Aug. 29, 2012, 4:43 p.m.
Lilacs
On Kurt's ninety-fifth birthday, they get the news. Blaine's cancer is back and this time it's terminal. Over twenty years ago he'd had battle with prostate cancer but that had been in remission for fifteen years now. Now it's spread to his pancreas. He may have six months to live, or six days, there's no way to really know.
T - Words: 1,056 - Last Updated: Aug 29, 2012 971 0 2 2 Categories: Angst, Cotton Candy Fluff, Romance, Tragedy, Characters: Blaine Anderson, Kurt Hummel, Tags: character death, established relationship,
On Kurt’s ninety-fifth birthday, they get the news. Blaine’s cancer is back and this time it’s terminal. Over twenty years ago he’d had battle with prostate cancer but that had been in remission for fifteen years now. Now it’s spread to his pancreas. He may have six months to live, or six days, there’s no way to really know.
Three months in Kurt can no longer handle Blaine’s care on his own. Aria and Hayden hire hospice to provide round the clock medical attention. They move Blaine into the guest bedroom, he sleeps in a hospital bed, with IV’s sprouting out of almost every one of his limbs. Leaving Kurt all by his lonesome. The first few nights Kurt struggles to sleep. He tosses and turns. Fidgets and flips. But never sleeps. The bed is too big. Too empty. Too wide. Too much bed without Blaine. WIthout Blaine’s warmth. Without Blaine’s stability. Without the safety Kurt feels by snuggling into his chest.
Eventually Kurt abandons any hope of sleeping in that room (as he begins to refer to it in his head.) That room is too cold. Too painful to be in. On the sixth night, after Blaine’s been moved into the guest bedroom, Kurt sneaks into his bedroom. He stands there a while just watching Blaine slep. He stands there for what must be hours, and around two in the morning, Blaine stirs. He looks up and sees Kurt watching him, “Hey,” his voice is weak, “How long have you been there?” Blaine’s voice is so weak and brittle, it makes Kurt start to cry, “Hey, hey, don’t cry honey, don’t cry.” Blaine reaches for Kurt’s hand, Kurt’s sobs, “Why not? Why not? There’s so much to cry about, so why not cry? I thought, I thought that I could do it, Blaine. But I can’t. I can’t stand the thought that I’m going to be without you. And I certainly can’t stand it sleeping by myself.” Kurt breaks down into a whole new round of sobs, and Blaine clutches Kurt’s hand tighter than he’s been able to in months, “Shhh...shh...shh....Honey, Kurt, look go drag the mattress in here and sleep in here.” Kurt nods, and wipes at the tears still streaming furiously down his cheeks.
Kurt goes into that room, drags the mattress off the bed frame and pulls it into the guest room. Blaine smiles at Kurt from his bed as he snuggles down onto the mattress. Blaine holds his hand down to Kurt and Kurt reaches up to take it. When hospice comes to check on them two hours later they find them asleep clutching each other.
They sleep like that each night
from then on.
The days are not nearly as sad after that. Every Monday Rachel’s daughter Audrey comes by in the afternoon. Tuesdays Hayden’s son Carson and his daughter Emily read with them in the mornings. Wednesdays the host a bridge club, though not bridge is played. Kurt it seems has a knack for painting, so on Thursdays the hospice nurse wheels Blaine onto the patio to watch Kurt paint.The days pass. They turn into weeks. The weeks turn into months. Seasons come and go. It’s been nine months since Blaine was first diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. Kurt’s ninety sixth birthday is a little over two months away. No one voices it, but everyone secretly thinks that Blaine will make it. Everyone thinks Blaine’s getting better. He’s sitting up on his own again. He’s eating solids again. Even if it’s only bananas and mashed potatoes.
It’s a Friday afternoon. They spend every Friday afternoon doing nothing. Blaine’s looking a lot better so Kurt fixes spaghetti and sends the nurses home for the night. Kurt sets a table up in Blaine’s bedroom. They eat dinner by candlelight. After they clean up, Kurt sits in an armchair by Blaine’s bed. They read a book (by which I mean Kurt read aloud while Blaine listens.) Halfway through a paragraph, Blaine interrupts, “Kurt?” Kurt looks up, “Yes, Blaine?” Blaine tilts his head up, “Gimme a kiss.” Kurt smiles and obliges, leaning into place a chaste kiss to Blaine’s lips. But Blaine slides his tongue in and kisses Kurt deeply, causing Kurt to gasp as he pulls back, “Blaine?!” Blaine looks at Kurt pleadingly, “Kurt, Kurt can you just, just sleep with me tonight?” Kurt smiles, “Blaine, honey I sleep with you every night.” Blaine shakes his head, “No, I mean in the same bed. Just for tonight.” Kurt sighs, unable to deny Blaine anything, “Scoot over.” Blaine wiggles and KUrt slips into the bed beside Blaine. They settle down and Blaine pulls Kurt’s head onto his shoulder, and throws an arm around his waist.
They fall to an eternal rest
just like that. The nurses
find them the next day, dead
in each other’s arms.
Blaine awakes to an amazing sight. He’s on a field of lilacs and Kurt is asleep on his shoulder. Only it’s not the Kurt he fell asleep with. This is the seventeen year old Kurt that Blaine fell in love with. The folds and lines of his leathery skin have been reduced to their porcelain perfection. His lips are rosy, his arms don’t show veins. And when he stirs his voice is bright and tinkly again, “Blaine?” Kurt sits up, “Blaine! You! You’re!” Blaine laughs, “I know you are too.” Kurt’s confused, “Where are we, what happened?” Blaine grins, “I think we’ve died,” Blaine looks around with a raised eyebrow, “And landed in a dewy meadow of lilacs by the looks of it.” Kurt pulls Blaine to his feet, “I’m so glad.” Blaine raises an eyebrow, “You’re glad to be dead?” Kurt giggles and takes in the sheer perfection of Blaine’s seventeen-again face, “No, I’m glad to be with you. Now we can get started on some of those things we never got the chance to do.”Blaine laughs, picks Kurt up and spins him around, “Like what?” Kurt stumbles as Blaine sets him back down, and Blaine catches him, “I don’t suppose you remember what I wanted to do on a dewy meadow of lilac do you?” Blaine mock-fans himself, “Well, I’m no Taylor Lautner.”
Kurt laughs, kisses Blaine so deeply and passionately it
should be outlawed, “Nope. You’re so much more.”Comments
So I'm confused did they both die that night in bed? Please answer me I'm so very confused...
Yes, they both died. I wrote this after watching the Notebook for the umpteenth time and decided it sounded like a good idea. Thanks for reading lovely!