Kurt was knee deep in his French homework when his dorm room door flew open and a heavy body dropped itself on his bed.

"Hi Jeff." He said, eyes never leaving his textbook.  The blonde just groaned in reply. 

After about 3 minutes of stilled silence Kurt gave up on the homework and turned to his roommate.  "Okay bud, spill. Whats going on?" Jeff had always tended to be a bit on the dramatic side- so this behavior wasnt exactly uncommon for a Tuesday night.  What was uncommon, was how Jeff was acting. He stayed laying there. Arm covering his eyes, mouth turned down. Kurt was concerned.  "Jeff... Hey, whats wrong?" He asked, gently nudging the boy.  Jeff let out a deep sigh and sat up. When he opened his eyes, Kurt could see they were red-rimmed and watery. Now Kurt was really concerned.

Jeff took another deep breath and his lip quivered slightly before he said, “Kurt... When did you know you were gay?" This was definitely not the question Kurt had been expecting form his very straight roommate and was immediately thrown through a loop. He sat there gaping for a minute before shaking his head and looking at his friend.  "Jeff, are you thinking you might be gay?" 

Again Jeff let out a groan, but more out of irritation than sadness.  "I dont... I dont know. No. Yes. Maybe? I dont know Kurt Im kinda freaking out." 

Kurt felt for his friend, “Well what brought this on?" 

Jeff bit his lip, looking away. He seemed to be contemplating his next move in his head. Finally he sighed deeply and slouched his body. "Ive always been straight. I mean for as long as I can remember Ive liked girls. Ive never LONGED for girls like it seemed most guys did but I always enjoyed them. I liked boobs and stuff. You know, theyre nice to look at. Ive always been like wow. Thats a nice rack. And never even thought a second about it. So duh, Im straight right? But... But like... Okay. Um, so you know that me a Nick have been best friends for like... Ever, right?" Kurt nodded. "Like when I say ever Kurt I mean ever weve been best friends since kindergarten! Weve always done everything together, weve always been the dynamic duo. Its like, were just NickandJeff. Hes the calm and collected one and Im the hyper emotional one. It works. It always has. Were best friends. And I mean, obviously Nicky is an attractive guy. Ive always noticed that. Not anything crazy or whatever, but Ive always noticed things about him. Like, wed be eating ice cream and Id be like, wow, Nick has a pretty long tongue. Or wed be trying on back to school clothes and Id be like, jeeze, Nick has a really nice butt. Just stuff like that, and I never even thought a second about it. It just was like, okay. Nicks hot. No big deal. But a couple of months ago I started having dreams. About like, me and Nick... Doing stuff. Like, couple-y stuff. Like wed be picking out furniture at IKEA and hed reach over and kiss my cheek and hold my hand. Or wed be watching movies cuddling on the couch. Or, idk. Just stuff like that. It was weird. I would wake up and be like, what the fuck? That was weird. And then I started having like... Really sexual dreams. About me and Nick. Like, really really hot sexual dreams. And Id wake up hard as a fucking rock and jerking myself raw before I could even think about it. It was weird. I didnt understand. And now I cant even look at Nick because when I do I have to fight off every urge I have to either drop to my knees and suck him dry or look into his eyes and get lost forever." Jeff was shaking by now, tears streaming down his pale cheeks. "I know Im in love with him Kurt. I am. Im totally and completely fucking head over heels for him and I dont know what to do because I know he doesnt feel the same and I cant mess this up and I CANT lose him but I cant stop how Im feeling. I mean, I dont even know if Im gay or if its just Nick. I just dont know." He said dropping his head into his hands. 

Kurt reached over and wrapped his arms around his friend.  "Oh Jeff its gunna be okay. Take a breather bud. Its gunna be okay dont worry."

"I just- it sucks so bad Kurt. To want someone so much who you know will never feel the same. It just sucks." Kurt felt his heart clench at that. Yes, he knew that feeling very well. 

"Yeah, I definitely know how that feels." He said in a soft voice. 

Jeff looked up at that. "So nothing new with Blaine huh?" 

