Blaine and Kurt were having breakfast in the canteen, both boys had slept in. They were eating in silence, a nice one no tension or awkwardness just silence. Sadly the silence was interrupted by their friends, David and Wes sat down across the boys.

“Good morning sun shines.” Wes smiled at the boys, Blaine smiled; he said “Good morning, Thad told me something interesting last night. A girl is transferring to Dalton next week, and guess what? She’s Housing here in Saturn.” The boys got engaged in a conversation about the mysterious girl “I hope she’s not a bitch.” David sighed, Kurt snorted “I hope she doesn’t have a terrible fashion sense, I don’t want another Rachel Berry horror.”

The three boys looked at Kurt with mild interest, normally they would be more excited to hear this kind of stories, but all of them were still in their waking up hour. “Rachel is the lead singer of the New Directions and her fashion sense is horrifying, no worse...” Kurt explained.

Blaine noticed that Kurt enjoyed talking about his friends, he really wanted to properly meet them, perhaps he could convince Kurt to let a few friends come over to Dalton.

“Hey Kurt,” Matthew tapped Kurt on his shoulder, he smiled a charming. Kurt blushed “Hey Matthew.” He said in a breathless voice, Blaine wanted to run away. He wanted to curl up in a ball and cry himself to dead. “I wondered if I can talk with you for a moment, in private.” Matthew gestured to Blaine, Wes and David. Blaine was trying to stay calm, he wanted to grab Kurt and drag him away from Matthew. “I will be right back.” Kurt said, his eyes lingered a little longer on Blaine, who didn’t notice that.

Blaine stared at his plate, a part of him wanted to know what they were talking about and the other part of him didn’t want to know it at all. “Blaine...what’s up with Matthew and Kurt?” Wes asked, Blaine looked up and he saw that their eyes were filled with concern “I don’t know, they are ...interested ...in each other...” Blaine stammered out. “What the hell dude? You two are smitten, why would Kurt like him if he has you?” Blaine ignored David and started staring at his breakfast.

After a few minutes of silence Kurt returned and he beamed. Blaine knew that his heart was about to get a stab, Kurt was flustered and he was bouncing. “He asked me out on a date! Tonight after Warbler practice. Oh my god I can’t believe it.” Kurt said before anyone could have asked him. Blaine felt sick, he was really glad to be a good actor and hiding his feelings, he smiled at Kurt “That’s great.” Blaine said.

“I really hadn’t expected it. He seems so nice, I’m really looking forward to tonight. I need to figure out what to wear. Blaine do you want to help me?” Kurt smiled hopefully at Blaine. The curly-haired boy knew that this meant a few hours of suffering, but if Kurt needed him he would ignore his feelings. “Of course I will help you.”

Wes and David sent Blaine looks of pity and concern, Blaine shook his head and he left with Kurt. The pale boy kept talking excitedly about the might be outfits for tonight, Blaine didn’t want to ruin his happiness, but Kurt had forgotten one thing. His audition for the Warblers was today “Kurt, what song are you singing for your audition?” Kurt shrugged “You will see.” Blaine wondered what the boy would be singing.

They entered their room and Kurt ran into their wardrobe and started digging through his stuff. Kurt’s phone rang “Can you take it, it’s on my desk” Kurt yelled, Blaine did what Kurt said him to do. Blaine answered the phone “Uh Hi, Blaine here. Kurt’s in the closet digging through his clothes.” Blaine said awkwardly, he had no idea how he was talking to, he hadn’t checked the ID of the caller. “Oh, I am Santana, we need to talk to Kurt. We are here at the gate of Dalton, but we don’t know where to go.” Santana said, the girl sounded kind of nervous “Wait a second.” Blaine said to Santana, “Kurt your friend is here, Santana I think. She’s at the gate, do I have to get her? Or do you want to?”

“Can you pick them up?” Kurt asked Blaine “Sure.” Blaine said and turned to the phone again “Santana I will come and fetch you there. I will be there in a few.” Blaine hung up and rushed out of the room. He was glad he could leave the room for a second, the thought that Kurt was preparing for a date with someone Blaine loathed, no that didn’t do.

