Long after the conversations ended and the fire died out everyone began to fall asleep.

That is except for Blaine who couldn’t shut his mind off enough to fall asleep.

So many thoughts rushing through that head of his was making him dizzy.

He was in love with Kurt, but because he’s stupid he ended everything and now even if he had the guts to tell Kurt he wants him back Kurt probably wouldn’t want to be with him.

Like Kurt said he broke his heart.

How could Blaine have been so stupid? So cruel?

He could have been happy; he could have been with Kurt.

But no he had to let fear get in the way of things and now he’d never be happy and he’d never have Kurt.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

“I can fix this.” Blaine mumbled to himself.

“Pssst. Kurt. Hey Kurt. You awake?” Blaine asked poking the sleeping boy.

“S’goin on?” Kurt mumbled.

“Are you awake?” Blaine asked again smiling at Kurt’s adorableness.

“Am now.” Kurt yawned.

“God you’re adorable.” Blaine couldn’t help the words from coming out of his mouth. “Sorry, that’s not why I woke you up.” He mumbled.

“Why’d you wake me up Blaine?” Kurt asked.

“I needed to talk to you.” Blaine said quietly.

“Okay…” Kurt laughed softly.

“I needed to tell you that I’m sorry I broke your heart. And I wanted you to know that I love you. I love you Kurt, I love you with all my heart. I don’t want to forget you. I want to be with you.” Blaine said moving closer to Kurt.

“You love me?” Kurt asked “And you want to be with me?” He asked confused.

“Yes Kurt, there’s nothing I would want more than to be with you.” Blaine smiled.

“I want to be with you too.” Kurt smiled softly.

“I love you Kurt.”

“I love you too Blaine.”

Blaine smiled and Kurt pulled him in for a kiss.

The kiss was quickly becoming heated and was nothing but tongue and teeth. It wasn’t soft and slow, they were expressing their love through their mouths and both boys wanted the other to know how they felt.

Blaine was the first to break the kiss; he looked directly into Kurt’s eyes and smiled sadly. “Everyone’s right here, we should probably stop. Wouldn’t want them to wake up and catch us.” He said breaking eye contact.

“Oh.” Kurt said his heart aching yet again. He was still Blaine's secret. Nothing had changed.

“I love you.” Blaine whispered.

“I don’t want to be your dirty little secret Blaine.” Kurt said sadly. “At first I was fine with it, I understood that you were scared and I didn’t want to push you. But I’m in love with you Blaine and all you’ve caused me is heartache. I’m starting to believe Rachel’s right. That you’re just taking advantage of me. When it’s just us you’ll tell me you love me, make me feel like everything’s perfect. But that’s just a show. Because around other people you won’t even acknowledge me unless it’s a death glare because you think I’m going to reveal your secret. The thing is I don’t believe in outing people, but I don’t know if I can be someone’s dirty little secret. I love you Blaine, and probably always will. You have my number; can you give me a call when you’ve made up your mind on what you want? I’ll always be waiting, just let me know when you’re ready.” Kurt said softly a few tears rolling down his cheeks as he spoke.

“I’m sorry I made you feel that way Kurt. I can’t come out right now, I’m too afraid. I understand why you wouldn’t want to be someone’s secret. I had no right to make you mine. And I’m sorry. I love you too. One day we’ll be together I promise. One day I’ll be strong enough. I’ll come clean, and we can be together the right way. There’ll be no more hiding, and it can just be us. You and me Kurt, forever. I love you. I promise you Kurt, you won’t have to wait long. One day we’ll be together. I love you.” Blaine said now crying a little himself.

“I’m just not ready. But one day.” Blaine said again.

“One day.” Kurt repeated.

Blaine kissed Kurt again. Only this time it wasn’t a kiss of want and desire. It was one of hope and a promise.

They broke this kiss and Kurt hugged Blaine before moving away and going to lie down.

The fire had died out and so had he.

Yes, he’d wait forever for Blaine. But he had just hoped that maybe, just maybe, Blaine would have changed his mind right then and there. He hoped they could have been together now, not some time in the unforeseeable future.

But it didn’t matter, he’d always wait.

Maybe his heart was broken now, but one day Blaine would be back and he would be healed.

Until then he’d just have to get through it.

He’d never forget this summer; it had been the best time of his life. But it had also been the most emotional.

He was hurting badly. He knew he’d power through it. He knew that one day Blaine would be back.

He had hope for the future and he’d never forget his past.

But that didn’t stop the brokenness he felt in his heart at the present.