The campers were awaken bright an early the next morning and unlike most Kurt was excited to start the day.

He was willing to put the whole Blaine incident behind him, far out of his mind, and get this summer over with. He came here to lose weight not gain a boyfriend. Ha! A boyfriend, as if anyone would ever love him.

He had been stupid for feeling anything for Blaine; clearly he meant nothing to the shorter boy. He would just accept that and stay out of Blaine’s way. He’d focus on the camp, he’d focus on losing weight, he’d focus on becoming perfect, and he’d focus on his dreams.

However none of this was good enough of a distraction for when he saw Blaine that morning. Waking up, sleep covering his hazel eyes, his curls bouncing free in every direction, and the way his muscles moved under his skin as he stretched. Only plus side to this heat was seeing a shirtless Blaine.

No don’t think like that. Kurt scolded himself. He reminded himself of his promise and he went about getting ready for the day in a fake bliss as if nothing bothered him.

And nothing should bother him, he knew Blaine would never fall for him, and he just needed to accept that.

“Morning Kurt.” Blaine smiled cheerfully.

“Good morning.” Kurt half smiled.

“You look beautiful when you sleep. And when you wake up. And throughout the day. Um never mind I guess what I’m trying to say is you’re beautiful.” Blaine smiled flashing him a toothy grin.

Kurt looked at him shocked his expression screaming ‘you’ve got to be fucking kidding me’

Blaine noticed this look and the hurt in his eyes and he immediately felt bad. He had been a jerk yesterday and he probably ruined any chance of friendship with the boy, yet alone anything more, and after all the pain he caused him he just went and complimented him. Judging by the look plastered on Kurt’s face he probably thought Blaine was just toying with his emotions.

Little did he know Blaine would never do that, he was more so fighting with himself. Did he give in and let whatever outcome that comes out of this happen? Or should he continue to hide and push away Kurt, the boy he was falling for.

Blaine was a conflicted mess and maybe that’s why the day passed by in such a blur.

Blaine didn’t really pay attention to the details of the day, and he probably wasn’t doing a very good job as camp counselor, but he did pay attention to every little detail revolving around Kurt.

Everyone went to the mess hall and sat in their groups for breakfast. David recording what everyone ate next to their names and weights.

Wes had organized their team portfolio so that it featured their names in the margin in rows. The columns each had the date of the weekly weigh-ins and would be filled in as such. The next page had their names in the row and then the headings of ‘breakfast’ ‘lunch’ and ‘dinner’ in the columns with enough space to fill them out with everything they ate or drank during the day. At the end was an additional column where at the end of the day they’d tally up their total calories.

Thank God for Wes’ organizational skills or they’d be a mess.

It broke Blaine’s heart a little to see that not only watch Kurt not eat but to see his food chart go unwritten in for the rest of the day. His total calories accumulating to a whopping zero.

All in all the day was spent doing all sorts of different activities ranging from hiking to swimming to weight training, all of which Kurt participated in with enthusiasm and determination. Clearly he had a goal to meet, healthy or not, he was going to do it.

At the end of the day everyone was chatting idly outside their cabin watching the stars and Blaine decided it be a good idea to sneak off and talk to Kurt.

“Hey Kurt, want to go for a walk?” He asked charmingly.

Kurt looked down nervously, biting his lip. He really didn’t want to go for a walk with Blaine. He was falling for him and he didn’t want to end up crashing. Blaine didn’t feel the same way, there was no way he could, and allowing himself to go on said walk, allowing himself to be fooled by the pretense that Blaine would ever feel the same way, was just wrong. He couldn’t lie to himself. Blaine would never love him and there was no sense going with him. He didn’t want to talk and his heart couldn’t handle a repeat of last time. He was still gluing back together the pieces Blaine had broken when he wouldn’t even acknowledge that the shared an intimate moment by the lake. He couldn’t go on this walk.

“Awwh Kurt go ahead, that sounds like fun.” Mercedes encouraged winking at him like she was in the know and doing him some favor.

“Fine.” Kurt sighed and stood up to join Blaine.

The second they were out of sight Blaine’s hand immediately found Kurt’s hand and Kurt sighed sadly.

“Kurt, what’s wrong?” Blaine asked concerned stopping walking and looking into Kurt’s eyes.

“I just don’t understand.” Kurt laughed.

“Understand what?” Blaine asked.

“This.” Kurt said lifting their interlocked hands up in front of Blaine's face.

“What about it?” Blaine asked trying to play it cool but inside he knew exactly what Kurt was referring to.

“When no one’s around you’re super nice to me, you act like you care. But when we’re around people you pretend I don’t exist. You let me suck you off by the lake and not two minutes later when asked who your first kiss was you couldn’t even answer. I don’t get it. I know I’m not good enough for you, I understand that. I understand that you are embarrassed of me. But if you’re so embarrassed of me why do you take me out here and hold my hand when no one can see you? Why do you pretend you care about me? I don’t need fake people Blaine. I get it you don’t really care, no one does. But why do you keep on pretending.” Kurt asked.

Blaine couldn’t believe what he was hearing; he expected to get yelled at for it all. Not have Kurt tell him he wasn’t good enough and say he understands why Blaine hides him.

Blaine was not hiding Kurt.

He was hiding himself…in the closet.

“Kurt I’m not hiding you. And I truly do care about you. I’m genuinely concerned for you. Like I said I’ve never felt a connection so strong to someone before. It was like we were made for each other, and seeing you not eat, seeing you hurt yourself, it breaks my heart.” Blaine said sadly.

“I’m so sorry Blaine.” Kurt said softly a tear rolling down his cheek.

“Shhh, its okay babe. Don’t be sorry. Everything’s going to be okay.” Blaine said kissing Kurt’s tears away.

“I care about you too. And I’m sorry.” Kurt frowned.

“Don’t be sorry.” Blaine said essentially silencing him with a kiss.

The two boys kissed under the moonlight, neither one wanting to let go or break the kiss.

This moment was all too perfect.

But in the case of Kurt Hummel, nothing could ever go his way. As the broke the kiss and made their way back to the cabins Blaine let go of his hand and gave him a look of pleading and fear. And Kurt nodded in showing he understood

Even though he didn’t understand.

Still blaming himself, the evening he felt more depressed than ever before.

And Blaine felt no better.