"I'm leaving.." 

"What?" Blaine turned to see Kurt looking at him, his eyes filled with tears.  

"Whats wrong?!" Blaine rushed to his side to wipe a few tears off of his face.  

"I just.." He choked back a sob. "I have to go, I just.." 

Blaine stood infront of his boyfriend of five years looking into his eyes, trying his best to read out any emotion he could see, figure out why he was leaving like this. 

Kurt closed his eyes, trying his best to get this picture out of his head, he'd never seen Blaine this upset before, and he despised that this was the last memory he was going to have of him. He turned without saying one word and walking out the door. Blaine grabbed for his wrist and he walked faster, closing the door behind him. 

Blaine stared at the door, wishing it was only a dream and that Kurt would walk in at any moment. 

Kurt stood outside of the door of their shared apartment, putting his weight on the wall and sliding down it, his head in his hands, sobbing. 

Blaine walked into their bedroom, opening a drawer in his dresser, and opening the small ring box he'd had in the drawer. He stared at the ring. He was going to propose, he was going to do it on Kurt's birthday. He'd had the whole thing planned out. It was going to be his chance to get his perfect thing. Kurt was his perfect thing, and he wanted to be with him forever, and he was going to get him forever. 

He took the ring out of the box and flung it across the room, landing it behind a set of dressers. He put his head in his hands and the tears began to fall. 

Kurt closed his eyes. His memory immediately going back to the night before. 

"Break up with him." 

"No." He felt a punch. The feeling of blood dripping from his nose. 

"If you're not out of his apartment by tomorrow night, I'll know, and you'll regret it." 

"Are you kidding me? What is this, fourth grade? Or else?" Kurt scoffed. 

"Or else." The man simply said, showing the gun in his pocket. 

Kurt's face went stark white. His hands shaking. 

"Is that enough for you?" 

He simply nodded, the man pushed him into the wall one final time, Kurt's head crashing into the bricks.  

He closed his eyes, trying his best to black out the pain, and the man as gone when he opened them again. 

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He'd spent the next two years hiding. From his family, from his friends, from Blaine.

He'd moved to California, that was never where he wanted to be. New York is where he wanted to be, that's where he was happy. He could never be an actor, because his name could never get around. 

He walked into his shoebox apartment after a shift at his second job and sat down on the couch. He ran his fingers through his unstyled hair. Feeling tears coming to his eyes. This happened every night. He missed his life. He missed Blaine. 

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Blaine sat on the couch, listening to David go on and on about how it had been two years and he needed to 'get back out there'. He just shook his head, practically refusing to speak other than a few 'yeah's' or 'uh huh's'. 

David sighed and patted his friend on the back before leaving the apartment. He'd tried. 

Blaine looked down at the chain on his neck with the engagement ring attatched to it, after he'd thrown it, he'd thought, for just a moment that if Kurt came back, he wouldn't want the ring to be missing. He would propose the second he walked in the door. He wouldn't waist a second. 

He sighed and held the ring, hoping that he would come home soon.

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He knew he shouldn't be here, the risk of someone seeing him, that would know who he was, was way too high. This was way too risky. He sighed and sat down at a table in the very back of the bar. He just wanted to see him one more time. Make sure he was okay. 

He walked out onto the small stage, guitar strapped to his shoulder. He sat on the chair. His hair that was always to perfectly gelled down was unstyled and curling in every direction. Dark circles were around his eyes. He'd looked like he hadn't slept since Kurt had left. 

He didn't say a word before beginning to strum his guitar. 

I can usually drink you right off of my mind

But I miss you tonight

I can normally push you right out of my heart

But I'm too tired to fight

Kurt lost his breath when he'd heard him sing.  The tears immediately filling his eyes. That was the voice he'd missed so much the whole time he was gone. 

Yeah the whole thing begins

And I let you sink into my veins

And I feel the pain like it's new

Everything that we were,

Everything that you said,

Everything that I did and that I couldn't do

Plays through tonight

Blaine closed his eyes, trying his best to stop the tears, he'd sang this almost every night and every time he'd almost had to leave the stage because he was crying again. He spent the whole time that he was singing wondering what he'd done wrong. Wondering why he'd left. 

Tonight your memory burns like a fire

With everyone it grows higher and higher

And I can't get over it, I just can't put out this love

I just sit in these flames and pray that you'll come back

Close my eyes tightly, hold on and hope that I'm dreaming

Come wake me up

Kurt wiped a stray tear off of his cheek and inhaled deeply, he thought about standing up, only realising that, that would only attract the younger man's attention. 

Turn the TV up loud just to drown out your voice, but I can't forget

Now I'm all out of ideas and baby I'm down to my last cigarette

Yeah, you're probably asleep deep inside of your dreams while I’m sitting here crying and trying to see

Yeah, wherever you are baby now I am sure you moved on and aren't thinking twice about me and you 

Tonight.

Blaine looked at the back corner of the room, just to get his eyes on something, he needed something to distract him. He'd spent so much time thinking about who Kurt had moved on to. He was probably more handsome, he could probably sing, because Kurt loved that. He was probably gorgeous. 

I know that you're movin' on

I know I should give you up

But I keep hopin' that you'll trip and fall back in love

Time's not healin' anything

Baby, this pain is worse than it ever was

I know that you can't hear me, but baby I need you to save me tonight

Kurt held a sob in his throat, feeling the tears that were inevitably coming now. He wanted so badly to hold Blaine and tell him he loved him and that everything was going to be okay. That he loved him. 

Tonight your memory burns like a fire

With everyone it grows higher and higher

I can't get over it, I just can't put out this love

I just sit in these flames and pray that you'll come back

Close my eyes tightly, hold on and hope that I'm dreaming

Come wake me up

Oh, I'm dreaming

Come wake me up

Oh, I'm dreaming

The room applauded and Kurt wiped a few more tears off of his face. He sighed and stood. He started to walk out the door. He turned around. Blaine's eyes catching his. He stood silently. Blaine stood from the stage, staring at him as if he'd just appeared out of no where. He walked closer. 

Kurt sighed and shrugged his shoulders, tears in his eyes. Blaine stood staring at him. Kurt's eyes drifted to the chain on Blaine's neck.  His eye brows furrowing. 

"Oh." 

"It was yours."  He said simply

Kurt looked up so that his eyes were with the shorter man's. 

"I loved you." 

Kurt sighed, a few tears falling from his eyes. Blaine wiped them off with the pad of his thumb. 

"I had to go..I wasn't safe." 

"What do you mean?" 

"Blaine I can't." Kurt turned to leave. "I thought coming would be a good idea..But-" 

Blaine pulled him back. "Please.. Just tell me why you left..Give me something.." 

Kurt sighed. "I just..I wasn't safe..And I'm sure I'm still not." 

"I'll keep you safe." Blaine mumbled.  "Please just stay with me.." 

Kurt pursed his lips, the tears pouring now. "I c-can't.." 

"Yes you can..Please..Just stay, please." 

Kurt leaned forward and sobbed into Blaine's shoulder. Blaine let a few tears fall. 

"Please stay.." 

Kurt  nodded into his shoulder. Feeling much like he had the day he'd come back to McKinely, reassuring Blaine that he'd never say goodbye. 

"Stay forever.." Blaine mumbled into Kurt's neck. 

He simply nodded.