Ohio. Even if it were San Fransisco, no one is voting for a boy on a rainbow background with a unicorn horn.
It isn’t homophobia. It’s realism. The boy was voted Prom Queen last year. He had to sing a duet with himself in what is, Will hates to admit, the least popular club in the school. Even Rachel Berry had a partner.
The kids file in for Glee. Kurt and Blaine are smiling and hold hands as soon as they are in the safety of the room. Blaine is oblivious to how unpopular this other boy is. Will says nothing, glancing once in their direction. He gives everyone notes for the upcoming assignment.
Will’s job is to be there for his kids. He doesn’t play favorites. Rachel has always been the most talented in the club. She started there. Finn wasn’t at first, but he quickly caught up. And it kept Rachel happy to sing with Finn. Keeping Rachel and Finn happy had kept him busy for awhile. He may have let some of the other students slip to the side.
He doesn’t always notice things going on with Puck, or Quinn. He likes to think they’ll come to him if there’s really an issue though. He likes to think he’s the one they’ll turn to. He has been in the past. Santana is a wildcard. He doesn’t know what to expect with her. And Brittany goes to Santana. He’s never really sure with Kurt. Kurt has his dad. Blaine has -- he doesn’t know who Blaine has. Blaine probably doesn’t need anyone to turn to. He’s the most well-adjusted teenager that the club has. Kind of remarkable, considering the gay issue.
Will isn’t homophobic. It isn’t homophobia. He has friends that are gay. He just doesn’t get Kurt. He doesn’t understand why Kurt makes himself such a target. Why Kurt puts himself out there like that. Okay, if he likes guys... great. Be more like Blaine, Kurt. Blaine doesn’t shove his gayness at us the way you do.
Will watches as Kurt and Blaine practice a duet together on stage. He doesn’t know what it’s for. Every time Blaine looks at Kurt, there’s something in his eyes. It can’t be real. Will knows it isn’t love. They’re teenagers, and both boys. They can’t be feeling that. Not yet. Even if they weren’t both boys, he thought he loved Terri, and look how that turned out.
Blaine grabs Kurt’s hands and pulls them together. They both glance around quickly, whispering words that Will can’t hear from his position in the dark at the back of the auditorium. Kurt falls in. They kiss and pull away from each other, resting their foreheads together.
Will turns away. Do they have to do it in public? he asks himself.
“Mr. Schuester, I have a proposal I want to make for sectionals.”
“Go for it, Kurt.”
“I was thinking we could do something from ‘Book of Mormon.’ Maybe ‘I Believe’! It’s a huge hit on Broadway right now.”
“Aren’t the songs a little -- controversial?”
“Some of them, I guess. But they did that one at the Tony awards, so all of the lyrics are TV friendly, except the ones they bleeped.”
“Kurt, it isn’t that I don’t appreciate the suggestion, it’s just that I think we should probably stick to more... traditional songs for right now. Okay?”
Kurt looks like he’s about to argue. Blaine puts a hand on his knee and he takes a deep breath. “Of course.”
Rachel raises her hand. He okays her suggestion for “Superboy and the Invisible Girl” from “Next to Normal.” Kurt looks about to protest again. Blaine narrows his eyes and whispers in Kurt’s ear. Kurt whispers back with a smile.
It isn’t homophobia. Will decides. It might be... well, Kurtophobia. Except he’s not really afraid of Kurt. And he would do anything to protect his students, even, especially, Kurt. He’s just not really fond of him. He doesn’t understand him. He doesn’t think Kurt makes good decisions.
Kurt needs to grow up. Kurt is going to graduate this year. He’s going to get a heavy dose of the real world. Every time Will tells him no, he’s helping him, right? Because Will knows it isn’t homophobia that’s making him act this way.
Will has friends that are gay. In high school, being a part of the Glee club, it was bound to happen.
Most of them didn’t stay in Lima. And the ones that had, he had drifted away from. But the fact remained, he wasn’t homophobic.
He just sometimes wished that Kurt could turn it down just a bit.
He doesn’t have a problem with Blaine. And his problems with Santana and Brittany, no matter how discreet or indiscreet they were being at any given point in time, have nothing to do with their being lesbian or bisexual or whatever it was they were.
Kurt just never seems to know when to stop, where to draw the line.
He always has to push.
Emma noticed it. Late at night, as they’re tucking themselves into bed, she brings up the auditions. How Kurt is amazing. (And Will knows that much.) But who was he kidding, trying out for a male lead?
“He can’t play a man, Emma.”
“What do you mean?”
