Oct. 13, 2015, 7 p.m.
Don't Wanna Be Your Dirty Little Secret: Chapter 7
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Sorry that this is a bit late, my friends had a last minute gathering to watch Eurovision and I didnt get home till late. Still here it is :) Hope you enjoy it! thank you for all the reviews and your following of this story :D
"Sam, can I talk to you? Please?" Blaine asked pleadingly.
He had turned up on Mercedes doorstep at six oclock in the morning after not being able to sleep. He had needed to talk to someone and Sam was the only person that would understand and not judge him. Well, at least he hoped he wouldnt judge him.
Mercedes had been pissed by Blaines incessant ringing of the doorbell and had pushed Sam out of the bed to go and sort out Blaine before she seriously harmed him. No one disturb her beauty sleep.
Sam had sprawled out on the sofa, half asleep as Blaine paced the living room floor. He was too anxious to speak and he was working his way up to it. Sam was sure he knew what Blaine was going to say anyway but he decided to let his friend get there in his own time.
"I think Im falling for Kurt." Blaine finally admitted.
Sam didnt look at all surprised by what Blaine had said, which in a way had annoyed Blaine.
"I know." Sam said. "I knew this was going to happen as soon as you mentioned him and wanted to find out who he was. It probably started from the moment that you heard him singing Blackbird."
Blaine looked at his friend incredulously. "And you couldnt have said anything. Ive been struggling with this and this whole time you knew and didnt think to warn me! I dont know what to do Sam!" Blaine almost howled out in frustration.
Sam waited for Blaine to settle down a bit more before he said anything more. He watched as his friend threw himself into the armchair and he couldnt help but feel for him.
"Blaine, ages ago you insisted that you were straight, even though you had that crush on me briefly. Then you started dating Amy, a girl that you are still dating now." Sam said it calmly, trying to keep his friend as calm as possible so that they could have a reasonable discussion about this.
"I know. I know, Sam, I do. And thats why I dont know what to do. I dont want to hurt anybody. Im not that guy."
"I know youre not that guy Blaine." Sam said, quietly.
Blaine put his head into his hands. He felt like he wanted to cry. Why was this happening to him? He thought he was a pretty simple guy and he had never done anything to purposely hurt someone before. What had he done in his life for this to happen?
"Sometimes you just fall. Without meaning to. Did you know that Mercedes was with someone else while I was chasing after her? It tore her up to hurt him but in the end she knew that she belonged more with me."
"How does that help me?" Blaine asked looking up at his friend, his eyes rimmed red.
"Umm, Im not sure." Sam said, forgetting where he had been going with that. "I guess that Im trying to say is that youre not a bad person Blaine."
"Why do I feel like one?"
"Maybe because you know you have the power to hurt Kurt and Amy but Blaine, you havent done anything. You havent done any cheating. You havent hurt anyone yet."
"And what if I cant resist? What then? I dont want to hurt either of them. I dont think Id be able to live with myself."
"Maybe you should distance yourself from Kurt? It might be for the best."
Blaine looked shocked at the idea. He didnt know if he would be able to do that. Already Kurt had become one of Blaines best friends and they talked every day, not always in person but definitely over the phone or by text. Hell, he probably talked more to Kurt than he did to his girlfriend and man if that didnt make him feel guilty.
Maybe it would be for the best.
"I know it will be tough. Dont think I dont know how much you two hang out and talk. I will try and keep you occupied and I will get the other guys to help, without explaining the situation to them. And then once you have finished this song with Kurt, which you need to get a move on and ask him to do, by the way, then start getting further away from him. It will be better for both of you."
Blaine hated the idea completely but what else could he do? He agreed to Sams plan.
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"So why arent you hanging out with the hobbit tonight?" Santana asked as Kurt painted her fingernails for her.
"He just said he had to cancel. Its fine though because he said he would try and call me tonight. Its not like were joined at the hip." Kurt dipped the nail varnish brush back into the pot with the black paint before positioning Santanas other hand ready so he could do the first coat on it.
"You like him dont you?" Santana asked.
Kurt blushed a brilliant red. "Why would you think that?"
"The blush says a lot." Santana said simply.
Kurt was a little more hesitant about his feelings for Blaine after what had happened to Sam but he liked Blaine so much more than he ever had with Sam. Blaine was Kurts best friend, apart from Santana and who even knew about Rachel now because Kurt certainly didnt. But he couldnt deny it. And believe him he had tried. Hed done the whole talking into the mirror thing and everything. In the end it had made him actually admit it but only to himself. He managed to keep quiet about it till now. Santana seemed to have the ability to get people to reveal their deepest darkest secrets and Kurt was not immune to her probing for answers. It didnt help that his own body gave him away even without words.
"Please dont say anything." Kurt said quietly.
Santana scoffed. "Please, I have better things to do with my time."
Kurt smiled at her gratefully.