Kurt shook his head. "Not a thing. I had hope after Valentine's day maybe. I mean he told me we were just friends but I dont know.. I still thought maybe? Ya know? But its been weeks and nothing has changed. Were friends, thats it. Evidently." He said, hurt evident in his voice. Both boys bowed their heads and sat for a minute.

Finally, Jeff let out a dramatic sigh. “Well this day sucks. I hereby grant us both access to one pity party, starting now. I'll grab us ice cream, you put on the notebook. We're going to lock the door and cry and feel bad for ourselves and it's going to be wonderful and pathetic.” Jeff said, grinning and standing up. Kurt looked up at him and shook his head in disbelieve. Jeff was really something else.

---

“You have GOT to be kidding me.”

“No I'm not.”

“No, seriously. I mean you have to. There is no possible way you could be serious. Please, please tell me you're not serious. Please.”

“I'm as serious as a heart attack.”

“I can not believe that you would ever, IN A MILLION YEARS. Say something so ridiculously idiotic. I seriously can not believe it.”

“Better believe it. I said it and I meant it and I won't take it back. Spiderman is the best Superhero of all time. Hands down. No comparison.”

Jeff sat there like a dead fish, “Nick are you KIDDING ME?! SPIDERMAN? Honestly, SPIDERMAN? No Nick. You are so wrong. You've never been more wrong in your entire life. BATMAN Nicky! BATMAN!” He said, arms flying in the air trying desperately to make his friend realize.

Nick just sat there, chin up and voice firm, “No way Jeff. It's Spiderman. Every time. Any day.”

The two sat and stared at eachother for what seemed to be forever. Neither willing to be the one to back down. Finally Jeff charged at Nick, pushing him into the bed and tickling his sides mercilessly. Nick immediately broke into a smile and squealed.

“JEFF!!! Stop!!! Not fair!!! JEFF!!!” he yelled, laughing and wiggling non-stop under Jeff. Jeff just continued.

“Say Batman's the best Nicky. Say he's the best and Spiderman's just a joke compared to him. Say it!”

Nick looked at Jeff with determined eyes, “NEVER.” He said with a smile.

Jeff shook his head, and looked at his best friend with pity. “Wrong answer Nicky. Wrong answer.”

Nick held up his hand in surrendered and batt his big brown eyes, “Come on Jeffy, please.” Jeff's breath caught in his throat, God Nick was beautiful. He needed to get off of him. He needed to get out of there, like now before he does something really stupid like kiss Nick.

“Ugh… I've got to go. Ugh, yeah um, I'll see you later Nick.” He said before he all but ran out of the room.

Nick laid there staring at the door. Concerned for his friend and confused as to why he missed the weight on him on top of him so much. Nick quickly shook himself of the thought. What the heck was that?

---

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:34pm

Kurt

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:36pm

Kurrrrrttttttttt

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:37

KKKKKKKKKUUUUUURRRRRRRTTTTTTTTTTTTT

From Kurt

To Blaine

12:37

Jesus Christ Blaine WHAT?! I'm trying to take notes!

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:37

I'm bored ):

From Kurt

To Blaine

12:38

Of course you are, you have the attention span of a 5 year old.

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:38

Not true! I just have trouble not losing focus when it's something as awful as Pre- Calc

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:39

LET'S PLAY A GAME!!!

From Kurt

To Blaine

12:40

No Blaine

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:40

C'mon Kurt PLEASSSSSEEEEEEE

From Kurt

To Blaine

12:41

No Blaine.

From Blaine

To Kurt

12: 41

KURT! Come on! It'll be so fun! Pleaseeeeeeee

From Kurt

To Blaine

12:42

No Blaine. We're going to get in trouble

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:42

No we won't seriously! I don't know if you realized this Kurt, but I am incredibly smooth. I could break into dance right now on Mr. Harper's HEAD and he wouldn't even know cause I'm that smooth.

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:43

People practically call me Mr. Smooth!

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:43

I'm like velvet

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:44

Smooth as a babies bottom!

From Kurt

To Blaine

12:53

…What was that about being smooth Blaine?...

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:54

…Shut up…

From Kurt

To Blaine

12:55

Hahahahahahahaha I'll tell Wes you'll be late to practice, because you have detention for texting in class, Mr. Velvet.