Two girls were standing at the gate, one fair-haired, but this wasn’t Quinn. Blaine had seen her in the choir room, the other girl was the Latino girl named Santana. “Hey, I’m Blaine if you remember me.” The fair-haired girl looked at him, suddenly she hugged him, Blaine was startled “Uh....what was that for?” He asked as the girl let go of him “You looked sad, so I figured that you needed a hug. I’m Brittany.” The girl smiled at him.

Blaine was surprised the girl could see right through his mask, Kurt had told about her. “Kurt never told me you were hot. Wanky.” Santana winked at Blaine, the boy felt uneasy now. “Are you a dolphin too? Like Kurt?” Brittany asked, Blaine stared at her in confusion “That means are you gay too.” Santana translated “Uhm yeah, I’m gay.” Blaine started walking and the girls followed him.

Some of Blaine’s fellow students gave him strange looks, Blaine could understand that, it didn’t happen every day that a gay guy walked with two stunning girls on campus. “So why couldn’t Kurt pick us up?” Santana asked “Kurt is getting ready for his date.” Blaine spoke the words with too much bitterness, Santana looked up “That’s fast. You know I play for your team, and I know how it feels to be rejected by the one you like.” Blaine started to like Santana, she might be a little odd, but she was nice.

“I’ve to be his friend, why are you two here, if I may ask?” Santana nervously looked around, she grabbed Brittany’s hand and whispered “I haven’t really come out yet, and I’m scared. I wondered if Kurt could help me, you know talk about it.” Blaine nodded, he completely understood Santana, all the gay kids had been there, in the closet, scared.

They reached the door of Blaine and Kurt’s room and entered it. “Hey Kurt,” Santana smirked at him, Blaine sat down on his bed, Kurt appeared from the closet and hugged both girls. “I need your help Kurt, we need your help.” They all sat down on Blaine’s bed “What’s the matter?” Kurt asked there was concern in his voice “I broke up with Artie..and Santana and I are together.” Brittany said matter-of-factly “Oh, that’s great. Are you two out of the closet?” Kurt asked, Blaine noticed that he was surprised.

“No, Kurt I’m scared.” Santana whispered, her voice full of emotion, Blaine remembered how it felt when he was in the closet, he had been so scared. “Santana, I understand you are scared, we were too.” Kurt said and gestured to Blaine who nodded immediately “Kurt what do we have to do?” Kurt thought about it “I think you should start with telling your parents. See how they will react, and then if you are ready you tell the glee club. That’s what you should start with.” Blaine nodded in approval “Yes, Kurt is right.”

After a little talking Brittany decided that Kurt should continue looking for his outfit for the date of tonight, Brittany was assisting him. Blaine and Santana sat in silence until she asked “How was it for you? Coming out I mean.” Santana asked, Blaine had been expecting this question from her, he decided to answer it honestly.

“Not pretty, my parents don’t accept me, that’s why they sent me here. I got bullied, and the same things as Kurt, but no slushie facials. They would beat me up sometimes, but I’d rather not talk about it.” Blaine smiled, Santana nodded and sighed “Why is this so hard for us?” Santana asked.

“I don’t know, the world is cruel.” Blaine answered, honestly he wondered every day about it, why they had to suffer, because they loved someone of the same gender, it was unfair. “What are you going to do about his date? You like him obviously.” The curly haired boy shrugged “Why should I do something, he’s happy right now. Why would I want to ruin his happiness. I’m in love with him.”

Santana wrapped one arm around Blaine’s shoulder, a tear rolled down on his cheek “Blaine...” She couldn’t finish her sentence, because Kurt and Brittany appeared beaming at them. “Did you find the right outfit?” Santana asked distracting Kurt, so Blaine could breathe. “Yeah, it’s great! What time is it?” The pale boy asked, Blaine checked his phone “It’s 4 o’clock now, don’t you want to practice your audition?” Blaine said, his voice wavered a little bit, but Kurt didn’t notice it.