"But you know Kurt. If you were to make a move on him then I dont think he would really mind. Im pretty sure he feels something more than friendship for you. Id bet my last dollar on it."
Kurt couldnt help but blush again. He didnt know whether to believe Santana. It seemed too good to be true. Blaine had practically fell into Kurts life exactly when he needed someone like him and it made it all seem like it couldnt be real.
He had to admit that hed been getting some vibes from Blaine. There were gazes and linger looks that made Kurt feel like he was floating. The occasional and gentle touches that felt like a spark to Kurts body. He was sure that he glowed whenever he was in Blaines presence. He always felt warm whenever they were together. Kurt didnt want to say anything in case Blaine didnt feel the same. He didnt want to ruin the friendship because he would rather have Blaine as a friend than losing him from his life if he made a move on him. Any awkwardness between the two would be like practically losing him, what with how close they had gotten over the weeks.
"How are things with you and Dani?" Kurt asked, changing the subject from him.
"Good, if you know what I mean." Santana said, wiggling her eyebrows.
Kurt blushed again when he realised that she meant sex. That of course had Santana cackling like a witch.
"I should have known. Youre a virgin!"
"Shut up Santana! Im waiting for the right person and time. Not that its any of your business." Kurt snapped, hating that she always seemed to be able to get a rise out of him.
"Its so blatantly obvious that Blaine is gonna be the one popping that cherry with some hot boy on boy action." Santana smirked.
Kurt glared at her but didnt say anything.
At the moment the thought of sex wasnt even one that was crossing his mind. He was a complete and honest baby penguin and sex didnt really appeal to him right now. Maybe one day it would but for now he was happy being blissfully ignorant to the whole thing. To him the touch of a fingertips was as sexy as it gets, that was why he loved Broadway so much. He wanted love in his life, not lust. He knew that sometimes the two went together but not for him. Not right at this moment.
Santana seemed to realise that she had hit a sore spot for Kurt and she backed off, turning the conversation to lighter things. Though she didnt want to admit it to anyone, she didnt have all that many friends here in New York. Girls didnt tend to be friends with her because she tended to draw the attention of their boyfriends even though she wasnt really interested and not many guys were interested in being friends with her, they only wanted to sleep with her. It seemed the only friends she could really make were with gay guys and even then sometimes people couldnt handle her personality. But she couldnt change. She had been this was since practically forever. Kurt was the first person that seemed to be able to cope with her rude humour and her weird and most of the time, mean way of dealing with things. Shed never tell him but he was her only proper friend that she had made since she came to New York. She didnt really want to lose him. That was why she tried to reign herself in a bit. She didnt want to scare him off because if she did then she would probably be a complete and utter loner.
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Blaine hated that he had cancelled on Kurt. He hadnt even done it through a phone call. He had text Kurt saying that something had come up and that they wouldnt be able to hang out tonight. He had planned to spend the night alone in his room just thinking but Sam, trying to be helpful, had rang Amy and she had taken it upon herself to come round and hang out with Blaine. It wasnt something that he really wanted to deal with right now. With his feelings so up in the air about everything having Amy around wasnt exactly the most helpful thing.
"Baby, do you want to watch a film?" Amy asked, browsing his shelf that held all of his DVDs.
"Sure, whatever." Blaine said from where he was laid on the bed.
"Or maybe, we could watch some porn together." Amy suggested, coming over to the bed and rubbing a hand over Blaines leg.
"Huh?" Blaine questioned.
"Youve been neglecting my needs lately baby. If I didnt know better I would think you had been getting it from somewhere else." It was said teasingly but it made Blaines skin crawl slightly.
Blaine didnt say anything, silently hating himself.
"Ive been missing you and your assets Blaine. And I think that you should make it up to me." There was a lustful look in her eyes.
Blaine felt his cock twitch in interest. It wasnt like he could deny that Amy turned him on, no matter what his feelings for Kurt were.
"How would you like me to make it up to you?" Blaine asked slowly.
Amy grinned at him. "I want you to take me while Im on my hands and knees."
Well that definitely had Blaine going hard.
Amy started stripping her clothes off teasingly slow until she was stood in front of Blaine completely naked. Her blonde hair was framing her face and falling over her shoulders. Blaine reached up his arms and put his hands either side of her waist, feeling her warm and soft skin beneath his palms.
"I want you to be rough with me Blaine. I want to feel you completely. Pull my hair, pound into me and call me a slut. Fuck me." She ordered him and damn how could the man resist.
She turned around and knelt down, getting onto her hands and knees presenting her perfectly supple arse to him. She tossed Blaine a look over his shoulder and he quickly tugged down his trousers and boxers letting his fully hard erection spring free. He didnt bother fully taking off his trousers, letting them down mid-thigh, just enough so they wouldnt get in the way. He grabbed and condom and rolled it on to his achingly hard dick.