From Blaine

To Kurt

12:56

I don't like you.

---

A few nights later the boys were cramped into Wes dorm. Drinks in hand and music bumping. It was the monthly Warbler party and things were in full swing.  Kurt was standing by Jeff in the back, both had drinks but were far from drunk, talking.

"Can you believe these guys? Arent we supposed to all be gentleman?" Kurt asked, eyes scanning the plastered Warblers surrounding them. 

Jeff laughed, pointing to a very drunk Blaine who was stumbling their way, "Here comes Mister Dapper himself." 

Blaine flung his arm around Kurt and smiled at the boys. "HEY GUYS! Awesome party huh?!" He yelled excitedly. Kurt and Jeff laughed. 

"Yeah Blaine its awesome." Kurt replied, patting the brunette on the head. Blaine instantly nuzzled into the touch and Kurt snorted. Blaine was really too precious for words. 

Nick came over and bounced excitedly. "Come on boys were going to play parrrtttyyyy games!" All 3 groaned. 

"Nick party games are the worst..." Kurt started to say. 

Nick instantly pouted. "Come on guys itll be fun! Blaine tell them itll be fun!" 

Blaine smiled widely, “You bet your ass it'll be fun!! Come on guys!" Nick and Blaine both turned to their prospective best friends and threw out their best pout. Kurt and Jeff glanced at eachother and groaned.

“Fine.”

“I guess.”

Nick whooped and grabbed Jeff, running off to join the circle of players, Blaine and Kurt close behind. 

The games were actually really funny. Most of the Warblers were usually so put together it was hilarious to see them air their dirty laundry. The group had already played a ruthless round of truth or dare where Wes had to let David cut a piece of his hair off, played a round of Never have I ever when Trent grinned and said “been in love with a good friend” thus causing a bitter Kurt and very nervous Jeff to toss back a quick sip of their drink. Nick furrowed his brow at that, glancing between the two boys with a frown. They were all well on their way to plastered by the time they moved onto spin the bottle.   

It got to Jeff's turn and he spun it excitedly. The bottle spun for what felt like hours and then finally stopped right at Kurt. The boys looked up at eachother and laughed. Well, it could've been worse. Kurt sloppily leaned in and Jeff met him halfway, they shared a small smile and closed the distance. It was a nice kiss, they both were certainly enjoying themselves, soft yet firm. Sensual yet reserved. When Jeffs tongue began tracing the seam of Kurts lips and asking for entrance, Kurt didnt hesitate to grant access. Tongues began touching and Jeff moaned. It really was an awesome kiss. The pair broke apart when they heard someone cough. They looked around the room and noticed the stunned look on most of their friends. Wes looked surprised. David looked turned on. Nick looked like he was either going to cry or be sick and Blaine just looked livid.

“Holy Shit guys! That was hot!” Thad yelled, cracking most of the room up. Kurt and Jeff laughed and Kurt reached over and ruffled Jeff's hair playfully. They took a dramtic bow and went back to their seats. Nick got up quietly and excused himself. Leaving the room without another word, and Blaine got up and stormed out. Jeff and Kurt was confused and I alittle worried but decided they'd worry about it in the morning. The party ended shortly after that and the two went back to their room.

---

The next day Jeff was alittle worried. He looked around the cafeteria and could find his best friend anywhere. He hoped he wasn't that hungover from the party. Nick always got so sick when he was hungover, it was miserable. Just then the doors opened and Nick walked in, looking pale and tired. Jeff raised his hand to wave and when Nick caught his eye, he went even whiter. Nearly bolting out of the room. Jeff's heart sank. Shit. This was about last night. This was about the kiss. He blew it. Nick knew he was gay now and was disgusted by him. Jeff felt himself sob. His face crumpling and stomach churning. He felt like he was gunna vomit.

Kurt saw and ran over to him, enveloping him in a hug. “Jeff, what's wrong bud? What happened?!”

“He knows Kurt. Nick knows I'm gay. He knows and he's disgusted. Our friendship is over. It's over. My whole life is over. Oh God.” He said before breaking down into more sobs.

