New Year's Eve.

To say it was awkward between the two of them was an understatement. They'd both felt something in that one small kiss, that was new and exciting to both of them, something they both wanted more of.

They couldn't though. Blaine was feeling incredibly self-conscious around Kurt and Kurt had a boyfriend. A boyfriend he was feeling really guilty about.

They'd barely spoken to each other since Christmas, which seeing as they lived together was quite an achievement. Kurt had skirted round Blaine and Blaine had stayed in his room. Kurt had heard the occasional strumming of guitar and melodic singing, it made him smile, knowing Blaine was still singing for some reason. Singing always had been Blaine's release.

Kurt knew it was his fault; he'd been the one to kiss Blaine, he'd been the one to make Blaine feel very awkward and unless they got it sorted soon, he might be the one to fuck up their friendship. Kurt had never felt even the slightest bit of what he had felt with that one small peck with anyone else though, was this just because he'd finally kissed the boy he had always wanted to… or was it something much deeper than just sparks? Love? Quite possibly. But, that being said, Blaine hadn't spoken to him…Kurt had completely alienated Blaine by kissing him…which Kurt took as Blaine didn't like him back.

He couldn't be more wrong.

In Blaine's eyes, all it had done was confirm yes. He was completely in love with his best friend and there was nothing he could to woo said best friend. He stayed out of Kurt's way mainly because he was pretty sure if he spoke to him for more than a few seconds, his mouth wouldn't stay away from Kurt's.

Blaine was currently sat on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He needed to talk to someone. Someone who knew both him and Kurt, who would give him advice but would keep him sane.

Rachel? No, he loved the girl but she was far from the definition of sane.

Finn? No, he's Kurt's brother. That's weird, Blaine screwed his face up at the thought.

Puck? Again, no, he's not very good at advice giving.

Sam?

Blaine smiled a little at the thought of his high school friend. They weren't as close as they used to be in high school but he knew if he called Sam would pick up at the drop of a hat. Blaine and Sam had bonded in their senior year after Kurt left McKinley. They found they had more in common than previously expected and they were fast friends.

Blaine picked up his phone, scrolling down the contacts list until he found Sam Evans.

He picked up after two dials.

"BLAINE!" an excited voice rang down the phone.

"Hey dude!" Blaine replied, settling himself against his pillows.

"I miss you! Why'd you have to go live on the other side of the country?" Sam asked, Blaine could hear the pout in his voice.

"Because LA is not for the likes of struggling musicians like myself, New York is where it's at baby" Blaine said, grinning.

"Whatever man. Good holiday? All I got from you was a text on Christmas Day and a card!"

"Hey, you told me not to give you a present this year! It's not my fault you decided to send me another bowtie. Thank you by the way. It's pretty. Anyway, yes, my Christmas was great ..." Blaine remembered why he had called in the first place, "Until the end"

"What happened?" Sam asked seriously, the boy may be a bit dumb but he knew when his friends were upset.

"Kurt kissed me" Blaine said quietly.

"WHAT? SERIOUSLY? IT TOOK YOU GUYS LONG ENOUGH" Sam shouted happily. Then he realised. "Wait. You sound sad"

"I haven't said more than three words to him in the past few days"

"But? Blaine, correct me if I'm wrong, but you like him. Like, a lot. You have ever since high school. Senior year, all you did was whine about the fact Kurt wasn't there"

"He has a boyfriend Sam" Blaine said, sadly.

"Oh" Sam paused. "Look, you keep denying this but he likes you too. And if he kissed you, then that must mean something okay? I love you both but you are both really stupid if you think your friendship was only ever going to be just a friendship? You and Kurt are like Ross and Rachel. You'll get together in the end. Want me to talk to Kurt?"

"No, no. Don't do that, it will make things worse" Blaine answered quickly.

"Just sort yourselves out dude. I know you, and I know Kurt. You can't stay away from each other for longer than a week. And hey, it's New Year tonight? Maybe take a shot tonight"

"Thanks Sam" Blaine smiled, feeling a sudden pang of nostalgia for his friend.

"Anytime Blaine. I've gotta go, Mercedes is calling. You'll be okay?"

"I'll be fine. Tell Mercedes hi from me. Bye!"

"Love you dude!" Sam said, before hanging up. Blaine grinned at the idiocy of Sam but he knew he was right. Maybe him and Kurt would be together in the end.

That night at Vibe, Puck was holding a huge New Year's Party. Both Blaine and Kurt were going, but as they set off for the bar that night, they were still in a weird situation. They smiled politely at each other when they set off to walk there together and Kurt hated this so much.

Kurt messed with his phone for a while for something to do. Blaine scuffed at an imaginary mark on the sidewalk. "Did you ever call Cooper?" Kurt asked randomly, trying to think of something to say.

