"I didn't get in.." As soon as the words left his mouth he was sure the looks of pity were on Finn and Rachel's faces, and he couldn't even look at them. 

How could this have happened? He did everything right. He nailed his audition, changing it in an instant just to make an impression. He worked so hard. He never did anything to deserve this. Hadn't he gone through enough? And along with the thoughts running through his head about all of this, Rachel was opening her letter, announcing that she'd made it. He left the room without making a sound. He ran down the hallway. He didn't know quite where he was going to end up. But he wanted out. 

When he ended up in his car he went into complete auto pilot. Driving himself home without crying, or even thinking about driving. He knew how to get there, it was something he could do without even thinking. When he got there, he was so thankful Finn was at Rachel's and both his dad and Carole were working. He walked up to his bedroom and as soon as the door closed he broke down. 

His knee's went out underneath him and he was on the floor within a second. His head burried in his hands, sobbing. What was he supposed to do now? There was no back up plan. He made his way over to his bed, where he layed staring up at the ceiling with tears streaming down his face, until he finally fell asleep. 

He woke up to a soft hand on forehead, moving his toustled hair off of his face. "Hey.." 

"Blaine?"  Kurt almost choked on what he was saying and had to stop because of the tears coming to his eyes. 

"You don't have to talk..Finn told me." He ran his fingertips across Kurt's cheek. "I'm so sorry. They were wrong Kurt, you should have gotten in and-" 

"Stop.." He managed to say before choking on his own sob. "I just.. I really don't wanna talk about it.." 

"That's fine..I just, I wanted to stop over and see how you were.." 

"I'm okay.." He sat up and leaned away from Blaine. Blaine tried to lean in closer and Kurt just backed away. "Can you just..Can you go..I just wanna be alone right now." 

"I-Okay.." He sighed. He leaned in to kiss Kurt on the forehead and he leaned away. Blaine gave a sad smile and walked out of the room. 

Kurt wanted to throw up. He didn't understand why he'd just done that. Sure he was upset but why would he send Blaine away. He felt beyond dumb now. 

The next few days were filled with Kurt ignoring Blaine's calls, and only responding with one or two word texts to him. Filled with him and Finn sitting at home and not saying a word to each other. Filled with both Burt and Carole coming to check on him, asking him if he was okay, and believing him when he said he was. But both his parents and Blaine knew he wasn't. 

When Finn took Rachel to the train station it hurt. It hurt him to think that she was going to live her dreams and he was still stuck here. It hurt the most that he had to pretend so hard that he was happy for her. Because he was, but he couldn't stop wondering when it was oging to be his turn. And to add insult to that, on the way home Finn announced that he was going to start basic training to join the army. And not only did it make him sad that he was leaving, it terrifyed him. He couldn't loose his brother now too. But just like after being rejected by NYADA, he stayed quiet.  

When they got back to the Hummel's house Blaine was still with them. He stuck around with Finn and Kurt, trying so hard to comfort them both. But the only one he was having luck with was Finn. After hours of sitting with both of them Blaine asked Kurt if he would come upstairs with him. When Kurt agreed they made their way upstairs. They sat on the end of Kurt's bed. Blaine reached over and grabbed Kurt's hand. "I love you.." 

"I love you too." Kurt gave him a small smile. 

"No, I really really love you Kurt. And I really don't want you to forget that." 

"I won't.." He shook his head and his eyebrows started to furrow. 

"Please don't forget. No matter what happens, I really do love you..I talked to your dad earlier, before we left to send Rachel off." He said softly. Kurt nodded. 

"He said that you haven't been eating or sleeping. Kurt, you can't do this to yourself.." He practically whispered when  he said it because he didn't want to seem as upset as he was. "I love you.." 

"Blaine, I'm fine. I promise.." 

"But you're not, I understand that you're not..You've gone through so much, and you've been so much stronger, you can't let this bring you down.." 

"But Blaine, when is anything going to get better?! It sure as hell hasn't yet! When is it gonna stop? When is it gonna be my turn?" 