“He said that?! Nick said that to you?!” Kurt yelled furious.

Jeff gave a jerky shake of his head. “He didn't say it, but- but I know its true. You should have seen him, he took one look at me and ran out of the room. I can't believe this.”

Kurt instantly was confused. “Wait, Nick didn't even tell you what he was upset about?” Jeff shook his head. Kurt smacked his arm. “Jeff! You dork! That doesn't mean anything! You don't know why he's upset! It probably has nothing to do with that! You can't just assume the worst!”

Jeff stopped crying and looked at him,” But- but then why was he upset? What could have made him that upset?”

Kurt rolled his eyes, “I don't know Jeff why don't you try ASKING HIM?” he said with a smile.

Jeff sat for a minute and thought about what Kurt said, when a cold voice called before them.

“Hello Kurt.” Blaine said, but his eyes weren't fixed on Kurt at all, no they were too busy glaring daggers into Jeff's back.

Kurt was confused to say the least. “Hi Blaine?”

Blaine kept his eyes dark look fixed on Jeff but turned to Kurt. “Kurt can I talk to you please… now?”

Kurt was still confused, “umm, well now's not really the best time I was talking to Jeff…” Blaine was practically seething and Jeff stood up to cut him off.

“No Kurt, go. I'm gunna go talk to Nicky anyways.” He said with a small smile. Kurt smiled back, he reached over and gave his roommate a firm hug.

“You're amazing Jeffy. Don't even worry about it okay?” Jeff nodded and whispered a thank you. He went to say bye to Blaine but by the look of rage on the boy's face, decided otherwise. He gave a small wave and swiftly left the lunch room, Blaine's eyes staying on him the whole time.

“Okay WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ALL ABOUT?!” Kurt asked.

Blaine just looked at him for a minute before grabbing his hand and muttering a “Not here,” before pulling Kurt out of the room as well.

---

Jeff stood in front of room 304 breathing heavily and wringing his hands. This was it. This was the moment he'd been dreading since he woke up from that first dream. He took one final breath and lifted a shaky fist to the wood, knocking as loud as he could.

“N-Nick..?” He asked, nervously.

There was no response.

Jeff felt his heart sink.

“Nick- Nicky, L-look. I um, we have to talk about this. Please Nick. Please. We need to talk about this.” He ask pleadingly.

Suddenly the door flew open, revealing a very upset Nick.

“Why didn't you tell me?!” He asked, and god, if it wasn't like a knife through Jeff's heart.

“I tried- I wanted to, believe me. I was just, I don't know, worried.”

Nick's eyes flashed miserably but he scoffed, turning back into his room, Jeff following quickly. “I'm serious Nicky I wanted to tell you, trust me! I just didn't think you would understand and Kurt…”

Nick visibly tensed at the name. He shook his head and looked dejectedly at the wall muttering. “It's just wrong, it's all wrong, this is so wrong.” Over and over again.

Jeff felt like someone had physically punched him in the stomach.

“you- you think I'm wrong?” Jeff whispered.

Nick shook his head, “This is just all wrong Jeff! This wasn't supposed to happen! Jesus, this wasn't how it was supposed to be!!” he practically screamed.

Jeff felt his world crumble around him, he couldn't believe this was happening. Never did he think Nick would react like this when he found out. He choked down a sob and stood shakily, stumbling to the door. He grabbed the handle and began to open it when he heard a broken whisper.

“why him?”

Jeff exhaled deeply and turned around slowly, “What do you mean?”

Nick's face turned angry and he stood abruptly, “You damn well know what I mean Jeff! WHY KURT? Don't act like I'm dumb! I saw you drink last night when Trent said never have I ever been in love with a good friend. I see the way you look at Kurt, I see the smiles you send him, the hugs that linger. I saw you SUCK FACE FOR GODS SAKE,” Nick yelled brokenly, his face crumpling at the end. He collapsed to the bed and threw his head into his hands, sobbing. “J-just why? Why him? Am I too short? Too ordinary? I know I'm nothing special but.. but… God. What is it? Why him? Why-why not me?” Nick stuttered before sobbing harder.