“No, I know the song by heart. It’s one of my favourites. Santana and Brittany I’m leaving right after rehearsal, so you have to leave when we go to rehearsal. I’m sorry you can’t stay longer, you should come another time.” Kurt said, the girls nodded. Brittany walked over to sit next to Santana and gave her a kiss on the lips, there was no tongue involved just a chaste kiss. Kurt said “Awww you two are cute together.” Blaine’s eyes met Kurt’s and both blushed and looked away.

Blaine was fond of Santana, and she hoped that she would go through this easier than he had done, Santana didn’t deserve it. Nobody did. “Hey Santana, can I have your number so we can text and hang out or something.” Blaine asked, Santana nodded and grabbed her phone. They exchanged numbers and Santana and Brittany left.

Blaine started to make his homework, he had an big history essay he needed to finish, it was due tomorrow.

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Kurt and Blaine entered the choir room, they were the last ones. Blaine sat down on his usual spot near the window and Kurt sat down next to Matthew, Blaine felt a stab in his chest. He looked away. Wes spoke “The Warbler meeting is officially started, today we have a audition, Kurt whenever you are ready.” Wes banged his gavel and gestured to Kurt to stand up and begin.

Kurt started singing.

What will this day be like? I wonder.
What will my future be? I wonder.
It could be so exciting to be out in the world, to be free
My heart should be wildly rejoicing
Oh, what's the matter with me?

Blaine recognized the song, he hadn’t expected Kurt to sing a musical song originally sung by a woman. Blaine was impressed by Kurt’s voice.

I've always longed for adventure
To do the things I've never dared
And here I'm facing adventure
Then why am I so scared

A captain with seven children
What's so fearsome about that?

Kurt started pacing around the room, every single Warbler was staring at him with awe.

Oh, I must stop these doubts, all these worries
If I don't I just know I'll turn back
I must dream of the things I am seeking
I am seeking the courage I lack

The courage to serve them with reliance
Face my mistakes without defiance
Show them I'm worthy
And while I show them
I'll show me

When Kurt sang ‘courage’ he looked directly at Blaine, it had become their word.

So, let them bring on all their problems
I'll do better than my best
I have confidence they'll put me to the test
But I'll make them see I have confidence in me

Somehow I will impress them
I will be firm but kind
And all those children (Heaven bless them!)
They will look up to me

And mind me with each step I am more certain
Everything will turn out fine
I have confidence the world can all be mine
They'll have to agree I have confidence in me

I have confidence in sunshine
I have confidence in rain
I have confidence that spring will come again
Besides which you see I have confidence in me

Strength doesn't lie in numbers
Strength doesn't lie in wealth
Strength lies in nights of peaceful slumbers
When you wake up -- Wake Up!

It tells me all I trust I lead my heart to
All I trust becomes my own
I have confidence in confidence alone

I have confidence in confidence alone
Besides which you see I have confidence in me!

Kurt ended the song, the choir room was silent for a second and then the room burst out in applause. When Wes had banged his gavel several times the room turned silent. “Kurt, I think it’s decided, Welcome to the Warblers.” Wes smiled at him and some of the Warblers leapt up their feet and congratulated Kurt.

Matthew hugged Kurt a little too long, Blaine hadn’t moved, he knew this was how it was going to be. The Warbler meeting was called to an end, because the Warblers were too excited and couldn’t calm down anymore. Blaine walked back to his room, Kurt seemed too busy with the other Warblers.

The door opened and Kurt rushed in Blaine looked up from his homework “I need to change.” Kurt mumbled and ran into the bathroom, Blaine chuckled. Kurt was the most adorable thing he had ever seen.

There was a knock on the door ten minutes later. Kurt wasn’t finished yet, so Blaine opened the door. Matthew stood in the doorframe smiling smugly at Blaine “Kurt’s not ready yet.” The curly-haired boy laid down on his bed again and continued writing about Anne Frank. Blaine completely ignored Matthew, he had no intention talking to him.

The door opened and Kurt entered the room “Oh hi...I didn’t you know you were there already.” Blaine looked at Kurt, the boy looked stunning, he was wearing black skinny jeans, a navy shirt with a black jacket. Blaine couldn’t take his eyes of Kurt, neither could Matthew. “Wow Kurt you look...gorgeous.” Matthew said, Kurt was staring at Matthew. Blaine looked away, Kurt was checking Matthew out.