“Kurt’s...” He takes a deep breath. “Kurt has an exceptional range for a kid his age. But I have yet to see him turn his, well, mannerisms, into something that could be considered masculine enough for the role of Tony. Challenge him, give him Officer Krupke. It’s not a huge role, but he’ll be forced to at least try and act masculine for a bit. He can always study his dad to pick up the mannerisms.”
Emma cocks her head. “That’s true, I guess. You’re right. It’ll still be a challenge for him. I feel bad though. Do you think his relationship with Blaine will be okay if we give Blaine the lead?”
Will’s seen kids break up over less. It’s high school, and Kurt’s picked fights over frivolous things in the past. He wants what’s best for the show, though. “They’ll be fine. Blaine transferred to McKinley for him, right?”
“Yeah. You’re right. I guess.”
Will isn’t homophobic. Kurt’s campaign is ridiculous. This is Lima, Ohio. Even if it were San Fransisco, no one is voting for a boy on a rainbow background with a unicorn horn.
It isn’t homophobia. It’s realism. The boy was voted Prom Queen last year. He had to sing a duet with himself in what is, Will hates to admit, the least popular club in the school. Even Rachel Berry had a partner.
The kids file in for Glee. Kurt and Blaine are smiling and hold hands as soon as they are in the safety of the room. Blaine is oblivious to how unpopular this other boy is. Will says nothing, glancing once in their direction. He gives everyone notes for the upcoming assignment.
Will’s job is to be there for his kids. He doesn’t play favorites. Rachel has always been the most talented in the club. She started there. Finn wasn’t at first, but he quickly caught up. And it kept Rachel happy to sing with Finn. Keeping Rachel and Finn happy had kept him busy for awhile. He may have let some of the other students slip to the side.
He doesn’t always notice things going on with Puck, or Quinn. He likes to think they’ll come to him if there’s really an issue though. He likes to think he’s the one they’ll turn to. He has been in the past. Santana is a wildcard. He doesn’t know what to expect with her. And Brittany goes to Santana. He’s never really sure with Kurt. Kurt has his dad. Blaine has -- he doesn’t know who Blaine has. Blaine probably doesn’t need anyone to turn to. He’s the most well-adjusted teenager that the club has. Kind of remarkable, considering the gay issue.
Will isn’t homophobic. It isn’t homophobia. He has friends that are gay. He just doesn’t get Kurt. He doesn’t understand why Kurt makes himself such a target. Why Kurt puts himself out there like that. Okay, if he likes guys... great. Be more like Blaine, Kurt. Blaine doesn’t shove his gayness at us the way you do.
Will watches as Kurt and Blaine practice a duet together on stage. He doesn’t know what it’s for. Every time Blaine looks at Kurt, there’s something in his eyes. It can’t be real. Will knows it isn’t love. They’re teenagers, and both boys. They can’t be feeling that. Not yet. Even if they weren’t both boys, he thought he loved Terri, and look how that turned out.
Blaine grabs Kurt’s hands and pulls them together. They both glance around quickly, whispering words that Will can’t hear from his position in the dark at the back of the auditorium. Kurt falls in. They kiss and pull away from each other, resting their foreheads together.
Will turns away. Do they have to do it in public? he asks himself.
“Mr. Schuester, I have a proposal I want to make for sectionals.”
“Go for it, Kurt.”
“I was thinking we could do something from ‘Book of Mormon.’ Maybe ‘I Believe’! It’s a huge hit on Broadway right now.”
“Aren’t the songs a little -- controversial?”
“Some of them, I guess. But they did that one at the Tony awards, so all of the lyrics are TV friendly, except the ones they bleeped.”
“Kurt, it isn’t that I don’t appreciate the suggestion, it’s just that I think we should probably stick to more... traditional songs for right now. Okay?”
Kurt looks like he’s about to argue. Blaine puts a hand on his knee and he takes a deep breath. “Of course.”
Rachel raises her hand. He okays her suggestion for “Superboy and the Invisible Girl” from “Next to Normal.” Kurt looks about to protest again. Blaine narrows his eyes and whispers in Kurt’s ear. Kurt whispers back with a smile.
It isn’t homophobia. Will decides. It might be... well, Kurtophobia. Except he’s not really afraid of Kurt. And he would do anything to protect his students, even, especially, Kurt. He’s just not really fond of him. He doesn’t understand him. He doesn’t think Kurt makes good decisions.
Kurt needs to grow up. Kurt is going to graduate this year. He’s going to get a heavy dose of the real world. Every time Will tells him no, he’s helping him, right? Because Will knows it isn’t homophobia that’s making him act this way.