Oct. 4, 2014, 7 p.m.
Left Behind: Chapter 7
M - Words: 2,344 - Last Updated: Oct 04, 2014 Story: Closed - Chapters: 7/? - Created: Sep 08, 2014 - Updated: Sep 08, 2014 203 0 0 0 0
Outside Kurt's room Blaine stops to think of what he is supposed to do now. Kurt asked him to leave. But he isn't sure what he meant by that.
Whenever Sebastian told him to leave he was expected to wait until he was allowed to go in again but Kurt has proved again and again that he is different from his former friend.
He remembers Sebastian using the phrase ‘I'm leaving' on numerous occasions when he was walking out of the house. But he doesn't think that Kurt wants him to leave the house, he is never allowed to go outside on his own.
He can go into the guest room where he was supposed to sleep but he isn't brave enough to risk the monster still being there. Without Kurt to protect him he is useless against the supernatural being.
There are steps coming closer to the door from Kurt's side and the dog hybrid gets hopeful for a second until the steps fade away. He is still not wanted in the room. Kurt doesn't want him. No, half-asleep Kurt doesn't want me, Blaine corrects himself. When the cat hybrid is fully awake he will want Blaine. He just doesn't know when it happens.
Having no real plan Blaine walks away from the door and down the corridor. Maybe he can find Mr. H and he will tell him what to do. He is an adult and probably doesn't get nightmares so he won't treat him as a nightmare monster. And he must be smart, the human will surely know what Blaine can do to make Kurt better.
The man is nowhere to be seen upstairs and he is not downstairs in the kitchen or the room with the TV either. There are a couple of closed doors that probably lead to other rooms he has never been to but Blaine doesn't open them. Kurt or Mr. H would have shown him the rooms if he was allowed to go in.
Gingerly Blaine sits down on the couch and stares at the black screen. Watching TV has never been this boring. His mind wanders off, he thinks of how to make Kurt forget his nightmare. For Blaine a walk always helps but it's not like he can take Kurt for a walk. They could play some games outside but in order to do so, Kurt would have to want to spend time with him. Blaine hopes that he does. He can't imagine Mr. H as his best friend.
As if on cue the front door of the house opens and the human walks in. Blaine barks to get his attention.
“Hi!” he says immediately when he remembers that he can speak, he doesn't need to bark like a dog to greet someone anymore.
“Good morning, Blaine,” the man smiles at him from the doorway. “Sleep well?”
The hybrid thinks about it. He slept peacefully with Kurt holding him close but the morning has been kind of… tough so far. He needs to ask the human to help him and this is a good opportunity. He shakes his head.
“No? Did you have a nightmare?” Mr. H asks eyeing him with sympathy.
Blaine shakes his head and points upwards.
“I don't think I understand, kiddo,” the man says. “Can you show me maybe?”
Show? He can do it. The hybrid closes his eyes as if sleeping, then opens them and starts petting his own tail. He suddenly jumps and points at the door. The human should understand now.
“Sorry, still no clue,” he says slowly. “But I hear you are quite an artist. You could make a quick drawing of what happened. Maybe then I would understand.”
He can draw, Blaine nods. He just needs some paper and a pen or a pencil. But everything is in Kurt's bedroom and he is not allowed to go in. And he has no idea how to ask Kurt for the drawing tools through the closed door.
“Let's go to the kitchen and I'll make some sandwiches for breakfast while you draw,” the man says and Blaine follows him.
As promised the hybrid is given a notebook of some sorts and a pen. Mr. H opens a clear page and Blaine starts doodling. He first draws Kurt and himself sleeping peacefully. The next doodle shows him petting Kurt's tail. And the last one features Kurt angrily pointing at the door and a very upset Blaine.
He waits until the human finishes preparing food and shows him the drawings. “Oh,” is the only response he gets at first. Blaine looks at his drawings again and wonders if the man will be able to see that Kurt thinks he is his nightmare monster from them. He probably won't. Stupid Blaine, can't even draw properly. From the picture anyone could guess that Blaine squeezed Kurt's tail too hard and hurt him.
“Blaine, do you know why Kurt got upset over what happened?” Mr. H asks. He isn't sure anymore. Maybe he really hurt Kurt's tail. He shrugs. “Okay, has anyone ever explained to you what sex is? Or told you that the function of penis is not only for, you know, peeing?”
Blaine stares at him blankly.
“Alright… I didn't think I would have to give the talk twice but I think you should be educated about it,” the man says. “Stay here, I'll bring the pamphlets I used the last time.”
He leaves Blaine sitting alone in the kitchen. The sandwiches smell very nice and the hybrid's mouth starts watering. His stomach rumbles but he doesn't dare to take a bite. Kurt is already upset with him, he doesn't want Mr. H to get angry at him as well.
The man comes back and sits in front of him. He puts something on the table and clears his throat. “I will try to make it simple. Ah, where do I start…So sex. It's something two people who love each other do to get closer. When they both feel ready of course. I don't think you need to know the mechanics of it right now but it seems that you need to understand the basics.”
The man pushes one of the papers he has on the table towards him.
“This is a picture of what the bottom part of a cat hybrid's body looks like most of the time,” he says pointing at the figure on the left. “Now, see the difference in the picture on the right?”
Blaine can spot the difference. The penis is standing up in this one. It's not good, he knows it. It happened to him once and he was taken to the doctor to treat it. He never had it happen to him again.
