Getting a chance to talk to Blaine about his plan proved harder than Kurt thought. Once they got back to New York, Blaine spent all the time he could, working at the coffe shop. Then, two days after they returned, Josh called to tell Kurt the costume designer job was his if he still wanted it, and Kurt couldn't turn it down. With Blaine working non-stop and Kurt having to be in and out going to the theatre, they barely had time to sleep, let alone speak to each other, and it was starting to take it's toll on their marriage.

"Kurt! Have you seen my name badge?" Blaine was sure he'd left it on their dresser the night before, but he couldn't find it and he had to be at work in 30 minutes.

"What?" Kurt walked into their bedroom, the costume he'd been working on, still in his hands.

"My name badge, I can't find it. I'm postive I put it on the dresser last night when I got in."

"Oh, yeah, I moved it to the night stand, middle drawer."

"Why didn't you say something then?" Blaine asked, it came out harsher than he intended, but he didn't back down.

Kurt just looked at Blaine, he hadn't taken time to just look at his husband since they'd been back. Blaine looked horrible, there are bags under his eyes, he hadn't shaved since they returned, he didn't even bother to style his curls anymore, and his eyes were cold and distant.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" Blaine softened his tone, Kurt looked terrified, and even a little sick.

"N-nothing, s-sorry. I just- never mind." Kurt turned to leave. How could he not have noticed that Blaine wasn't okay? He always notices.

"Kurt, wait." Blaine called after him, but Kurt kept walking. Blaine knew he'd been kind of distant since they got back, but how did he not notice the strain all this was causing to his and Kurt's marriage? They barely speak anymore and half the time, Kurt sleeps in the guest room where he works on his costumes. They need to sit downn and talk before things get worse, he doesn't want to lose Kurt.

That night, Blaine came home an hour early with a dozen red roses, ready to apologize and talk things out. He found Kurt in their room looking through the scrapbook Lucy had made of their wedding pictures.

"Kurt."

"Blaine. I-I- you're home early, is everything okay?" Kurt looked up to see Blaine standing in the doorway with a sad smile and a hand full of roses.

"Actually no it's not. Here, these are for you, as an apology for how I've been acting lately. I've been distant and working myself to death and I'm sorry." Blaine handed Kurt the roses and sat down on the edge of the bed.

"You don't have to apologize Blaine, I've done the same thing. I didn't even notice anything was wrong until this morning when I looked at you and saw just how exhausted you looked."

"That's when I realized it too. God Kurt, I'm sorry, I-"

"It's okay sweetie, I understand, I should have been there for you." Kurt sat the roses aside and pulled Blaine into a strong hug.

Blaine sighed and hugged back, for the first time since he'd found out his dad's cancer was back, he felt whole.

"I love you Blaine, promise me we'll never get like this again. This week has been awful without you." Kurt breathed against Blaine's temple.

"I love you too Kurt, and I promise. God I've missed you."

They stayed like that for what felt like hours, but in reality was only about ten minutes, before Kurt pulled back and looked into Blaine's eyes.

"There's something I want to talk to you about. I've been thinking about it for a while and I've been waiting for a chance to talk to you about it."

"Okay, what is it?" Blaine could tell Kurt had put in a lot of thought on whatever it was.

"I-I want us to start a family." Kurt held his breath, waiting for Blaine to respond.

"Okay, um, I thought we'd already talked about this. We both want a family, why are you so nervous about telling me?"

"I meant, I want us to start a family now. I don't want to wait."

"Oh, I-I see. I- um-"

"You don't have to say anything, I know it's not-"

"No, no. I mean, you just caught me off guard. Why right now? I thought we agreed to wait." Blaine took Kurt's hands in his, looking him in the eye. "This is about my dad, isn't it?"

"W-what? N-no, I just- no. Why would you-"

"Don't lie to me Kurt, you know you can't lie to me."

"It's not about your dad, at least not completely. I think we're ready to be parents, but if you don't, that's fine. It was just a thought, forget I said anything."

"Kurt."

"Blaine, really, it's fine. You don't have-"

"Kurt, will you please let me talk?"

Kurt just nodded, looking anywhere but Blaine's eyes.

"Thank you. You know I want us to start a family, I love you and I know we'll make great parents, but you can't spring something like this on me and expect me to jump right in. Having children is a serious choice Kurt, once we decide to do this, there's no turning back. I'm not going to say yes, for now. Just give me a while to think about it, okay?" Blaine took Kurt's face in his hands, giving him a loving smile.

"Yeah. Okay, that's fair. I uh, I need to get back to working on the costumes." Kurt said, pushing Blaine away so he could get up. "Thank you for the flowers, they're beautiful."

"You're welcome, and Kurt."

"Yeah?"

"I love you."

"I love you too." Kurt smiled softly, walking down the hall to the guest room. He tried not to let Blaine's decision bother him too much. Blaine was right, deciding to have kids is a big deal, maybe they're not ready to be parents yet.

Blaine watched Kurt leave, waiting until he heard the sewing machine start up before he let out a frustrated groan. They were suppose to talk things out and fix everything, instead, things just got worse. There is only one persob who he could turn to for help. Pullingout his phone, Blaine prayed he would answer.

"Hello?"

"Burt, hey it's Blaine. Sorry for calling so late, but I need your advice."

"Sure thing buddy, what's up?" Burt could tell something was really bothering Blaine. He wouldn't call unless it was something really important.

The following morning, Blaine wakes up to an empty bed. Knowing Kurt would be in the guest room, he heads there. His talk with Burt last night helped and he needed to talk to Kurt.

"Kurt, sweetie, wake up." Blaine nudged Kurt's sleeping form. He looked so peaceful that Blaine hated to disturb him.

"Blaine? Wha time isit?" Kurt slurred as he sat up.

"9:30, you fell asleep in the guest room."

"Oh yeah. I was going to come to bed, but I was too tired."

"It's okay. I actually wanted to talk to you about last night."

"Blaine, you don't-"

"No, let me finish."

"Okay."

"I uh, I called your dad for some advice. I didn't say anything about kids or anything, but talking to him made me realize, saying no to having kids right now has nothing to do with you asking so suddenly. I'm scared Kurt, I'm scared of losing my dad, I'm scared of becoming a dad, and I'm scared of disappointing you. I'm terrified of turning out to be like my dad was with me when I was younger, I don't want that to happen and I'm scared."

"Blaine, sweeite, I'm scared too. I watched my dad struggle with raising as on by himself, I've watched you and your parents go through so much, but we can't let our past keep us from moving forward. Everything we've been through has taught me how to be a loving, caring father who will do anything and everything to make my children happy. That doesn't mean I'm not scared of messing up, I know we'll mess up, it's human nature. As long as we love our child unconditionally and give them all the love and support we can, we'll make it. It's good to be scared, I'd be worried if you weren't, but I know you'll be an amazing father."

"So will you Kurt, maybe better than me. I-I don't want to wait, I want to start our family now, if you still want to." Blaine smiled hopefully.

"Are you sure? Like you said, once we do this, there's no going back."

"I'm more than sure. I love you and I'm ready for us to be dads."

Kurt smiled and hugged Blaine tight. It won't be easy, but as long as they have each other, they'll make it through.