“You look pretty handsome yourself.” Kurt smiled “Bye Blaine.” Blaine waved at Kurt and as the door closed he buried is face in his pillow.

The door opened, Blaine expected that Kurt had forgotten something, it wasn’t Kurt. It were David and Wes. “Come on Blaine let’s go.” David said “Go where?” Blaine asked him.

“Duh we are going to spy on Kurt.” Wes said.

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Blaine wondered why he had agreed doing this, oh wait he hadn’t agreed, Wes and David forced him to join them. They were sitting in a little restaurant, Matthew and Kurt in the corner and they were sitting way too close for Blaine’s liking. “Do you hear what they are saying?” Wes whispered, the two other boys shook their head.

“Oh my...they are holding hands.” David whispered, Blaine was slightly more pale than before. Kurt and Matthew started eating, whilst they were talking and laughing, Blaine hated seeing this, but he knew he couldn’t leave until Kurt left otherwise he would be seen and that was the last thing Blaine wanted to happen.

When Kurt and Matthew were finishing up their dessert, Matthew stared at Kurt. There was little ice cream on Kurt’s cheek and he removed it from Kurt’s face, Blaine hated seeing this. The date had been nice, for Kurt, it had been torture for Blaine. When Kurt and Matthew were paying the bill Wes, David and Blaine fled the restaurant and immediately went back to Dalton. They had to be back before Kurt came back.

Blaine felt terrible, he barely spoke during the ride back to Dalton, Wes and David kept shooting him looks. Blaine decided that he would go to Wes and David�s room first, before returning to his room. “Blaine are you ok?” Wes asked as they entered the room, Blaine laid down on the floor he stared at the ceiling “No of course not.” Blaine snapped at Wes he immediately regretted he had snapped “Oh Wes I’m sorry, I just feel like shit.” David nodded in understanding “We get it, it doesn’t matter. Blaine he’s going to realize that Matthew is a douchebag and he will be back in your arms.”

The boys were silent “Blaine you should go back to your room, Kurt’s probably coming back soon.” Wes said, Blaine nodded; he sighed deeply and left the room.

The halls were dark Blaine could see two people stopping before Kurt’s door, he heard voices. Kurt and Matthew’s voices “I really had a great time tonight.” He heard Matthew say, he drew Kurt closer “Me too.” Kurt answered. They were on kissing distance now, Kurt leaned forward to close the distance between them.

Blaine couldn’t move, he couldn’t feel, he couldn’t think, tears were in Blaine’s eyes, he kept looking, he couldn’t stop watching them. Kurt and Matthew were still kissing, Blaine was certain of it that there was some tongue involved. They broke apart “We should do this another time. How about tomorrow after school, we could go to the park or get some coffee.” Matthew said “I’d love to, I will pick you up after class.” Kurt pecked Matthew on the cheek and entered his room.

Matthew left too, Blaine couldn’t move, his heart was ripped in one thousand pieces, he kept seeing Kurt and Matthew kissing, he couldn’t get the image out of his head. Blaine had never felt worse in his life, it was like every piece was ripped apart and burned.

After a while Blaine realized he should go to his room and ask how the date was, he entered the room and he was attacked by Kurt, the boy had hugged him “Blaine! We kissed, the date was lovely, but I kissed him, and we are going to have another date tomorrow. He’s so sweet, nice, funny and I really like him. I can’t believe I kissed him, and he kissed me back.” Kurt was bouncing around the room, Blaine faked a smile “That’s great! I’m so happy for you. I’m glad you had a great time.” He managed to say, tears stung in his eyes, he avoided looking at Kurt. The boy kept on ranting about their date, Blaine tried to act as happy and supportive as he could, but it proved to be rather hard.

An hour later Kurt was asleep and Blaine laid in his bed, he was wide awake. He allowed the tears to start flowing, those he had forcing away all day. Blaine cried until the early hours, he wondered how it was possible that Kurt could affect so much. Blaine loved Kurt, he knew that it wouldn’t go away, but he had to face the fact now.

Blaine Anderson had a broken heart.