“It shows what a hybrid's penis does when he is aroused,” the man continues. “The same happens to other physically male hybrids and humans. Usually it happens when certain sensitive parts of the body are stimulated. They are called erogenous zones,” he flips the paper to reveal another picture. This time of the front and back of a hybrid. “The most common erogenous zones shared by most males are penis, testicles, navel, nipples, neck,” he says pointing at each area, “buttocks, and anus. When it comes to cat hybrids, it's also their tail. So by stroking it you can arouse them and consequently they would get an erection. That's what probably happened to Kurt when you touched his tail.”
Oh no, petting Kurt's tail can get him sick! He did it to Kurt. He made him sick and now he will need to go to the doctor and get the metal thingy inside his ass cheek. And while the doctor they went to earlier was nice, it doesn't change the fact that he caused his best friend pain. He remembers how uncomfortable he felt when it happened to him. He got all hot and achy in his crotch area. He tried rubbing the itchy feeling away but nothing helped. Not until he got medicine.
“Since intimacy is something that should only happen between two consenting people, it's normal that Kurt freaked out when you touched his body in such way without him being mentally present to tell you if it's okay or not. It's very important that you understand that if you are touching someone they have to tell you at first if it's okay. Otherwise you can't touch them. Especially not the erogenous zones.”
Blaine doesn't pay attention anymore even though the man keeps talking. He is too distressed about making Kurt ill. He chastises himself for ever thinking that it was okay to pet his tail. Of course, Kurt was purring and that means that a cat is happy but Kurt is not a cat, he is a hybrid. Maybe hybrids purr when they are in pain. That would explain his expression and moans. It all makes sense now.
“Hey, Blaine, look at me,” Mr. H asks gently. “There is no need to get upset over this. You didn't know you were doing something wrong. Now you know and I'm sure you won't do it again, right? Will you touch Kurt's tail again without permission?” Blaine shakes his head violently. “That's what I thought. I'm sure Kurt understands it was an accident. We can go talk to him.”
They walk upstairs and Mr. H knocks on Kurt's bedroom door. “Hey, Kurt, Blaine and I would like to talk to you about something,” he says.
“Give me a second,” Blaine hears Kurt say breathlessly, “I'm changing.”
It takes a few moments and the door opens to reveal Kurt. His hear is a damp mess and he smells of raspberries.
“Just took a shower,” he explains and walks further into the room, letting the others get in.
Blaine notices that he doesn't even glance at him. “Hi,” he says shyly. Kurt must be so angry at him for making him sick.
“Hi, Blaine,” Kurt responds, his cheeks turning pink when he finally looks up at him.
“Sit down, boys,” the human says and both Kurt and Blaine sit down on the bed facing him. “Blaine here told me about the incident you two had this morning.”
“Oh my god,” Kurt covers his head with his hands.
“He wants to apologise to you for what he did and he promises to never do it again. He is also very upset because he thinks you are angry at him.”
“I'm not angry,” Kurt says quickly. “I was just shocked. I was having a… I was dreaming… I was… and I just… I woke up and he touched my tail… and then I just…”
“Breathe, son,” Mr. H interrupts him. “I know what happened and why you reacted the way you did. You had every right to freak out. What Blaine did was wrong and I don't expect you to react calmly when someone touches you without consent. I tried to explain it to Blaine and I think he understands now that it was wrong to touch you and hence, the apology. And if you accept his apology and you are not angry at him you need to tell him that because I think it's eating him alive.”
Kurt nods. “I'll talk to him,” he assures the man.
Blaine hopes that Mr. H can express just how sorry he is. He needs the man to tell him that Blaine will hold his hand when Kurt goes to the doctor. He needs him to tell Kurt that he will take care of him until he gets better and afterwards for as long as he is allowed. He wants him to tell Kurt that he will brave sleeping in the guest room if Kurt is uncomfortable with having Blaine around anymore. He needs Kurt to know all this.
“Great, so I'll leave you two alone so you can talk,” the man says and leaves.
No, it's not enough. He hasn't said enough for Kurt to forgive him. Blaine whines watching him leave.
“Shh, it's okay,” he feels Kurt's hand on his own and looks down at it in awe. “I'm not angry, we are still friends, okay?”
Kurt is smiling. He can't believe Kurt is smiling at him.
“I know that dad explained to you what happened to me when you touched my tail. It's something we, cat hybrids, are very sensitive about. So when it happened I wasn't thinking clearly. That's why I was… mean to you. And I'm sorry,” Kurt says slowly. “I'm sorry I didn't handle the situation in a better way.”
Kurt shouldn't be apologising. It's Blaine who did wrong, not Kurt. He needs to apologise. He needs to say ‘sorry'.
“Sss…” damn it, he sounds like a snake. “Ooo…”
Kurt looks expectantly at him. He can't screw up.
“Ssooo…” he manages but the rest doesn't come out. He doesn't know how to make that weird sound. He screwed up earlier and now he screwed up apologising. Way to go, Blaine.
“I know you are sorry,” Kurt smiles widely when Blaine doesn't show any signs of trying to speak again. “Thank you for saying it, I appreciate that. If it makes you feel better we can work on this word after breakfast together with other words I want to teach you today.”
Kurt is still willing to teach him how to speak. Blaine can't comprehend how someone can be so kind. He caused Kurt pain and he still wants to be friends and help him. Kurt is the nicest hybrid in the whole world. No, the nicest living being. There is nobody nicer than him. Blaine is sure of that.
A tear escapes Blaine's eyes. He is so lucky to have Kurt as a friend.
“Wha- don't cry, it's okay, nothing to be sad about,” the hybrid shushes him.
When strong arms encircle his body and Kurt starts playing with his ears, Blaine knows he is forgiven.