Moving towards Amy he felt around, his fingers grazing across her pussy and clit making her shiver with anticipation. Blaine worked one finger into her pussy making sure that she was good and wet if she wanted it rough from her, not wanting to hurt her at all. He continued to play with her clit as he fingered her feeling her juices over his fingers.
After a while he pulled his finger out, satisfied that she was wet enough.
"Let me taste?" Amy asked.
Blaine stretched his finger towards her mouth, where she had her head turned back to him. His cock rubbed across her pert butt and the friction felt amazing to him. Amy slowly sucked her juices off of Blaines finger before she turned back so she was facing away from him.
"Now fuck me." She ordered. "Really hard."
Blaine grabbed a hold of her hips and slammed into her, making her cry out. He started thrusting into her over and over, his hips snapping with his movements. Reaching forward Blaine grabbed Amys jiggling breasts and kneaded them with his hands, playing and flicking her nipples, making her cry out with pleasure. He felt her clench around him as an orgasm rippled through her and he continued to pound into her.
"Fuck, Blaine. Pull my hair please."
Blaine removed his hands from her breasts and used one hand to gather her hair up and another went back to her hips. He started using her hair as a way to pull her further back onto his cock and it had her crying out with pleasure and a little pain but she couldnt deny that she loved it. Blaines nails dug into her hips as he could feel himself getting closer and closer. All it took was for Amy to scream through another orgasm and Blaine cried out, emptying his load into the condom, his hips stuttering in his movements of pumping into her.
Blaine let go of her hair and slid out of her, his thighs were aching from standing behind her. He sat down on the edge of the bed and pulled off the condom ready to dispose of it.
Amy crawled towards Blaine, looking utterly debauched. She took his softening penis and started lightly licking and sucking on it, getting any come off of it and swallowing it down.
"Shit, Blaine. I dont think weve ever been so rough. I fucking loved it though." Amy admitted, letting Blaine pull his boxers and trousers up and over his sensitive cock.
Blaine smiled tiredly at her, orgasms always tended to make him a little tired for some reason.
"Im gonna go and shower baby and then Im going to head out to a club with the girls. Id invite you too but I dont any of them drunkenly trying to fuck you." She laughed out loud before sauntering off to the shower.
Blaine laid back on his bed and stared up at the ceiling. He felt bad about what had just happened and he was afraid that guilt was going to eat him up and swallow him whole. He was really starting to hate himself.
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Kurt heard his phone vibrating as he was getting ready for bed and smiled when his phone showed that it was Blaine ringing him.
"Hey you." Kurt greeted cheerily.
"Hey." Blaine said, his voice quiet. "Hows you?"
"Im good. I hung out with Santana today. How was your day? How did whatever you were doing go?"
"I would have preferred spending the day with you." Blaine admitted.
"Aww, Im sure it wasnt that bad."
They continued to chat but Kurt could tell that Blaine wasnt his usual self and that worried him. The Blaine he knew never sounded that monotonous. Kurt was determined to cheer up his best friend.
"How about we do brunch tomorrow? I know you like to lay in on a Sunday otherwise Id have said breakfast." Kurt chuckled lightly.
Blaine couldnt help but chuckle too. "You know me too well."
"Well duh." Kurt teased. "So you wanna come?"
Blaine paused before he gave Kurt an answer. He wanted to spend time with Kurt and today had felt awful trying not to think about him. The boy was always on his mind and he knew that he couldnt ignore him or distance himself as Sam had said.
"Brunch sounds awesome. Ill see you at around half ten then?"
"Yay! And yes. Ill see you tomorrow, sleep well Blaine."
"You too Kurt." Blaine said quietly and then they hung up.
Blaine curled up on his bed as small as he could get but sleep did not reach him for another few hours. His thoughts didnt allow for it.
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The next morning Kurt and Blaine went to their favourite place to get brunch. Both of them had the best time together, they always did. They chattered about random stuff through brunch and Blaine felt himself feeling lighter.
Who was he kidding? He couldnt stay away from Kurt. He just had to keep himself restrained and then hopefully he would get over it or Kurt would meet someone who he really liked. Blaines heart jolted at the thought of Kurt with someone else and he scolded himself. As long as Kurt was happy nothing else mattered.
On the walk back home from the café they kept playing about with one other. Somehow Blaines hand had found Kurts and without realising it they were holding hands and it felt completely natural. Kurt couldnt help but feel excited to be holding Blaines hand with the other boy not seeming to mind.
When they got back to the halls Blaine dropped Kurts hand from his as if he hadnt realised that he had been holding it. "Umm, Im sorry about that." Blaine laughed awkwardly. "I better go. Ill see you later." Blaine quickly disappeared behind his door before Kurt could say anything which left Kurt standing out in the hall with no idea of what had just happened.
Kurt let himself think briefly that maybe what that really meant was that Blaine was feeling something for Kurt and like Kurt he didnt want to ruin their friendship with unrequited feelings and that thought made Kurt feel amazing.
Maybe he could get the guy for once.