The two boys got into the car and Blaine began to drive to the specialist’s office that Kurt was going to see.

“Are you ready for this?” Blaine asked.

Kurt smiled softly, “I am actually. I’m a little nervous, but I want help, and I’m going to go through with it. But yeah I’m super ready for this.” Kurt said happily.

“Good.” Blaine replied. “So nervous?” Blaine asked.

“Yeah I mean, I want to talk and everything but there’s something about me lying down on a couch in a sketchy office talking to some old guy about my feelings. It all seems a little shady if you ask me. And I’m not going to even mention how therapist spells the-rapist.” Kurt laughed.

Blaine couldn’t help but smile. “You’ll be fine.” Blaine said as he grabbed Kurt’s hand and laced their fingers together. “Come on, why don’t you sing or something to take away the jitters.” Blaine suggested.

“That’s a good idea.” Kurt smiled. “And I think I know a great song about how I’m feeling.” Kurt said excitedly.

“Okay, go on.” Blaine encouraged.

Kurt began to sing softly but immediately Blaine recognized the song and smiled.

“I’ve been working hard so long. Seems like pain has been my only friend. My fragile heart’s been done so wrong. I wondered if I’d ever heal again.”

“Oh, just like all the seasons, never stay the same…All around me I can feel the change.”

“Oh I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me, today my life begins.”

“A whole new world is waiting, it’s mine for the taking. I know I can make it. Today my life begins.”

“Yesterday has come and gone, and I’ve learned how to leave it where it is. And I see that I was wrong for ever doubting I could win.”

“Oh, just like all the seasons, never stay the same…All around me I can feel the change.”

“Oh I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me, today my life begins.”

“A whole new world is waiting, it’s mine for the taking. I know I can make it. Today my life begins.”

“Life’s too short to have regrets, so I’m learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget. Only have one life to live. So you better make the best of it.”

“Oh I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me, today my life begins.”

“A whole new world is waiting, it’s mine for the taking. I know I can make it. Today my life begins.”

“Oh I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me, today my life begins.”

“A whole new world is waiting, it’s mine for the taking. I know I can make it. Today my life begins.”

“Today my life begins.”

Kurt ended his song, tears falling from both his and Blaine’s eyes.

“That was beautiful Kurt.” Blaine smiled.

“Thanks, it really speaks to me you know. It’s like I’m a new person, I’m getting help, I’ll get better. I’ve turned a new leaf, and a new life for me begins.” Kurt said cheerfully.

“I love you Kurt.”

“I love you too Blaine.”

Before they knew it they were pulling into the parking lot of the office building.

“We’re here.” Blaine announced.

“Okay I’m ready.” Kurt said happily.

Blaine got out and opened Kurt’s door for him.

He grabbed his hand and led him inside.

“Come on, I’ll go sign you in and then I’ll wait for you in the lobby.”

Shortly after Kurt was called back.

He entered a small room and was instructed to have a seat.

A petite young woman with pin straight long blonde hair entered a few minutes later. She wore a pencil skirt and light blue oxford shirt. Her hipster-styled glasses gave her a professional but attractive look. She was young, maybe in her late twenties and she was about 5’2 in height.

She walked over to where Kurt was sitting and smiled before speaking.

“Hello I am Doctor Sandra Burke, feel free to call me Sandra.” introduced herself extending her arm.

“Hello Doctor Sandra, I am Kurt Hummel. It’s nice to meet you.” He said politely shaking her hand.

She sat down on the desk chair across from him. “So Kurt, why don’t we begin by you telling me why you’re here.” She said smiling at him to encourage him to go on.

“We can get into serious details later, for right now I really just want a summary of why you feel you are here so I can know where to go from here.” She added.

“Okay, well for starters I’ve had trouble with depression for most of my life. I even took medicine for it. But it began getting out of hand when things in my life became more, complicated.” He said simply.

“I see in your file you also had a previous suicide attempt and were diagnosed with anorexia?” She questioned. “Have those also come back as things got complicated?” she added.

“Yes, I did. And yes they have.” He answered politely.

“And would you please elaborate on things getting complicated?” She asked.

He sighed, but she gestured for him to go ahead.

“Well, I am the only out gay kid in my school so everyone already hates me and makes my life unbearable. But that’s not it. I could handle the bullying. I wouldn’t let it get to me. But there was this one bully who made it his mission in life to make my life a living hell. His reasons in doing so were because he was gay, but still in the closet. One day I confronted him about his bullying and he kissed me. It was completely unexpected and completely unwanted. I ran away but later he approached me and told me he’d kill me if I told anyone. I guess that’s when things began getting complicated. I think that’s also when I began not eating.” He said sadly.

“Please go on. What happened after that?” She asked.

“I continued to come home everyday beaten and bruised until one day my dad found out about the threat. He sent me to Dalton Academy where they had a zero tolerance for violence and where I was safe. But due to financial issues I had to leave Dalton. Back at McKinley things grew worse but I at least had my boyfriend Blaine to keep me sane. I still began to eat less and I began pushing people away. It was almost a last straw when the jerks at school thought it would be funny to elect my prom queen. I had never been so humiliated. But with Blaine's help I got over it. But afterwards the bullying got worse. The bully had me physically broken and I was close to snapping mentally as well. He continued to beat me and steal sexual advances but I managed to get away. Things escalated and I began to lose it. I couldn’t take it anymore and I turned to cutting. People found out, I had to explain, he found out I told people and-and-and…” Kurt said.

“And what Kurt?” She asked reaching out to comfort him.

“He raped me.” Kurt answered.

This had been the first time he had admitted it.

It felt good to talk.

“He raped me and tried to kill me but I lived, but then in the hospital I was so scared that I tried to kill myself but I lived, and now back at the house without talking to anyone I kept my feelings repressed. And I know now that it was wrong of me but I began cutting again. I didn’t see cutting as a problem only as a solution. But I know now that I was wrong. My boyfriend found out and him and my family and friends had an intervention. It was there where I was woken up and knew I couldn’t go on like this, I need help. And here I am.” Kurt stated.

“Very good Kurt, from what your family has told me speaking to them and what you have told me know it seems as though you’ve come a long way.” She smiled.

“I’m really trying.” He replied.

He was really trying.

He wanted to get better.

He really did.