Jeff stood their gaping at him. His heart was just about in his throat and his thoughts were running a mile a minute, “Nick, what the hell are you talking about? What about Kurt?”

Nick's head shot up to his best friends face and he spat out a miserable, “that you're in love with him.” Before he choked down a sob and through his head back into his palms.

Jeff stood there for what seemed like hours, days, weeks. Dead in his tracks, staring at his best friend.

“You're an idiot.”

Nick turned to look at him, “Wh-what?”

Jeff kept a stern gaze, blue eyes never falling, “I said, You.Are.An.Idiot. A buffoon. A moron. The stupidest person I have ever met.”

Nick's eyebrows screwed up in confusion, “What the hell? Why am I an idiot?!'

“Because I've been in love with you since I was 5 years old Nick.”

Nick's eyes go wide at that, “Wh-what?” he began to stutter out before Jeff's mouth was on his.

It was a simple kiss, just lips pressed against lips.

But fuck, both boys feel their brain short circuit.

Nick let out a groan before grabbing the back on Jeff's head and pulling him closer. Parting his lips urgently.

Jeff responds eagerly, slipping his tongue into Nick's mouth and whimpering at the taste.

“Jeff, God Jeff. Seeing you, watching you with Kurt. God I thought you loved him. It killed me. And God that confused the fuck out of me. I couldn't do it. I was so scared. But Jeff, I'm in love with you. I think I've always been in love with you, I was just too fucking stupid to notice, God you're right. I'm an idiot. Such an idiot.” Nick said, tears falling.

Jeff wiped them off and shook his head violently, “No Nicky! No. Don't even say that. You're not an idiot. God, you're beautiful. So fucking beautiful.”

Nick choked back a sob and buried his head in Jeff's neck, “God, I love you so much.”

Jeff held him close and let the tears fall, face crinkling into the world's goofiest smile, “I love you too Nicky, I love you too.”

---

Blaine pulled firmly on Kurt's arm, all but dragging him into the practice room before he turned and locked the door.

Kurt dropped his bag and turned to him with a huff, “What the hell is going on with you? Why were you so rude to Jeff back there?!”

Blaine let out a noise that could only be described as a growl and attacked Kurt. Shoving him against the wall and attaching his mouth to Kurt's in a searing kiss.

It's firm, and determined, and fuck, so hot. Kurt moans deeply as Blaine moves past his mouth and down to his neck, licking and sucking like it was his job.

“Mine.” He repeats between licks.

When he's done he pulls back and admires the deep red mark on Kurt's throat. Breathing deeply and grinning like a mad man.

Kurt stands there, trying to catch his breath, “Blaine? Want to tell me what that was about?”

Blaine suddenly looks shy, cheeks growing red and embarrassed. He steps tentatively towards Kurt and interlocks their fingers. “I guess I get a little possessive when I see people messing with things that are mine.”

Kurt raised an eyebrow at that, “Well, last time I check Anderson. I wasn't yours.”

Blaine made a face at that and looked down at their hands, “Well maybe I want to change that.” He said softly, gazing up at Kurt with those irritatingly beautiful eyes. Blaine leaned up and kissed Kurt softly. Kurt melted. “I love you Kurt.” Blaine whispered against his lips.

Kurt blinked away tears, “I love you too Blaine.”

---

“Wes! WES!!!”

Wes turned to his best friend with an annoyed look. “WHAT David? I'm trying to figure out our next set list!”

David smirked, nudging the Asian with his shoulder, “You owe me $50.” He said smugly.

Wes' face screwed up in confusion, “Like hell I do! What are you talking about?”

David smiled even wider and pointed a finger at the front door, where Jeff and Nick were walking in, hand in hand, followed by a similar Kurt and Blaine.

Wes groaned, “Fuck. I was sure it would take them all another 2 months to figure it out.”

David laughed out loud, “Pay up Montgomery!” Wes glared at him and handed over a 50.

David gave him a mock solute and strode over to the couples.

He clapped Blaine hard on the shoulder and smirked, “That's a pretty impressive hickey you got their Hummel!” He said with a fist bump.

Kurt glared, Blaine grinned, and the rest of the Warblers cracked up.