HopelessRomance
Oct. 20, 2012, 10:03 a.m.
He Kissed my Lips, I Taste Your Mouth
Blaine Anderson has just made the worst mistake of his young life. 4x04 reaction fic
T - Words: 399 - Last Updated: Oct 20, 2012 757 0 0 1 Categories: Angst, Drama, Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, OC, Tags: established relationship,
Author's Notes: I started writing this the day after The Break Up aired, but decided against posting it because I struggled with the ending. Now I feel it's ready.
Of all the mistakes Blaine had ever made, this was definitely the worst. He shouldn’t be here in this strange house with this guy he barely knew. He shouldn’t be in this unfamiliar bedroom, and he definitely shouldn’t be making out with this guy. Or letting him kiss him.
Sure, Eli was good looking. He was tall and brunette and built like an Abercrombie model. His eyes were an earthly shade of green. By all conventional standards he was gorgeous. But no matter how hard Blaine tried to pretend otherwise, he wasn’t Kurt.
He didn’t know how Blaine liked to be kissed. He didn’t know just where to touch. He didn’t know how to make him fall apart. Not like Kurt did.
So as he stared at the blank, white, ceiling above him, he struggled to pretend. So he decided to close his eyes and wait for it to be over. Maybe if he didn’t look he could still pretend it was his boyfriend. That the time apart had made him forget what drove him insane.
Unfortunately, the shirtless boy above him noticed something wasn’t right.
“Are you ok?” He asked, cocking an eyebrow in concern.
“No.” Blaine responded simply. The jig was up. Might as well be honest about it.
“What’s wrong, beautiful?” Eli’s hands moved from their position on Blaine’s waist to his sides as he sat up.
“I can’t do this. I’m sorry.” Blaine rolled out from under the other boy, grabbed his shirt off the floor, and walked out the door.
When Blaine arrived home that night, he immediately booked tickets to New York. On his drive home, he had tried to convince himself he could keep it a secret. That Kurt didn’t need to know. But with seemingly every radio station he flipped to playing some song about cheating or breaking up, he knew he couldn’t hide it. His guilty conscious wouldn’t let him. He had to tell Kurt. With all his talk of talking things through just months before, during the Chandler incident, he couldn’t just pretend it didn’t happen and wait until Kurt somehow found out. The right thing to do was to be honest.
If Kurt dumped him, well, he would deserve it for being such a terrible person. He deserved it for betraying him like that. Besides, he didn’t really think it was possible for his boyfriend to hate him any more than he hated himself right now.
Sure, Eli was good looking. He was tall and brunette and built like an Abercrombie model. His eyes were an earthly shade of green. By all conventional standards he was gorgeous. But no matter how hard Blaine tried to pretend otherwise, he wasn’t Kurt.
He didn’t know how Blaine liked to be kissed. He didn’t know just where to touch. He didn’t know how to make him fall apart. Not like Kurt did.
So as he stared at the blank, white, ceiling above him, he struggled to pretend. So he decided to close his eyes and wait for it to be over. Maybe if he didn’t look he could still pretend it was his boyfriend. That the time apart had made him forget what drove him insane.
Unfortunately, the shirtless boy above him noticed something wasn’t right.
“Are you ok?” He asked, cocking an eyebrow in concern.
“No.” Blaine responded simply. The jig was up. Might as well be honest about it.
“What’s wrong, beautiful?” Eli’s hands moved from their position on Blaine’s waist to his sides as he sat up.
“I can’t do this. I’m sorry.” Blaine rolled out from under the other boy, grabbed his shirt off the floor, and walked out the door.
When Blaine arrived home that night, he immediately booked tickets to New York. On his drive home, he had tried to convince himself he could keep it a secret. That Kurt didn’t need to know. But with seemingly every radio station he flipped to playing some song about cheating or breaking up, he knew he couldn’t hide it. His guilty conscious wouldn’t let him. He had to tell Kurt. With all his talk of talking things through just months before, during the Chandler incident, he couldn’t just pretend it didn’t happen and wait until Kurt somehow found out. The right thing to do was to be honest.
If Kurt dumped him, well, he would deserve it for being such a terrible person. He deserved it for betraying him like that. Besides, he didn’t really think it was possible for his boyfriend to hate him any more than he hated himself right now.