Blaine suppressed the tears that were coming to his eyes. "I don't know, but it's not going to get better if you just give up.." 

Kurt leaned into his chest. He couldn't cry anymore, he'd done so much of that in the last three days that he thought he could never cry again.  He just layed his head in Blaine's chest. "When am I going to be good enough? I just want this to stop.." 

"I know.." Blaine stroked Kurt's cheek. 

But even though Kurt was out of school because he was a senior, Blaine still had a whole week of school before his last day. So he couldn't spend day time with Kurt.  But on Blaine's last day of school he asked Kurt if he could come by and help him clean out his locker, adding that 'Everyone would be so happy to see him.' meaning he wanted to get Kurt out of the house for the first time since they'd been at the train station. 

He walked through the doors of the school, immediately feeling worse than he had when he'd left, because he told himself he'd never come back, but here he was, walking past the same choir room where his dreams had pretty much collapsed down around him. 

"Kurt!" Blaine peeked his head out of the choir room. Kurt turned around. "Come here for a second.." he had a small mischevious smile on his face. Kurt sighed and walked into the choir room, where most of the underclass students were sitting in their chairs. They all looked up and smiled when he walked in. 

"Kurt!" Tina sqealed and ran over to him. She wrapped his arms around his neck 

"It's only been a few days.." He gave her a small smile. He was sure she knew about NYADA. 

"You okay?" 

"I'm okay." He hugged her again. 

"So, " Blaine spoke up "I didn't really invite you here to help me get my things, I really had something for you.." He smiled and nodded for Sam and Joe to make their way up to the front of the room. They both grabbed guitars.  Tina let go of Kurt and walked over to the classroom's piano. 

He gently walked Kurt over to the front row of chairs and sat him down in one. Kurt gave him a confused smile. Blaine shook his head, laughing at Kurt and walked up to the front of the room. Tina began to play softly, and Blaine started to sing. 

You know I'd fall apart without you

I don't know how you do what you do

'Cause everything that don't make sense about me

Makes sense when I'm with you

Kurt smiled up at Blaine. The first real smile he'd had in a week. Blaine returned it. Mouthing the words 'I love you' while the music continued to smile. 

Like everything that's green,  I need you

But it's more than one and one makes two

Put aside the math and the logic of it

You gotta know you want it too

Blaine walked closer and sat next to Kurt and wrapped his arm his shoulder and continued to sing. 

'Cause I wanna wrap you up

Wanna kiss your lips

I wanna make you feel wanted

And I wanna call you mine

He leaned over and kissed Kurt on the neck. It was a cute little thing they'd done after Blaine moved to McKinley. It was something they could get away with, without people calling them out, mostly because most of the time people didn't notice it until after it happened. No one ever noticed them but them, and it was just enough to let the other know they were there. 

Wanna hold you hand forever

Never let you forget it

Yeah, I wanna make you feel wanted

Blaine walked back up the the front of the room and continued to sing. 

As good as you make me feel

I wanna make you feel better

Better than your fairy tales

Better than your best dreams

You're more than everything I need

You're all I ever wanted

All I ever wanted

Cause you'll always be wanted. 

When he finished the song he looked over at Kurt, he was wiping a few tears off of his face. Blaine walked over to him "They don't know anything, your more than good enough for me.." He used the pad of his thumb to wipe a tear off of Kurt's cheek. 

"Thank you.." Kurt smiled again. It felt really good to smile. 

"And we're gonna get you to New York, no matter how hard it is to get you there. You're meant to be there. Never give up hope.." Blaine wrapped his arm around Kurt again and pulled him closer. They were now barely an inch away from each other. Blaine leaned in and kissed him. They weren't sure how long they'd kissed, but by the time they detatched from each other everyone that was previously sitting in the choir room was gone. 

"Thank you so much. For all of this.."  Kurt whispered against Blaine's lips. "I love you so much.." 

Blaine replied by pressing their lips together.