"Yeah, he was apparently planning on a surprise visit to New York tomorrow but he can't make it now so he said to say hi to you actually" Blaine wondered aloud, forgetting that the phone call had been two days ago…had he really not talked to Kurt in that long?!

"Oh" Kurt said. They carried on the walk in an uncomfortable fashion.

Finally, once at the club, they could stay away from each other for a while, Kurt was dragged swiftly to the dance floor by Rachel. Finn smiled at Blaine from where he was sat at a table, watching his step-brother and girlfriend dance together. Blaine waved in return, heading straight for the bar.

"Hey man" Puck greeted as Blaine sat down on a bar stool. "You okay?" he asked, taking another look at Blaine's uncomfortable posture.

"Been a weird few days. Get me a beer?" he asked, with a weak smile. Puck slid one down the bar and raised his eyebrow at his friend.

"Seriously, it's the holidays Blaine. Smile!" Puck said, grinning. Blaine shrugged and took a long gulp of his drink. Finally, the sweet relief that only alcohol brought sometimes

He was suddenly being hugged from behind by a small figure and a rather loud "Happy New Year Blaine!" was being shouted in his ear.

"Hey Rach" he answered happily, turning round to hug the girl back. "What did you do with Kurt?" Blaine asked. She pointed over to Finn, who was suddenly looking at Blaine with wide eyes. Kurt noticed him staring and proceeded to hit his brother on the forearm to get his attention back.

"He said he wanted to talk to Finn about something" she gestured, smiling at Puck as he pushed an astonishingly red cocktail towards her.

"What?" Blaine frowned, talking to himself more than to Rachel. He glanced back towards the brothers, Finn was looking extremely pleased and Kurt was looking conflicted.

Oh god, what if Kurt was telling him about their little Christmas predicament? He'd never be able to look Finn in the eye again….but then, Blaine wondered, why would Finn be looking so pleased?

Blaine came back into the conversation when he heard his name. "Sorry, what?" he asked, shaking his head.

"Puck asked if you wanted another drink" Rachel said. "Are you alright? You seem a bit out of it"

"I'm fine" he replied quickly.

"I'll see you in a bit Blaine, Kurt will get annoyed if I keep him from his drink any longer" she held up the two glasses in her hand to show him.

"Have fun!" Blaine said, turning back to Puck, who was still giving him a funny expression.

Rachel went back to the table and placed the Vodka Coke in front of Kurt. "Thanks" he said, distantly.

"What is wrong with you two tonight?" Rachel asked, letting out a small chuckle.

"Two?" Kurt's forehead furrowed in confusion.

"You and Blaine" she said, watching Kurt's reaction carefully. He stiffened.

"I knew it. Something's happened between you two"

Finn, who could literally not hold it in any longer, "Kurt kissed him on Christmas Day" He blurted out.

"Finn!" Kurt yelled at his brother.

"I'm sorry!"

"My plan worked then huh?" she said, winking, giving Finn a high-five.

"Yes, your stupid mistletoe worked. I thought he was going to kiss me, turns out he was going for my cheek and I went and kissed him instead"

"So?" Rachel asked hopefully, a gleeful smile on her face.

"We haven't spoken properly since" Kurt quickly extinguished Rachel's hope.

"But…you like him?"

"Yes. But since, he hasn't spoken to me in a week I guess he doesn't feel the same. Rachel, I have a boyfriend, I can't feel like this towards Blaine"

"But you do" Finn added.

Kurt narrowed his eyes at his brother briefly and then sighed. "The worst thing is, it was the best frickin' kiss of my life and it only lasted a second"

"Go talk to him Kurt. Do you really want to start the New Year without your best friend?"

"No" Kurt pouted, resting his head in his hands.

"Go" she said sternly.

Kurt downed his drink to give him some courage and stood up.

Blaine smiled a little as a hand ran down his back in greeting. Stranger still, he knew exactly who it was. "Hello" Kurt said quietly, sitting down next to him.

"Hey" Blaine replied. "You okay?"

"Fine" Kurt replied. Crap, it was still awkward. So he did the only thing he could think to do.

He stood up and held his hand out. Blaine looked back at him quizzically.

"Come on. I hate this. I hate how awkward everything has been. Can we forget about it and have one stupid dance to finish the year off on a better note?" Kurt smiled hopefully.

Blaine grinned and let Kurt drag him to the floor. They kind of swayed to the beat of the music for a while until a girl knocked into Kurt, pushing him forwards. Grabbing Blaine's shoulders to stop himself falling over, their faces were suddenly a lot nearer than previously.

"I'm sorry" they both said at the same time. Blaine chuckled and softly placed his hands on Kurt's waist.

"I missed you these past few days Blaine" Kurt whispered, their bodies becoming closer by the second.

