Why?

"I'll go next." I said taking my letter off the stool. My hands were shaking as I carefully opened the envelope.

"Dear Mr. Hummel,
We regret to inform you that your application to the New York Acadamy of the Dramatic Arts has been denied.."

Denied? How, how could I get denied? Carmen Tibideaux loved my audition! I looked at my brother and my best friend. "I didn't get in...I didn't get in."

"I'm so sorry Kurt." Rachel said and she went to open her letter.

I went to go stand next to my brother, he put an arm around me and whispered "It's gonna be alright."

Rachel looked at us "I got in."

I forced a smile and hugged her "Congratulations Rachel." I held myself together, even though I was in complete shock, maybe that's why I held it together so well in the choir room. "I -I uh gotta go."

She nodded in understanding "Okay."

I left the choir room and out to the parking lot to my car and texted my boyfriend

Blaine, can you meet me at my house? -Kurt

Sure, I'll be there in like ten minutes. Love you- Blaine

Thank you, I love you too.- Kurt

For some reason I decided to take the long way home. I was pretty much running on auto pilot. I don't know how long it took me to get home or when I did but I realized I was home and got out of the car to wait for Blaine in the living room. I heard the front door open and I saw my boyfriend walk in. He smiled and hugged me when I got there. "So?" He asked excitedly. "What'd it say?"I chuckled he could be such a puppy sometimes. "Where is everyone?"

I sighed "Dad's at the shop, Carole's visiting her sister and Finn's with Rachel." Usually we'd take advantage of an empty house, not this time. "Come on, my room."

We went upstairs to my room he sat on my bed "Well, what did it say?"

I couldn't say it and I handed him the letter. He looked at it not even thirty seconds before he threw it to the side and took me in his arms. "I'm so sorry Baby."

I was silent and I didn't hug him back, but I said "I didn't get in." Over and over.

"I know baby, I can't believe it." he said kissing my temple.

"Rachel g-got in but I d-didn't." He froze and held me tighter.

It finally sank in I didn't get in, Rachel did. I worked my ass off for something I really wanted and once again Rachel Berry took it away from me. I wrapped my arms around his neck sniffling. Blaine knew me better than anyone, sometimes even more than my Dad did. He wasn't just my boyfriend, he's my best friend. "You don't need to put on a brave face for my you know Kurt." He kissed my cheek. "I know you're holding it back."

I did need to be brave I couldn't fall apart, not now, I'm not weak. I knew once I started crying I wouldn't be able to stop, and sure Blaine's seen me cry before, not like this though. "Let it out Kurt, let it out Baby."

And that's all it took. I was clinging to him like a lifeline sobbing "Let it out Kurt." he said as he led me to my bed, laying down with me.

"J-just hold me B-Blaine." I managed to say through my tears.

"Shh, it's okay baby, I'm here." I clutched his shirt and just cried. I haven't cried this hard since...god I don't know how long, my dad's heart attack maybe? This was different, he was okay, he could be fixed,this cant! All my hopes and dreams, Broadway, New York, gone. "It's okay Kurt, I'm here."

I shook my head and looked at him "It's n-not fair B-Blaine!" He nodded sympathetically "I know baby, it's not fair."

I sighed "You're the only good thing that happened to me Blaine. I-I literally would have nothing if I-I didn't have you."

He kissed me softly "I love you. Listen to me okay? Those people at NYADA are going to regret not letting you in. When your name is up in lights and you're on that Broadway stage-"

"Blaine, I-" I interrupted him, knowing it probably wouldn't do anything.


"Yes, you will get there!" He took my hand in his "They'll be sitting in that office with their heads in their hands thinking 'Man, we really fucked up.'"

I shook my head "That's sweet Blaine." I sniffled holding back my tears "But I doubt they'll even remember me." I squeezed his hands tears falling. "It's over Blaine. I-I'm not going to Broadway, I won't be in New York. I-I failed Blaine!"

His eyes widened in shock. "Kurt Elizabeth Hummel, look at me. I want you to listen to me baby." I couldn't bear to look at him, like I always do. "Kurt, I said look at me baby." I looked at him tears in my eyes. "I want you to listen to me You are not a failure Kurt! NYADA are the ones that failed, not you. They were the idiots that didn't let you in, you are amazing." He chucked "It's just like the song I'm the greatest star." I was crying again as he said "But someone knows it, I know it! You're my greatest star Kurt."

"Blaine.." I sobbed. I couldn't believe it, I looked down.

"Hey look at me." I looked at him, tears in his beautiful hazel eyes. "I'm not going to let you give up on this. The NYADA thing, this is just a bump in the road. New York is where you belong!" Tears spilled from his eyes as he cupped my cheek. "It's your dream. I"m not going to let you give up on your dream Baby."

"Blaine, it's not going to happen. I didn't apply anywhere else!"

He held me close. "We'll figure something out." He made me look up. "I'm going to do everything I can to help you get to New York, I promise."

I could tell he was telling the truth, I could see it in his eyes. "W-what about y-you?"

He smiled and kissed my forehead and wiped my tears. "You wanna know my dream?"

I nodded, I had an idea of what he wanted to do, the same as me. "Yeah."

"My dream." he smiled "I'm in New York, at some theater and I'm sitting in the front row center, watching a show, flowers on my lap." He rubbed my back "After it's done, my flowers are on the seat and I'm on my feet tears falling down my cheeks, my heart bursting at the seams with pride." He kissed my temple and continued "It's the love of my life's opening night, starring in his first Broadway performance."

I looked at him, he'd told me I was the love of his life a few weeks ago in Miss Pillsbury's office, after the Chandler incident. "Blaine.."

He smiled "And people around me are asking me 'Why are you crying?' I'd smile and proudly say that's my boyfriend, or my fiance." He smiled "Maybe even my husband. Yeah sure I'll work on my music but my dream, is to help make yours a reality and be with you ever step of the way. And I know it's going to happen, want to know why?" I just stared, I couldn't say anything

He smiled "Because I know you can do this, a-and I believe in you Kurt. My boyfriend isn't a quitter. He's the most courageous person I know."

I scoffed I was anything but courageous. "He's not going to let this bring him down. He's stronger than that."

I was sobbing, what did I do to deserve someone as amazing as Blaine? "Kurt, I love you so much. I'm not letting you give up. We'll figure it out. If not this year, then next year. I promise."

I kissed him with all the love I felt for him at that moment. "I love you so much. I-I don't know what I'd do without you or what I did to deserve you."

He held me close "I love you too Kurt. You'll never have to know, I'm not going anywhere." He kissed me softly "I ask myself that same question every day."

I kissed him softly "I love you Blaine, stay with me?" I asked, still crying a little bit.

"Of course baby." I cuddled close to him , resting my head on his chest, as he hummed 'Perfect' lulling me to sleep.