June 19, 2012, 4:32 p.m.
Emergency Exit: I Want A Way Out
Emergency Exit: I Want A Way Out: I'm Not Who You Want Me to Be
E - Words: 937 - Last Updated: Jun 19, 2012 Story: Complete - Chapters: 27/27 - Created: May 30, 2012 - Updated: Jun 19, 2012 493 0 2 0 0
“Oh-oh oh-oh So much for my happy ending. Oh-oh oh-oh So much for my happy ending. Oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh . Let’s talk this over It’s not like we’re dead, Was it something I did? Was it something you said?”
Quinn sang fighting back tears, her eyes glued on Finn the entire time. Her voice was breathtakingly beautiful as always, but there was something behind it, something that really filled her song with purpose. Her passion overtaking the words her performance was amazing, who cares if she’s a bitch, and this song is a blow to Finn.
“Don’t leave me hanging In a city so dead Held up so high, On such a breakable thread breakable thread. You were all the things I thought I knew and I thought we could be..”
Quinn lifted her arms above her head dramatically and belted out the song
“You were everything, everything that I wanted we were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away All this time you were pretending So much for my happy ending oh-oh oh-oh So much for my happy ending oh-oh oh-oh.”
By the end of her song you could hear the hurt in her voice, this song did parallel her life. I mean the head cheerio and quarterback was supposed to be, but they lost it. And Finn was just pretending, because he really still had feelings for Rachel. There went Quinn’s happy ending.
This time everyone clapped when she finished, no one fought, they just congratulated her on a well done performance.
She did do really well, and it was evident in her performance how passionate she was about the words she was singing. Her emotions behind every word she spoke.
Quinn did well.
Finn looked up at her and gave her a sad smile before looking back down at the floor.
It wasn’t much but it was encouraging to both of them, they knew that they shared some history, but that was over now. No harm.
“Excellent job Quinn.” Mr. Schue spoke up after a minute or two.
She went back to where she was standing and Mr. Schue asked for more volunteers.
“Um, can I go Mr. Schue?” Kurt asked standing up.
“Sure go ahead Kurt.”
“Ugh I wonder what ballad he’d gonna sing to his lover boy.” Quinn exhaled.
“Nah, he’ll do Lady Gaga’s Born This Way.” Puck teased. And the whole crowd laughed.
“Whatcha gonna sing for us Kurt?” Mr. Schuester asked nicely.
“Actually it’s not a love song, it’s not a ballad, it’s not about loving the way I was born, it something closer to me. Something to do with the hate in this world, and how it effects me, it’s something quite personal to me. Emotions was the topic right?” Kurt said shocking everyone even Blaine.
Kurt skipped over to Brad and the band informing them of the song.
As the music stared Kurt walked to the center of the stage took a deep breath and began his song.
“I’m tired of being what you want me to be” Kurt sang looking out into the audience to no one in particular and sighing.
“feeling so faithless lost under the surface. Don’t know what you’re expecting of me.” Kurt said with a sad shrug.
“Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes, Every step that I take is another mistake to you.”
Kurt wrapped his arms around his body and began to sing pouring his emotions into the song. His voice becoming a little raspier to go along with the actual metal song.
“I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there Become so tired so much more aware. I’m becoming this all I want to do-” Kurt sang stepping forward a tear rolling down his face “-is be more like me and be less like you. Can’t you see that you’re smothering me Holding to tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart right in front of you.”
Kurt took another step forward singing “Every step that I take is another mistake to you And every second I waste is more than I can take. I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there Become so tired so much more aware. I’m becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you.
And I know I may end up failing too But I know you were just like me with someone disappointed in you. I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there Become so tired so much more aware. I’m becoming this all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you.”
Kurt lost in his passion for his song began moving around the stage he pointed dramatically to himself and continued to sing.
“I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there I’m tired of being what you want me to be. I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there I’m tired of being what you want me to be.” Kurt slid to his knees and held his arms in the air above his head as he held the last note and then threw his head back.
He stood up and silently headed back to his seat.
The glee club stood up cheering and talking all at once, apologizing to Kurt, telling him they were fine with him being who he is.
“Hummel has a dark side.” Puck growled. “What was that on your arms Kurt?” Puck asked confused.
Comments
Awesome chapter and nice song choices. I've never heard numb before but the lyrics are perfect.
Thanks doll! Yeah when I went through my first battle with depression I just felt so numb and that song always had a way of explaining how I felt. Thanks for reading!