"I was tormented my whole life, Blaine. I was chased out of my high school and I hated everything in this world until I met you. You made the pain and the anger and the hate, go away. And I fell in love with you.

I had all my firsts with you. My first kiss. My first time. You were my first love. And the funny thing is I have never kissed another man. I never slept with someone. And I don't even dare to try to even think about falling in love with another because I know in my heart whos the one for me. But what breaks my heart each day a little bit more is that you have that person. You have that person that you can hold when times get rough and they can whisper undying promises of forever love and kiss you whenever they feel. Someone you can spend that rest of your life with.

And here I am letting the love of my life slip away from me and I have never hurt more. Even before I met you and things were bad but right now in these past few months I have never felt so much pain and heartache.

I want you to have everything you dreamed of, Blaine. I want you to marry the man of your dreams like you said I was when we had whispered conversations about our future together. I want you to be able to teach your kids to play piano and sing cheesy duets with them like we planned to do with our adopted children we planned on having. I want you to able to grow old with your partner and never stop loving them like how you promised to love me until my dying day. But my only question is why cant I still be that person?"

Kurt stares into the beautiful hazel eyes he had grown to love and he cant seem to tear his eyes away from him. His eyes shedding from a new batch of tears with his tear-stained checks.

Kurt decides he cant take it any longer so he glances one more time towards Blaine before he runs out the door until he reaches his car barely making it in until his body shakes with a new set of sobs. He can hear the faint sound of  familiar voice, he could reconize anywhere, running towards his car, the voice getting clearer and louder with every step he took. 

But Kurt couldnt let Blaine chase him down to tell him he was in love with David, again. He couldnt take the sound of the usually musical but know raspy and dry voice anymore as he puts his keys and drives as fast as he can out of the parking lot.

But what Kurt doesnt know was that Blaine was going to tell Kurt that he wanted him to be that person.