"I missed you too. I'm sorry I was really childish and didn't talk to you. I just hid in my room like an idiot" Blaine replied, realising Kurt's arms were now resting round his neck and his own hands were clasped in the small of Kurt's back.

"I'm sorry I made you feel like you couldn't talk to me anymore. And obviously, I'm sorry for the surprise kiss" Kurt said, his eyes finally flicking back to Blaine's own honey coloured ones which were staring back with only warmth in them.

"It wasn't half bad actually" Blaine mused, grinning back.

Kurt inhaled and something spurred him on. "Blaine. There's something I need to-"

"KURT!" a voice shouted over the music and both their heads whipped to the right. Daniel was stood on the edge of the dance floor staring at them in annoyance. Blaine's hands sprung away from Kurt's waist and he smiled sadly at Kurt before heading back towards Finn and Rachel, who looked positively heartbroken.

Blaine sat down and couldn't take his eyes away from the hug going on between Kurt and Daniel. Kurt looked happy but his smile didn't meet his eyes.

He felt Rachel slide closer to him so he could hear over the beat of the music. "What happened?"

"I don't know" he replied honestly. He couldn't quite place his finger on what emotion he was feeling but it was a mixture of jealously, pain, sadness and love.

"Blaine, you need to do something. Split them up or anything. Anyone can tell you and Kurt are meant to be together" she said, wrapping an arm round his shoulders.

"I'm not splitting them up Rachel. Do you really think I could do that?"

"No it was a long shot. You are kinda the nicest person I know. I just wondered if evil Blaine would make an appearance"

"No he won't" he said, sighing. "Evil Blaine, as you put it, grew up Rach"

"Are you okay?" she asked, Finn's eyes flickered towards him to see his answer.

"I've been better. I'll be back in a minute, I need to call someone"

"Little Bro! What's up?" Cooper, clearly drunk, answered the phone after a few rings.

"I need to ask you something and even your drunken haze you should be able to answer this" Blaine said, his brother wasn't the first person he went to but he gave you a straight answer.

"Shoot. What's the matter?" Blaine realised it had suddenly gone quieter at his brother's end, like Cooper had moved aside to talk to him. Huh, never mind me, he's growing up, Blaine thought.

"If you are 100% sure you love someone when it's not your place to love them, do you tell them?"

"Why is it not your place to love them?"

"He has a boyfriend. But said person kissed me and confused the hell out of me, but I'm pretty sure I'm in love with him and I always have been, it just took me 8 years to realise it because I'm an idiot"

"Kurt?"

Blaine frowned. Had he really been that obvious all these years?! "Yeah"

"Do it. Just go back in there and tell him. It's nearly midnight. Make your year perfect"

"But his boyfriends here Coop, I can't"

"Do it or you will regret it for the rest of your life"

Blaine exhaled and shut his eyes. "Okay. Happy New Year bro" Blaine rang off.

He could do this. He could do this. It was only four words. Four short little words. Kurt I love you. He could do this.

He made his way back into the club and glanced at the clock. The anticipation of the New Year was slowly counting down.

"10" the crowd yelled.

Blaine surged forwards through the people to find Kurt.

"9"

He caught a glimpse of Kurt's perfectly coiffed hair.

"8"

He pushed a girl out of a way to reach him.

"7"

Rachel spotted Blaine moving toward Kurt and she grabbed Finn's arm to point it out.

"6"

Finn's eyes widened as he saw the small guy rushing towards his brother.

"5"

Kurt realised Daniel was getting closer and closer as the countdown began.

"4"

Blaine noticed Daniel lean towards Kurt.

"3"

"KURT!" Blaine shouted but he was still too far away and the music was too loud.

"2"

Kurt closed his eyes.

"1"

Blaine stopped.

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!" the screams erupted from the crowd of people. Blaine's own face crumpled as Daniel kissed Kurt and it wasn't just a kiss. It was a full on, heated tongues and teeth kiss. Blaine couldn't watch.

He turned on his heels and ran, past a stunned Finn and Rachel, past Puck standing at the bar and pushed open the 'Staff Only' door, not caring less.

He sat on the stairwell and began to sob. Blaine Anderson hadn't properly cried in years but he could no longer keep it in. The tears kept forming and falling, slowly running down his cheeks. It wasn't fair. Why had he waited so long? Why had he not realised his feelings for Kurt sooner? He knew eventually Rachel or Puck or Finn would come find him but he couldn't stop the tears at all.

Blaine had always been a romantic; he'd always believed in unrequited love. He just didn't know it would hurt this bad.

He had to pull himself together. He still wanted to be Kurt's friend but he also wanted to jump on him and love him forever.

There is no advice manual on what to do when you fall in love with your best friend who kisses you and may or may not love you back.