Blaine sat in a classroom of the McKinley High School. Everything in that room reminded him of Kurt. He missed him. like crazy. They had broken up 4 month ago. He couldn't take it any longer.blaine didnt eat and if he did he ran to the toilet afterwards and vomitted until there was nothing left in his stomach. He looked to the seat next to him. There. That was his seat. Kurts seat.

Just thinking about his name hurt so badly that his hand automatically drove over the scars on his wrists. Before the break up Blaine thought that no pain in the world was it worth to cut or hurt himself in any way but now he knew that that was wrong. So wrong. He had given up on all his friends. He talked to sam and some of the other glee guys but that was it.“blaine,“ sam said after the

lesson,“you need to stop that now. Otherwise you won't even be able to play teen angel.“ “allright“,Blaine said and walked further down the hall.“Blaine, what i wanted to say was...we miss you we really do since you and Kurt broke up both of you feel like crap,dude. You talk like you are dead and you are so pale. Your eyes don't even sparkle anymore when you sing....by the way...you don't even sing. I know that sounds cheesy as hell but i really care about you guys. The last time i talked to Kurt he sounded so broken even on the phone. I don't care what you did ,even if it was wrong, i don't care how or why or with whom you cheated on him. You need him and he needs you.“

“sam, you don't get it, i didn't cheat on him. I sat in the car and i thought about driving there...i nearly did but then i thought about K-kurt and then I drove...but not to Eli's I drove to the airport and luckily got tickets to NYC.“

“WHAT!? Why the fuck do you tell him you cheated if you didn't,dude i know i am not the smartest but i am pretty sure that this wasn't smart at all.“

“I dunno... i think i felt guilty because i thought about doin that to him and I wanted to explain everything but he burst out in tears and ran away....not that i could blame him.“

“you have to tell him that...NOW.“

“i would...if i could but he refuses to talk to me. But i deserve it.“

“No you don't. You haven't done anything wrong...why did you thought about doin that why did you thought about cheating?“

“I thought Kurt had moved on.... that he didn't cared about Lima anymore or about me. He said he had the time of his life and that he never was that happy and he kept missing our phone and skype dates and as i called him and he rejected the call and he didn't said I love you back I thought that i was right with him moving on. I mean it's NYC there are so many hot guys there and I don't think that i could have had compared.“ Blaine's eyes filled with tears. He tried to hold them back but he didn't succed. He had hurt the one person, he loved and cared so much about, so badly that he sounded dead over the phone. Kurt deserved so much better. Blaine didn't even realized that he was on the ground and sobbed.“hey, come on we go to my place and think about a solution for that mess ,ok?“

Kurt was still sad. For weeks now. He wasn't the same anymore. He felt kinda numb like he exsisted but didn't really lived. He just let his life go by and hoped for an end everyday,since his life had no sense any longer.

It was friday afternoon 5 pm, he was just back from vogue, as he heard a knock on the door.

He didn't felt like opening the door but he did anyways. It was Sam.“sam? What are you doin here?“

“hey,kurt i need to talk to you.“

Kurt was in a really sad mood lately...of course; but he was really glad to see his former classmate anyways. Sam always had been really nice and open-minded if it came to his relationship with kurt.

Diffrent from Finn and most of the other guys Sam would have sang a duet with Kurt as he had asked him,too. Sam was one of Kurt's closest friends and from all the guys he had liked him best except for blaine of course....Blaine his stomach turned into knots again. He turned his attention back to sam quickly.“Hey, come in do you want something to drink?“

kurt said while he shifted to let sam in.“no,thanks“ Sam said,sitting down on the couch in the middle of the apartment. Kurt sat down next to him.“well, what do you wanna talk about....since you couldn't handle it over the phone I guess it's important?“

“yeah...it's pretty important.could you promise me to listen til i am finished?“

“yeah sure go ahead“

“well, i wanted to talk to you about Blaine. He is so broken and he feels terrible. He needs you, kurt.

He really does.He doesn't even cares about his hair anymore. He cares about nothing anymore. He doesn't drink or eat and he has bags under his eyes it looks like he doesn't even sleep.“

Kurt had started to cry at Blaines name. He stayed strong so long. He had ignored the pain and he had been able to avoid it. But now it hit him like a wave and he was shortly before drowning. Drownig in pain and a hole in his heart which the love of his life had left there when he had cheated.“he cheated on me,sam. Relationships are about trust and i can't trust him anymore. It doesn't matter how much i may love him i can't trust him anymore....i can't give him whats left of my heart and let him break it again.“

“Thats why i am here there is a huge missunderstanding and he needs you to understand and i think he should explain it himself so ...Blaine come here.“

Blaine had listened outside the door and he had started crying as he heard how miserable he had left kurt. Blaine walked in and just the moment he saw kurt he wanted to hug him wanted to protect himand never let go. He wanted to fix him and wanted to make his heart whole again.“i'll leave you guys alone“, sam said and left the small apartment.Kurt stood still he watched Blaine for a moment then he said curious:“ what do you want? What does he mean?“

“I am going to make it short and get to the point, cuz seeing you like that kills me-“

“so?“, kurt asked coldly.“ok, I didn't cheat on you,kurt...i mean i thought about it and i was at his house and i thought about you...i mean how much i love you and how much i wanted to be with you and how much it would hurt you and then i drove to the airport to get the tickets because i needed you i needed you and I wanted to tell you that it happened like that and i was about but you ran away... and and i couldn't think and I... I dunno.“ blaine sobbed harder now.“and why would i believe that? I mean you know you showed up in NYC and told me you had a hook-up and that it was kinda my fault cuz i wasn't there for you? You knew what it meant as you sang IT'S TIME...you knew i was going to think about my career once i get there you knew all that. I mean why would my boyfriend tell me about a hook-up that never exsisted?“

“I felt so guilty to just think about doing something so wrong and so horrible to some1 i care so much about...well to the only one i care so much about. I love you soo much and i was so afraid that you would move on with your life and that you didn't care about me anymore. And you missed our phonedates and rejected my calls and I just felt like i wasn't important to you anymore. I am so sorry i made you think i had a hook-up with someone and put you through all this.“

“No, i am sorry you don't need to be you've done nothing wrong and I just i think i was so focused on NYC and my job and my carreer and what the hell made you think you didn't matter to me anymore i love you soo much i never stopped loving you, Blaine even when i thought you cheated i never stopped loving you. You always gonna be a part of my life probably the best....and I need to apo-“ Kurt couldn't speak anymore because Blaine had pulled him into a passionate kiss. For several minutes they were just standing there kissing eachother then kurt finally pulled away but just to pull Blaine into a bonecrushing hug. They cried and laughed and kissed all at the same time without even realizing that Sam had come back to the apartment. He smiled at his two friends who seemed so much happier again...not just that...they were whole. They needed eachother to be complete and to function. He pulled out his iPhone took a picture and sent it to Mercedes. He smiled at the two once again then left them alone.“I love you“,Blaine said against kurt's lips.

“I love you,too“, Kurt smiled.

As Rachel arrived from work that evening she found Kurt and Blaine cuddled up on Kurts bed deeply asleep but still holding on to eachother.